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I wonder what mouse would think of an injured Kon being taken back to the bat cave after being beaten by kryptonite, like a pt 2 of meet the family lol, would they put everyone in a pocket dimension or would they take Kon into a pocket dimension?
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Yeah, we can explore the follow-up to this scenario for sure. đ
Littlest Wayne: Meet the Family, pt. 2
Part 1 is Here!
Masterlist is Here!
Your brother is acting weird. When you try to go down to the Cave to greet the boys after patrol, Jason hooks his arm under your legs and tucks you into his side, like when you were a child pretending to be a football, and takes you back upstairs. You squirm and wriggle to no avail, throwing your arms up incredulously.
"Jay!? Hello!?" You cry.
"Hey," he says, nonchalant as ever. He waltzes into the living room and deposits you on the plush, cream couch, sinking down on the other end and draping his legs across your lap like a seatbelt. "Dick's detoxing from Fear Gas. Can't go down there or he might mistake you for a goon and swing."
You frown. "Scarecrow was out? There wasn't the usual alert."
"He wasn't a threat long enough to warrant one," Jason shrugs. "Stumbled upon one of his labs while we were chasin' a different lead and took him out. Managed to dose Dick but Tim, Dami and I are fine."
"Oh. Okay. Does he need anything?"
Jason gives you a fond smile. "Nothing our civvie-sib needs to worry about. Let your big, mighty heroes fix it."
"I don't think shooting people makes you a hero, Jay."
"Alright, then let your favorite vigilantes fix it."
"Hmm, dunno. I think Green Arrow is my favorite vigilante."
"Take that back right now."
You lift an eyebrow. "I will not."
Jason gasps and lightly kicks you with his boot. You flick him in the ankle. He reaches over and flicks your ear. You stick your finger in your mouth and then jam it in his ear. He yelps and climbs off the couch to get away from you.
"Dammit, Mousey, that's gross!"
"So is sticking your dirty boots in my lap fresh off a patrol! These pants are expensive and your feet smell like the Gotham sewer system." You stand up and pointedly brush dirt off your thighs.
"Okay, alright! Point taken. Truce?"
You sigh and bump your fist against his, smiling despite your irritation. "I'm going to shower and sleep, then. D'you need anything?"
Jason shakes his head. He ruffles your hair as you walk past him and you use your shadows to trip him as he walks towards the kitchen. He hits the ground with a cry and swears after you, and you grin as you run up the stairs.
Once safe in the confines of your bedroom, you turn on the shower in the ensuite and lock the door, then slip into the darkness and sink down to the cave to investigate the real reason he didn't want you down there. Because Jason lied when he told you about Scarecrow.
You don't think he knows about this particular tell, but he always shrugs his right shoulder when he's lying and the left when he's being honest. Any normal person wouldn't have picked up on that, but as you descend into the Batcave, you recognize that you didn't grow up in a normal family. Getting anybody to admit to anything in this house, even the inconsequential shit like a slight cough, is like pulling teeth, so you've had to learn to read their body language over the years to glean the info you want.
As the darkness guides you along, helping you identify objects (the computer, the batmobile, the display cases for old suits) and people, (Dick, Tim, and Damian, all of whom are noticeably free from the influence of Fear Toxin), you also glean the thing they didn't want you to find.
Rather, the person.
"Were you planning on getting this done sometime in the next week?" Damian complains. Dick hip-checks him since his hands are too busy tweezing shards of Kryptonite out of Conner's prone body, bent over him as they crowd around the medical bed.
"Listen, shut up, listen," Dick stammers, like he usually does when something is his fault. You make a note of that while your shadow blends in with the walls. "I'm almost done. Then we can go put him in Superman's little UV sun room, let him heal up there, and put him back in Metropolis. It's fine! He'll be out of here before B ever knew he was in Gotham."
"Um." Tim, who's sitting on the counter across the room, holds up his phone. "B accessed the footage. He told me he's on his way back."
Damian, your unflappable youngest brother with a glare sharp enough to cut diamond, suddenly looks nervous.
"This may have been poor planning on our end."
"No!" Dick cries, hands shaking as he pulls more Kryptonite out of Conner's skin. "The plan was to knock some sense into the kid that thought he could sneak into our baby sibling's bedroom in the middle of the night, okay? And we did that! Plan succeeded! We got a little overzealous! It's fine, everything is fine!"
Damian and Tim look at Dick, then at the escrima sticks lying on the medical tray with the extracted Kryptonite, then at each other. You watch their expressions shift and the two of them nod at the same time.
"Everything's fine," Tim echoes calmly, then hops down and dashes for the door.
"You've got this," Damian agrees, quickly following suit.
Dick wilts like a flower as he watches them leave. "Abandoners! Traitors!! Assholes!!!"
You're inclined to agree. Clearly all of them had something to do with this, they just didn't want to get yelled at by Bruce. Conner groans weakly on the table and recaptures your attention, shifting onto his side. Dick presses a hand to his shoulder to keep him still, looking truly repentant.
"Shh," he says, "two more shards, okay? Let me pull those out and then we'll get you fixed up, kid."
"Hurts..." Conner grunts, returning to consciousness with a hiss of air through his teeth. "Pain sucks..."
"You've never gotten hurt before?" Dick asks. He looks like the guilt is going to pull him to the ground, all hunched over the cot with his tweezers like Quasimodo. He plucks out the last shards and deposits them on the medical cart beside him, then pushes it far enough away from Conner that it shouldn't bother him anymore.
"No," Conner mutters. He cracks an eye open and glares at Dick over his shoulder. "So thanks for that, Nightwing... Or would you prefer Dick Grayson?"
Dick chews the inside of his cheek, expressionless despite the panic you know he's feeling. He's bearing most of his weight on the balls of his feet, body instinctively poised to run from problematic situations like the train wreck of a conversation before him.
"Um. Who's that?"
You almost snort from your hiding spot. Conner levels him with a flat look and pushes himself into an upright position with a grunt. His arms tremble from the strain and Dick quickly steadies him with an arm around his waist. His thumb brushes against one of the tears in Conner's suit, a visual reminder of the damage he caused even though the wounds have closed.
"Even without being told ahead of time, it's not hard to put together: The person I rescued from the conservatory fire," Conner says, staring right at Dick, "was a Wayne. It's their room I entered later that night to see if they were okay and introduce myself. So, unless there's another Wayne out there with four older brothers who came to Metropolis, beat me, and dragged me back to Gotham in the world's worst version of the Shovel Talk, you're Dick Grayson. By that logic, Robin, Red Robin, and Red Hood are Damian, Tim, and Jason."
He brushes Dick's arm away and gets to his feet, leaning on the cot to support himself. The splatters of blood left behind highlight the tenseness of the conversation. He gestures to it with a sneer.
"And you wouldn't have swung so hard if it wasn't personal. My suit is ruined."
Dick swears under his breath, running his fingers through his hair.
"I â yes, okay, you got us. You gotta keep that a secret, though. Understand? A lot of shit would go sideways if the wrong people found out our identities."
Conner turns and shuffles towards the door of the medical bay. Dick blocks the exit and looks at him, panicking under the domino mask.
"I'm serious," he says. "You can't tell anyone. Does Lex know already? Did you reveal that information to someone else?"
"Great questions. Should've thought about that," Conner says, nudging Dick effortlessly out of the way now that the kryptonite is out of his system, "before you came to my city, insulted my character, attacked, and kidnapped me."
"Yes, we should've!"
Your shadow blends seamlessly into Dick's as he gets up and hurries after Conner. He doesn't appear to be strong enough to fly away yet, but the pale blue of his iris is quickly turning red. His strength is returning while his patience wanes, mentally checked out of this pseudo-interrogation.
"Look, Superkid â"
"Superman!"
Dick flashes his palms in surrender as those eyes snap to him. "Sure. Superman. Don't think that's gonna last in the long-term, though; we've already got one of those. People are gonna get confused."
"Not when he steps down and acknowledges me as his superior."
"I â okay, whoa, let's put a pin in that because we absolutely have to discuss that later â listen, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry we jumped you like that and didn't give you the chance to talk it out. But you gotta understand how dangerous that was for our sibling."
"You think I was going to hurt them?" Conner asks, gritting his teeth. His fists clench at his sides and Dick takes a large step back. His stance widens and he ducks his head a little, de-escalating the situation as quickly as possible while still poised to defend himself if necessary.
"We don't know what you were going to do. That's the point. No one knows who you are or what you want." Dick gestures between himself and Conner emphatically, shaking his head as your name is mentioned. "They're not a vigilante like us. They're just a civilian. And while they're far from helpless, they are my baby sibling. Some stranger nobody has information about took an interest in them specifically, found their home, and snuck into their bedroom through the window in the middle of the night. The only reason we even know that is because they told us about it the next morning."
Dick peels the domino mask off his face and gives Conner an exhausted frown, pleading with him to see reason.
"That was terrifying to hear about. In a house full of detectives, nobody knew you were there. You could have hurt them. You could have taken them. You could have done any number of terrible things to my family, and we would've been none the wiser. Do you realize how inherently threatening that is, kid? Regardless of your intentions, all we knew was what you did, hours after the fact."
Conner turns his head away and crosses his arms. The red fades from his eyes along with the majority of his ire.
"I get it," he says. "Sorry for scaring you, but you can rest assured I mean them no harm."
"Great. I believe you," Dick says. "But you can't do that again. Sneaking into the Manor unannounced like that is the fastest way to get B to beat your ass."
"Tch. Like father, like son."
Dick grimaces. "Iâ well. Yeah. I'm sorry."
"I heard you the first time." Conner's posture straightens up and his feet leave the floor, recovered enough to use most of his powers again. "I'm gonna go now â"
"Wait!" Dick snatches his ankle. Conner stops and glares.
"Ugh. What!"
"I'm also extremely serious about the identity thing. You need to keep that to yourself. How do I know you aren't gonna run back to Luthor and immediately spill our secrets?"
The boy tilts his head, considering. Dick's grip gets tighter despite the futility of it. All the Kryptonite he could've used to subdue him, to keep him from leaving the Cave while they hash this out, is lying in a medical cart several yards out of reach. In their current positions, he's no more a hindrance than a gentle breeze.
"You don't... Unless you offer me something."
Dick's expression hardens and he clenches his jaw, no doubt already running a dozen calculations through his brain. "What do you want? Money? Territory?"
"Visitation."
You watch your brother falter. Your confusion echoes his. "What?"
Conner gently kicks his leg. Dick releases him, and the boy floats back down to the ground. Despite being almost half a foot shorter than your brother, his presence is large. Just like Uncle Clark's. His expression is no-nonsense and his hands slide into the pockets of his leather jacket. He's looking at Dick like a man that knows he's got the game stacked in his favor. Dick's looking at Conner like he's gauging how much time he's got before a bomb goes off.
"I want your sibling."
And
wasn't that just
the worst fucking way to answer that question.
Your hold on Dick's shadow slips away in your shock. You sink fully back into the void before you can find out how your brother reacts to Conner's declaration. You aren't sure you want to know.
You re-emerge in your bathroom, gasping in the steam from the abandoned shower you were pretending to take and hastily turning the knobs off. The heat in the room is nothing compared to the burning in your cheeks.
"What," you sputter, aloud, alone, and incredulous, "the fuck does that mean!!"
#littlest wayne au#jason todd#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#kon el#conner kent#superboy#superboy x reader#kon el x reader#gn reader#batfam x reader#đ±
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Hello! I love your writing! I was wondering.. would it be possible to request a sequel to Bitter for all the guys? The angst really got me good, but an end Where they see the Reader move on, whether it be with another LI or another person. Those sorts of fics soothe the angst for me even if they donât end up together again.

Sour

Pt.1
PAIRING: Love and Deepspace men x non-mc!reader
SYNOPSIS: A year has slipped through your fingers like sand, carrying away the sharp edges of bitternessâ or so you thought. Yet, the past has a cruel way of resurfacing, and when you stand before your former lover once more, the question lingers: has time truly softened the wound, or does resentment still simmer beneath your skin?
A/N: A lot of you guys asked for a sequel, and I must say - I'm so greatful for all of your support. It feels unreal, knowing that so many people enjoy my writing and get engaged in it. I tried to include every suggestion you gave me in some way. It ended up quite long, because I wanted to make sure they suffer. I really hope it's up to your liking, enjoy!


Xavier
A year had passedâone carved from sorrow, stitched with bitterness. Betrayal, mistrust, insecuritiesâevery fracture in your heart laid bare, every ugly truth dragged into the light.
And yet, in some quiet, inexplicable way, you were grateful.
Grateful for the clarity, for the stripping away of illusions, for the lesson that loveâno matter how ferventâcould not thrive on longing alone. You had spent so much time searching for a deeper meaning, convincing yourself there had to be one. But sometimes, the truth was simple. Painfully, mercilessly simple.
He hadnât chosen you.
There had been texts, calls, attempts at conversation. Words typed and deleted, ringing phones you never answered. You knew his tactics too wellâthe pleading eyes, the soft-spoken apologies, the way heâd paint his regret with honeyed words. But you had learned. This time, you refused to fall.
And so, the city became a vast and empty place, void of Xavierâs shadow. No accidental encounters, no glimpses of golden hair in a crowded street. It was as if the universe had granted you mercy, shielding you from the ghost of what could have been.
And with time, bitter turned to sour. Sour softened into something gentler, something warm. Until one day, you woke up and found yourself unburdened.
You were thriving.
A promotion at work. New friends. Doors opening where once there had only been walls. It was almost absurd, how small your world had been, how much of yourself you had given away for the sake of love that was never truly yours.
Because in the end, one heartbreak wasnât the end of the world.
And when you finally let yourself step forward, the idea of meeting someone new no longer felt like a betrayal of your past self. It was slow at firstâhesitant, uncertainâbut why should someone else pay the price for wounds they never inflicted?
You were seeing someone. The phrase alone felt foreign on your tongue, strange in your mind. But it was real. It was different. No silent doubts, no waiting for the inevitable unraveling. Just laughter. Just affection. Just love, in the simplest, most effortless form.
You were distracted by happiness.
And maybe that was why fate decided to test you.
The bell above the cafĂ© door chimed, a familiar sound that had never meant anythingâuntil now. Until the moment you met a gaze you once knew better than your own.
Blue. Icy, calculating, flickering with disbelief.
Xavier.
He looked different. Sharper somehow, but worn. Dark circles framed those piercing eyes, his golden hair a little unkempt, a crease forming between his brows. There was no laughter in his expression, no easy charm. Just silenceâthick, heavy, laced with something you couldnât name.
Like he was seeing a ghost.
Like, after all this time, he still wasnât sure if you were real.
He stood from his table, slow and careful, as if you might vanish if he moved too quickly. You straightened your posture, steeling yourself.
"Y/N..."
Your name left his lips like a prayer. Soft. Tentative. As if he didnât deserve to say it.
And maybe he didnât.
Still, you had promised yourself youâd be better than bitterness. That you wouldnât let the past sink its claws into you.
So you smiled. Small, polite, but distant. "Xavier. Long time no see."
Something flickered in his expression, fleeting but unmistakable. Hurt.
"Yeah," he echoed, glancing down for a moment, hands curling into fists before he exhaled, gathering himself. "Long time no see."
A pause. A heavy, unspoken weight settling between you.
And thenâ"Would you sit with me?" His voice was quieter now, more hesitant. "Just for a little while? I wonât... I wonât nag you, I swear." A ghost of a smile barely touched his lips.
For a moment, you considered.
Curiosity stirredâhow had he been? How had life treated him? And yet, you knew better. You had spent too long craving answers that would never change the past. The Xavier who stood before you was not yours to worry about. Not anymore.
So you inhaled slowly, steadying your heart, and said simply, "I donât think thereâs anything left to talk about."
Blunt. Honest. Kind, but final.
And for once, you didnât feel guilty for choosing yourself.
The bell rang again, the door swinging open, and warmth enveloped you as familiar arms wrapped around your waist, a kiss pressed to your cheek.
"Love," a voice murmured, teasing and light. "You always make me chase after you." They laughed, and you did too, the sound effortless.
Your partner turned, glancing at Xavier with mild curiosity. "Am I interrupting something?"
"Nothing at all," you assured, slipping your fingers into theirs, warmth meeting warmth. "Letâs go."
And as you walked away, hand in hand with the person who had mended what Xavier broke, you didnât look back.
But he did.
Xavier stood frozen, watching as you disappeared into the city, just as he had let you slip through his fingers once before.
And this time, there was no note left behind. No final words.
Only silence.
And the weight of a mistake he could never undo.
...
But it seemed fate was not yet finished with him. Seeing you again was a wound torn open, an ache that refused to fade. Xavier realized, with the kind of clarity that arrives too late, that he couldnât let you go.
Not without trying.
And it didnât matter that you belonged to someone else nowâdesperation made a man reckless. He would settle for anything. A glance, a word, a sigh in his direction. Proof that he had not become a ghost in your memory.
So he searched. Called. Texted. Every message fell into silence, his words lost to the void. He wandered through the places you once loved, only to find them hollow, emptied of your presence. It was as if you had evaporated, leaving no trace behind.
But thenâwhen he finally found you, sitting on a weathered park bench beneath the fading gold of an autumn skyâhis breath hitched. You looked different. Not just in the way time shapes a person, but in the way peace does. It softened you, made you untouchable.
He hesitated. He didnât want to startle you, didnât want to seem like a desperate man chasing shadows. But wasnât that exactly what he was? Obsessed, haunted, unraveling beneath the weight of his own mistakes.
And then you looked at him.
His heart stuttered. Your eyesâonce a universe he had called homeâheld no welcome for him now. There was recognition, yes. But it was distant, indifferent. A ghost of a smile graced your lips, polite but hollow, and something inside him withered.
"I need to talk to you," he rasped, his voice raw from all the words he had never said.
You tilted your head, considering him in that quiet, unreadable way. Then, with a small sigh, you gestured to the empty space beside you. An invitationânot of warmth, but of duty. Perhaps you felt he deserved the clarity he had never given you.
He sat, feeling like a man standing at the edge of a cliff.
"I have no right to ask for forgiveness," he confessed, staring down at his hands as if the answers were etched into his skin. "I know that. But I feel... lost. Lost without you guiding me."
There was silence, heavy as the twilight creeping in around you. And thenâ
"Whatâs done is done." Your voice was steady, like the final toll of a bell. "Youâre rightâsome things canât be forgiven. And actions have consequences. Iâve moved on, Xavier. And you should, too. Thatâs the only clarity I can give you."
Your words struck like a blade, precise and inescapable. He had braced himself for anger, for screams, for the fury he knew he deserved. But instead, you looked at him with nothing but pity.
And thatâGod, that was worse.
"Y/N, please," he choked out, his resolve crumbling. "Just give me a chance. Iâll do anything. Anything."
He fell to his knees before you, the weight of his regret pressing him into the earth. Once, he had stood tall beside you. Now, he knelt at your feet, pleading for the remnants of something he had destroyed with his own hands.
You blinked, surprise flickering across your face before you exhaled softly. "Iâm happily takenâŠ" The words were gentle, but firm. And then, the final blowâ"Engaged, actually."
You lifted your hand, and in the dimming light, the diamond on your finger gleamed like the last star in a dying sky.
Xavierâs breath left him in a ragged gasp. No. No, this couldnât be real.
"Pleaseâ" He reached for you, his hands trembling, his world tilting beneath him. "I canât do this without you."
You smiled then, and for the first time that evening, it was real. Soft, kind, but completely out of reach.
"Iâm afraid thatâs none of my business anymore."
You rose to your feet, turning away from him, your figure bathed in the golden light of a world that no longer had room for him. He watched, helpless, as you walked awayâeach step sealing his fate, each breath pulling you further from his grasp.
And when you disappeared beyond the trees, he realized the cruelest truth of all.
Some mistakes donât come with second chances.


Zayne
A year.
A year since you had stood in the ruins of what you once called love, waiting for somethingâanythingâto make sense. Since the walls of your world had collapsed beneath the weight of neglect, since the name Dr. Zayne had burned like acid on your tongue.
And yet, look at you now.
Thriving.
You had carved out a life that was entirely your own, no longer bending yourself into smaller, more convenient shapes to fit into someone elseâs world. Your careerâonce just a dream, a hesitant whisper in the back of your mindâhad become your reality, a space where your talents were not only recognized but celebrated. Your relationships flourished, no longer strained by the quiet loneliness of waiting for a man who always seemed just out of reach.
The girl who once sat by the phone, heart aching for a call that never came, was gone.
And yet, the ghosts of Zayne still lingered.
The recipe he once taught you? You still loved it, the taste laced with a bittersweet nostalgia. The song he always played while driving? Occasionally, you let it slip through your speakers, if only to remind yourself how far you had come. The pain of his absence had dulled into something quieterâno longer a gaping wound, but a faded scar.
You had learned to appreciate what his neglect had taught you.
Because he had shown you exactly what love wasnât.
And now, you knew better.
...
It was supposed to be an ordinary evening.
Your partnerâwarm, steady, everything you had once begged forâhad suffered a minor accident. Nothing dire, but enough to warrant a hospital visit, just to be sure. And so you stood there, waiting near the reception desk, arms crossed over your chest, glancing at the fluorescent glow of the overhead lights. The air smelled of antiseptic and sterile linens, the faint beeping of monitors a rhythmic pulse in the background.
And thenâ
You felt it before you saw it.
A gaze. Heavy. Familiar.
You turned.
And there he was.
Dr. Zayne.
For a moment, the world seemed to shrink, narrowing down to the space between you and him. He looked... different. Or maybe it was you who had changed. His sharp, professional composure remained, but there was something wearier about him now. The pristine white coat did little to hide the exhaustion beneath his eyes, the slight furrow of his brows, the way he adjusted his glasses in that meticulous way of his.
And yet, despite it allâhe was still devastatingly familiar.
"Y/N?"
Your name fell from his lips like a habit he had forgotten he missed.
There was something almost startled in his expression, as if he hadnât expected to see you here, hadnât expected you at all.
"Did something happen? Are you hurt?" He was already stepping forward, concern etched into every line of his face.
There was a time when that look would have unraveled you. When your heart would have stuttered at the mere thought of being the center of his attention.
Now, it felt⊠strange.
Performative.
Not because you thought he was faking itâZayne never faked anythingâbut because it no longer mattered.
You blinked, taken aback for a brief moment before schooling your features into something unreadable.
"I'm alright."
A pause.
Why did he sound as if he had just seen you yesterday? As if a year of silence had not stretched between you like an ocean?
Why was he looking at you like that?
And whyâwhy did it still taste bitter?
His gaze flickered over you, searching for something, before he spoke again, his voice softer this time. "Then why are you here?"
You raised an eyebrow.
"Actually, itâs none of my business," he amended quickly, clearing his throat, adjusting his glasses againânervous. Zayne never used to be nervous around you.
"But since youâre here," he continued, voice carefully composed, "perhaps we could talk? If you wouldnât mind, of course."
There was something almost hesitant in his tone. Like he was reaching for something he wasnât sure he had the right to ask for.
And before you could decide how to respondâ
A warmth wrapped around you.
"Sorry I kept you waiting, baby."
A familiar voice. Soft lips pressed against your temple. A presence that felt like home.
Your partner.
Zayne went still.
You didnât even need to look at him to know. You could feel itâthe way the air between you turned sour, thick with something unspoken, something unacknowledged.
You turned to face your lover, melting into the easy affection they offered, their touch grounding you in a way Zayneâs never had.
"Is that your friend?" your partner asked curiously, glancing at Zayne with polite indifference.
You tilted your head, considering the question.
Friend?
No, that wasnât quite right.
You let out a soft giggle, shrugging as you intertwined your fingers with theirs. "I guess?"
And thenâwithout another glance, without another wordâyou turned, walking away.
Zayne remained where he stood, unmoving, silent.
He didnât call after you. Didnât reach out.
Because he knew.
He knew that if he had any place in your life, it would have been beside you, not behind youâwatching as you disappeared into a world that no longer included him.
And now, the only thing he had leftâ
Was the taste of regret, bitter and lingering on his tongue.
...
Bitterness clung to Zayne like the aftertaste of a drink too strong, too sharp. And so, he sought sweetness in the only way he knew howâin thoughts of you.
Your touch, the gentle weight of your hand on his wrist. Your voice, quiet yet commanding, soft yet certain. Your presence, steady as the tide, once an anchor, now a ghost.
He had spent too long convincing himself he could let you go. That logic could silence longing, that reason could tame regret. But then he saw you again.
And the moment he did, he knew.
You belonged by his side.
So, it began. A pattern. A ritual. Lingering in the places you once adored, slipping into the coffee shop you used to frequent, hopingâprayingâthat fate would grant him another moment.
And fate, cruel and kind in equal measure, did.
You were alone, sipping your drink, fingers lazily scrolling through your phone. Every now and then, the corners of your lips twitched into a smileâsmall, fleeting, devastating. Zayne felt something in his chest splinter.
He wanted to be the reason for that smile again.
With a breath he wasnât aware he had been holding, he stepped forward, lowering himself into the seat across from you.
"Y/N."
Your name left his lips like a confession, quiet, careful.
You lifted your gaze, expression unreadable, an eyebrow arching slightly at his sudden presence. But no shock. No warmth.
That alone made doubt creep in. But it was too late to turn back now.
"...Thatâs unexpected," you said, returning your attention to your phone. "I thought you didnât like this cafĂ©."
His lips curved, but there was no humor in it. "I donât," he admitted, adjusting his glasses with practiced ease. "But I find myself drawn to places that remind me of you. Old habits die hard, it seems."
A pause. Thenâ
"Nice."
Nothing more. Not a smile, not a flicker of interest. Just a word, impersonal and distant, slipping from your lips with all the weight of an afterthought.
It caught him off guard. He hadnât expected warmth, but this? This felt like standing outside in the cold, staring at a window where a fire once burned.
Still, he pressed forward.
"So," he began, voice smooth yet hesitant. "Have you been well?"
"Cut the small talk."
Your voice was calm, but your patience was thin, and when your eyes met his again, he saw itâexhaustion. The kind that settles after a storm, after too many words left unspoken for too long.
"What do you want, Zayne?"
He exhaled slowly, as if composing himself. "I see time has made you even more direct," he mused, before his gaze darkened, sharpened. "Very well. I wonât insult you with pleasantries. I came because I needed to speak with youâabout us."
A flicker of something crossed your face, too fast for him to name. And thenâ
"There is no âus,â Zayne."
Your words were soft, but they struck harder than a shout.
"We didnât work out," you continued, your voice steady, final. "It happens. Move on."
His fingers curled against the table, the faintest twitch of his jaw betraying the emotion he so carefully masked.
"You make it sound so simple," he murmured, tilting his head slightly. "As if what we wereâwhat we could have beenâwas nothing more than an inconsequential mistake."
"Not a mistake," you corrected. "A lesson."
He laughed then, low and humorless. "I see. And what exactly did I teach you?"
"That love is not enough."
It was cruel in its honesty. Devastating in its simplicity.
He looked away for a moment, staring at the swirl of steam rising from your drink, as if it held the answers he sought. Then, quieter this time, he said, "And yet, I find myself incapable of learning that lesson."
You didnât respond. You only stood, preparing to leave.
That was when he reached for you.
Fingers wrapping around your wristâgentle, hesitant, desperate. And in that moment, neither of you spoke.
Because you both felt it.
The ghost of what once was. The warmth of a memory neither had fully let go of.
His grip loosened, but he did not let go.
"Tell me," he said, voice softer now, raw in a way he had never allowed himself to be. "Is this truly the end?"
Your gaze met his, unwavering.
And then you nodded.
A single motion. Firm. Certain. Unshakable.
He let you go.
And though every part of him rebelled against it, though his heart ached with the knowledge that he would wake tomorrow with the same longing, the same regret, he told himself it was enough.
Because if you were happyâif someone else had succeeded where he had failedâthen who was he to ask for more?
At least, thatâs what he tried to believe.


Rafayel
A year had passed.
The seasons had shifted, weaving through time like a quiet symphony, their passage marked by sun-warmed afternoons and frost-kissed mornings. Life had carried on, carrying you with it.
And somehow, somewhere between then and now, you had left him behind.
Not in a single, heart-wrenching moment, not in some grand, dramatic farewell. No, you had left him slowlyâlike the tide pulling back from the shore, retreating inch by inch, until one day you realized there was nothing left to reach for.
And you were okay with that.
More than okay.
You had built something new from the pieces of yourself he had never cherished. A life that felt like yours, untouched by the weight of waiting, unburdened by the ache of almost-love.
And you had found someone. Someone who didnât make you wonder if you were asking for too much. Someone who reached for you first, without hesitation.
You never thought about him anymore.
Not really.
But fate had a cruel sense of humor.
Because today, just as laughter spilled from your lips like honey, warm and golden, just as your partner squeezed your hand in theirs, grounding, steadyâ
You saw him.
Rafayel.
Standing at the entrance of the café, half-cast in shadow, his sharp gaze locked onto you like a man seeing a mirage in the desert.
Your breath did not hitch.
Your pulse did not quicken.
If there was an ache left inside you, it was nothing more than an old scarâa faint reminder of pain you had long since learned to live without.
But heâ
He looked frozen.
Like he had walked into a moment he wasnât supposed to witness.
Like the sight of youâlaughing, radiant, untouched by himâwas something he had never considered possible.
You met his gaze, tilting your head slightly.
Oh.
He hadnât changed much. Still dressed in purple tones, still holding himself with that same quiet confidence, still looking at you like he was searching for something.
But he had changed.
His face was unreadable, but his eyesâonce filled with amusement, teasing, always dancing just out of reachâwere darker now. Heavier.
You knew that weight.
Regret.
Good.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. The air between you was thick with things left unsaid, ghosts of words that once sat on the tip of your tongue, always swallowed before they could escape.
And then, finally, he spoke.
âY/N.â
Your name on his lips used to feel like the start of something. A promise. A quiet, unspoken longing.
Now, it was just a name.
You blinked at him, offering a small, polite smileâthe kind you gave to distant acquaintances, to strangers who mistook familiarity for significance.
âOh,â you said, as if realizing he was there for the first time. âRafayel.â
The casualness in your voice was deliberate.
His expression didnât change, but something in his posture didâjust the slightest shift, just enough for you to know he felt it.
âItâs been a while,â he said.
It had.
A lifetime had passed in that year.
âYes, it has.â
You didnât ask him how he was. Didnât give him the opening he was waiting for.
The silence stretched between you, long enough to feel like a choice.
The cafĂ© smelled of coffee and cinnamon, of sugar melting into warm pastries, but the only thing you could taste was clarityâlight, crisp, sweet.
Thenâ
âWhoâs this?â
Your partnerâs voice, gentle yet firm, cut through the stillness.
You turned to them, your gaze softening the moment it met theirs.
And thatâthat was what made Rafayelâs breath hitch.
The way you looked at them.
The way you had never looked at him.
âTheyâre an old friend,â you said simply.
Not a lover.
Not someone who had once left you waiting in the dark, sifting through the scraps of his affection, trying to find something whole.
Just someone you used to know.
And you knew he heard the finality in your voice.
For a second, just a fleeting second, something flickered in his expression.
Loss.
Too little, too late.
You turned back to your partner, your fingers still laced with theirs.
The conversation resumed. Effortless. Unbroken.
And Rafayelâwho had once believed you would always be there, lingering like an unfinished storyâstood there, realizing he had become nothing more than a footnote in yours.
You didnât look back.
And the only taste he was left withâ
Was bitter.
...
Regret clung to Rafayel like salt on skinâpersistent, inescapable, a reminder of tides that had long since receded.
And he rememberedâoh, how he remembered.
The scent of your skin, like the last breath of summer before the waves stole the warmth away. The way your hair moved with the wind, as if it carried secrets only the ocean knew. The way your voice curled around his name, a sirenâs call that had once lured him home.
How you understood him without words, how you indulged his recklessness, howâfor onceâsomeone had seen him for more than his name, his face, his fortune.
He still knew your favorite color, the way your smile tilted just slightly to the left, how every imperfection only made you more devastatingly perfect in his eyes.
And he couldnât forget.
He tried, but he was a drowning man, reaching for driftwood, for anything that could bring him back to shore. So, he watched from a distance, fingers hovering over your name on his screen, refreshing, searching. Checking where you were, who you were with, what you were doing.
Love makes fools of men. But obsessionâobsession turns them into ghosts.
And when he had mapped the rhythm of your days, he found himself drifting into them. Hovering at the edges of your world, waiting for the perfect moment to pull you back into his gravity.
When it finally happened, he caught you off guard.
You were walking, earphones in, humming a tune under your breath, lost in a world where he no longer belonged.
His hand found your shoulder.
Startled, you swung your bag on instinct, and it hit him square in the arm. He winced, clutching it dramatically.
âOw, cutie! First, you break my heart, and now you try to break my arm?â His grin was lopsided, but his eyes betrayed himâsearching, desperate.
You barely spared him a glance before rolling your eyes, turning away.
âNoâwait.â His fingers caught your wrist, hesitant but firm.
You turned back, leveling him with a stare. "What? Want to get hit again?"
A smirk tugged at the corner of his lips, but it faltered under the weight of your indifference. He exhaled sharply, rubbing his temple.
"I would much rather prefer just to talk to you." His voice softened, no longer laced with teasing, but something closer to pleading.
Then, quieterâmore deliberateâ
âY/N, take me back.â
You blinked. For a moment, silence stretched between you, the space between each breath vast as the horizon.
Then, you took a step back. And he felt the distance like an undertow, dragging him deeper.
âAbsolutely not.â
There was no anger in your voice, no bitterness. Just finality, as gentle as a wave washing over forgotten footprints in the sand.
His throat bobbed. ââŠNo?â
"You heard me."
His fingers twitched at his sides. âCutie, please reconsiderââ
âOh god, donât call me that.â You pinched the bridge of your nose, sighing.
He hesitated, but then his gaze turned serious, the teasing stripped away. âI know I made mistakesââ
âYou broke us, Rafayel.â
His breath caught. The truth of it cut through him like cold water, merciless and clear.
âY/N.â His voice was lower now, quiet in a way that made the world around you feel too loud. âI know I ruined things, but you canât tell me we werenât great. You canât tell me what we had wasnâtââ
âIt was.â You interrupted, your expression unreadable. âUntil it wasnât.â
Something inside him cracked.
"I've moved on," you said simply, shifting your bag over your shoulder. And then, with a ghost of a smirkâmocking, cruel in its lightnessâ
"You should too, fishie."
It should have made him laugh. It should have made him tease you back, call you something equally ridiculous.
Instead, it felt like the tide pulling him under.
He said nothing, only watching you, searching your face for somethingâanythingâthat might mean he still had a chance.
And then you turned.
He caught your wrist again, more desperately this time. âTell me,â he murmured, voice unsteady. âDo you want me to beg? Is that it? Do you want to see me on my knees?â
You looked at him then, really looked at him.
"I just want to see you out of my sight."
The words landed like crashing waves against stone.
His grip loosened, and you slipped away like water through his fingers.
"Have a great life, Rafayel."
And you walked away.
He should have followed. Should have thrown pride to the wind, should have fallen at your feet and begged like a desperate sailor praying to the sea.
But something in your voiceâcalm, unwaveringâtold him the storm had passed. And all that was left was the wreckage.
So he stood still.
And for the first time, he let you drift beyond his reach.
For now.


Sylus
A year had passed since you walked away from Sylus, but time had done nothing to erase the ache in your chest, nor the memory of how effortlessly you had disappeared from his life. You had left as silently as a forgotten dream, taking your heart with you, and leaving him behind to rot in the wreckage of his own actions. The decision had seemed like a balm in the moment, a clean cut. But as the days turned into months, the absence had become a ghost. It hovered in the corners of your mind, a constant reminder of the man you thought you knew, the man who had ruined you. And yet, despite it all, you had learned to live again.
You had rebuilt yourself, piece by broken piece. You embraced the ordinaryâthe quiet routine of your life, the peace that had once seemed so elusive when he was around. Your life was no longer tangled in the complexity of him. You began to explore things you never had the courage to before, tasting freedom in ways that filled you with pride. The world, without Sylus, was kinderâgentler. You smiled more, laughed more, and found comfort in the simplest of things: a cup of coffee on a rainy day, the soft rustle of leaves underfoot in autumn, the glow of a sunset you hadnât shared with anyone. You had learned to live for yourself.
And yet, somewhere in the back of your mind, a part of you still wondered what he was doing.
The knock at your door shattered the quiet peace you had so carefully built.
You hadnât expected visitorsâespecially not him.
Standing there, on the other side of the threshold, was the man who had once been your whole world, the man who had broken it. Sylus.
His appearance was jarring. His usual immaculate self was ruffled, as though the weight of the world had been wearing on him in ways he never allowed anyone to see. His sharp features were drawn, eyes darker than you remembered. There was something unfamiliar in the way he held himselfâno longer the man who walked into a room like he owned it, but someone who had been worn down by the passage of time, by regret. And yet, his eyes, the same eyes that had once mesmerized you, still held that magnetic pull. Only this time, they were haunted.
âSylus,â you breathed, the name slipping out of you before you could stop it.
There was a moment of tense silence, where neither of you moved. And then, his lips partedâjust slightlyâand a flicker of something like amusement touched his face.
âMissed me, kitten?â His voice was smooth, but there was an unfamiliar hesitation there, something raw in the way he spoke to you.
You couldnât tell if he was still playing games, or if this was something else entirely. You studied him for a long moment, trying to read him, trying to figure out why, after everything, he still seemed so... familiar.
But you no longer cared.
The words came out before you even thought them. âWhat are you doing here?â Your voice was soft, there was no venom, no fury. Only confusion. And a quiet indifference that was worse than anything you couldâve said.
His gaze faltered for a second, but he quickly regained his composure, though his smirk was tighter than usual. âI thought youâd be more excited to see me.â
His words were like a knife to the gut, but you felt nothingânot anymore. It was like you had been hollowed out over time, and there was nothing left inside you to give.
You tilted your head slightly, eyes cool. âAh, where are my manners?â You couldnât help the sarcasm that slipped out, though it wasnât playfulâmore a shield against the weight of his presence. âOh, how I missed my favorite liar! The one who broke my heart and threw me away like a piece of trash.â You rolled your eyes, a bitter laugh escaping your lips.
The words should have stung, but somehow, you found relief in saying them out loud. For so long, you had kept the hurt buried beneath layers of careful silence, and now, here it wasâraw, unapologetic.
Sylusâs face flickered, a faint shadow of hurt passing through his gaze before he regained his composure. âThe kitten has grown some claws, I see.â His voice was flat, but there was a trace of something in it, something he was trying to mask.
He took a step closer, as if expecting you to let him in, but you quickly moved to block the door.
âDonât,â you said simply.
He raised an eyebrow, surprised at your sudden resolve, but you didnât care.
âYouâre not welcome here,â you said, your tone final.
Sylusâs eyes softened for a split second, and in that brief moment, you saw the desperation that clawed at him. The weight of his regret that he never allowed to surface. âYouâre hurting me, sweetie,â he said, though it was far from playful. It sounded like a plea.
Your heart didnât twitch. It didnât soften. It just felt... heavy.
âGood,â you muttered, looking him up and down, and for the first time, you saw him clearlyânot the man you had once adored, but a man who had lost everything and had nothing left to offer.
Just then, a voice came from inside your home.
âDarling, whatâs taking you so long?â
You didnât need to look back to feel your partnerâs arms slide around your waist from behind, their presence warm and secure, a reminder of the love you had found after him.
âHmm, whoâs this?â Your partner asked lazily, looking past you to the man who once consumed your every thought.
Sylusâs gaze hardened, his eyes narrowing as he sized up the newcomer, but you werenât going to offer him any answers. Not anymore.
âHe got the wrong address,â you replied evenly, your voice indifferent as you turned back to face Sylus, daring him to challenge your words.
And just like that, the man who once held your heart in his hands realized the weight of his own failure. The realization hit him like a tidal wave.
Sylus opened his mouth to speak, but no words came. His chest rose and fell with unsteady breaths, as if he were choking on his own grief.
You met his gaze, and for the first time, you felt no angerâonly a quiet, final resolve. âI think it's time for you to leave, sir.â
The silence stretched between you, thick and suffocating. His heart, once so certain and confident, now shattered under the weight of your indifference.
âHave a good night.â you whispered, the finality of the words slipping from your lips. And with that, you closed the door on himâon the man you once thought you could never escape.
Sylus stood there, staring at the wood that now separated you from him, as though hoping it would open again. But it wouldnât.
He swallowed, hard. The man who had always prided himself on his control was now nothing more than a broken shell of his former self.
And it was all his doing.
For the first time in his life, Sylus had lost. And he had no one to blame but himself.
...
Sylus was not the kind of man who accepted defeat.
Not when you were so close, so painfully out of reach, like a forbidden fruit dangling just beyond his grasp.
He couldn'tâno, he wouldn'tâlet you go so easily.
His mind clung to thoughts of you, obsessions blooming in every corner of his brain: your laughter, like the chiming of delicate bells, your playful words that always teased, always challenged him, your defiance that had once felt like the spark that kept him alive. You had been his equal, his matchâtwo stars circling in an orbit of shared chaos and fire.
But now? Now you were slipping from him, dissolving into someone elseâs arms, and that realization felt like a knife being twisted into his chest. He couldn't bear it. He could never bear it.
Bitterness seeped into his soul, a slow, insidious poison that clouded his thoughts. The feeling of helplessness was foreign to him, suffocating him in ways he had never known before. He had always been the one in controlâalways the one who commanded the world. And now you were gone, out of his reach, and it tore at him like a storm.
The thought of another touching you, breathing in your scent, seeing the soft glow of tenderness in your eyesâSylus couldn't abide it. No. Not when he had once owned that gaze, that touch, that part of you that was his.
He needed one more chance.
Maybe it was for the peace of his mind, maybe it was his selfish longing, his desire to reclaim what he believed was his. Or maybe it was because he couldn't let go of the idea that you were a treasure meant for his eyes aloneâhis to hold, his to keep, like a rare, delicate jewel locked away.
And so, like the predator he was, Sylus followed you, carefully, subtly. With Mephisto keeping watch over you, it was easy to know where you'd be, when you'd be there.
Each time, he approached, his presence lingering just at the edges of your worldâwatching, waiting. But you rejected him. Rejected him with biting sarcasm, with icy silence that seemed to pierce his skin like a thousand knives.
It drove him mad.
The chase was maddening. The only thing that consumed him was the desire to have you in his arms once more, to feel the heat of your skin, the sweetness of your breath, the intimacy that he had once thought was infinite.
And then one evening, when he could no longer take the ache, he made his move.
You were walking home from work, the weight of the day pressing down on your shoulders. The quiet satisfaction of surviving the day was tempered by the exhaustion that clung to you. But as you turned the corner, a hand suddenly grasped your wrist, yanking you into a shadowed alley. Your heart pounded in your chest, a burst of adrenaline flooding your veins. You opened your mouth to scream, but before the sound could escape, a hand pressed over your lips.
"Relax. It's just me."
His voiceâhis damn voiceâsounded like a lure, familiar and dangerous. Your body froze, not out of fear, but out of recognition. You knew it was Sylus, and despite everything, despite the years of hurt and betrayal, a twisted part of you felt⊠safe.
When he felt you relax, he let go. You spun around to face him, heart still hammering, but now tempered with anger.
"Youâre crazy," you spat, your voice sharp and unforgiving. "What do you think youâre doing?"
His gaze, that unnerving mix of calm and intensity, bore into you. His expression was disturbingly relaxed, too casual for someone who had just dragged you into an alley against your will.
"Getting your attention," he said, his tone smooth, almost mocking. "Seems like it worked."
The words hit you like a slap. Your fists clenched, your anger bubbling over.
"You canât just pull people into a dark alley, Sylus! Youâre actually insane!" You jabbed your finger at his chest, each word punctuating the fury that burned through you.
Sylus didnât flinch, though you could see the storm brewing behind his eyes.
"...I apologize," he said softly, his voice taking on a tenderness that was so unlike him. He reached out to touch your cheek, but his hand stopped halfway, as if he was still unsure whether he had the right.
The vulnerability in that simple motionâsomething so un-Sylus, so rawâstirred something inside you. Something you didnât want to acknowledge.
You sighed heavily, the weight of everything pressing down on you. "What do you want?" Your voice was laced with frustration, your patience wearing thin.
"I thought that would be obvious by now," he said, a faint smirk curling at his lips, the teasing edge still present despite the darkness in his eyes. "Guess youâre not as sharp as I thought, kitten."
The bastard. Even now, he played with you like a cat with its prey.
"I swear, Iâm going to file for a restraining order against you," you muttered, your voice tinged with disbelief.
"You can try," Sylus responded smoothly, his words dripping with a dangerous calm. "But you know well enough that such things wonât stop me."
You clenched your fists, your resolve hardening. The walls you had so carefully built around your heart in the past year came crashing down in a flood of anger and pain. You had moved on, healedâdidnât he see that?
"I want you to come back to me," he said, his voice now serious, his gaze earnest, though still haunted by the traces of his past mistakes.
But you wouldnât crack. Not now.
"Never in this lifetime," you said, the finality of your words a heavy hammer to his chest.
Sylusâs lips twisted into a small, bitter smile. "Then, in another?" His words were light, but they carried a weight that you both felt. It was his way of hiding the hurt, the pain that had followed him like a shadow.
You didnât answer right away. Instead, you let the silence hang between you, thick and suffocating.
"Iâll pray that I never have to meet you again," you said softly, the words filled with a quiet kind of sorrow. "Not in this life, and not in the ones after."
And with that, you turned, walking away from him, leaving him shattered in the cold, empty alley.
Sylus watched you go, his chest tight with regret. His heartâsomething he had long kept locked away, something he had never truly allowed himself to feelâwas breaking in ways he had never imagined. The storm inside him raged, but he couldnât stop it.
You were gone, and this time, he knewâhe knewâthere would be no coming back.


Caleb
Itâs been a year since you last saw Caleb.
Well, not really. Sometimes you caught glimpses of him in the crowdâjust a silhouette, a shape that might be his. Your heart would catch in your throat, and for a fleeting moment, youâd swear it was him. But the figure would turn, and it would be a stranger. Your imagination had been cruel to you, conjuring up ghosts from your memories and stitching together faces from your longing. Perhaps it was just your mind showing you what you wished to see, like a cruel twist of fate reminding you of what had slipped through your fingers.
A year filled with growth. You learned to be soft with yourself, to breathe through the pain instead of suffocating in it. You allowed yourself to be bitterâlet the sadness claw through your chest and the anger burn through your veins. You let yourself crumble, and when the dust settled, you gathered the fragments and made something beautiful from them. A mosaic of healing. You thanked the universe for the lesson, no matter how brutal it had been. Whether it was God, fate, or simply the chaos of life, you accepted it. You learned that you were the only constant in your own storyâthe one thing that would always remain when everyone else faded to whispers.
In those months, you blossomed. You breathed in the world with new lungs, filling your soul with every small moment that once went unnoticed. The way sunlight painted golden patterns on cracked sidewalks, the way the ocean waves whispered secrets to the shore, the taste of ripe fruit on a sweltering day. You poured your energy into your work, rebuilt neglected friendships, and found comfort in the warmth of those who remained. You taught yourself that it wasnât your faultânone of it had beenâand that loving him too much was never a mistake. Only, you needed to love yourself first.
And when you finally felt steady enough to open your heart again, love found you. They were calm where Caleb had been chaos, steady where Caleb had been a storm. A lighthouse guiding you back to yourself, reminding you that love wasnât meant to break you. Their hands held you like you were fragile, but their love made you feel strong. You didnât compare themâCaleb was a different life, a different story. But maybe thatâs what you needed. You were happy, genuinely happy, for the first time in what felt like ages.
The train station buzzes around you like a hive of restless energy, travelers weaving past each other with hurried steps and heavy bags. Your lover has gone to grab snacks for the journey, leaving you alone on the worn wooden bench. The air smells of old books and fresh coffee, tinged with the metallic scent of steel tracks. You lean back, glancing at the faded timetable, feeling content in the hum of life moving around you.
And then, like a phantom stepping through the fog of memory, you see him. Caleb. The world seems to stop spinning, frozen in that singular moment. Heâs standing on the opposite platform, hands shoved into his coat pockets, head bowed as if weighed down by the past. A bitter wind pulls at his hair, and for a second, he lifts his gaze. Your breath catches as his eyes meet yours, recognition dawning like sunlight cutting through rain. He hesitates, lips parting, and you see the flicker of regret, raw and unguarded.
The hurt surges up unexpectedly, but itâs quieter than it used to be, muted by time and acceptance. You donât flinch when he takes a hesitant step forward, his mouth opening as if to call out to you. A thousand words hang between youâapologies, confessions, explanationsâbut none seem to find their way into the open. You see the yearning in his eyes, the way heâs looking at you as if trying to remember every detail he once took for granted.
Your lover appears at your side, offering a small smile as they hand you a paper bag filled with snacks. Their presence grounds you, pulls you back to reality from the haze of memory. Caleb sees them too, and the pain that flashes across his face is like a knife carving regret into his bones. You watch as he realizes what heâs lostâhow youâve moved on, how youâve found happiness that doesnât depend on him.
He lingers there, stranded on the other side of the tracks, unable to cross over to where you stand. You almost pity himâthe way his shoulders sag, the way his jaw clenches to swallow whatever plea was forming. But the ache that once ruled you has softened, transformed into something quieter. Youâre not angry anymore. Youâre not shattered. Youâve built something new from the ruins he left behind.
Caleb lowers his gaze, as if surrendering to the weight of his own choices. And as the train pulls into the station, you take your loverâs hand, intertwining your fingers like roots that hold you steady. You feel Calebâs stare on your back as you step onto the train, but you donât look back. Thereâs nothing left to seeâjust the remnants of a past that no longer defines you.
As the train moves away, you feel a sense of peace wash over you. Itâs not triumph, not victoryâitâs closure, as quiet and gentle as a sunset slipping beneath the horizon. You made it out the other side. And that, more than anything, is the proof that you are whole again.
...
But the peace you felt wasnât the same for Caleb. Seeing you again after what felt like a lifetime was like being thrown into the depths of the oceanâlungs burning, heart pounding, utterly helpless. He hadnât known he was drowning until he saw you sitting there, your feet dangling off the edge of the bench, lips parted in a soft âoâ of surprise. You looked at him with that same curiosity, that gentle tilt of your head, and it struck him just how far away you feltâlike a dream that had slipped through his fingers.
It wasnât his place to feel this way. Not anymore. But he couldnât help the ache that gnawed at his ribs, nor the desperate urge to reach out and pull you into his arms, to whisper apologies into your skin until his words sunk into your bones. Yet even from a distance, he could see how your shoulders were relaxed, your gaze steady and unburdened, and it only made the chasm between you widen.
When another personâs hands found your own, threading fingers together with the ease of familiarity, his heart cracked openâraw and aching. It wasnât his business. He shouldnât care. But he did. Too much. More than he thought he still could.
He wanted to run after you, to say somethingâanything. But what would he even say? That he missed you so much it hurt? That he had spent a year convincing himself heâd made the right choice, only to realize how profoundly wrong heâd been? It all felt pointless now, tangled in regret and longing.
Endless scenarios crashed through his mind like waves against rock, and somewhere in that turmoil, he decided he needed to speak to youâone last time. He needed your attention on him, just once more.
He waited for you outside your workplace, nerves coiling tighter with every second that passed. He wondered if youâd be angryâif youâd tell him to leave and never come back. But when you appeared, you only offered a small, polite smile, one that didnât quite reach your eyes. You looked at him with the calm detachment of someone who had long since made peace with the past.
âHey...â he murmured, forcing a boyish grin that looked so out of place on his troubled face. He rubbed the back of his neck, as if trying to wring out the nerves clinging to him.
You smiled againâgentle, unbothered, and heartbreakingly kind. âHi.â Your voice was soft, like a memory he couldnât quite grasp, and it was that tendernessâfree from bitternessâthat made his chest ache. He had prepared himself for anger, for hurt laced in your words. Instead, you were kind. You always had been, like a flower that bent but never broke, even under the harshest of storms.
âI was wondering if we could talk,â he said finally, hesitating as if the words themselves might shatter.
You didnât move, just nodded your head. âTalk, then.â Your tone was steady, as if he was just another passerby in your life, not the storm that once tore it apart.
He swallowed the lump in his throat and spoke, words stumbling over one another. âI guess... I didnât realize how much I missed youâuntil I saw you at the station. I justââ He took a shaky breath. âI wanted to know if youâd ever consider forgiving me. For how foolish I was. For being so... selfish.â His eyes, those familiar, pleading puppy eyes, bore into yours, searching for a sliver of the past warmth.
You glanced at him, and he saw the flicker of something unreadable in your gaze before you answered. âForgiveness is too much to ask for,â you replied softly, but your voice held a quiet strength that hadnât been there before. âBut Iâve learned to accept what happened. You should too, Caleb.â
His hands clenched at his sides, fighting the urge to reach out. âI donât think Iâll ever be able to accept it.â
You gave a sad, wistful smile, the kind that hurt more than any cruel words could have. âThatâs on you,â you whispered, eyes glistening with a tenderness that had nothing to do with him anymore. âIâm happy now. Iâve built something beautiful out of the pieces you left behind. And I wonât let you take that from me.â
He lowered his head, unable to meet your gaze. âI never meant to hurt you,â he whispered.
Your smile faded, replaced by a quiet, unyielding resolve. âIntentions donât erase consequences. Live a life without further regrets, Caleb.â
You didnât wait for a response. You turned and walked away, each step decisive and unwavering, leaving him rooted to the spotâdrowning in the knowledge that you were truly, undeniably gone.
And Caleb just stood there, feeling the hollow ache where your love used to be, realizing far too late that he had destroyed the only good thing heâd ever known.

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Anonymous asked: Can i request a fic where either the reader reveals during a pizza and beers hangout she was a phone sex operator for a brief time and everyone is shocked and one of them jokingly asks if she was any good and she whispers something dirty in their ear and it changes their friendship
Cw: fem!reader, allusions to male masturbation, dirty talk 1.7k words
âCome again?â
âI used to work a sex hotline,â you shrug like it was no big deal.
âNo way,â Eddie shakes his head. âI donât believe you.â
You hear Steve and the others giggle around you, also in disbelief.
âWanna bet?â
âTry me.â He wants to call your bluff because no way in hell did he not know this about you. You always were reserved when it came to talking about sex; never had you seemed promiscuous.
You hold up your hand to your ear, pretending it is a phone, and Eddie follows your lead.
âRing ring,â he giggles.
âHello.â You changed the pitch of your voice to be more sultry.
âHi,â he smirks.
âCan I get a name, handsome?â
â Eddieâ
âMmmm, hi, Eddie. Iâm Candy.â
âCandy?â
He breaks character, but you donât.
âthe boys say itâs because Iâm so sweet.â You fake giggle.
âThis is my first time calling. Iâm not sure what to do here.â
âThatâs okay, Iâll walk you through it⊠you want to get comfortable for me?â
Eddie looks around the room at the others, who are trying to stifle their giggles. This night was supposed to be chill, with pizza and beers. He wasnât really sure how you all ended up here.
âIâm comfortable.â He says without actually moving.â
âI wish I could see; you sound so sexy.â You sigh.
Another giggle leaves Eddieâs lips because who is this person whoâs taken over your body?
âYeah? you wish you could see be, Dollface?â Playing into it more.
You lean in to whisper so only he can hear it this time. âoh yeah, big boy; I bet your cock is already nice and hard for me. Such a good boy, I want you to fill me.â You sit back, take a loose tendril, twirl his hair around your finger, and watch Eddieâs eyes widen at what you just said.
âOh-okay, thatâs enough.â He chuckles, trying not to give away how turned on he just got. âI believe you!â
You sit back with a giggle and grab another slice of pizza like nothing just happened.
Everyone looked at you with shock.
Eddie quickly gets up and excuses himself to go to the bathroom.
âWhat did you say?!â Robin begs.
You shrug in response like it was another day at work⊠which it has been.
âDamn, is it hot in here?â Steve pops the collar of his shirt.
âYou guys need to loosen up, my god.â
While you were still enjoying your pizza, Eddie was having a crisis. Never had he thought of you in that way until moments ago, listening to those filthy words slip from your lips.
âI bet your cock is already nice and hard for me. Such a good boy, I want you to fill me,â your words replayed in his mind while he tried to fight the blood rushing to his stiffening cock.
He canât go back out there like this. Eddie splashed cold water on his face to try to snap him out of it, but it didnât help.
A quick rap on the door startles Eddie out of his inner monologue.
âYou okay, big boy? Youâve been in there fifteen minutes.â He hears you laugh from the other side.
Had it really been that long?
Eddieâs issue had not been resolved; in fact, it had worsened as he tried to push down the thought of you naked and spread out for him⊠talking to him like that.
âYeah-I-uh- just a minute.â Eddie wanted to pull his hair out at how frustrated you had made him.
You were just pals, bubbies, amigos.
You werenât attractive⊠were you?
Eddie never thought to look at you in that way; youâre just a friend, always had been, always will be⊠unless?
The more Eddie thought about it, the more he realized he did think your hair looked really pretty tonight. The way you always did your makeup really brought out your beautiful featuresâŠand when he got a whiff of your delicious perfume when you twirled his hair, he couldnât get enough.
âYou sure?â You try to jiggle the door handle, but itâs locked.
âShit,â Eddie curses under with breath.
âCome on, Ed, talk to me, please?â
You hear the lock unlatch and watch the doorknob slowly turn as Eddie pokes his head out.
âHi,â heâs short and sounds a bit out of breath.
âI hope what I said didnât make you uncomfortable.â
Ed saw the worried look in your eyes.
âNo! Well, I mean, yes, butâŠno.â
âYes, but no?â
Eddie let out a deep sigh. He didnât see a way out of this. He stepped aside to let you in and shut the door behind you.
âEddie?â You look up at him.
âHm?â
His eyes snap to your concerned face.
âIâm sorry, I didnât think it was a big deal! It did it all the time for work; I just⊠I donât know. Iâm sorry.â
âItâs okay.â
âNo, itâs not. clearly, I overstepped a boundary-â
âYouâre not the only one.â
âWhat do you mean?â
Eddie moves his strategically placed hands to reveal the tent formed in his jeans and watches as your face falls into amused shock.
You cup your mouth to stifle an unexpected giggle.
âThatâs not the reaction a guy wants when he shows a girl how turned on he is.â
âIâm sorry, I just!-didnât think?â
âItâs okay. Iâm just trying to get rid of it, but itâs not going away.â
âYou mean?â
âIâm waiting it out.â
âOh, ok.â You nod awkwardly.
An awkward silence washes over the both of you as you try so hard not to stare at his crotch.
âDonât worry, Iâm not going to ask for your help if thatâs what youâre thinking.â
âI wasnât!â
âOkâŠâ
Another very uncomfortable silence settled between the two of you as you fiddled with the hem of your shirt, trying to do everything in your power so as not to look down.
âI um⊠I guess Iâll just.â You point to the door that heâs blocking.
âUh. Ok,â he nods and steps to the side.
You close the door behind you but donât leave. You lean against the door and take a deep breath, trying to make sense of the evening.
Why did the thought of turning Eddie on excite you? Heâs a friend. Just a friend. I always had and always will be.
With a deep breath, you go to push yourself up off the door, but before youâre able to, you hear your name being moaned from the other side of the door.
You froze. You knew you should move, but your feet were locked in place. More heavy breaths and the sound of muffled moans seeped from under the door gap, and you pressed your ear to the door.
Eddie was jerking off because of you⊠and you liked it?
Eddie bit back screaming your name as he finally released himself into the bathroom tissue. Finally, he could return to rejoin everyone without being physically uncomfortable.
He discarded his release, tucked himself back in, washed his hands, and unlocked the door, but he was ambushed when you fell onto him when he went to open the door.
You let out a squeak as you lost your balance, falling into Eddie as the door was opened from under you.
âWoah,â Eddie catches you before youâre able to fall. His rage hands wrap around your biceps, gripping tightly to brace your fall.
âWere you spying on me?â
âOh god, sorryâ youâre so embarrassed. The whole evening has been one shit show. You scramble to find your fitting to create space between you and Eddie.
âYou were spying on me!â
âShhhhh! Keep your voice down.â
âYou totally were spying on me!â He accused.
âYouâre the one who moaned my name!â You defend.
Eddieâs cheeks reddened.
âYouâre the one who said all those⊠things!â his hands flailed.
âYouâre the one who egged it on!â
âSo!â
âSo?â
âYeah, so!â
âWoah, guys, whatâs going on here?â Steve pops his head around the corner.
âNothing,â you both glare.
âOhhhhhkayyyyyyyy,â Steve turns a heel and walks back to the kitchen to grab a drink.
âEddie,â you sigh, âI donât want to argue. This is dumb, and we can pretend it never happened.â
âWe could, but I gotta know.â
âWhatâs that?â
âDid you like it?â He took a step closer, filling the gap between you.
âWhat?â You look up at him.
âI asked if you like listening to me?â he brushed your hair behind your shoulder.
You gulp, not expecting Eddieâs demeanour to switch on a dime.
âI⊠I donât know?â
âI think you did, and youâre too scared to admit it.â You can smell him. He is so close to you.
âEddie, what are you doing?â You watch as he leans in closer.
âJust trust me.â His hands find the back of your neck, pulling you close.
âEddie?â
âLet me try something.â
âKay,â you whisper.
Eddieâs lips graze yours ever so lightly before he presses them fully.
A million and one thoughts run through your mind as Eddie kisses you.
You blame the cheap beer for letting this happen. You blame the beer for liking it. You blame the beer for kissing him back. You blame the beer for the tongue slip and the beer for how you wanted to moan when he pulled away.
âWoahâ
âYea woah,â you repeated dumbly.
âum⊠did you like it?â
âYeah⊠did you?â
âYeah.â
âcool⊠now what?â
âgo out with me,â Eddie states confidently.
âLike a date?â
âwhat else would it be?â He chuckles.
âI donât know?â You shrug, embarrassed that Eddie is getting you all flustered.
âYouâre cute when you donât know what to say.â He smirks.
âIâm cute?â You never thought hearing Eddie say those words would send butterflies fluttering through your tummy.
Eddie doesnât answer verbally; he leans in to kiss you again to confirm his statement.
âWe should get back to the others.â You sigh as you pull away.
âYou didnât answer me.â
âYou didnât ask me anything.â
âYes, I did. I asked you out.â
âNo, you said go out with me. Thatâs a statement, not a question.â
âAre you kidding me?â
âNo,â Yes, you were totally messing with him.
âWill you go out on a date with me?â
âJust say yes! Youâve been gone for half an hour!â You hear Robin yell from the living room.
âRobin!â You hear Steve scold.
âWhat?â
You canât help but laugh and canât believe the next worldâs coming out of your mouth.
âOkay, Iâll go out with you, Eddie.â
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Baby Girl Norris
Lando Norris x pediatrician!Reader
Summary: you know what you have to do â track down a world-famous Formula 1 driver, tell him about his newborn daughter, and maybe, if heâs willing, help him navigate single fatherhood â falling in love with their little family was not part of the plan ⊠but doing so changes all your lives for the better
You take a deep breath as you enter the nursery, steeling yourself for the task ahead. As a pediatrician at the Princess Grace Hospital in Monaco, youâve cared for thousands of babies over the years. But this case is different.
Baby Girl Norris, born just two hours ago, is now legally parentless after her mother signed away all parental rights. Hospital protocol demands you track down and notify the father before assuming guardianship. Easier said than done when the father is Formula 1 superstar Lando Norris.
Approaching the clear bassinet, you gaze down at the sleeping newborn. Wispy dark hair peeks out from under her pink cap. Ten tiny fingers curled into fists. She has no idea how complicated her life is about to become.
You flip through the chart again, verifying the details. Mother is French, here on a student visa. Refused to even look at the baby after a 27-hour labor, immediately signing away rights. Father listed as one Lando Norris of the United Kingdom.
You sigh, picking up the phone to dial the number listed. It rings five times before disconnecting. You try the landline for his Monaco residence with the same result. Probably outdated.
Time for plan B. You search the McLaren Racing website until you find a generic service line. Heart pounding, you dial.
âMcLaren Technology Centre, this is Marie speaking.â
You take a breath. âHello, I apologize for the strange request, but I need to reach Lando Norris as soon as possible. Itâs ⊠itâs regarding a private family matter.â
âIâm sorry, but Mr. Norris does not accept unsolicited communications. Have a nice-â
âWait!â You interject. âPlease, I am calling from Princess Grace Hospital in Monaco. We have a newborn baby girl here, and we believe Mr. Norris may be the father.â
Marie hesitates. âHold please, Iâll transfer you.â
Your pulse quickens. This may actually work! But your hopes are quickly dashed.
âThis is Andrew from McLaren Racing public relations. May I ask who Iâm speaking with?â His tone is suspicious.
You explain again about the baby, her mother, and the situation.
Andrew sighs loudly. âIâm sure you understand we get calls like this constantly. Lando isnât even in the hemisphere right now. Iâm afraid we canât help you.â
âNo, wait, please!â But the line goes dead.
You frown, gears turning. The team must think youâre some obsessed fan or scammer. Youâll have to get creative.
Over the next two days, you call every related number you can find. Each time youâre met with more resistance. They must have flagged your information as a nuisance caller.
On the third day, youâre signing charts at the nurseâs station when a colleague walks by. âDid you hear? Lando Norris is coming to take a tour of the hospital next week. Some charity thing.â
Your eyes widen. This is it â your chance to intercept him in person!
You spend the next few days obsessing over what to say, how to convince him. Baby Girl Norris needs her father.
The big day arrives. Heart hammering, you lurk near the lobby, peering around the hallway corner as Lando walks in flanked by handlers. He looks exhausted but flashes his winning smile at the staff welcoming him.
You watch them start down the opposite hallway for the tour when you make your move. Rushing forward, you plant yourself firmly in his path.
âMr. Norris! Sorry, I need just a minute of your time, itâs urgent-â
A member of his team immediately swoops in, pushing you back. âMaâam, please. We kindly ask that you step aside.â
âNo, wait!â You raise your voice over them. âMr. Norris, my name is Dr. Y/N Y/L/N. Iâm a pediatrician here. Iâve been trying to reach you for days now regarding your newborn daughter!â
The team looks exasperated, but Lando holds up a hand. âItâs okay, let her speak.â His eyes bore into yours warily.
You take a breath. âI know this sounds insane. But a baby girl was born here last week to a French student named Celeste Dubois. On the birth certificate, she named you as the father before signing away parental rights.â
You continue explaining the situation rapidly, watching Landoâs eyes widen in shock.
One of his handlers steps in. âYou honestly expect us to believe this wild story? Weâre on a timeline.â He tries to tug Lando along.
âNo, itâs okay.â Lando stands firm, studying you intently. âWhat proof do you have of any of this?â
You hold his gaze. âI can show you the birth certificate, but a DNA test would confirm if youâre the father. Itâs hospital policy to notify and provide the father an opportunity to assume custody.â
Lando chews his lip nervously. His team murmurs among themselves.
After a long pause, he speaks. âEven if this is some scam or mix-up, that poor child deserves to have answers. Please, lead the way for a test.â
You breathe a sigh of relief. Wordlessly, you turn and lead Lando to the lab. His team protests but he insists on following through.
In the lab, you supervise as the technician takes a simple cheek swab. â24 to 48 hours for results,â she confirms.
Lando nods, looking dazed. âRight. Okay. If sheâs really mine, I want to step up. Just call me, yeah?â He extends his number on a slip of paper.
You smile and promise to be in touch. As he turns to leave, you feel swarmed with emotions. One major hurdle down, but nothing certain yet.
The next 48 hours pass at a snailâs pace. When the lab calls, your fingers shake as you unfold the results. Positive. A 99.99% match.
You pass along the news and arrange a meeting at the hospital. The press canât know about this yet.
Approaching the secluded waiting room, you pause to observe Lando through the window. He paces nervously, running his hands through his hair again and again. His usual polished veneer is gone, replaced by a young man anxiously awaiting life-changing news. Your heart goes out to him.
Finally knocking, he whirls around as you enter. âWell? Is she really mine?â
You nod, holding out the results. He accepts them with unsteady hands.
âIâm sorry I ever doubted you,â he says quietly. âThis is just ... a lot.â
âI understand. Itâs a complicated situation. But youâre here now.â You offer an encouraging smile.
Lando takes a deep breath. âCan I meet her?â
You lead him to the nursery viewing room. He presses against the glass, eyes scanning until they settle on bassinet D7. His brows knit together.
âThatâs her?â His voice wavers slightly.
You nod. âWould you like to go inside and hold her?â
He hesitates. âI donât want to confuse or upset her.â
You gesture reassuringly. âNewborns seek warmth and a gentle touch. Sheâll appreciate the contact.â
Looking uncertain, Lando follows you into the nursery. You lift the swaddled baby, carefully transferring her into Landoâs awkward embrace. He peers down at her, his expression unreadable.
âSheâs so tiny ...â he murmurs. The newborn girl yawns, eyes still shut, snuggling instinctively into his chest.
Landoâs guarded facade finally cracks, eyes glistening. He adjusts his arms to cradle her more securely.
âHi there,â he whispers. âIâm your ...â He trails off, not quite able to say it.
You touch his shoulder gently. âYouâre her father. And she needs you.â
He nods, never breaking his gaze from the newbornâs face. âIâll do right by her, I promise. Whatever it takes.â
Relief sweeps over you. While an arduous legal process awaits, this sweet child will finally have a real family.
As Lando rocks the baby gently, he suddenly laughs. âSheâs a real beauty, isnât she? Look at that hair. Thick and curly, just like her old man.â
You chuckle. âIt appears so. Have you thought about a name?â
He hums contemplatively. âIâve always been partial to Georgia. Gigi for short.â
âGeorgia Norris,â you say with a smile. âItâs perfect.â
The new father beams down at his daughter. âWelcome to the world, little Gigi. I canât wait to take you home.â
As you observe this tender moment, your heart swells for both father and daughter. With someone as loving and dedicated as Lando by her side, Gigiâs future looks bright indeed.
Watching them meet for the first time â seeing a family begin to blossom out of hardship and uncertainty â is the greatest reward of your job. As you quietly slip out to give them space, you canât hold back a smile. Everything, after all, is turning out exactly as it should.
***
After spending over an hour bonding with his newborn daughter in the nursery, Lando reluctantly hands her back to the nurse for feeding time. He turns to you, smiling but still looking dazed.
âI canât thank you enough, Y/N. Really. Youâve given me and Gigi a new start.â
You touch his arm warmly. âOf course. Iâm so glad I could help connect you two. Sheâs absolutely beautiful.â
Lando grins proudly. âShe really is perfect. I already love her so much, itâs mad. I just ...â His face falls slightly. âI donât have the first clue how to actually take care of a baby. Let alone with my job, traveling all the time for races and training. What have I gotten myself into?â
He runs an anxious hand through his curls. Your heart goes out to him.
âHey, itâs okay.â You gesture for him to follow you out to the waiting room for privacy.
Lando collapses onto the sofa, head in hands. âSorry, Iâm just now fully realizing what this means. A baby, sheâs completely dependent on me! I donât know the first thing about babies. Iâm barely an adult myself!â
You sit beside him. âLando, look at me.â He lifts his head reluctantly. You offer an encouraging smile.
âItâs normal to feel overwhelmed. But you stepped up when Gigi needed you most. Thatâs what matters. With some guidance, youâll be an amazing father.â
He doesnât look convinced. You continue gently, âHereâs what weâll do. Iâll give you all the essential information for first-time parents. Iâll even set you up with parenting classes, and we have a support group-â
Lando groans loudly, letting his head fall back. You suppress a chuckle.
âOkay, forget classes for now. Just focus on learning the basics. Things like feeding, changing, bathing. Infant CPR. Iâll give you my cell to text with questions anytime. Day or night.â
You jot down your number and hand it to him. He nods, looking slightly encouraged.
âWeâll also get you connected with services that can assist first-time parents with supplies, nutrition consultants, and childcare options.â
His eyes widen again. âGod, I havenât even told my family yet! Or bought anything sheâll need!â He scrubs at his face anxiously.
You lay a comforting hand on his shoulder. âBreathe. Setbacks are expected. But youâll get there.â
Lando takes a deep breath, regaining some composure. âYouâre right. Sorry for the meltdown. I really appreciate you talking me down.â
âDonât apologize. Iâd be more concerned if you werenât at all anxious about this huge life change.â
You smile warmly. âBut you accepted your daughter unconditionally when it mattered most. Not every man in your position would do that. I know youâll figure the rest out over time. Itâs a process.â
He nods, starting to calm down. âYeah. Yeah, youâre right. Weâll take it step by step.â
You spend the next hour walking Lando through all the basics â safe sleep, feeding schedules, hygiene, developmental milestones, and pediatrician visits. He takes vigorous notes on his phone, determination returning to his face.
âClothes, blankets, nappies, bottles ...â He mumbles to himself as he types. âMaybe pick up a parenting book or two as well ...â
You grin, happy to see him growing more at ease and optimistic. When the nurse returns with a sleeping Gigi, Lando immediately takes her back into his arms.
âWeâve got this, little one,â he whispers to her. âIâll give you the absolute best in life ⊠starting with a nice new flat for us here in Monaco.â He looks back at you questioningly.
You nod in approval. âGiving Gigi a stable home should be your top priority.â
He smiles down at the baby, gently stroking her cheek. âDaddy will take good care of you. I promise.â
Your heart swells at the natural bond already forming between father and daughter. In this moment, any lingering doubts fade away. However difficult the road ahead, together theyâll be just fine.
After another hour visiting together, itâs time for Lando to head out. Heâs clearly still anxious but also radiating love when he gazes at Gigi.
âThank you again for everything,â he says sincerely, shaking your hand. âIâll call my parents when I get home. Figure out how to break the news and beg for their help.â
He chuckles and you join in. âDonât hesitate to text me anytime. About anything.â
Lando glances down at your scrawled cell number, then back up with a crooked grin. âCareful or I might take you up on the anything part.â
You blush slightly, waving him off. âGet out of here, you charmer. Go buy a crib and get some rest. Your life is about to get very busy.â
With a laugh, Lando walks backwards toward the exit, pointing finger guns at you. âYes maâam, Dr. Y/L/N. Catch you later.â
You stand shaking your head as he disappears from view. What an interesting patient case this has turned out to be.
Over the next several weeks, you and Lando text constantly. He sends cute videos and photos of Gigi along with his near-constant questions about her care. You donât mind at all â youâre happy to guide him through this life transition.
True to his word, he quickly finds and furnishes a family-friendly luxury apartment in Monaco. He introduces Gigi to his stunned but excited parents via video call. He adjusts his training schedule to maximize time with her.
When his race travel resumes, he arranges for his parents or a local nanny to assist with Gigi full-time. Still, being apart takes an obvious toll on him.
The day before heâs set to fly to Australia for the first race of the season, Lando texts you a selfie looking forlorn, with Gigi snoozing on his chest.
Can you believe sheâs already a month old? I donât want to leave her!
You grin down at the photo. Gigiâs little rosebud lips are slightly parted as she sleeps. Landoâs staring at her adoringly despite the bags under his eyes.
I know itâs hard being away from her. But Gigi knows she has a father who loves her so much. Focus on making her proud out there!
You always know just what to say, doc. Iâll text you after the race!
You smile softly as you set down your phone. Over the past weeks, youâve found yourself looking forward to Landoâs frequent messages and photos. Heâs relieved when you reassure him heâs doing a great job as a new dad. And seeing Gigi thrive and grow under his doting care makes your heart fuller.
Professionally, your work is done now that Gigi and Lando are connected. But you canât help feeling personally invested in this little family you helped create. You make a silent vow to always be there for them both, as long as they need you.
***
Weeks later, youâre jolted awake by your ringing cellphone. Bleary-eyed, you check the time: 2:37 am. Who could be calling at this hour?
You donât recognize the number on your buzzing phone. But you answer anyway, just in case itâs an emergency.
âHello?â You mumble into the phone.
âY/N? Oh thank god!â The panicked voice on the other end makes you sit bolt upright.
Lando.
âLando? Whatâs wrong?â Worry floods your system, instantly washing away any grogginess.
âItâs Georgia,â he cries. âShe woke up crying and felt so hot. I took her temperature â itâs 39 degrees! I think she has a fever?â
Youâre already throwing off your blankets, phone tucked against your shoulder. âOkay, stay calm. How is she acting otherwise?â
âSheâs crying and really fussy. Wonât take her bottle. I donât know what to do!â Lando sounds near tears himself.
âShhh, deep breath,â you soothe. âFever in babies this young is serious. You need to take her to emergency department right away.â
âRight, emergency, of course-â Lando rambles nervously.
âIâll meet you there ASAP. Princess Grace Hospital, yes?â
âYes, please hurry!â He ends the call abruptly. You scramble for clothes with adrenaline pounding.
In under ten minutes, youâre peeling out of your driveway towards the hospital. Even at this hour, Monacoâs streets remain congested. You drum your fingers anxiously on the steering wheel, praying Georgia will be okay.
Once youâve parked, you race inside the ED doors. Your eyes scan the crowded waiting room until you spot Lando pacing in the corner, Georgia whimpering against his shoulder.
You rush over. âLando!â
He turns, relief washing over his features. âY/N, you came. Thank you.â
âOf course.â You squeeze his arm comfortingly before looking Georgia over with practiced eyes. Her cheeks are flushed, eyelids fluttering as she whines. Definitely not well.
Lando bounces lightly, trying to soothe her. âThey told me itâs at least an hour wait. Sheâs getting worse though.â His eyes glisten with tears.
Your protective instincts flare, seeing them both so distraught. Striding to the check-in desk, you put on your most authoritative voice.
âExcuse me, Iâm Dr. Y/L/N. I have an infant patient here who needs immediate evaluation.â
The nurse scans the packed waiting room. âIâm so sorry doctor, weâre doing our best. If you could just wait-â
You interrupt firmly. âThis is a seven week old with a spiking fever. She requires urgent triage and treatment, not a waiting room. I must insist we be seen next.â
The nurse purses her lips, but canât really argue with your reasoning. âOf course. Iâll let the charge nurse know to get you back immediately.â
You nod curtly before returning to Lando, who looks awed. âBlimey, remind me not to get on your bad side.â
The hint of a smile on his lips relieves you. Georgiaâs still fussy as you both follow a nurse back moments later.
In an exam room, you help transfer the baby from Landoâs arms to the table. Her pitiful crying tugs at your heart.
Lando hovers anxiously as you take Georgiaâs vitals and change her into a hospital gown. 39.1°C â higher than the concerning range for an infant. You frown in worry. Poor little love.
Soon the attending pediatrician arrives to assess her. You explain the situation from Landoâs frantic call to racing over. The doctor asks questions while examining Georgiaâs ears, throat, and reflexes. Lando clutches your hand tightly the entire time.
After what feels like an eternity, the pediatrician steps back. âGiven the fever with no apparent source, Iâm concerned this could be a serious bacterial infection. Weâll run labs to check for things like meningitis. Start IV antibiotics and paracetamol to bring her fever down quickly.â
Lando pales, swaying slightly at the onslaught of medical terms. You slip an arm around him supportively.
âYouâre saying she might have meningitis?â Lando chokes out.
The doctor holds up his hands. âItâs just one possibility. Weâre not sure yet. The labs will tell us more.â
Lando buries his face in his hands. Your heart breaks seeing his shoulders shaking.
After the doctor departs to order tests, you guide Lando to sit down, keeping an arm around him. âHey, try to breathe. Georgia needs her daddy calm and strong right now.â
Lando drags a hand over his wet eyes. âGod, Iâm trying. But sheâs so little and sick. What if ⊠what if itâs something serious?â His voice breaks again.
You turn him gently to face you, hands on his shoulders. âListen to me. Whatever is going on, we will figure it out, okay? Iâm right here with you both.â
He searches your face before nodding unsteadily. You draw him into a fierce hug.
âWeâve got this,â you whisper.
A nurse entering startles you apart. âAlright, time for labs.â
You both watch anxiously as she collects blood and other samples from a deeply unhappy Georgia. Her shrieking cries at the poking and prodding are harrowing. Lando has gone deathly pale.
Once finished, the nurse situates an IV line in Georgiaâs tiny hand, securing it with tape and popping a pacifier in her mouth. Her eyelids droop, cries fading to soft whimpers as medication starts flowing.
You glance at Lando. âWhy donât you hold her again? Skin to skin contact will help soothe you both.â
Looking relieved by the suggestion, Lando strips off his shirt and takes Georgia, nestling her against his bare chest. You drape a blanket over them before rubbing his back comfortingly.
Georgiaâs fussing settles as her father hums softly, eyes never leaving her face. The pure love between them makes your throat tighten.
Despite the uncertainty ahead, you know Georgia couldnât be in better hands. And you silently vow to remain steadfast by their side, for whatever comes next.
Eventually Georgia drifts to sleep. The pediatrician returns shortly after with test results. âGood news. All the cultures are negative so far. With the antibiotics and paracetamol, her fever is already decreasing.â
You and Lando both sigh in relief.
âSo no meningitis?â Lando asks hopefully.
The doctor shakes his head. âDoesnât appear to be. Weâll repeat testing tomorrow, but likely just a minor bacterial infection. Sheâll need to stay a few days for monitoring and fluids.â
Lando clutches Georgia closer. âAnything she needs. Thank you, doctor.â
Once youâre alone again, Lando gazes down at his sleeping daughter. âI was so scared,â he admits softly.
You nod, squeezing his shoulder. âI know. But sheâs getting great care now. Try and rest â itâs been a long night.â
Lando glances at the empty cot along the wall. âStay? Please? I ⊠I donât want to be alone right now.â His voice sounds so small and vulnerable.
Your chest tightens. âOf course.â
You help shift Lando and Georgia onto the little bed. She stirs slightly as you both get settled on either side of her.
Lando strokes Georgiaâs cheek tenderly. âMy brave girl. Youâre going to be just fine.â Glancing up, his eyes meet yours. âThank you, Y/N. For everything.â
You offer a tired smile, taking his hand. âThatâs what Iâm here for. Get some sleep.â
Exhaustion quickly pulls you under. But Landoâs hand remains wrapped firmly in yours until morning.
A strong bond has formed between the three of you. And you know that whatever the future brings, youâll be facing it together.
***
A few weeks after the scare, youâre finishing paperwork at your desk when your cell rings. Landoâs name pops up, making you smile.
Since the hospitalization, you and Lando have fallen into a routine of near daily calls and texts about Georgia. You donât mind at all â you adore hearing the latest antics and milestones of your special little patient. Not to mention Landoâs voice tends to brighten your day.
You answer warmly. âLando! How are my favorite patients today?â
He chuckles. âWell, Georgia just mastered holding her head up while on her tummy. Sheâs getting so strong! But uh, thatâs actually why Iâm calling ...â
You detect the hesitancy in his tone. âWhatâs up?â
Lando sighs. âSo McLaren just sprung a mandatory sponsorship meeting on me last minute. Itâs in like an hour. I donât have any childcare lined up though.â
You frown sympathetically. The demands of Landoâs career often collide with new parenthood. âOh no. Can you reschedule or bring Georgia with you?â
âI tried, but itâs impossible to postpone. And definitely not an ideal environment for a baby,â he laments. âI donât have any family nearby and my usual nanny said itâs too short notice.â
Your thoughts race, heart sinking at imagining his distress. âHmm. Well, do you happen to have any trusted neighbors or friends there who could babysit?â
Lando makes a frustrated noise. âIâve barely met my neighbors. And my mates, well, most are even less qualified than me for childcare. Iâm stuck.â Defeat colors his tone.
You bite your lip, hesitating only a moment before saying gently, âLando, I could come watch her.â
âWhat? Really?â He sounds stunned. âBut isnât it your day off?â
âItâs no problem, truly,â you insist. âI donât live far. Be there in fifteen?â
âI-I donât know what to say. Youâre a lifesaver, Y/N. Thank you, thank you!â Lando gushes gratefully.
You smile, already grabbing your keys. âAnytime. See you soon!â
On the drive over, butterflies flutter in your stomach. You adore Georgia, of course. But something about visiting Landoâs home, being fully immersed in his world, feels monumentally intimate.
Taking a deep breath, you remind yourself that your priority is helping a friend in need.
You park outside Landoâs sleek modern condo building and take the elevator up after checking in with the concierge. Before you can even knock, the front door swings open.
âY/N, thank god,â Lando sighs in relief. He looks unfairly attractive despite being slightly disheveled in a dress shirt and slacks. âPlease, come in.â
Stepping inside the open concept condo, your eyes sweep over minimalist furniture and racing memorabilia decorating the shelves. Cozy baby items like a playmat and bouncer provide stark contrast. Itâs uniquely Lando.
âNice place,â you remark sincerely.
âThanks. Still feels empty sometimes, but slowly making it a home for Gigi.â He smiles softly. âSpeaking of which ...â
You follow Lando down a short hallway to the nursery. Your heart melts at the sight of Georgia kicking on a playmat, wearing a pink romper with a giant bow.
Lando swoops her up, blowing raspberries on her cheek. âDaddyâs got a big important meeting, princess. But Y/N is going to play with you instead.â
He passes the baby over. Georgia gives you a gummy smile, cooing.
âThereâs my sweet girl.â You tickle her belly, eliciting a giggle. Lando beams proudly.
âAlright, her bottle is prepped in the fridge, and thereâs clean nappies on the change table. Call if you need anything at all.â
Lando leans down to kiss Georgiaâs head. âBe good for Y/N, monkey.â
With a final grateful smile your way, he heads out. You settle on the nursery floor with Georgia. âWhat adventures shall we have today, miss?â
The next few hours pass in a blur of playing, feeding, changing, and rocking little Georgia. You even manage a nap time by singing softly, something that always seemed to soothe her in the hospital.
Watching her sleep, you feel a rush of tenderness for the tiny being who has depended on you since her first moments. You vow to always be there when Lando and Georgia need you.
Soon enough, Lando returns home looking drained. But his whole face lights up seeing you and Georgia on the floor.
âHowâd it go?â He asks, crouching down to tickle her toes.
âPerfect. We had lots of fun, isnât that right, lovebug?â You hand the baby over for cuddles.
âDaddy missed you.â Lando nuzzles Georgia, before giving you a grateful smile. âI canât thank you enough. Truly. Youâre a natural with her.â
You wave off his praise, but canât deny the warm spark his words ignite.
After chatting a bit more about Georgiaâs afternoon and Landoâs meeting, itâs time for you to head out.
At the door, Lando halts you with a gentle hand on your wrist.
âHey, let me take you to dinner this week â a proper thank you,â he entreats. âAnywhere you like.â
Your pulse quickens. It sounds suspiciously close to a date. But Landoâs smiling hopefully, and you find yourself nodding before overthinking it.
âIâd love that.â
Lando grins, looking both relieved and excited. âBrilliant! Iâll text you details. Have a safe drive home.â
Strapping into your car, your thoughts race wildly. This man and his daughter have captured your heart. What started as a professional duty has grown into so much more.
As you drive away, Lando and Georgia waving from the window, you canât keep the giddy smile off your face.
Your lives are intertwining in the most marvelous ways. And you canât wait to see what adventures are in store next.
***
The following Saturday evening, you stand in front of the mirror, fussing with your hair and makeup. Glancing at the clock, you feel butterflies swarming. Lando will arrive any minute to pick you up for dinner.
You smooth non-existent wrinkles from your knee-length black dress. Itâs daringly low cut for you, but you want to feel beautiful tonight.
A buzz from your phone makes you jolt. Lando is here! Taking a deep breath, you grab your purse and hurry downstairs.
Stepping outside your apartment building, you freeze in awe. Gleaming in the golden hour sunlight is a sleek dark blue vintage supercar unlike any other youâve seen before.
The driver door opens, and Lando steps out looking devastatingly handsome in a tailored suit. He beams. âWow, Y/N. You look absolutely stunning.â
You blush at the sincerity in his warm gaze. âThank you. This is ⊠quite the car!â
Lando grins, patting the hood affectionately. âSheâs my baby â a Lamborghini Miura. Isnât she a beauty?â
You take in the aerodynamic lines and what you can only assume is a very powerful engine. âGorgeous. And probably costs more than my yearly income.â
Lando laughs. âBut sheâs perfect for impressing a lovely date.â He winks before opening the passenger door for you.
You carefully climb in, hyper aware of the tiny black dress riding up your thighs. Landoâs eyes trace your legs appreciatively as you smooth your skirt.
Soon youâre zipping through the seaside city, wind whipping your hair through the open windows. Lando navigates the roads expertly.
He glances your way. âHope this is alright! Wanted to take the fun car out while the weather holds up.â
You grin at him. âAre you kidding? I feel like a movie star!â
He looks delighted, picking up speed as you both relax into the ride.
Before long, you pull up at the legendary Hotel de Paris Monte-Carlo. A uniformed valet opens your door. Taking the proffered hand, you step out feeling like a princess.
Lando offers his arm. âShall we?â
Inside the opulent restaurant, youâre quickly shown to an intimate table beside a window overlooking the glittering Mediterranean sea. Soft piano music fills the space.
âLando, this is incredible,â you breathe, taking it all in.
He smiles, eyes never leaving your face. âOnly the best for you.â
You blush again at his sincerity. A waiter appears to take your drink order. When you request just water, Lando insists you pick any wine on the menu.
You settle on a creamy chardonnay that pairs perfectly with your scallops and Landoâs steak. Thoughtful touches like him pulling out your chair or refilling your wine glass make the lavish meal all the more special.
The conversation flows effortlessly from racing to traveling to favourite films and music. More than once, Landoâs foot brushes yours beneath the table, sending sparks skittering across your skin.
After dessert, you both linger over coffee, hands unconsciously joined on the pristine tablecloth between you. The connection humming between you feels profound.
When Lando finally checks his watch with a reluctant sigh, youâre surprised to see youâve been there for over three hours. It felt like mere minutes.
On the drive back, you steal glances at his sharp profile in the fading light. Joy bubbles inside you. The evening exceeded your wildest expectations.
Too soon, youâre pulling up outside your building. Lando hurries around to open your door, ever the gentleman. Clasping his hand, you step out onto the curb together.
Turning, you find him watching you closely. âI had the most wonderful time tonight,â you say sincerely.
Landoâs face breaks into a grin. âTruly magical. Thank you for coming, Y/N.â He squeezes your hand, thumb tracing delicate circles.
On impulse, you lean up and press a soft kiss to his cheek. âGoodnight, Lando.â
With a final squeeze of his hand, you turn and walk inside, casting a coy look back to see him touching his cheek in wonder.
Safely in your apartment, you kick off your heels, collapsing onto the sofa with a giddy smile. The evening played in your mind like a movie â the fancy car, exquisite dinner, effortless conversation. And that powerful connection with Lando blossoming into something new and tender.
What started as a professional relationship has organically grown into a deep friendship over your shared love of little Georgia. But tonight awoke a yearning for more. You sensed the same from Lando in the way he looked at you â with affection, wonder, and desire.
You drift off on the couch still reliving each vivid moment. This feels like the start of something life changing.
Meanwhile, Lando remains fixed outside your building, fingers brushing the spot your lips graced. The soft press seared an imprint deep within him.
People had warned him pursuing anything romantic with Georgiaâs physician was unwise. But from the instant he saw you holding his fragile newborn girl, instinct told him you were special. That only grew each day as your compassion and devotion soothed his frightened heart.
Tonight confirmed what he felt blooming for weeks now â heâs completely enchanted by you.
With your laughter still echoing in his mind, Lando finally drives off into the night. He knows his future, wherever it leads, must have you and Georgia in it. Heâs falling, fast and hard.
And for once, recklessly chasing his heart feels entirely right. He just hopes youâll take this leap with him.
***
On a sunny afternoon, youâre sitting cross-legged on Landoâs living room rug playing with Georgia. At nearly four months old now, sheâs mastered rolling over and absolutely loves tummy time.
You grin as she determinedly pushes up on her hands, rocking back and forth. âThatâs it, clever girl! Youâve almost got it.â
Georgia gives you a gummy smile before toppling over with a huff. Behind you, Lando chuckles from the couch where heâs on hold with a takeaway place.
âI swear she gets more stubborn every day. Definitely takes after me,â he remarks fondly.
You smile. âShe knows what she wants and isnât afraid to work for it. Sound familiar?â
Lando laughs. âToo right. At this rate, sheâll be racing cars herself soon.â
Youâre about to respond when the sound of the front door opening makes you both freeze. Before you can react, an accented female voice calls out excitedly.
âLando, darling! Surprise, weâve come to visit!â
Lando flies off the couch just as his parents round the corner. âMum! Dad! What are you doing here?â
He embraces them both tightly while you hover awkwardly behind Georgia. What must Landoâs family think finding a strange woman playing with their grandchild?
But before you can open your mouth to explain, Landoâs mum spots you. Her face lights up. âY/N! How wonderful to finally meet you in person!â
To your shock, she swoops down and hugs you like a long lost relative. Bewildered, you return the embrace.
Over her shoulder, Lando rubs his neck sheepishly. âYeah, I may have told them a fair bit about you and Gigi ...â
His father approaches next, politely shaking your hand. âLando speaks very highly of you, Y/N. Thank you for taking such good care of our boy and the little one.â
âOh, um, of course!â You manage to stammer out. Lando mentioned you to his parents? The thought makes your heart flutter wildly.
Before you can dwell on it, Georgia lets out an impatient shriek from her abandoned tummy time.
Cisca gasps, immediately scooping her up. âOh my goodness, look how big youâve gotten, baby girl!â She tickles Georgiaâs belly, eliciting sweet giggles.
Lando smiles softly at the sight. You feel privileged to witness this intimate family moment.
Soon youâre all seated around the living room, chatting comfortably. Adam keeps throwing not-so-subtle winks Landoâs way whenever you and Cisca fawn over Georgia together. Lando just shakes his head, cheeks slightly flushed.
Later, his parents insist on taking you both out to dinner at a nice restaurant. Over the meal, you observe how Ciscaâs animated mannerisms and Adamâs dry wit remind you so much of Lando. He clearly inherited the best of both.
Walking back to the car afterwards, Cisca links her arm through yours fondly. âIâm just thrilled Lando has you looking after him and little Georgia. It takes a very special woman to so selflessly love and support someone elseâs child.â
You squeeze her arm, touched. âWell, they make it easy. Iâd do anything for those two.â
Cisca pats your hand knowingly. âI can see that, dear. Donât ever let my son take that for granted.â
Glancing ahead, you watch Lando swinging a sleepy Georgia in his arms, gazing down at her with pure adoration. Your heart clenches.
âI donât think thatâs possible. Heâs the most devoted father imaginable,â you reply softly.
Cisca follows your gaze, smiling. âHe is at that. Just like his own.â
Adam wraps an arm around his wife, kissing her temple. Cisca leans into him with a contented sigh. Their easy intimacy and abiding love is relationship goals.
You find yourself sneaking another peek at Lando, imagining strolling arm in arm like that one day. But itâs too soon for such daydreams.
Still, meeting his wonderful parents today, seeing how he talks about you ⊠it feels like things are shifting into place.
That night, as Lando walks you to your car, he stops you with a hand on your wrist. âThank you again for today. You were brilliant with my parents â theyâre absolutely smitten.â
You grin. âTheyâre lovely. I see where you get it from.â
Lando rolls his eyes but smiles bashfully. An impulse has you leaning in to kiss his cheek.
âGoodnight, Lando.â With a little wave, you slip into your car before he can respond.
But the awestruck look on Landoâs face stays with you the whole drive home. Something big is on the horizon, you can feel it.
And if the way his family embraced you today is any indication, you have their full support too. Youâve never been more excited about what the future holds.
***
A few days later, youâre rushing around your apartment getting ready. Lando invited you over for dinner and a movie tonight while his parents watch Georgia. Youâve been looking forward to the rare child-free evening all week.
After debating outfit options, you decide on form fitting jeans and a silky camisole. Casual yet flirty. Dabbing on a bit of perfume, you check yourself in the mirror. You want to knock his socks off.
Precisely at six, your phone chimes with a text from Lando that heâs waiting outside. Taking a deep breath, you go meet him.
As expected, he looks effortlessly handsome leaning against his flashy car grinning at you. âWell donât you look gorgeous tonight,â he remarks, opening your door.
You smirk, settling into the low seat. âNot looking too bad yourself, Mr. Norris.â
Lando just winks before speeding off into the golden hour sunlight. You chat easily throughout the short drive about your days apart. When you mention missing Georgia, Lando smiles softly.
âMe too, constantly. But sheâs in great hands with my parents tonight.â Reaching over, he gives your hand an affectionate squeeze that makes your heart race.
Soon you pull up outside Landoâs sleek condo building. He leads you upstairs, fingers entwined.
Inside, mouthwatering aromas fill the air. You follow Lando to the kitchen where pots bubble away on the stove.
âI hope youâre hungry. My dadâs recipe for chicken curry.â Lando stirs one of the pots before glancing at you shyly. âI may have been practicing all week.â
You grin, touched that he went to such effort. âIt smells incredible! I didnât know you could cook.â
âFull of surprises.â Lando winks. âNow you just relax while I finish up.â
You perch at the kitchen island while Lando works. The domesticity of it all makes your chest feel warm. You could definitely get used to this.
Soon dinner is served along with a crisp white wine. You compliment Lando between bites, making him preen. Everything is delicious.
Over dessert, your feet become entangled beneath the small table. The simmering looks passing between you leave no doubt this is a date.
With dishes cleared, Lando leads you to the living room. âNow, the entertainment portion of the evening.â He gestures grandly towards the large TV.
You settle onto the plush grey sectional while Lando queues up your chosen rom-com. Before pressing play, he pauses.
âDo you maybe want to get more comfortable?â He gestures to the blanket and abundance of throw pillows nearby.
You smile, touched at how heâs trying to create a cozy movie watching environment. âThat sounds perfect.â
Working together, you both strip down to t-shirts and lounge pants, then arrange the pillows and blankets into a comfy nest. Your heart races at the intimacy of it all.
Lando opens his arms for you to curl against his chest. You sigh, breathing in his comforting scent. His steady heartbeat thrums beneath your ear as the movie starts.
About halfway through, you glance up to see Lando staring down at you tenderly, movie forgotten. He brushes a strand of hair from your face, fingers trailing down to tilt your chin up. Eyes fluttering shut, you lean in as his lips meet yours in a soft, lingering kiss.
Everything around you fades away. The only sensation is Landoâs gentle lips moving with yours, laced with warmth and affection.
When you finally break apart, faces lingering close, he exhales shakily. âWow. That was ...â
âPerfect,â you whisper, caressing his stubbled cheek. Lando nuzzles into your touch.
âIâve wanted to do that for a very long time,â he admits with a crooked smile.
You grin. âWhat took you so long?â
Lando laughs, pulling you closer again. Your lips find their way back together naturally. With your legs entwined and his hand trailing up and down your back, you lose all track of time and space.
Eventually you pull back just to catch your breath, lips pleasantly swollen. Lando strokes your hair tenderly.
âY/N, you must know by now how truly special you are to me. From the moment we met, I felt fate bringing us together. And I never want to let you go.â His eyes search yours intently.
Your pulse quickens. âLando ...â
âWhat Iâm trying to say is ...â He takes a deep breath. âWill you be my girlfriend? Officially?â
Joy erupts inside you as you throw your arms around his neck. âYes, Iâd love nothing more!â
Landoâs delighted laughter vibrates against you as he squeezes you tight. You stay locked in an embrace, trading giddy kisses until sleepiness inevitably sets in.
Lando carries you to bed, tucking you both under the covers with your head pillowed on his chest. You drift off smiling, his steady heartbeat your lullaby.
Waking wrapped in Landoâs arms the next morning feels like pure bliss. He stirs, blinking awake to see you watching him fondly.
âMorning, beautiful.â Lando caresses your cheek before capturing your lips in a tender good morning kiss.
You hum contentedly. âI could get very used to this.â
âWell luckily, youâre my girlfriend now. So youâre stuck with me.â He grins playfully.
You snuggle impossibly closer. âWouldnât want it any other way.â
***
On a sunny spring morning, youâre in Landoâs kitchen pureeing some bananas for Georgiaâs breakfast. At nearly one year old now, sheâs mastered eating soft finger foods.
Lando wanders in with Georgia propped on his hip, her dark curls tied up in adorable pigtails. âSomeoneâs ready for her breakfast!â
You grin, smoothing Georgiaâs hair back to kiss her chubby cheek. âMorning, my darling! Got your bananas all ready.â
Lando settles Georgia into her high chair, handing you her baby spoon shaped like a rabbit. âNot sure whoâs more excited about mealtimes now, her or me,â he jokes.
You laugh. âGotta get our girl fed so she has energy to get into everything!â
Georgia bangs her hands impatiently on the tray until you scoop up a spoonful of bananas. âAlright, here comes the Formula 1 car!â
You zoom the spoon around playfully before popping it in her mouth. Georgia squeals in delight, kicking her little feet.
Lando leans against the counter smiling as you continue taking turns feeding her. When the last bites are finished, he grabs a washcloth to wipe Georgiaâs sticky face and hands.
âWhoâs my big girl eating like such a pro?â He coos, tickling her belly. Georgia dissolves into adorable giggles.
Setting the washcloth down, Lando brushes a stray banana strand from her hair. âYouâre the sweetest, most beautiful girl in the whole world. Yes you are!â
Georgia beams up at him, waving her hands excitedly. Then clear as day, she exclaims âMama!â
You freeze in shock. Did she just ...
Landoâs eyes fly to yours, equally stunned. An awkward tension instantly permeates the room.
âI-I never encouraged that, I swear,â Lando rushes to explain, panicked. âI always call you by name when I talk about you to her.â
âNo no, of course, I didnât think-â You halt, flustered. âI would never try to make her call me ...â You canât even say it, heart pounding wildly.
A heavy silence falls. You avert your eyes, anxiously twisting the washcloth between your hands.
Lando scrubs a hand down his face. âIâm so sorry, I donât know why she ...â He trails off helplessly.
After a long pause, Lando touches your arm gently. âHey, look at me?â
You reluctantly meet his earnest gaze. Lando takes your hands in his, tone serious.
âY/N, you must know how much I respect your role in Georgiaâs life. Weâre partners in this, fully. I would never try to force a maternal label on you.â
His obvious sincerity makes you instantly relax. Offering a small smile, you squeeze his hands.
âOf course. I didnât think that. It just took me by surprise is all.â You take a deep breath before continuing hesitantly.
âBut, well ⊠the idea of Georgia seeing me that way doesnât scare me. Not if it happens naturally.â You chance a glance at Lando through your lashes.
His eyes soften. âTruly?â At your shy nod, a smile spreads across his face.
âBecause, well, I was thinking the same.â Lando cradles your face between his palms. âYou already are a mum to her in every way that matters.â
You release a breath you didnât realize you were holding. Joy and relief flood your system.
Georgia makes an impatient noise, breaking the tender spell. You both chuckle.
Lando lifts her from the chair into his arms. âDonât worry princess, your mama isnât going anywhere.â
Hearing those words from Lando sends your heart soaring. You join the cuddle, Georgia nestled happily between you.
âOur sweet girl,â Lando murmurs, meeting your gaze over her little head. The pure love reflected back at you erases any lingering doubts.
You place a soft kiss to Georgiaâs curls, then lean up to capture Landoâs lips. The promise of your future together never felt stronger.
Many more milestones await, for Georgia and your relationship both. But you know without question that the bonds between you three will only continue growing deeper.
Of all the twists and turns on this journey, your little family is the sweetest gift of all.
***
The day of the Monaco Grand Prix dawns bright and clear. You finish braiding Georgiaâs hair as she babbles happily. At 18 months old now, her vocabulary expands daily.
âThere we go, pretty girl! All set to cheer on Daddy!â
Georgia grins. âDada race!â
You smile, smoothing her dress. âThatâs right, darling!â
A knock sounds right before Lando pokes his head into the nursery. âMy two favorite girls about ready?â
Scooping up Georgia, you turn so he can admire her race day outfit. âWell donât we look beautiful!â Lando tickles Georgiaâs tummy before pulling you both into a hug.
âI canât tell you how much it means to have you both here today,â he says softly.
You squeeze him tight. As a pediatrician, getting full weekends off for races proved nearly impossible. But for Monaco, you moved mountains.
âWe wouldnât miss it for the world,â you assure him. Landoâs responding smile warms your heart.
The energy at the track is electric. Georgiaâs eyes widen taking in all the sights and sounds. You carry her through the paddock towards the McLaren garage, Lando greeting various people along the way.
Inside, Lando steals a quick kiss. âI better go get suited up. See you after?â
You nod, adjusting a squirmy Georgia on your hip. âWeâll be cheering the loudest!â
Lando changes into his race suit, then leads you both over to his car. Georgia is mesmerized, reaching a tiny hand towards the shiny machine.
âThatâs right munchkin, this is what Daddy drives!â Lando points out key features, then grabs a helmet from a crew member.
âWant to try it on?â Not waiting for an answer, Lando gently fits the helmet over Georgiaâs curls. She immediately shrieks in delight.
Laughing, Lando scoops her up, zooming her around like sheâs driving. âLook at you, a future champion in the making!â
You snap some photos of the adorable scene until itâs time for Lando to go off with his performance coach. After one last kiss for both of you, he disappears into the controlled pre-race chaos.
An assistant escorts you to the McLaren hospitality suite overlooking the pit lane. The view of the gleaming harbor and yachts reminds you this race is unlike anywhere else.
As start time nears, you cuddle a restless Georgia close, pointing out Landoâs car lined up on the grid. âSee? Thereâs Daddy! Heâs about to go racing.â Her little brow furrows, not quite understanding.
When the lights go out, Georgia startles at the loud roar of engines. Rubbing her back soothingly, you keep your eyes glued to the screen as the cars hurtle towards the tight first corner bottleneck.
âCome on Lando,â you murmur under your breath. He emerges from the chaos in 4th position. Off to a promising start.
Over the next 90 minutes, you fluctuate between pure elation and anxiety as the race unfolds. A collision forces Lando to pit unexpectedly. Just as your heart rate settles, another car spins right in front of him, spraying debris across the track.
But Lando holds his nerve, keeping the car under control to cross the line in P3. You leap up, cheering loudly with Georgia.
Soon Lando emerges, hair damp from the obligatory champagne shower.
His race suit is unzipped to the waist as he sweeps you both into an exuberant hug. âYou did so good,â you murmur into his neck. Pulling back, Lando caresses Georgiaâs head where it rests heavily on your shoulder.
âLittle one tuckered herself out cheering for Daddy, hmm?â He takes her gently as she nuzzles into his chest with a yawn.
âLetâs get my best girls home.â With Georgia cradled in one arm and the other around your waist, Lando leads you out of the paddock like a proud family man. Your heart feels fit to burst.
That night after Georgia is tucked into bed, you curl up together on the couch. The TV plays highlights of the race you lived firsthand.
Lando absently strokes your hair. âYou know, the lads invited me out to celebrate tonight.â
You lift your head. âOh really? You should go have fun!â
But Lando just smiles, pulling you closer. âAnd miss this? Not a chance.â He kisses you tenderly. âPartying in Monaco holds nothing on being with my two favorite people.â
You kiss him again, touched. However far Landoâs career takes him, you know his heart will remain right here with you and Georgia.
***
Summer finally arrives, bringing a short respite between races for Lando. Eager to make the most of it, you suggest visiting your hometown to introduce him and Georgia to your parents.
âTheyâd love to finally meet you both,â you say over breakfast one morning.
Lando smiles, reaching across the table to squeeze your hand. âThat sounds brilliant, love. I canât wait to see where you grew up.â
You grin excitedly. âItâs nothing glamorous like Monaco. But I have so many good memories there.â
With plans made, you set off early one sunny Saturday morning, boarding a flight with Georgia securely buckled into her carrier. She babbles happily for most of the flight, enchanted by the clouds and miniature landscape passing below. Lando keeps one hand firmly clasped in yours the entire time.
Late afternoon, you finally pull up outside the cozy house you grew up in. Taking a deep breath, you unbuckle a sleepy Georgia from her seat.
âWeâre here, Gigi! Ready to meet Grandma and Grandpa?â
She rubs her eyes with a tiny fist, still drowsy. Lando comes around to lift her into his arms.
âSomeoneâs a bit tired from all the traveling, huh? Maybe a quick nap first?â He kisses Georgiaâs fuzzy head as she snuggles into his shoulder.
You nod, smoothing down her rumpled sundress. Taking Landoâs free hand, you head up the front walk.
Before you can even knock, the front door swings open. Your mum stands beaming at the threshold.
âY/N! Oh, let me see her!â She sweeps you into a tight hug before immediately cooing over a now awake Georgia. âWhat an absolute darling!â
You grin. âMom, meet your granddaughter, Georgia.â Saying it out loud sends a little thrill through you.
Your mother gently strokes Georgiaâs dark curls. âLook at all this beautiful hair! Those eyes are all her daddy though.â She smiles warmly at Lando.
âItâs lovely to finally meet you, Mrs. Y/L/N,â Lando says politely, shaking her extended hand.
âOh please, call me Y/M/N! Now come in, come in!â She ushers you both inside the familiar cozy house.
Your dad appears from his office to exchange hearty handshakes and hugs. Lando looks slightly overwhelmed by the enthusiastic welcome.
Sensing this, you squeeze his arm reassuringly. âWhy donât I put Georgia down for her nap? You guys chat.â
Lando shoots you a grateful smile. You disappear down the hall to your childhood bedroom, now converted to a cozy nursery space. Georgia is out like a light before youâve even finished tucking her in.
Returning to the living room, you pause in the doorway, heart swelling at the scene. Lando sits between your parents on the sofa as they animatedly show him your baby photos. His eyes shine taking it all in. This is the sense of family heâs long craved.
Eventually Georgia wakes, cranky and clingy. You scoop her up, breathing in that sweet baby scent as you rub her back.
âI know, lots of new things happening today. But youâre being so brave.â Dropping a kiss to her curls, you return to the living room.
Your mother immediately reaches for Georgia, who goes willingly into her arms. âCome sit with Grandma, sweetheart.â
Settling on the couch between your parents again, Lando slips an arm around your shoulders. Georgia babbles happily from your motherâs lap.
The rest of the day passes comfortably as your parents dote on their new granddaughter. Watching your mom help Georgia toddle around the yard, your dad pushing her on the tree swing, Landoâs arm stays wrapped securely around you.
That night after Georgia is down, you find Lando out on the back porch gazing up at the stars. You join him on the steps, leaning your head on his shoulder.
âYou okay?â
Lando looks down at you with a soft smile. âMore than. Today was really special.â
He brushes a strand of hair from your face. âSeeing how your parents just immediately welcomed us into the family ⊠it means everything. I never expected to find this.â His voice turns thick with emotion.
You lift your head to meet his sincere gaze, heart brimming over. No words needed, you convey it all in a tender kiss.
When you eventually pull apart, foreheads touching, Lando exhales shakily. âBeing here with you and Gigi, it just feels so right. Like we were always meant to be a family.â
Joyful tears prick your eyes hearing him voice the same feeling living inside you. You cradle his face gently.
âWe were, Lando. From that very first day in the hospital, I knew fate brought us together for a reason.â
Landoâs responding smile could outshine the moon and stars overhead. He kisses you again, soft and unhurried, arms encircling you on that familiar back porch.
***
Two years to the day after that fateful first meeting, youâre finishing rounds in the maternity ward when your supervisor requests you in her office. Brow furrowed, you make your way down the hall and knock lightly.
âCome in!â
You step inside to find her beaming behind her desk. âY/N! Please, have a seat.â
Perplexed, you settle into the plush chair across from her. âIs everything okay?â
âBetter than okay, Iâd say.â She grins and slides an official document across the desk towards you. âTake a look at this.â
You scan the letter, eyes widening. Itâs a notice of a 250,000 euro donation to the hospitalâs maternity ward and nursery ⊠made in your name.
âWhat? This must be a mistake, I didnât ...â You trail off, completely baffled.
Your supervisor laughs. âOh itâs quite real, I assure you. In fact, the donor himself insisted on being here today to celebrate.â
Before you can respond, a knock sounds. You turn to see Lando stroll in, right on cue, with a grinning Georgia perched on his hip.
âLando!â You gasp. âDid you ⊠is this from you?â
He smiles almost shyly, setting Georgia down so she can toddle over to you. âWanted to do something meaningful to mark the anniversary of when we first met.â
You stand frozen in shock as Georgia crashes into your legs. Scooping her up, you turn back to Lando with tears in your eyes.
âThis is too much, I ⊠I donât know what to say.â You glance between him and your equally emotional supervisor.
Lando moves closer, taking your hands in his. âSay youâll come with me for a proper celebration? Just the three of us?â He brushes his thumbs over your knuckles, eyes twinkling.
Unable to form words, you simply nod. Landoâs face lights up with that smile that still makes your heart skip.
After signing some paperwork and hugging your supervisor profusely, you allow Lando to lead you out to the car, Georgia babbling happily between you. But instead of heading home, he drives to the glittering harbor front.
There, you gasp to see a magnificent yacht floating ready at the dock. A crew in crisp white uniforms wait nearby.
Lando grins at your stunned reaction. âTold you weâre celebrating in style today!â
The staff smiles warmly as you board, cooing over Georgia toddling around excitedly. She especially loves watching the foam trail behind the yacht as it pulls away from shore.
You stand wrapped in Landoâs arms, his chin resting on your shoulder. âI still canât believe you did all this,â you murmur.
Lando presses a kiss to your temple. âYou deserve it all and more, my love.â
You pass a blissful afternoon on the water, enjoying a gourmet lunch and each otherâs company. Lando is attentive as ever, making sure you want for nothing.
As the sun dips low, a crew member approaches. âSo sorry to interrupt, but weâll be arriving shortly. Please follow me downstairs to prepare.â
You glance questioningly at Lando, but he just smiles and urges you to follow with Georgia. Down in your luxurious cabin, an elegant evening gown awaits on the bed alongside a tiny version for Georgia.
Your heart flutters wildly now. Lando is clearly planning something major. You help Georgia into her dress, your hands shaking slightly with anticipation.
A knock at the door announces the crew member has returned. âWeâve arrived back at port, whenever youâre ready.â
Back up top, Lando stands waiting in a sharp suit, holding a bouquet of roses. He looks devastatingly handsome.
Taking your hand, he leads you down the gangplank onto the dock where a car waits to whisk you away into the hills overlooking the sea. The sunset bathes everything in golden light.
When the car stops at a secluded lookout point, Lando helps you out then retrieves a sleepy Georgia. Hand in hand, you approach the cliff edge.
Down below, a massive light display flashes to life along the shoreline. You gasp as the glowing words become clear:
Y/N, will you marry me?
You clap a hand over your mouth, spinning to Lando with tears pooling in your eyes. Heâs down on one knee, Georgia sitting next to him playing with flower petals.
âTwo years ago, you came into our lives and changed everything,â Lando begins emotionally. âYour compassion and selflessness as a doctor saved my fragile new family.â
He takes a shaky breath. âBut you gave me so much more than that. Your kindness, your beauty inside and out, your incredible love for me and Georgia ⊠youâre my dream come true.â
Tears spill freely down your cheeks as Lando pulls out a glittering diamond ring. âSo Y/N Y/L/N, nothing would make me happier than for you to officially become my family. Will you marry me?â
A joyful sob escapes you as you sink down, throwing your arms around him. âYes, Lando, a million times yes!â
His relieved laughter vibrates against you. When you pull back, Lando takes your hand gently to slide the exquisite ring onto your finger. A perfect fit.
Georgia seems to sense the significance of the moment and toddles over to wrap her little arms around your legs. You lift her into a fierce hug between you.
âI love you both so very much,â you whisper emotionally. Landoâs responding smile outshines the luminous lights along the shore.
Cradling your faces in his hands, he seals his proposal with the sweetest kiss as the sunset fades to twilight.
You linger wrapped in Landoâs arms, Georgia nestled between you, as the first stars emerge overhead. Right here, surrounded by your little family, youâve never felt happier or more at peace.
Itâs extraordinary what two short years can bring â unexpected joy, profound purpose, and a love greater than you dared dream.
The brightest days are still ahead. But tonight, in this perfect moment, you know youâve already found everything youâll ever need.
***
The day of your wedding to Lando dawns bright and sunny â perfect weather for an outdoor ceremony overlooking the glittering Mediterranean sea.
Inside the bridal suite, your mother puts the final pins in your elegant updo while your bridesmaids fuss over the train of your lace gown.
A knock at the door announces your fatherâs arrival. When you turn to face him in your wedding finery, his eyes well up.
âOh sweetheart ⊠you look absolutely beautiful.â
You immediately tear up too, embracing him tightly. âDonât make me ruin my makeup before Iâve even walked down the aisle!â
He laughs wetly, dabbing at his eyes with a handkerchief. âCouldnât help it! My girl is all grown up.â
Looking in the mirror, you hardly recognize yourself in the exquisite dress and pinned-back curls. But the overwhelmed bride staring back has the same little girl dreams you harbored all those years ago. Dreams that are finally coming true today.
Another quick knock precedes Georgia toddling in, chubby legs pumping. Your flower girl is absolutely angelic in her silky dress.
âMama, pwetty!â She declares, rushing over for cuddles. You scoop her up, breathing in that sweet baby scent you adore.
âYou look so beautiful, my love.â Blinking back fresh tears, you smooth down her unruly curls. âReady to walk down the aisle with flowers?â
Georgia just grins and reaches for your necklace. You tickle her belly, making her dissolve into adorable giggles. Your heart swells with love for your daughter.
Too soon, the wedding coordinator is poking her head in. âSorry to interrupt, but itâs just about time!â
Butterflies erupt as everyone hustles to line up. Your father tucks your arm through his, beaming with pride. Just outside the doors, Georgia toddles down the petal-strewn aisle ahead of you both.
Then the soaring orchestral processional begins, and you step out into the golden afternoon sunlight. Gasps and murmurs rise at the sight of your dramatic gown trailing behind.
But your eyes lock instantly on Lando under the flower-woven arch, looking devastatingly handsome in his slate grey suit. His face lights up, and you know that your own mirrors the same wonder and joy.
The ceremony passes in a blur of emotions. Before you know it, the officiant instructs you and Lando to face each other and take hands. Time for the vows.
You go first, hands shaking as you pull out your prepared words. But speaking from the heart comes easily.
âLando, when we first met under the most unexpected circumstances, I had no idea of the amazing journey weâd go on together. My job was to ensure your new daughter received the care she deserved.â
Your voice wavers slightly. âBut so quickly, you both became so much more. Being welcomed into your family was the greatest gift. Watching Georgia grow, guiding her first steps and words ...â
You have to pause, blinking back more tears. Lando squeezes your hands encouragingly.
Composing yourself, you continue thickly, âI vow to always provide that same nurturing love and support. I promise to be your safe place to call home after long days apart. And I pledge to show our daughter daily what it means to be a strong, compassionate woman.â
Taking a shaky breath, you finish softly, âYou two are my entire world. Loving you is lifeâs greatest joy.â
Landoâs eyes glisten as he brushes away the single tear trailing down your cheek. His thumbs linger, cradling your face tenderly.
Clearing his throat, he begins his own vows, voice wavering with emotion. âY/N, you appeared in my life like an angel that frightening day at the hospital. I was so lost, overwhelmed by the massive responsibility of suddenly having Georgia.â
He glances down at your joined hands. âBut your compassion and wisdom guided me through those uncertain early days. You made us feel safe.â
Looking up, his eyes pierce yours intensely. âWhat started as our doctor-patient relationship grew into the most important friendship Iâve ever known. And then, miraculously, into true, deep love. Thank you for loving Georgia as your own and showing me what true partnership means.â
Landoâs voice cracks. He pauses to take a shaky breath. âSo I vow to spend every day reciprocating that love and support. I promise to shield you from the chaos of my world and provide a peaceful home for our family.â
Then he turns, taking a folded paper from the best man. âI asked Georgia if she wanted to say anything to her mama today.â
He opens it to reveal a drawing of three stick figures, one much smaller than the others. Scribbled hearts surround you all.
Landoâs voice thickens. âShe said to tell you she loves you âthis muchâ and that youâre the best mama ever.â
A sob escapes you as Lando refolds the cherished drawing and hands it over. You press it to your heart, blinking back a fresh wave of tears.
Finally, you slip the wedding bands onto each otherâs fingers with whispered words of eternal love and commitment.
When the officiant pronounces you husband and wife, Lando sweeps you into his arms for the kind of kiss that steals your breath and stops time.
You are finally, officially, wholeheartedly one.
The reception flies by in more happy tears, moving speeches, delicious food, and dancing under the stars. Watching Lando twirl Georgia around the floor tugs at your heart.
Later, as you slow dance wrapped in your new husbandâs arms, Lando kisses your hair and whispers, âReady for this new adventure together, Dr. Y/L/N-Norris?â
You beam up at him. âAbsolutely. Lead the way, Mr. Norris.â
No matter where life takes you next on this journey, your family will thrive and grow stronger. Landoâs love lifts you up in ways you never imagined possible. And you vow to cherish and repay that gift until your last breath.
***
Returning home from a blissful honeymoon, you settle back into domestic life with Lando and Georgia. Mornings are spent over pancakes, playing hide and seek, and dancing around the living room. The pure joy of your little family never ceases to warm your heart.
One evening after putting Georgia to bed, you curl up with Lando on the couch and hesitantly broach something youâve been thinking about.
âSo I wanted to discuss something with you. Itâs just an idea, and please donât feel pressured at all.â You take a deep breath. âWhat would you think about me officially adopting Gigi?â
Landoâs eyes widen in surprise. You rush to continue explaining.
âI donât want you to think I need a piece of paper to love her with my whole heart, because I already do. More than anything in this world.â Your voice cracks slightly.
Reaching out, you grasp his hands. âI just want to make sure that no matter what, I have a legal right to take care of her. But only if youâre completely comfortable with it!â
Lando is quiet for a long moment, studying your anxious face. Then a smile spreads across his face. âLove, I think itâs a beautiful idea.â
You sag in relief. âTruly? I wasnât sure if it was too much ...â
Lando silences you with a tender kiss. âGigi is the luckiest girl in the world to have you as her mum. I want the whole world to know that too.â
Tears prick your eyes as Lando caresses your cheek. âThe day you promised to love Georgia as your own was the moment I knew you were different. I see how you are with her â the time, the care, the unconditional love ...â His voice cracks slightly.
âYou gave us the greatest gift. I want you to have the same security that sheâll always be yours.â
A single tear traces down your cheek. Lando brushes it away gently before drawing you into his arms. You cling to him, heart overflowing with love and gratitude.
When you finally pull back, Lando is dabbing at his own eyes. âSo,â he says with a watery chuckle, âHow do we make this official?â
You explain the process â paperwork, a hearing, lawyer fees. He waves it all off.
âWhatever it takes. Iâll call our attorney first thing tomorrow.â Lando squeezes you tight. âSoon youâll legally be Gigiâs mum too!â
You grin and kiss him soundly. With Lando fully on board, excitement takes root.
Over the next weeks, you go through the steps â filing petitions, scheduling court dates, and explaining the process in age-appropriate ways to an occasionally grumpy Georgia when she canât go play outside instead.
Finally, the big day arrives. You dress Georgia in her favorite pink checkered dress and do her hair in perfect pigtails.
âMy beautiful girl,â you murmur, smoothing down a flyaway curl. Her answering smile melts your heart.
At the courthouse, you all meet the social worker assigned to your case. She questions you and Lando gently about your relationship, home life, and approach to parenting. You cling tight to Landoâs hand the entire time.
Finally, itâs time for the hearing before a grandfatherly judge. He smiles warmly, peering over his glasses at you all.
âWell, I must say, this is one of the more straightforward cases to come before me. I can see clear as day how much love exists in this family.â
Relief floods you. The judge continues, âTherefore, I am more than pleased to grant the petition to finalize the adoption of Georgia Senna Norris by her mother, Y/N Y/L/N-Norris.â He bangs his gavel with an air of finality.
Joyful tears pour down your face. Lando whoops and sweeps you into a spinning hug. Even Georgia seems to realize something momentous just occurred, clapping her little hands.
In a daze, you sign the final paperwork making it official before emerging from the courthouse into the warm sunlight, your family now fully complete.
That evening, after Georgia is asleep, you curl up with Lando in bed, reliving the special day. He kisses your hair and murmurs, âIâm so proud of you, Mama.â
You grin against his chest. âI never thought I could feel so much love. Sheâs changed my life in every way.â
Lando tilts your chin up, eyes glowing. âThatâs exactly how I feel about you. My girls who make life beautiful.â
***
One sunny afternoon, youâre in the kitchen prepping a snack for four-year-old Georgia when she comes bounding in from preschool.
âMummy, guess what? My friend Amy at school is gonna be a big sister!â She hops up on her stool, eyes bright with excitement.
âOh really? Thatâs fun!â You slice an apple into bunny shapes.
Georgia nods vigorously. âYeah! Her mum has a baby in her tummy. Can I have a brother or sister in your tummy too?â
You freeze, knife hovering over the apple. Slowly setting it down, you turn to face her. âYou want a little sibling?â
âYes yes yes!â She bounces in her seat. âI asked Daddy already and he said I should ask you too.â
Your mind spins. A baby ⊠itâs something you and Lando have only vaguely discussed as a someday possibility. But with Georgia asking so eagerly, the concept suddenly feels very real.
Just then, Lando walks in from his office. Georgia immediately appeals to him. âDaddy, tell Mummy we should have a baby! I wanna be a big sister.â
Lando meets your startled gaze, scrubbing a hand through his curls. âWell, uh, what do you think, love? Could be kinda nice to add to our crew.â
You glance between their hopeful faces, heart swelling. âI think ⊠that could be really special for our family.â
Georgia cheers while Lando grins, coming over to wrap you in a hug. âA mini you running around? Sign me up.â His smile falters slightly. âOnly if you want to though, truly.â
You squeeze him back. âI really do. Weâve come so far since the days of newborn Georgia. Iâd love to go through it all again with you.â
The joy lighting up Landoâs face erases any lingering doubts.
That night after Georgia is asleep, you curl up together to discuss logistics. âIâll need to give notice at the hospital once Iâm pregnant so they can find someone to cover my maternity leave.â
Lando waves dismissively. âDonât worry about any of that. Focus on growing our little muffin and Iâll handle the rest.â
You raise an eyebrow. âOur little muffin?â
âOr crumpet. Jellybean. Peanut.â Lando grins. âTake your pick, Iâve got a million terrible nicknames ready to go.â
Laughing, you swat his chest playfully. Sobering, you add, âIt wonât be easy juggling a newborn and busy four year-old. But I canât wait to see Georgia as a big sister.â
Lando smiles tenderly, threading his fingers through yours. âYouâre already the most incredible mum. Our kids are so lucky.â
Your throat tightens at the absolute faith in his voice. No matter the challenges ahead, youâll get through them together.
When you share the news with Georgia, she screeches loud enough to wake the neighbors. Her enthusiasm never wanes over the following months.
Finally, the big day arrives. After a long but relatively smooth delivery, your son enters the world screaming indignantly. The sound is music to your ears.
Lando cuts the cord with shaking hands before your little boy is placed in your arms. Love surges fiercely and instantly.
âHi Maddox,â you whisper through joyful tears. âWeâve been waiting for you.â
Lando presses a kiss to both your heads before going to bring Georgia in. She gasps softly, climbing up to peer at her new brother with wide eyes.
âHeâs so little!â Reaching out a gentle finger, she strokes Maddoxâs downy cheek. Your heart clenches watching your babies meet.
Georgia cuddles close as you adjust her arm to help cradle Maddox. âIâm your big sister Gigi! Iâm gonna help take care of you.â She drops a sloppy kiss on his forehead.
Blinking back a fresh wave of tears, you meet Landoâs equally wet gaze. The road that first led you to Lando has become so much more than you ever imagined. But you wouldnât change a single unexpected twist or turn.
***
You link arms with Lando as you make your way through the familiar Silverstone paddock. The distinctive smell of race fuel hangs in the air, mingling with the buzz of excitement rippling through the crowd.
Georgia skips ahead, her brunette curls bouncing with each step, while Maddox clings to Landoâs free hand, his eyes wide with wonder. Alexa, your two-year-old, nestles securely in your arms, her tiny fingers clutching the McLaren teddy bear she insisted on bringing today. A small smile tugs at your lips as you glance down at her cherubic face, so much like Landoâs. Your heart swells with love for your beautiful family.
âMummy, look!â Georgia calls out, pointing towards the McLaren garage suite. âCan we go in and see the car later?â
âWeâll see, darling,â you reply with a wink, knowing full well that Lando will ensure a special tour for the kids.
Lando squeezes your hand, his warm eyes twinkling with adoration. âAnything for my favorite girls ⊠and Maddox,â he teases, ruffling Maddoxâs hair playfully.
Maddox giggles, his freckled cheeks dimpling. âIâm your favorite boy though, right?â
âOf course,â Lando assures him with a conspiratorial wink.
As you continue down the bustling pathway, a Sky Sports reporter spots your family and rushes over, microphone in hand.
âLando! Dr. Y/L/N-Norris! Do you have a moment for a quick interview?â He asks, his cameraman already rolling.
Lando nods, ever the professional. âSure, mate. Go ahead.â
The reporter flashes a bright smile at the camera. âWeâre here at the Silverstone Circuit with McLaren driver, Lando Norris, his wife, Dr. Y/N Y/L/N-Norris, and their children, Georgia, Maddox, and Alexa. Itâs the weekend of the British Grand Prix, and the Norris family has been a fixture in the paddock for years.â
He turns to Georgia and Maddox, crouching down to their level. âSo, you two must love coming to the races with your dad. Whatâs your favorite part?â
Georgiaâs eyes light up as she launches into an enthusiastic explanation about the cars and the pit stops, her hands gesturing animatedly. Maddox, the quieter one, simply mumbles âthe colorsâ with a shy grin.
The reporter chuckles, clearly charmed by the childrenâs responses. Straightening up, he addresses you and Lando. âAnd how about you two? Managing a hectic F1 schedule with three young kids canât be easy. Whatâs the secret?â
Before either of you can respond, Georgia pipes up, âBut itâs not three kids, itâs five!â
You tense, shooting Lando a panicked glance. This wasnât how youâd planned to share the news of your pregnancy.
âFive kids?â The reporterâs brows furrow in confusion.
Georgia nods matter-of-factly. âYep, there are two more babies in Mummyâs belly!â
A hush falls over the small crowd that has gathered nearby, and you can feel dozens of eyes trained on your still-flat stomach. Heat rushes to your cheeks as you instinctively place a protective hand over your abdomen.
The reporter blinks, clearly thrown off-script. âWell, I ⊠congratulations! Thatâs certainly going to be a handful.â
You force a laugh, leaning into Landoâs solid frame. âYes, well, Landoâs always said he wants a football team.â
Your husband grins, that cheeky grin you fell in love with, and wraps an arm around your waist. âWhat can I say? I like to keep things interesting.â
The crowd titters with amusement, and you can feel the tension dissipating.
âI can only imagine,â the reporter replies with a smile. âWell, thank you all for chatting with us today, and congratulations again on your growing family!â
As the reporter and his crew move on, you turn to Lando, your eyes shining with unshed tears â a heady mix of residual mortification and overwhelming love.
âIâm so sorry,â you murmur, stroking his stubbled jaw. âI know we wanted to share the news on our own terms.â
Lando silences you with a tender kiss, his lips warm and achingly familiar against yours. When he pulls back, his gaze is soft, adoring.
âAre you kidding? Thereâs no better way to announce it than through Gigi,â he says with a wink. âBesides, Iâm just happy the whole world knows that I have super sperm.â
You laugh despite yourself, shoving his shoulder playfully. âYouâre impossible.â
âBut you love me,â he counters, that infuriatingly irresistible grin stretching across his face.
âGod help me, I do,â you sigh, melting into his embrace.
Georgia bounds over then, Maddox and Alexa in tow, her expression a mixture of exhilaration and uncertainty.
âWas I not supposed to tell, Mummy? Did I do something wrong?â She asks, her eyes wide and questioning.
You quickly kneel down, gathering all three children into your arms and peppering their faces with kisses.
âNo, my darling, you didnât do anything wrong. You just ⊠surprised us, thatâs all.â You share a look with Lando over their heads, a look that conveys a thousand words â your hopes, your dreams, your boundless love for this incredible little family youâve created together.
Lando reaches down, ruffling Georgiaâs curls with one hand while gently squeezing your shoulder with the other. A silent promise, a vow to always be by your side as you navigate the beautiful chaos of your life together.
Rising to your feet, you adjust Alexa on your hip and take Georgiaâs small hand in your own. Maddox slips his hand into Landoâs, and you set off once more, the television crew long forgotten.
This is your life â a whirlwind of races and airports, photoshoots and interviews. But itâs also quiet nights cuddled on the sofa, re-watching Disney movies for the millionth time. Itâs family hugs and sloppy baby kisses, skinned knees and endless giggles. Itâs laundry piled to the ceiling and sleepless nights spent pacing the nursery.
Itâs messy and magical, exhausting and exhilarating. And you wouldnât have it any other way.
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a/n: i said i wouldnât do requests atm but this was requested by a very dear reader on wattpad and i just couldnât say no đââïž
summary: based on the song by bruno mars; masc rich lawyer!reader, bartender!natasha. nat has blonde hair here (no idea how important that detail really is tbh)
warnings: smutâŠ(a bunch of it, actually â strap usage, fingering, oral (n receiving)), alcohol/being drunk; i think thatâs it?
word count: 8.2k
part 1, part 2
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â LOS ANGELES, USA â
Exiting your car that night, you don't expect that, not too long later, you'll have her in your passenger seat. Like your own personal Cinderella, she'll be with you once the clock strikes midnight.
However, your evening doesn't start as fairytale-like as it'll end.
It's been a shitty day. A brutal case you'd been working on for months. As almost always, it entailed dealing with insufferable clients and their enormous egos, biased judges and ruthless opponents, 80-hour weeks and tons of stress â only to lose the case.
It was humiliating, leaving the court room. You'd trailed to your car like a wet dog and sat there, forehead on your steering wheel, for a solid five minutes. Only when you realized that the press was starting to surround your car, you'd pressed the start button and torn down the street.
Let's pretend you didn't hit a trash can on your way out. Maybe that'll make your day look less like a shitshow.
Being the child of two of Hollywood's most successful lawyers, everyone's eyes are on you. News articles, social media backlash, professional rivals that revel in your failure. You can't afford even a single misstep. Yes, in your case, even a lost case is a misstep. It's just more proof, they'll say. That you're only here because mommy and daddy funneled millions into your trust fund before you even turned 18.
You rarely frequent bars, since there never seems to be enough time for that. It's why you usually keep a bottle of whiskey in your office (telling yourself that's completely normal) â but tonight, you don't want to get drunk sitting in silence. Too many thoughts, too many worries. Instead, you pull up in front of LA's most famous bar.
Hollywood elites, business moguls, and the ultra-wealthy. Expensive champagne flows like water, its coloration matching the golden hues of the bars interior. You step inside and, for once, only feel mildly out of place.
You walk across marble floors and approach the bar. Sitting down, you undo the top button of your shirt and watch the woman in front of you turn around.
A bartender, but possibly the most gorgeous one you've ever seen. Blonde hair and a red dress, makeup so flawless you'd never be able to tell she's been working for over six hours now. If you weren't still pissed off about that stupid case, you'd be able to appreciate the sight a lot more, though.
You lean in and almost order a whiskey. But you have that in your office, so you change your mind.
"Just a martini", you mumble, already reaching for your purse. "Stirred."
She studies you with interest, not saying a word. The memory flits through her head â you, in this bar, two years ago. Middle length hair, slicked back, and a suit. Passed out in the corner. You have no idea this happened, as you were completely out of it, but she remembers.
"No 'hello'? 'Good evening'? What's the magic word again?"
You look up and stare at her, your Black Card between your fingers. "Sorry?"
She shrugs and reaches for the mixing glass. Ice clinks, the gin swirling like liquid silver under the bar's lights as she stirs.
"Maybe my expectations are too high", she says and pours the vermouth. "I should be used to people like you."
You raise your eyebrows, your jaw slackening slightly. "People like me?"
"Exactly. Let me tell you something, hotshot", she says, leaning over the bar. "Have you seen who enters this place? Rich people. Snobby people. The upper one percent. You sat your cute little ass down and muttered your order like you're being forced to sit here."
"Well", you say, struggling to find an excuse for your lack of manners, "I had a shitty day, okay? All I want is a few drinks."
"Not too many", she says, finally straining the liquid into the glass. She plucks an olive from its jar and rolls it between her fingers, her eyes on yours, before dropping it into the drink. "You don't hold your liquors too well, do you?"
"What?"
"Not important."
You accept the martini and take a tentative sip. You study her like she studied you, but with an air of irritation. Your day's been miserable enough already. No need for her to pile on.
"Listen", you say, "I'm not really in the mood to talk. I know you bartenders like to play shrink-"
"I prefer the word therapist, but go on."
"But", you say sharply, shooting her a halfhearted glare, "I had a bad day. A really, really bad day. You probably can't even imagine. So just let it go, alright?"
"Understood", she says. Her green eyes, however, twinkle with the kind of mirth that tells you she definitely will not let it go.
Can someone drive you up the wall but also be annoyingly attractive? Apparently. You're experiencing it in that very moment.
The silence lasts exactly two minutes. It's enough time for the bartender to prepare a Bloody Mary and hand it to a different customer, then she turns toward you again. You groan and let your head fall onto the counter of the bar.
"Ouch", you mutter.
"You're like a child", she states. "A petulant little child who didn't get their way. What happened, hotshot?"
"Leave me alone", you mumble, your breath fogging up the smooth surface of the countertop.
"It can't be that bad." She leans in, arms crossed on the counter, and lowers her head so her face is right in front of yours. You dare look at her and immediately regret it. The green in her eyes is sage with specks of seafoam, mint and apple, unfairly captivating.
Then, her breath hits your lips. Sweet and warm, with an undercurrent of mint.
Before you can imagine her bent over the counter in a very different situation, you quickly close your eyes and press your face against the countertop.
"Let me guess", she says, seemingly oblivious to your internal struggle, "you lost a deal? No, not that. Maybe your shoes don't match your suit? No? Fine. Oh, I got it. Someone had the audacity to say no to you today."
"Truly, fuck you."
"That's a bold thing to say to the woman making your drinks, darling."
You groan and sit up, strands of messy hair blocking your vision. She smirks and brushes them aside.
"This", you say, narrowing your eyes, "is why I don't go to bars."
"Oh, please." She tilts her head. "Me? Harmless."
"Harmless, but annoying. Like a damn housefly."
"How sweet", she says drily. "You know your way around women, huh?"
You give her a deadpan look. She has no clue (or maybe she does â whatever), but you haven't been involved with anyone in over a year now. That is, if you don't count hookups and one night stands and such.
Flirting is also not your strongest suit, but it is hers. You just haven't realized it yet.
"I'm a busy woman", you say. "The only women I see are clients and coworkers."
"Clients, as in...?"
"No." You raise your eyebrows, unimpressed. "I'm a lawyer, not a hooker."
"A lawyer?" She smiles and tilts her head. "Wow. That's exciting."
Sarcasm, obviously. You roll your eyes and lean back a little. Good thing the barstool has a backrest, otherwise you'd be on the floor by now.
"Come on. All you do is pour booze into glasses and poke olives with toothpicks."
"Don't forget pouring water into ice cube trays."
She chuckles when you roll your eyes again. Leaning over the counter, she brushes her fingertips against the collar of your shirt.
Your cheeks heat up. She notices the rosy flush in your face and tilts her head, giving a soft hum.
"So, a lawyer", she says. "A lawyer who had a shitty day."
"Precisely."
"A lawyer who definitely isn't a hooker, either. So asking about the price per hour would be pointless."
You pause before exhaling sharply, dragging a hand down your face â exhausted, annoyed, still half-thinking about your case. But then her words settle, her meaning really sinking in, and despite everything, your lips twitch.
You open your mouth, then close it again. Finally, you lift your glass and down your martini. She laughs quietly.
"I'm Natasha", she says. "And it's a pleasure to meet you, hotshot."
"Y/N", you say, rubbing your eyes with your free hand. "Sorry. I'm tired and ready for bed."
"Me too", she says. She slides the empty glass from your fingers and puts it aside. "I assume you meant something else, though."
You let out a laugh and lean back, hands covering your face. You lower them and smile faintly, eyes running up and down her body. The bar covers everything up to her waist, but that doesn't matter. She's beautiful, and so is the dress she's wearing, and the irritation you felt earlier has shifted into something entirely different.
You're not sure whether there's some kind of rule about this â are bartenders allowed to flirt with customers? â, but, truthfully, you don't care. How long has it been since you felt this kind of attraction toward someone? How long has it been since someone flirted with you and you actually felt the urge to flirt back?
It hasn't been years, but it's been more than a while.
You sit there in silence, eyes still locked on Natasha. She leans over the counter and adjusts the collar of your shirt again. Skin peeks through the unbuttoned buttons at the top, her gaze lingering on it for a brief moment.
"Your shift", you say, watching her pull away. "When's it end?"
She glances at her watch. Midnight. "About two hours. Why? Planning to wait up for me?"
"Maybe" You hum, fingers drumming against the countertop. "You could leave early", you then suggest, tentatively, as if expecting her to say no.
But Natasha glances at the other bartender. Her hands move to untie the apron she's wearing, which she tucks under the bar, then she tells her coworker to cover for her. You can see her hesitate, scanning the space, before she walks around the counter to get to your side.
Before you realize what's happening, you're leading her out of the bar. The air is warm outside, but not suffocating anymore. You feel the light breeze â crisper, fresher, thanks to Beverly Hills being closer to the ocean â and breathe in. No overwhelming variety of perfumes and colognes. All you smell is the faint scent of whatever perfume Natasha is wearing.
You lead her to your car. She pauses when she sees the cracked headlight.
"Hit a trash can", you say before she can ask.
"I see." She glances at you, smiling. "I truly hope you won't get me into a car crash tonight, hotshot."
You crack a smile and sigh, running your fingers through your hair. She laughs and squeezes your arm, then moves to sit in the passenger seat.
You spend your first night together.
When you wake up to the sight of her, hair mussed and naked body wrapped up in thin bedsheets, you know there will be more moments like this.
. . .
â NEW YORK, USA â
Two months and a few meetups (dates? hookups?) later, you fly her out to Manhattan.
It was your idea. You'd gotten sick of having to travel to LA all the time, only to leave again days later. Your main residence is in New York, after all, not California. It's where your condo is, your law firm, where you spend a majority of your time.
Natasha agreed without having to reconsider. You didn't even have to mention it'd be one of your private jets, or that your chauffeur Richard would drive her to your place. She had no clue she'd be sipping champagne and testing caviar during the entire flight, and she said yes anyway.
She knows you have money. She knows you'll spoil her. She doesn't expect it, either. It does happen, though, and she does enjoy it a lot.
There's something special about being able to kick off her heels and stretch out on plush leather seats, letting the staff pamper her. With face masks from South Korea and fresh fruit straight from Thailand, the five hours she spends aloft suddenly seem almost too short.
Richard drives Natasha to the condominium you live in. Billionaires' Row is full of luxury buildings, but yours manages to stand out anyway. High ceilings, floor to ceiling windows, a grand porte-cochĂšre. She spots Rolls Royces and Bentleys being parked by valets in pressed suits and subtly raises her eyebrows. It's starting to get out of hand.
In front of the elevator, she's handed a keycard. Richard instructs her how to use it, then she's on her own.
It takes her all the way upstairs into your penthouse, the elevator bypassing every other floor. Then it stops, the doors swish open, and she's in your condo. In your living room, to be more specific.
A fireplace, a stocked bar (top-shelf liquors, because why not), a glass coffee table. The sectional couch in front of her looks like it costs more than a standard car, too. She glances at the dark marble floor beneath her feet â probably from Italy â and takes a few steps into the condo. As soon as she's stepped out of the elevator, the door closes automatically.
Natasha knew you were rich, but goddamn, this is a lot to take in.
She takes another few steps into the living room and listens for any kind of noise. Unsurprisingly, she can't hear anything. The walls are most likely soundproof, so she won't be able to hear you unless she's in the same room.
Walking closer to the fireplace, she finds a note on it. A normal piece of paper, thankfully, not some expensive textured shit. She reads what you wrote and smiles faintly.
Natasha,
I'm in my office to work on a new case. Sorry I wasn't there to personally pick you up. Will make up for it later, I promise.
Lunch is in the fridge. Make yourself at home. I insist.
â Hotshot :)
Once she realizes she's smiling, she quickly shakes her head and puts the note aside.
Make herself at home? No need to tell her twice.
High heels in one hand, she pads through the long hallway and into the kitchen. Stainless steel appliances, a huge espresso machine she'll definitely play around with at some time, sleek kitchen furniture. A peek into the fridge tells her you â or your private chef, more likely â made paella. She closes it again and walks into the adjacent dining room.
Some plants that look like small palm trees, a long table for at least 16 people, a New Zealand wool rug.
Boring.
Back to the hallway she goes, the heated floors warm under her bare feet. Up the stairs, then back down, hand sliding over the glass railings. Two bathrooms, both with rain showers, a small wine cellar-like room, a huge balcony with a view of Central Park. Somehow, she ends up on the rooftop (and definitely makes sure to remember the pool there) before finally making her way back inside.
Your bedroom is next, complete with an en-suite bathroom and walk-in closet. She's seen the other bathrooms already and was, quite frankly, not impressed enough to look at this one as well. Instead, she decides to check out what kind of clothes you wear.
Natasha spins around in the massive space and scans everything. A minibar, a huge mirror, a seating area. It smells like fresh linen and that very same perfume you were wearing when you first took her home not too long ago.
Two months, she recalls. It's only been two months, and you're already whisking her away whenever you want.
She drags her hand along one of the black walnut shelves, inspecting handmade leather shoes and rows of accessories. Ties, watches, rings. She stops and eyes the tailored suits. Her hand moves to the back of her dress, fumbling with the zipper and pulling it down, then she lets the thin piece of fabric fall to the polished floor.
She steps out of the dress that's pooled around her feet and reaches for a crisp button-down. She puts it on and inspects herself in front of the mirror, then grabs some niche Parisian perfume from your fragrance collection. A spritz behind her ear, one on her wrist...
"Having fun?"
Natasha whips around and stares at you. You're leaning against the doorframe, trying to hide your smile. Despite being at home, where you should be comfortable enough to let loose for a little, you're in a suit. Your hair, however, is messy. A strand partially blocks your vision.
It took you ten minutes to find her. You didn't expect to walk in on her half-naked, barefoot, only wearing one of your shirts. Are you complaining, though? Absolutely not.
"You told me to make myself at home."
"So you did."
"Exactly."
"That's good." You push off the doorframe and stroll into the room. "Not gonna say hi?"
She meets you halfway, her arms coming up to wrap around your neck. Lips brush against yours, a fleeting contact, and your hands rub her waist. "Hi", she mumbles.
"Hey", you whisper, kissing her. First quickly, then a little more deeply. Your hands run up her sides, letting her shirt ride up, and you feel smooth warm skin under your palms. You pull away only to trail kisses along her jaw. "Missed you. How long have you been here?"
Natasha closes her eyes, her fingers raking through your short hair. "About an hour. Lonely?"
"It's a big apartment."
"Penthouse."
"Whatever", you mutter, catching her mouth again. Your thumbs hook into the waistband of her underwear and play with the lace. "Did you have lunch? The paella â I had it made for you."
"I wasn't hungry", she says, speaking in between kisses. "They served all kinds of stuff on my flight. First time trying mangosteen."
"Mhm, my favorite." You squeeze her waist before letting go of her. Walking further into the room, you pick up her dress from the floor and toss it over your shoulder. Her scent hits you, faint and sweet and familiar already. "Listen, I got another meeting in about an hour. Shouldn't take too long, though. You good here or should I ask Richie to give you the tour? He'll take you anywhere as long as it's not somewhere up in the clouds. Poor dude's got a fear of heights."
Natasha lingers where you left her, arms crossed over her chest. She watches you adjust things she never would've noticed are different: pushing the perfume bottle backwards the tiniest bit so it's perfectly aligned with the others, running your hand over the stack of button-ups to remove a crease she wouldn't be able to spot with a magnifying glass, nudging one of the shoes she touched.
"No", she says absently. "I'd rather stay here and wait."
"Whatever you want." You turn around and walk back to her. You wrap your arm around her waist and lead her out of the walk-in closet, faces inches apart, a smile on your lips. "I'd show you around, but I feel like that's pointless."
Natasha rolls her eyes and laughs, tugging at your shirt. You feel her lips against yours, the touch brief but charged with electricity. "You told me to make myself at home, so I did. Can't blame me for that."
"Not blaming you. Just happy you felt comfy enough to rummage through my clothes."
"I didn't 'rummage' through them."
"Oh no?" You grab the hem of the button-up she's sporting and smirk. "What's that, then?"
She doesn't say anything. Instead, she cups your face and pulls you into a deep kiss.
It's the first time in over three years that you cancel a meeting.
. . .
The rug you're on is soft and fluffy, the fireplace next to you way too hot for a September morning.
Sleep-warm skin and cashmere blankets, a half-empty bottle of wine left next to the coffee table. Natasha wakes, blinking lazily, and stretches her arms. You turn just enough to be able to kiss her forehead.
"Morning", you mumble.
"Morning", she replies, hands moving to your chest. Fingertips dance over bare skin, then she starts buttoning up your shirt. "We slept in."
"Yeah", you say, still tired, and lay back down. "Fuck. I have so much work to do."
"No, you have me to do."
"Obviously. Top priority."
Her hands splay out on your chest and smooth out the fabric of your shirt. She leans in, plush lips on your jaw, kisses that are warm and a little too arousing. It's 9 in the morning, and you need to get your ass off the floor and into the office.
However, there is a pretty, naked lady next to you, and that is much more enticing than a desk chair and a meeting with a bunch of old people. And her mouth is all over your skin, her hands starting to roam your body, and fuck it, maybe you can cancel again. Just one more time.
"Dammit", you curse, nails raking down her back. "You're costing me a shit-ton of money, baby."
"You have enough money as it is", she mumbles, voice muffled against your neck. Your arms wind around her. "There's only one woman in your arms, though. Your choice."
You hum, nose buried in her messy hair. Her kisses against your neck start to become wetter, more urgent, her hands squeezing and squishing every part of you she can reach. You moan and she knows she's convinced you.
You hastily take off your shirt and push all the blankets aside, then hold her close before rolling over. You're on top now, where you want to be, and start trailing hickeys along her throat. Her fingers run through your unruly hair and mess it up further.
Palms squeeze and run over smooth skin. Your hand kneads her thigh before moving between her legs. Wet heat against, then around, your fingers. You thrust in and out slowly, rhythmically, and listen to the way her breathing gets heavier.
Face buried in the crook of her neck, you leave lazy kisses on her skin. Slender fingers tug at your hair, insistently, telling you to go faster.
The fire next to you crackles, but it's nowhere near as hot as the space between you. Heavy breathing and muffled moans, fingers curling and nudging deeper. Your thumb circles her clit and you hear a little whine. Natasha comes around your fingers, clenching and unclenching, and you bite back your own moans.
"Shit", she mumbles, slumping into the rug again.
"Yeah." You lift your fingers to your mouth and quickly lick them clean. "I still got work."
"Breakfast first?"
A knock on the doorframe makes you both whirl around. Your eyes land on your private chef slash maid, who's got her eyes covered with her hand. You can see the timid look on her face, anyway.
"Sorry", she says. "I waited until you were...done. I made breakfast and didn't want to disturb you, Ms. Y/L/N. Also, Mr. Pasini is waiting for you."
"Linda", you say, grabbing a blanket and covering both you and Natasha with it. You're so aghast you don't even know what to say. "That's, uhm- that's good. Give us a minute? Please?"
She nods, stepping away and bumping into a potted plant.
"Of course. My apologies, Ma'am. I'll be in the kitchen."
The second she's gone, Natasha starts laughing. You narrow your eyes at her, but the smile on her face is too infectious to not crack one as well. You sigh and melt into her. A kiss is placed on her cheek.
"Alright, laugh it up."
She smirks and jabs a finger into your side. "Come on, that was hilarious. Does she usually stalk you like some creep?"
"No", you say firmly, sitting up and putting on your shirt. Your fingers tremble slightly as you button it up. "She doesn't. And she didn't 'stalk us', she just heard we were finished and came to inform me about breakfast."
"Sounds believable enough, hotshot. You're sure she doesn't have a secret crush on you?"
"She's 58 and married, dummy." You get up and look for your underwear. "I promise, she's just a sweet lady who helps my blood sugar spike. Try her madeleines, they're godly."
Natasha hums and gets up, still butt naked. She grabs her lace panties and the shirt she stole from you the night before and puts both on. You, one leg in your slacks and the other hovering in the air, watch her with wide eyes as she makes a beeline for the kitchen.
"Wait-"
"Breakfast", she says, unbothered, and adjusts her hair a little. "Hurry your pretty little ass up or all the madeleines will be gone."
The exaggerated French accent she used to pronounce the pastry makes you roll your eyes. You hurry to get into your pants before following after her, zipping up and fastening the button.
"You're naked!"
"Anything that could be considered inappropriate is covered."
"I can see your butt."
She glances at you over her shoulder, strolling into the kitchen. Linda glances at her, but doesn't seem too surprised by the sight. Instead, she plates breakfast for you. Avocado on sourdough toast, freshly squeezed juice, Eggs Benedict, buttery madeleines, some cappuccino.
As soon as she's done, she tells you to enjoy your meal. You catch the small smile on her face as she leaves the room to go on about her duties.
"You were right", Natasha says, sitting on a chair with her foot propped up on the seat. "These are godly."
"Told you", you say absently, scrolling through your work-related emails. "The best. Dip them in the cappuccino."
She hums, eating in silence and watching you respond to emails and texts. Her leg stretches out under the table to bump against yours. Then, she rests it in your lap. You squeeze her calf, eyes locked on your phone.
"Hey", you mumble, sliding your hand further down her leg and tapping her ankle, "how would you feel about a slight change of plans?"
"Hm?" Natasha tilts her head, a half-finished glass of orange juice in her hand.
You turn around and show her the email. She leans forward, eyebrows furrowed, and reads it.
"I said we'd spend the next two weeks here, but I gotta go to Tokyo. Work-stuff. Want to tag along?"
"Tokyo?" She looks up. "Just like that?"
"Yeah. Like I said, work-stuff."
She smiles faintly, then shrugs. "Sure. Why not."
"Great."
"All of this is normal, right?"
"What?"
"Forget it, hotshot." She gets up and kisses your temple. "See you in a minute. I have to try that rain shower before we leave."
The urge to get up and follow her like a lovesick puppy is strong. But then your phone buzzes, announcing another email, and you sigh as you realize you'll have to wait a bit longer.
. . .
â TOKYO, JAPAN â
You order the sushi in near-perfect Japanese.
Natasha leans into your side. Clad in the off-shoulder black dress with the deep neckline that you got her right after your arrival, she's been turning heads all night long. Her fingers toy with the shimmering necklace you put on her, oblivious to the 18k white gold's worth, and her eyes roam the restaurant's interior.
"Fancy", she whispers once the server has dashed off. "I wanted to come here for a while."
"This restaurant? I've been here a couple times."
"No, dummy. Japan. Tokyo." She smiles and looks at you. You flush under her gaze and nudge her cheek with your nose. Her hand cups your cheek, thumb against your lips, and you press a kiss to it. "You need to get out of your bubble more, you know."
"What bubble?"
"This bubble. Not every experience has a Michelin star, or costs a couple thousand bucks. There's more to life than just fancy dinners, hotshot."
You hum, studying here. There's a truth to her words that stings. You're privileged, and you know it, but your lifestyle and career make everything about you and everything you do so different. The way you live traps you in a bubble you either can't or won't escape, which limits the things you experience.
Natasha is the best example for that. You may have been lucky enough to run into her, sure, but only because of a coincidence. Again, you don't go to bars. You don't go out with friends, or even colleagues. You spend your Friday nights sitting at your desk with a dozen files opened on your laptop. Maybe you'll drink some whiskey or fall asleep ten minutes into a movie, too, but that's about it.
"You'd rather I take you to McDonald's tomorrow?", you ask, trying to deflect. She tilts her head. "Okay, okay. Not a fan of the clown. Got it."
"You know what I mean", she says, hooking a finger into the collar of your shirt. "Saving up for another car, or jet, won't make you happy."
"I know", you say earnestly. "It's why I got you. To spend that money on you instead. Now â sake or umeshu?"
"Oh, no. Wait. Did you just-"
"I'll spoil you rotten", you say, quickly pecking her lips, "and get happy in return. You make me happy. Now tell me what drink you want."
She rolls her eyes, but doesn't argue. It's not like she doesn't like the whole princess treatment you've been giving her ever since your first night together, after all. She enjoys it maybe even too much.
You enjoy it, too. Before her, all you knew was work and lonely beds. Pleasure mostly came from meaningless one night stands, never lasting longer than a couple hours, or â a classic â your own hand.
It's different now. You get to satisfy someone else, someone who's interested in you, who makes you smile, who's pretty. You can spoil her all you want. Dresses, champagne, jewelry, spontaneous trips to the most gorgeous places on earth. In return, she makes you happy. There's not even much she has to do to achieve that. You appreciate it a whole lot, anyway.
Her breath fans your ear, lips tickling your skin. You exhale sharply, silently, and close your eyes.
"Sake, please", she mumbles, voice sultry and soft. Her hand runs down your front, deliberately brushing against the buttons of your shirt, before coming to rest on your thigh. "And you. Sake and you."
. . .
Being in another country usually means vacation.
Not for you, though. You've been stuck behind your desk for over an hour now. Keyboards clack, the a/c hums, bedsheets rustle. In front of you are floor-to-ceiling windows, displaying Tokyo's skyline. Thousands of lights in every color imaginable adorn tall buildings, creating a sea of neon. Billboards and pulsing nights, and streets that never seem to sleep.
You're not sleeping, either. And neither is Natasha. While you're tapping a pen against your knee before responding to an email, she keeps rolling over in bed and trying to fight boredom.
You briefly glance at her. Only in a silk robe that hugs her curves and leaves little to the imagination, it's getting increasingly harder to not just call it a day and join her.
You turn to your laptop again and bite back a sigh. Another email popped up, this time by one of your employees, so you click the reply symbol and start typing. Right as you hit send, you feel a familiar pair of hands on your shoulders. You close your eyes when her palms slide down to your chest.
"Hey", she murmurs, warmth breath fanning your ear. Her lips press against your nape, then the side of your neck. "Still working?"
"It won't end. I just keep getting new emails."
She hums, continuing to trail hot kisses along your neck. Her fingers fumble with the buttons on your shirt, slowly undoing them. "You need to relax a little, you know. Forget about work and come to bed with me."
"Emails", you protest. Natasha smiles against your neck. Her hands move down to yours on the keyboard, gently peeling them off. "I need to finish this. It's important. Seriously."
No response. Heat shoots into your lower belly when she sucks on your pulse point. She runs her hands up your arms and to your biceps, squeezing the muscles there, then she slides the shirt off your shoulders. Fingers dance across your skin, trace your chest and your stomach, before teasing the waistband of your pants.
"I want you to fuck me", she rasps into your ear. "Show me I'm important, too."
Of course she's important. More important than the emails, more important than anything else. Can you say it, though?
No. The only thing that leaves your mouth is a quiet whine. You hear the laptop in front of you being shut. Natasha pulls at the back of your chair and swivels it around, your eyes opening automatically.
The sight is godly. She's standing between your legs, her robe thin and enveloping her body like a second layer of skin. You catch a glimpse of the bra she's wearing, black lace showing through the open top of the robe, and your fingers twitch with the desire to touch her.
You cave. Fingers find the end of the silk sash around her waist to give it a deliberate tug. The robe comes open and reveals creamy skin and black lingerie.
"When did you..."
"You left your credit card when you went downstairs to pick up those files", she says, fingers trailing along your jaw. Her hand cups your jaw. "Thought it'd be a nice surprise."
"Credit card fraud", you say, both amused and turned on. "Theft, too. Dammit."
"You like it, though."
Oh, you do. You can't even be mad. There's more than enough money on your bank account, and truthfully, purchases like this one benefit you both.
You put your hands on her waist and get up. Her body is flush with yours, her breath fanning your lips. You kiss her, tasting strawberries and sake, and trace the seam of her lips with your tongue. Her mouth opens, letting you deepen the kiss, and you swallow her moans.
Bodies up against the window, the heat between you fogging up the glass. Natasha's robe falls to the floor, and you start trailing kisses over her shoulder and chest. You pull away for a split second to drink her in. With the backdrop of the city's lights â bright and flickering and reflecting off her skin â you're once again proven that she's the most gorgeous thing you've ever seen.
The clasp of her bra comes undone easily. You push the straps off her shoulders, let the tiny piece of clothing slide off, then your mouth is attached to her body again. Hands squeeze and grope her breasts, thumbs flicking over her nipples, before running down her sides.
You hear a soft thud when her head falls back against the window. Breathy moans and mhh-sounds, nimble fingers raking through your hair. You lick a stripe over her breast and suck her nipple between your lips. Pushing aside the fabric of her panties, you find her cunt. Her pussy is soaked, your fingers sliding in with ease.
"Fuck", she moans, tugging at your hair. "Baby, slow down."
You look up, not able to speak through the mouthful of boob. She looks down at you, panting, and brushes some hair away from your forehead.
You don't want to slow down. Not now, not when she's looking at you like this, still wearing the panties she bought with your money, standing in the suite you payed for. She makes you happy. She chases the loneliness away. You want to give her everything, the entire world, and that includes a night filled with orgasms.
Holding eye contact, you thrust your fingers into her. Her hips buck to chase the feeling. Moans fill the space around you, whiny and needy, and her hips rut against your hand with more fervor.
Your mouth releases her breast. You litter it with kisses and hickeys, still fucking her with your fingers. You slowly sink to your knees to bury your face against her stomach, leaving kisses there as well, and continuing pumping your fingers in and out of her. Slickness covers your hands, dripping down your wrists, and Natasha meets every thrust.
"I'll buy you everything", you moan. "Anything. Whatever you want."
"Bribing me?" She tries to laugh, but it comes out strained. She grinds against your hand, forcing you in deeper. You nudge that spongy little part and hear another moan. "I'm not your trophy, you know."
"No." You kiss along her lower stomach, your free hand gripping her thigh. Your movements become quicker, harder, feeling her walls clench around you in desperation. "Never said you were."
Natasha wants to respond, but in that moment, she can't. She lifts one leg and hooks it over your shoulder, letting herself take you wholly. Goosebumps and kiss-bitten lips, hickeys and flushed skin. Your fingers curl, your lips wrap around her clit, and her body tenses up.
You feel her orgasm as if it were your own. Intense, all-consuming, wiping every thought from her brain. She keeps riding your hand until it all becomes overstimulating, then you pull out.
Looking up, the sight of her disheveled state brings a smirk to your face. She pinches your bottom lip.
"Ow. What's that for?", you ask, her fingers lingering on your mouth.
"You're getting cocky."
"Am not."
"You definitely are. Get up, hotshot."
You grumble and kiss her fingertips, but do as told. Natasha leans in to kiss you, her hands fumbling with the zipper on your slacks. She walks you backwards, pushes you onto the bed, straddles you. The bedsheets are cool against your skin, tangled from Natasha's earlier tossing and turning.
There's not much time to think about any of that, though.
. . .
â RIO DE JANEIRO, BRAZIL â
A private pool that seems to spill out into the ocean below. A plate of fruit sits on the edge, the papaya and mangoes long forgotten about, with two empty coconut shells next to it.
Aside from the lapping of the water and the rustling of the trees, only your soft moans fill the air. Her hands on your shoulders and yours on her hips, you guide her up and down the strap rhythmically. She looks down, watching the girthy piece of silicone through the water. How its full length disappears inside of her, again and again, blurred by the water you're in.
Another moan. You lean in and press your lips to her collarbone, tasting sunscreen and something sweet. Her fingers mess up your hair and slide back down to your shoulders, fingernails raking over your skin and leaving marks.
"I'm close", she whimpers, hips rotating on the strap. You guide her every movement, pushing the toy in as deep as you can. You watch stupidly how her body moves on it.
"Sound like it, too", you rasp. After almost a year of this, you know every telltale sign. "Open wider, baby."
Her thighs part just the tiniest bit more, but it's enough for her clit to rub against the base of the harness. Her head drops forward, forehead resting against yours, and she cries out quietly.
"Fuck, I-"
"Almost there." You rub her sides and watch her ride harder, pushing herself over the edge. Once the climax has lost most of its intensity, she collapses against you. "Holy."
"I feel like we should stop. For our neighbors' sake."
You laugh and kiss her bare shoulder. You're both completely naked, thanks to the pool being directly attached to your suite. No one can see you, but you're sure many people can hear you.
"Need a break already?", you tease.
"No, hotshot", she replies, nuzzling your neck with her face. "I just want to enjoy this for a moment. No distractions."
This. You and her, intertwined, doing nothing in particular. It shouldn't surprise you, but it does, anyway.
Neither of you know where this is going. You don't know whether this is just going to end someday, or whether you actually have a shot at making it. But, truthfully, you don't know what 'making it' would entail, either.
Natasha also doesn't know. She still doesn't know whether you feel the same as her. Whether you're in as deep as she is. Maybe she is exactly what she fears most to be â a trophy. Someone you don't feel anything real for.
You don't talk about it. Starting a conversation like that is risky, because the worst case scenario is everything falling apart.
In the beginning, it was fun. It was passionate and indulgent, a sexy fantasy. It was all about sex and money and pouring champagne like it's water.
Then, feelings came into play. You're not sure whether that's ever ended well.
. . .
â PARIS, FRANCE â
"God, you're obsessed."
You look up, still kneeling on the floor with a high heel in your hand. You give her a deadpan look.
"Keep that up and you're sleeping on the balcony tonight. Now give me your foot."
"I'm just saying. You, on your knees for me? Should've rented out the jewelry store instead."
"What?... Oh. Ha. Uhm-"
Natasha laughs and does as told. You shake your head, cheeks pink and warm, and slide the heel onto her foot. You make sure it fits right and then hum in approval.
Aside from the two of you, the changing room is empty. In fact, the entire store is. You rented it out for the next few hours, making it easier for Natasha to look at clothes and try them on without being bothered.
"Not bad", she says, resting her leg over your shoulder. You turn your head and kiss her calf. "Maybe in another color?"
"Which one? Black, maybe? Or lilac? Those would look nice with that dress you-"
"Y/N", she cuts you off, "this one's fine. Really. I like it."
You give her a skeptical look, but she just raises her eyebrows at you. She seems to be telling the truth, so you squeeze her ankle before moving her leg off your shoulder. Straightening up, you reach for another dress.
Natasha grabs it and steps into the fitting room. She returns not too long after, and the sight renders you speechless.
A deep red gown, its fabric hugging every curve just right. The silk cascades down her body and pools at her feet, but the long slit at the side keeps it from looking too modest. Your eyes land on the plunging sinful neckline, then trace the delicate straps framing her shoulders.
She steps in front of the mirror and studies herself. In this lightning, the dress looks like molten wine clinging to her skin. You finally look up and catch her gaze in the mirror. Paired with the faint smirk, the timeless dress becomes something entirely different.
Dangerous. Unfair.
Heat crackles between you. You swallow heavily, eyes locked on the sight, fingers twitching and want throbbing in your body.
"You're staring."
You swallow again. "You're in that."
"I am."
Your hands ball into fists. You shift and try crossing your legs, but when she runs a hand down her side, it's over. You step closer, unable to stop yourself at this point. Your hands find her waist, your lips hover next to her ear. Then, you press a kiss to her earlobe.
Your hands wander further up her body, cupping the swell of her breasts. You toy with her hardened nipples, which are barely concealed by the dress's thin fabric. Natasha moans and leans into you.
"We're in a store."
"We're alone."
"The employees..."
"The employees won't come in unless we call them", you assure her, voice a strained mumble. Your fingers tug at the neckline of her dress until her chest is revealed, then you tuck the fabric under her breast. "Look at you. Fuck."
Her head drops against your shoulder. You kiss her neck, bared to you, and cup her breast. Your free hand runs down her body, finding the slit of her dress and dipping underneath it.
"Move the dress?", you mumble.
One hand on the back of your head, Natasha pulls the skirt of the dress aside until you can see everything clearly. Her thighs, her lingerie, the garter belt. Creamy skin, adorned by the faintest of stretch marks. Your face has been buried between those very thighs dozens of times by now, but you'll never get sick of the feeling.
You run your fingers over her underwear. It's soaked.
"That was quick."
"Really? You'll make fun of me now?"
"No, baby." You kiss her shoulder and pull away, only to step around her and get on your knees again. This time, for an entirely different reason. You hold onto her thighs and look up. Her breathing is slightly uneven. "This okay?"
"Anything else wouldn't be okay", she replies. You hook your fingers into the waistband of her underwear and pull it down. It drops to the ground and gives you a full view of her cunt. Hand on the back of your head, she guides you closer.
You bury your face between her legs and immediately feel the slick heat. It coats your cheeks, your tongue, letting you taste the tangy sweetness you've grown familiar with. You grip the backs of her thighs for more support and run your tongue through her folds.
Natasha feels every touch, every movement. She grips your hair to keep herself from falling over, nails digging into your scalp. You eat her out surrounded by mirrors, letting her see every angle of what you're doing to her.
. . .
Hand in hand, you walk down Avenue Montaigne.
The sun is beaming down at you, making the street look even more fairytale-like than it already is. Tall buildings, brick walls, trees lined up on either side of the road. You squeeze her hand.
"What's next?", you ask, looking at her. "Perfume? Maybe a purse?"
Natasha tilts her head. There you go again, asking about things that should be irrelevant. Things that, if she's being honest, never were relevant. All of this extravagance is fun. Being flown around in private jets, traveling the world, getting whatever she wants whenever she wants it â she enjoys it, no doubt.
But is that all she wants?
Of course not. In fact, itâd be a lie if she said it ever was.
From that first night in the bar, she wasn't trying to find someone who'd drown her in money. Otherwise, she would've found someone like that ages ago. The bar she worked in was one of the most prestigious in all of Los Angeles. It would've been easy to pick a random person and make them fall for her.
She didn't want that, though. She stuck to dating literally anyone else to avoid ending up as a trophy, as someone who isn't anything else but something to make her partner look good.
Then, you stumbled in. Not once, but twice. Everything about you was painfully similar to the other people sitting in that same bar that night, but you were also completely unlike them.
Everything about you screamed money. The stupid suit, the Black Card, the way you talked to her. But you weren't snobby. She'd known that from the first time she saw you there â when you got so drunk you passed out. Everyone else cares about their reputation, their public image, but you let yourself get black out drunk.
You returned. You sat down right in front of her. She took one look at your face pressed against the counter, hair a mess, and knew she'd love whatever is hidden underneath that hated suit you were wearing.
Your hair is always a mess. Even now, walking down the street in Paris's most luxurious shopping street, you look like you got caught in a storm. Short, unruly strands, some blocking your vision, others hastily tucked behind your ear.
Natasha stops in the middle of the street. She leans in and kisses you.
Another indulgence or something sincere â she doesn't know. Maybe she doesn't want to know.
"No more shopping", she says. You give her an unsure look. "Please."
"Okay", you mumble. You continue walking.
Her instruction should be simple enough to follow. No more shopping, no more expensive clothes, no more Michelin starred food. But how does someone who's spent their entire life surviving on money, and gifts, and everything material, suddenly change their ways? It's your form of affection.
It's more difficult than it should be.
You keep walking. You don't pay the big designer brands any mind.
That is, until you pass Chaumet.
A French jeweler specializing in refined pieces, romantic pieces. Jewelry with meaning.
Your eye catches the engagement rings. Natasha follows your gaze.
For a moment, neither of you move. Do you really have what it takes?
You look at her. She brushes the hair away from your eyes. Your hand squeezes hers once more.
A bell rings, a door closes.
It's your last big purchase of the day.
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Hello, how about a part 2 of being Sevika's boss maybe when they got together or something like that thankyouuu and i love all of your ficss thank you making them hehe
Sevika's Boss ê© part 2
hi anon, sevikas boss fanfic got a lot of love a while ago so im happy to write part 2 !! let me know if you enjoyed i threw in some misunderstandings for fun here..maybe kind of angst?? its okay tho you make up very quickly PART 1 , masterlist

You and Sevika hung around eachother a lot, I mean that was normal right? She is your second in command afterall.
Personally, you didn't see a problem with it, and nor did Sevika.
She had grown accustomed to your presence and didn't mind all your small, loving touches and annoying jokes.
And yes, sometimes she went a little overboard for you, like what kind of subordinate stays at their bosses house to tend to them whilst they are injured? Or goes out for drinks every weekend? But maybe your relationship was starting to exceed the bounds of boss and employee.
She has definitely warmed up to you more than she did with Silco. She thinks it was your charming personality, or cute outfits, your smile...
Some people might say you sitting in Sevikas lap while you fixed up her arm might be indecency in the workplace, but you found it to be a simple and innocent task.
But this begs the question, what exactly is your relationship?
This is also a question Jinx was starting to ask herself.
"So uh...whats with you and Sevika?" Jinx asked in an almost singsongy voice.
She flipped her gun around in her hand haphazardly while she was sprawled out on your (Silcos) desk.
"What do you mean whats with us..?" You shook your head, mimicking her movements with your pen.
"I meaaan, you guys act like a married couple or something!" She threw her two hands in the air with a 'duh' kind of look plastered on her face.
You pushed one of her braids to the side to pull out a paper from under it. One of Sevikas reports from a recent trip. Her handwriting was an imperfect cursive. Sighing, you put your face in your hand while you held the paper, staring at it diligently.
Jinx looked at you quizically at your lack of an answer. She sharply pushes the paper down with the tip of her gun, "Hey, are youâ Oh," She let out a nasally laugh at the paper, "Damn, you got it bad, huh, toots?"
"What? I have what bad?" You slid the paper away and tilted your head at her.
The blue-haired girl sat up and rested a spindly arm on her knee, "You're so in L word with her." She snickered at you.
"Im inâ" Your face flushed at your realization. "I am not in 'L word' with her." You raised your hands to do finger quotes around 'L word.'
"Hmmmm, are you sure?" She teased, putting her gun to her chin and looking up in mock thought "I mean, you practically cling to her, you always walk home with her, and plus you talk about her all the timeâ hell! You talk to her all the time."
You stared at Jinx, now zoning out in thought. What were you supposed to tell Sevika? Does Sevika even think the same way about you? Would that relationship even be appropriate?
"You know what?" You stood up and pointed in Jinx' face, "Im going to do itâ"
She attempted to cut you off with a meek,
"Sevikasâ"
"Im going to tell her I love her," You continued, Jinx' half attempt to save your ass fell on deaf ears.
You looked up, finger still in the girls face to make eye contact with a very familiar set of grey eyes. Fuck.
Sevikas gaze faltered, and she cleared her throat, bringing a fist to her mouth, "Um. I came to ask you if you wanted to grab a drink, but it seems like you have better plans."
Holy shit. She didn't know it was about her. Is that good or bad? You only felt a few seconds of relief before Sevika just turned around and walked out. That was bad.
Jinx whistled, still under the pressure of your pointing finger, "You have some explaining to do."
You fumbled over your words before pushing Jinx' forehead back with your finger. "Ughh.. This is your fault."
You drooped back down into the large chair, putting your head in your hand and heaving a sigh.
"Just go tell her while you still have a chance. She's probably going to be moping around the Last Drop," Jinx got up from her spot on the desk, and some papers fell with her.
"That's my queue to leave, though," She hopped out of the office with a little too much energy, probably on her way to cause more mischief.
You sighed and packed up your stuff, picking up stray papers and shoving them into a random drawer on your desk.
Grabbing your bag and slinging it over your shoulder, you pushed open the double doors to your office. It was time to go to the last drop.
poor sevika
Your entrance was signified with the ding of a bell atop the door. Music was playing loudly, and people were swarmed around the bar. Your eyes scanned the nearest areas for Sevika, but as you figures she was nowhere in sight.
She was most definitely in her usual gambling spot. You didn't want to approach her while she was in the middle of a game, so you waited at a nearby table, making sure to stay out of her sight.
You could hear the groans of the men at her table, most definitely losing. Chuckling at this, you watched as a waiter came up to your table asking for your order.
You just asked for a simple whiskey sour, hanging your bag on the back of your chair.
Several minutes (and a few drinks later), you felt someone's eyes on the back of your head. Turning around, you, once again, were met with steely grey eyes. Sevika stood near behind you with her arms crossed. The game had finished.
"You get rejected or something." She deadpanned.
"Noâwell.. not yet." You turned around in your chair to face her, the metal back of the chair was now settled between your legs.
You held what you thought was your sixth whiskey sour in between your fingers, chin resting on the top of the chair back.
She scoffed at this, turning her head to avoid eye contact. You could have sworn a small blush coated her cheeks. But her frown made you think otherwise, her large forearms tensed before she spoke.
"Oh, so you're waiting for her here."
How cruel of you to profess your love to someone in the place you knew Sevika would be. You probably wanted her to see it, right?
"Yeah, shes already here." You said, still staring at her side profile, tracing the scar on her cheek with your eyes.
The neon lights illuminated her face and brought out every curve and angle. But your thoughts were interrupted by her stern and almost angry voice.
"I should leave then," she started to walk away, but you reached out quickly.
(I dont know why you would do that when she wasn't even in arms length to begin with.) You started to fall forward, you let out a small yelp and held onto the chair, your drink falling onto the ground. You awaited impact, but it never came.
Instead, you were met with strong arms holding the back of your chair up. Sevika was bent over slightly, both mechanical arm and human arm on the metal of the chair. And for the third time, you made eye contact with now very close grey eyes. Her eyebrows were furrowed in shock or frustration- you couldn't tell.
Without another thought, you grabbed her by the collar and pulled her lips into yours. At first, she tried to pull away but eventually melted into the heat of the kiss. She sat your chair back up on four legs, and her elbows lean on the top of the chair, encircling you.
Almost as soon and she relented she pulled away, "What the hell are you doing," She rasped, wiping her mouth with the back of a large hand.
Her lips were still puffy from the kiss, but almost more downturned than before. When you didn't respond she offered a question, "Are you drunk?"
Your lopsided grin told her all she needed to know. She knew she needed to take you home, but she was going to do so reluctantly. Afterall you were going to become someone else's girl, couldn't have her hands all over you like she usually did.
She grabbed you (almost roughly) by the arms and pulled you out of the chair, "How are you going to profess your love now?" She scoffed.
"I just did, was that not enough?" Your words were slurred and you helped her by stepping up with heavy legs.
She furrowed her brows until she came to a not-so-shocking realization. Cursing under her breath she smirked at you. You could almost see the relief wash over her face.
Her thick arm held you by your upper torso as she almost carried you to the doors. She sighed at your stupidness, why not just tell her right away, then you wouldn't have to have gone through all the trouble.
She eyed your glossed over eyes, shaking her head at the dumb smirk that held its place on your face. She could feel the quiver of your body against the cold night wind.
At that she lifted you into her arms, covering you with her cloak. You looked up at her with wide eyes, burying your face in the material. God she wanted to kiss you so bad. But she'd save that for the awkward talk in the morning.
thank you for reading ! yes i see your asks all your fics are on the way I swear !!!! much love
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hello might i ask for sassy badass reckless reader who is the #1 leading cause of aaron's gray hairs pls đ€đ» he is SO exasperated with her like he is TIREDâą but also tweaking bcs he's horrendously down bad for her he's gna throw up
Good morning. I hope you slept well, honey. Can you come to work early, say 6.10AM? Iâd like to see you and talk about something in person.Â
You squint at the text thatâs just come through. Another follows as youâre finishing, lighting the dark of your room.
I love you. Sorry, I know you donât like when I forget to tell you in the mornings.Â
Your own response is sent without propriety. I love you too handsome. 6.10 is not gonna work.
Can you make an effort for me? he asks.Â
You do your very best.Â
âItâs almost seven,â Hotch says when you finally get there that morning, his frown audible and plain to see.Â
You hold up the bag of sugar donuts youâd purchased from the truck on the square just outside of Quanticoâs endless parking lots. âNecessary delay.âÂ
âUnnecessary. I asked you nicely to come early and youâre barely on time,â he grumbles.Â
How adorable. You put the bag of donuts on the desk and ignore the paperwork laid out waiting for you in favour of his side of the desk. He smells like cedar, his suit sleeve starched under your hand. You lean back against the lip of his desk and pretend you hadnât been thinking about climbing into his lap âheâs formidable and lovely and thatâs the best combination for lounging about atop someone, especially when that someone is very good at pressing you backwards, and better at kissing your neck.Â
He knows what youâre thinking. âYouâve woken up in a mood,â he murmurs.Â
âA good one,â you promise.Â
You take his coffee and steal a sip. Hotch, resigned, lays a hand on your thigh. âI have important things to talk about, you know? I thought I made that clear this morning.âÂ
âYou made a couple of things clear.âÂ
âDonât say it like that.âÂ
âLike what?âÂ
âLike IâŠâ He tilts his head to the side. âLike Iâve been sending you dirty texts or photos.âÂ
âIs that an option? I donât think Iâve subscribed to those emails.âÂ
âYou make me out to be this salacious larkââ
âAaron, I donât do anything of the sort.â You can hardly hold back a laugh. âIâm sorry I implied you were sexting me, okay? I wish you had been.â He sighs a long-suffering sigh as you carry on. âBut you were very formal. Iâll be sure to tell HR the same thing.âÂ
His hand slips between your thighs. Nowhere it shouldnât be, just trapped between soft flesh. âDonât tell HR anything.âÂ
His coffee is lukewarm and unsweetened on your tongue. Would it kill your uptight love to add just a dash of cream and sugar? Wrinkling your nose, you set aside the mug and press your mildly heated hand to his cheek. Just quickly, brushing a thumb up to the skin below his eye before you let it fall. âTell me what you wanted me to come in early for. And, for the record, Iâm sorry for not trying to get here before, just I didnât sleep well, and my neck hurt too much to rush.âÂ
He looks like he wants to ignore your apology. He doesnât ask you for much, and showing up when heâd wanted you to wouldâve been the kinder thing to do âhe can be annoyed as both boss or boyfriend.Â
But he doesnât have it in him.Â
âWhy didnât you sleep?â he asks softly.Â
âThinking too much about my nice boyfriend.âÂ
âReally?âÂ
You slouch a little. Cover his hand where it rests between your legs. âI donât know. It was really hot, and my mattress is getting old, probably.âÂ
He ushers you down for a sympathetic kiss. Heâs always so sorry to hear about your minor ailments, he must like you too much.Â
You attempt to crawl into his lap, curling an arm behind his head. He, disgruntled and yet far from reluctant, lets you take a seat.Â
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Right Here, Waiting (2)
Roommate!Bucky Barnes x Curvy!Fem!Reader
< < PART 1
Summary: While out with Buckyâs friends for Samâs birthday, someone makes a rude comment about your body, leading Bucky to prove just how beautiful he thinks you are.
Prompt: âHey. Pick on someone your own size.â for @avengers-assemble-bingoâs 108th Birthday Celebration
Warnings: strictly 18+ due to the AU, TRIGGER WARNING internal monologue references reader having issues with weight & eating, a man commenting on readers appearance/body in a negative and unprovoked way, VERY insecure reader, slight angst with belief of unrequited love, idiots in love who finally stop being so oblivious!
Word count: 4.3k
A/N: so I was triple dared by @intrepidacious to write more for these two and who am I to break the sacred rules of triple dares? They do deserve their happy ending đ©” banners by @vase-of-lilies
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You donât want to be here. Not really.
Even though youâve got Nat by your side and youâre essentially invisible as a group of Buckyâs mates celebrate his best friendâs birthday, thereâs something about being in a new part of town, and with a group of people you donât know that well, which makes you feel on edge.
But the reason you came tonight is staring at you with warm, sparkling blue eyes, and a smile that calms the raging nerves in your stomach.
âYou having a good time?â
âI am now that youâre here.â You say playfully, and you hear Nat scoff lightly from beside you.
He looks heavenly, as if a statue of a Greek god was animated to life, donning a shirt which perfectly matches the colour of his irises, which shows off his bulging biceps, and just enough length to his perfectly styled hair which makes you want to run your fingers through it.
It really should be a crime to walk around looking so good that he draws the stare of every woman within a ten meter radius, head held high like he knows it too.
But while everyone else has their eyes on him, whispering about how gorgeous he is, Buckyâs looking at you, making your stomach somersault. And then the stunning smile he flashes just for you has you melting into a puddle.
Surely thereâs no way he canât see the effect he has on you, how you become a giggling fool in his presence. But that just serves as a reminder that after three months living together and him not making a move, he is very clearly not interested in you like that.
âI shouldnât have taken so long to come find you then.â You know heâs only joking, but in reality you and Nat have barely had the time to wish Sam a happy birthday and set yourself up at one of the high top tables. Bucky hasnât exactly wasted any time in coming to talk to you.
âWell it would have been rude of you not to say hello to the birthday boy first.â
âAhh I see enough of that punk anyway.â He jests, as if he also doesnât see you every single day at your shared apartment, but you donât mention that to him.
You notice Nat walking over by to corner of the room in a group with the man of the hour, not even bothering to announce her departure unlike last weekend at your local bar with her attempt to push you and Bucky together.
Somehow being alone with him now, even though itâs a regular occurrence back in your apartment, fills your stomach with churning anxiety. Perhaps itâs the expectation that Nat believes something will happen between the two of you, even though youâre well aware thatâs a physical impossibility.
âThanks for coming tonight, I know you donât know Sam all that well yet and would probably prefer to be snuggled under a blanket at home reading, but I want you to meet my friends. And I want them to meet the people who are important to me too.â
The implication that you are a prominent person in Buckyâs life gives life to butterflies in your tummy. Even though youâre sure the intention of his words are that youâve become good friends while living together, itâs ammunition your mind can use to assemble a pipe dream that you serve a much more significant role in your roommateâs life.
âIf theyâre important to you, then theyâre important to me too.â Silly boy doesnât know youâd do absolutely anything for him, including facing your social anxiety of meeting new people if it means you get to see him happy.
âWell youâre the most important.â
Itâs when he says things like this, accompanied with that earnestly affectionate smile, that hope builds brick by brick in your chest - you donât say that to someone whoâs just a friend, right?
But if he somehow did feel that way about you, ignoring all the reasons why someone as attractive and charming as him could do so much better than you, then why had he not made a move?
You come to the same conclusion you always do when Bucky comes out with these overly sweet statements - heâs referring to you as being very good friends. Roommates who would consider each other family.
Regardless, with this small sentence heâs rendered you utterly speechless, your mouth so dry and brings a ferocious heat to your cheeks that you couldnât contribute to conversation even if you had to.
Thereâs a silence which passes between you, not awkward like either of you are waiting for the other to come up with some ridiculous small talk, but content, that even in a room packed with people to speak to youâre happy just being in each other's presence, words arenât needed.
âOh, how rude of me, you donât have a drink - you want your usual?â You had never expected him to buy you a drink, but it warms your heart how considerate he is, that he takes the initiative to make it his priority even when it arguably doesnât affect him.
âYes please.â You manage to mutter out.
The cheeky wink he shoots you before heading up to the bar only further contributing to you melting into a puddle on the floor. He could do anything and have you in a trance, but when itâs small, doting actions reserved solely for you like this, that have your heart leaping out of your chest.
âSo⊠whenâs the wedding?â Nat comments, sidling up to you, however it doesnât distract you from watching Bucky walk away, admiring his strapping, muscular back and his ass that looks divine.
Itâs when you turn to look at your best friend, a brazen sparkle in her eye, do you miss the way Bucky longingly looks back at you from the bar.
That relentless hope youâre continually trying to shake returns, inflating in your chest when she talks in a way that your romance with Bucky is inevitable, when you spend every waking second actively pulling yourself back to reality on earth from dreaming on cloud nine.
âNat you know he doesnât like me like that.â You repeat for what feels like the millionth time.
âI beg to differ, youâd been here less than two minutes before he approached you.â The gleam in her eye has become a familiar one, that screams âtold you soâ, as if this was conclusive evidence.
âHe knows we donât know a lot of people here and just wanted to make sure we felt comfortable. Thatâs what friends do.â At least thatâs what you are telling yourself to help suppress any irrational wish your brain could conjure at the reasoning why Bucky sought you out so quickly after your arrival.
âWell he only asked you didnât he? It was like I was invisible to him.â
âHe just knows me better, that's all, we do live together you know.â Is how you justify his behaviour, but you can tell Nat isnât having a bar of it with the cynical look she shoots at you.
âYou keep telling yourself that sweetie. That boy has it bad for you, but you silly kids will work it out eventually.â She says with a certainty that puzzles you, as if there is no question that you and Bucky are destined to end up together. She flashes a quick smile before affectionately patting your hand and making her way up to the bar.
Thereâs a moment where youâre left alone, pondering Natâs words and if there is any truth to them - your best friend is honest to a fault, and isnât the type to blatantly lie to you to spare your feelings. Perhaps thereâs something she can see that you canât, or wonât let yourself notice.
The buoyant hope you always try pushing down floats in your stomach and for once you revel in the small possibility that perhaps youâve been wrong all along about Bucky. As unlikely as it is, maybe your feelings arenât completely unrequited.
You feel someone next to you before you hear them speak, a voice that is unfamiliar and which sends a tense vexation shivering down your spine.
âThat little redhead friend of yours is gorgeous, think you could introduce me?â Itâs not the first time a stranger has approached you interested in Nat. Sheâs beautiful, slim and wears dresses that flaunt her toned figure, but it nevertheless causes an ache deep in your chest that you're never the person the man approaching you is attracted to.
Just once it would be nice to be the woman they notice, the one lusted after.
âSheâs not interested.â You donât even have to look at the man to know Nat wouldnât be interested in someone who didnât have the guts to approach her directly.
You hope that response is enough to send the man on his way, but your experience tells you men with an ego the size of a Mount Everest donât give up so easily when they have a gorgeous woman in their sights.
âCâmon, donât be butt hurt that no oneâs interested in you. Attractive people deserve other attractive people.â
His words, laced with so much spite, feel like a kick to the teeth. Even though heâs a nobody, someone who will disappear into the masses that make up this enormous city, itâs just another reminder that not a single person in this populous metropolis wants you, in particular the one person who owns your heart and sleeps in the next room.
âYou really think thatâs gonna make me more likely to help you out?â You turn to finally look at the man, and as attractive as he is, there is a pretentious air to him, a conceited smirk youâd love to smack off his face. Itâs a face of a man that has never been told ânoâ before in his life. âFuck off.â
âDonât be a bitter bitch about it.â
Without you realising, Bucky had noticed you looking uncomfortable in conversation with this repulsive man, and stalked across the entire length of the room, forgetting about your drinks at the bar, to come to your aid.
âHey mate, how about you pick on someone your own size huh?â Bucky looks dauntingly large as he steps up to face the man, at least a head taller than him with broad shoulders that make the other guy look like a lanky schoolboy in comparison.
In contrast to how intimidating Bucky looks, his touch is gentle as he herds you behind him protectively.
âWhy? Because the whore is so much bigger than everyone else here.â
His mocking tone cuts through you like a sword, hollowing out your insides. You sense all eyes in the room turn to you, and you shrivel into yourself in juxtaposition to how Bucky shines when the centre of attention.
It feels like the air in the room has been suctioned out, your lungs and throat burning from the absence of oxygen, or maybe itâs just your lack of will to take a breath, wanting the world to engulf you and your existence to end right here.
Itâs hard enough to live with the understanding of how much bigger you are than every other person in the room when it is etched into your frontal lobe so that you are reminded of it every passing second, but for someone else to actually express that notion aloud, for all the terrible thoughts you believe about yourself to be confirmed by a stranger who only needs to have seen you once in your life to recognise this about you, is enough for you to start decaying from the inside out.
Itâs not just you who thinks that, now every single person in the bar is fully aware of how much physical space youâre taking up, how much weight you carry on your distinctly pudgy stomach, around your jawline which is soft unlike Buckyâs sharp mandible, how your thighs rub together when you walk, not having a gap between them as Nat does.
âWhat the fuck did you just say?â You barely recognise the voice as Buckyâs, he practically growls at the man, picking him up by the shirt front and slamming him into the wall behind you.
Buckyâs positive heâs never had rage flow through his veins like this before, never genuinely wanted to snap someoneâs neck and step over their lifeless body until this very second. Anyone who hurts you deserves an even worse fate than that.
The bastard then has the gall to mumble out âit was just a jokeâ as he raises his hands in defence, as if he wasnât the piece of shit to provoke this entire confrontation.
âI dare you to say that again and see where it gets you.â Bucky longs to punch his fist through this manâs nose, the only reason currently stopping him is a potential assault charge, but then he hears you sniffling behind him and he wants to throw caution to the wind.
âBarnes, you need to go after her.â Natasha implores, interrupting the intense staring match between the two men and saving Bucky from spending the night in a jail cell. The mention of you is the only distraction which spares this manâs face from being rearranged.
Bucky practically throws the guy on the ground, searching for you in the sea of patrons staring at the commotion, before chasing after you as if his life depends on it - because it does, you are the reason his heart beats just that little bit quicker every morning at the prospect of seeing you curled up in your armchair, having fallen asleep reading one of your books and him needing to gently wake you from your slumber; you are the reason he stops off at the store on his way home from work and spends half an hour at the grocery store most days, to ensure the pantry is fully stocked with your favourite snacks; you are the reason he has not brought a single woman back to his apartment since moving in, no one on the face of this earth could could make him feel the way you do, turn him on naked in his bed how you do dancing around the kitchen in your pyjamas.
He loves you. And his whole world is crashing down around him knowing youâre in any type of pain.
âSunrise, please.â You're not sure what heâs pleading for exactly, but he doesnât ask again once you stop scurrying out of the bar. He reaches for you when the fresh air outside hits your face with a crispness that makes your tears sting more than they had inside, tugging on your shoulder for you to turn around and face him.
The completely shattered way you look back at him, with teary eyes that are usually so full of wonder and vivacity, shreds Buckyâs heart into so many pieces heâs not sure heâll ever be able to put it back together again.
Heâs going to kill that man for making you feel like a fragment of the beautiful person he has come to adore.
Unintelligible words fall from your lips but you donât have the brain capacity to articulate yourself better when your mind is rerouting all your thoughts to one central nucleus - how disgustingly large you are.
Typically youâd be mortified about Bucky seeing you in such a distressed state, because not only are you huge, you must also look revoltingly unattractive with tears flowing down your cheeks, ruining your makeup, and snot dripping from your nose.
But you know Buckyâs arms, the embrace of the man you love, is also the only cure for the malignant disease which has now infected your mind, so you put up no defence to him pulling you in for a secure, reassuring hug.
Buckyâs chest, smelling strongly of cinnamon, is the safest place youâve ever known. Even though youâre still consumed by what was said back inside the bar, Bucky holds you so tightly that you have no doubt that he will comfort you through the worst of it without him needing to say so.
Itâs a blur of tears, head throbbing, chest aching and Buckyâs soft yet vigilant hands as you make your way home. He leads you into a cab, buckling your seatbelt for you, him taking the middle seat so you can rest your head on his shoulder, his calloused hand resting on your thigh, soothingly rubbing gentle circles with his thumb over your soft skin.
Not a single word is spoken on your journey, comfortable with the solace his presence brings you, and finally feeling secure being miles away from the environment that led you to feeling as giant as an elephant trapped in a zoo enclosure with mice.
Buckyâs fingers interlace with yours as he leads you up to your apartment, the feel of his large hand engulfing yours eases the feeling of taking up too much space in the world. Even though youâre much wider than him in size, there are parts of your tall roommate that somehow miraculously still make you feel smaller than him.
His keys get thrown on the hall table with a clang. The familiar environment brings you peace, even if Bucky holding your hand is a new sensation which has nervousness prickling your stomach.
He sits on your couch, the one youâve sat on many a lonely night before you even knew Bucky, his arms outstretched in a way which asks you to curl up on him in a hug.
âNo, Bucky Iâll crush you.â
His heart cleaves in two with just how defeated your small voice is. It physically hurts him that you think of yourself like that and not as the most beautiful, voluptuous goddess that he knows you are.
âYouâre not gonna crush me. Now câmere.â His voice is soft but his hands are unyielding as he practically picks you up and deposits you in his lap, not taking no for an answer.
His strong arms snake around you, large hands resting on a pocket of fat on your waist that has always plagued your insecurities, but Bucky holds you tenderly, almost lovingly, and the self doubt slips from your mind and all you can focus on is how close you are to him.
âYouâre so beautiful.â He whispers with a kiss to your temple. It almost sounds like he actually believes it - but your mind simply cannot accept that as fact, especially not after the humiliation surging through you from the strangers taunt earlier.
âBucky, you donât have to lie.â
âSunrise, Iâm not lying.â He retorts almost instantly, not wanting to allow any time for doubt to creep into your mind.
âYouâre my roommate, you canât very well call me an ugly pig, which is exactly what I am.â
Bucky so badly wants you to be able to see yourself the way he sees you, how vibrant his life becomes when you so much as walk into a room, how all his anxieties fade to nonexistence when you smile at him.
How you are everything he has ever dreamed of.
You sleep one very thin wall away, and all he can ever think of as he falls asleep on his own every night is if you are in the next room thinking of him too, wishing that your dreams will be consumed by him as his are by you.
âStop. Please stop putting yourself down. You are gorgeous, stunning, and so much more than just my roommate.â He says sincerely, wiping away a stray tear as it trickles over the apple of your cheek. âYou are my Sunrise, the stunning star at the centre of my universe that lights up my entire life.â
Never in a million years did you imagine these words coming out of Bucky Barnesâ mouth. You stare at him, jaw slack in utter shock, waiting for the moment where he takes it all back or to clarify that youâve misinterpreted the intention and in fact he really means that youâre good friends, just very good friends.
This must be your hopeful heart overreacting after such an upsetting day, because surely he cannot actually think of you as more than that.
âIt hurts me that you canât see how impossibly beautiful you are, how youâre the most stunning woman everywhere you go, how I canât take my eyes off you even for a minute whether itâs lazing around here in your pyjamas or all dolled up for a night out. You will always be the most beautiful woman in any room to me.â
Your chest feels like itâs about to explode any second with how much warmth is ballooning in your lungs. This isnât happening. Surely you bumped your head getting out of the cab and this is all just a dream your mind has concocted to heal from the anguish sustained earlier.
âYou canât possibly mean that.â You shake your head, attempting to pull yourself out of the hallucination your brain is composing.
Bucky's eyes flit down to your lips, slightly chapped and dehydrated from crying your eyes out, but when they return to your gaze again, thereâs a palpable desperation which quivers in his pupils.
âMy whole fucking world comes to a standstill when you enter a room and like a magnet I canât help but be drawn to you. You make my heart beat out of my chest just by smiling at me. There is not a day where I donât wish to be back home here with you, where itâs just the two of us and the world outside holds no consequence because youâre all Iâve ever needed, all Iâve ever wanted. Can you really not see how powerful the hold you have over me is?â
There should be no doubt, given his confession, how much significance you have in Buckyâs heart, and yet youâre in disbelief, utter shock, unable to truly comprehend why he cares for you in such a way, when there are so many other women who are hotter, skinnier, funnier than you.
If this was written in one of the thousands of romance novels youâve read, you wouldnât hesitate to believe how much love the protagonists have for one another, but because itâs happening to you, that you are the heroine of this story, your mind is conditioned to reject the premise altogether.
âBuckyâŠâ You mumble, your mind is spinning too much to form a coherent thought, let alone articulating just how consequential your feelings for the man whose lap you're sitting in are.
âEven if you donât feel the same way, I need you to know how beautiful you are to me.â And thatâs when your brain kicks into gear - you cannot stand any insinuation that your feelings for your roommate are simply platonic, and not the all consuming, devoted love that fills your heart with as much sunshine as on a cloudless summer day.
Especially not after his admission.
âNot feel the same? Bucky, Iâve been in love with you since you mov-â
At the mention of the word âloveâ Bucky pulls your face close with a hand on either side of your face, and kisses you so forcefully the rest of your sentence is muffled and completely forgotten about.
You havenât kissed someone in such a long time, and your stomach prickles with nerves as you frantically try remembering the movements youâre meant to make with your lips, where your tongue should be, that you should close your eyes. But as long as it has been, youâre sure the sparks you feel as his warm lips caress yours is because it is James Barnes kissing you, and not just anyone.
He smells and tastes divine, like sweet honey and sharp cinnamon, his lips soft as pillows that move hungrily against yours, like he canât get enough of you either, and when he moans into your mouth you swear you see the gates of heaven.
When his tongue slips into your mouth, the realisation hits you square in the chest that youâre kissing your Bucky, the man who sleeps in the adjacent room, who cooks you breakfast shirtless in your kitchen, who always thinks to bring home your favourite food after a long day at work where he could arguably only want to think about himself.
The man you love. And who reciprocates that ardent feeling.
The awareness that itâs him knocks all the breath from your lungs and you need to come up for air much sooner than you would have liked, but Bucky gazes up at you with that familiar warmth that you never would have believed was something more than just friendship, but now seems like it was the clue all along that the two of you were never just roommates.
âYou love me, huh?â He says in such a playfully taunting tone that makes you smile.
âYeah⊠but Iâm your Sunrise arenât I?â
âThat you are. My beautiful. Stunning. Gorgeous. Sexy. Perfect Sunrise.â Bucky places sweet kisses to your lips between each adjective, each one lasting a little longer than the previous. âI love you too.â
Maybe you canât understand why Bucky feels this way about you when there are far more attractive people in the world. But maybe that doesnât matter.
Perhaps your love for him is part of what makes you the most beautiful person in the world in his eyes, the way his love for you is why you find him the most alluring man you have ever met. And that will forever be enough for you.
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best friend
you and your best friend ellie are spending the day goofing off like usual, but things take a turn when a tickle fight goes a little too far.
hello! i know it's been literal months since I've posted, and to that i have to say... woops! anyway, here's something i threw together in a moment of creative inspiration involving nerdy loser ellie! this might suck so let me know if it's not hot garbage and you want a part 2
cw// sesbian lex, top!ellie, bottom!reader, fingering, cunnilingus, so fluffy, like you might get a toothache this is so sweet, ellie being a big loser and sweetheart, reader is only described as having hair and is afab
word count- 3k
mdni i swear to god
âNo, Iâm telling you- a T-rex is nothing compared to a pterodactyl!â Ellie insisted, lightly nudging your leg with her sock-clad toes. You giggled at her, amused by her persistence to get her point across. But, despite her obvious knowledge in this particular field, you felt the need to be contrary. You shift back a little on her bed, leaning against the headboard.
âMmm, I donât know Els⊠a T-rex is pretty big.â You hummed, plastering a skeptical look on your face. She scoffed, offended by your audacity to doubt her.
âWell yeah, but they canât fly! They have little nub arms, like, they couldnât even grab you!â She curled her arms in front of her, making little swiping motions with them. âSee?â
You couldnât help but let out a bark of laughter at her- frankly- spot-on impression. You shoved her, making her topple back, almost falling off of her side of the bed entirely. She let out a little yelp, catching herself just on the edge. She spun back around with a mock look of shock.
âWhat? You didnât like my impression? Iâll have you know Iâve been told no one can do a T-rex like me!â She shouted, clambering up onto her knees. Using the height advantage, she reached down to your ribcage to begin an assault of tickles. You screeched and tried to make a grab at her hands but she scrambled them around your torso, making it hard to get a grip.
âEls! Quit it!â You managed to say through your uncontrollable laughter. You thrashed, but she trapped your legs between her knees. A shit-eating grin adorned her freckled face as she continued her attack. You could feel your face getting hot from exertion but you refused to give in.
Finally, you managed to grab her wrists well enough to pry them from your body, immediately gulping down air while you knew you still could. However, Ellie quickly twisted her wrists from your grasp and grabbed onto yours instead, pinning them against the pillows next to your head. Instantly, you felt a shift in energy. Ellieâs smile dropped slightly as she stilled, eyes locked on yours. You tried to catch your breath, but it was hard with the way she was 1. still on top of you, and 2. looking at you like that.
You and Ellie had been friends for as long as you could remember. You were next door neighbors and, being two girls the same age, you quickly became each otherâs besties. Even when Ellie and her dad, Joel, moved across town in middle school you stayed close. You were constantly at her house, it was practically your second home. Ellie was your favorite person in the world. She also happened to be your longtime crush. Ever since the 7th grade, when she started getting taller and grew into her features. You both knew you each like girls, but Ellie always had a crush on some other girl at your school. You didnât want to ruin the relationship you had with your best friend by telling her you liked her when she obviously didnât like you back. So anytime your hug lingered a little too long, or you accidentally brushed her arm or leg, youâd get tense and nervous.
You felt your face heat up more, the feeling worsening when you felt her breath fan across your face. Oh shit, was she getting closer? Your gaze flicked down to her lips, now merely centimeters from yours. When you looked back up to her eyes, she was staring at your lips. You let out a stuttering exhale, clenching your bound hands into fists.Â
âElsâŠâ You breathed out, and her eyes snapped back up to yours. You pulled one of your hands free from her now slacked grip and rested it on her cheek. She whispered your name and once again briefly looked down to your lips. You slid your hand around to the back of her neck and pulled her down towards you. You watched her eyes slide shut, and then did the same right as your mouths met.
Her lips were slightly chapped, but her mouth was warm and soft against yours. You could feel her hand that still held your wrist tighten its grip, and you scraped your nails across her hairline. She pulled back for a moment to change her angle so she could kiss you deeper and you hummed, enjoying the way her mouth pressed fully against yours. She gave an experimental lick into the crease of your lips and your breath shuddered. You felt her finally release her hold on your other wrist to instead hold your waist, her pinky brushing just under your t-shirt. You reached your arm around her back, tugging her body closer to yours. You both let out a soft moan at the feeling of your bodies aligning as her hips slotted between your parted thighs.
She drew her face back and you opened your eyes. She looked down at you and lightly brushed stray hair on your temple away. She leaned back down to kiss the corner of your lips, then your cheek, then your jaw, and onward along the expanse of your neck. You tipped your chin back, encouraging her to keep going. Her plush lips left wet kisses across your throat, occasionally nipping at the skin and soothing the sting with her tongue. She sucked at a patch of skin below your ear and you bucked your hips up involuntarily. The hand that held your waist slid lower to push your shirt up slightly.
 She paused her ministrations to ask, âIs this okay?â You quickly nodded and tugged her back down into a kiss, needing to feel her lips on you. You felt her hand under your shirt slowly creep up higher until it rested on your ribs, just under your breast. You slid your hand up to fully palm the back of her head and took hold of her hair. A groan slipped out of her and you squeezed her hips between your thighs at the sound.
Ellie muttered out a curse as she once again parted from you. âCan I take this off? Please?â She asked, fumbling with the hem of your shirt, desperation leaking into her tone. You nodded again, but she shook her head and leaned an inch closer. âNo, need you to say it.â
You furrowed your brows and pouted, but quickly gave in. âYes, take it off. Yours too.â You said, bunching the fabric of her own shirt in your fist. The corner of her lips turned up at your request and she leaned back down to give you a peck before sitting back on her haunches. She pulled your shirt up and you leaned forward, putting your arms above your head to make it easier for her.Â
As soon as your head and arms were freed from the fabric, you leaned back down and expected her to immediately remove hers. However, she sat with the shirt still in her grip, staring at your bare chest. You blushed, but you werenât embarrassed. You could tell from the look on her face she liked what she saw. You grabbed her shirt and tugged on it. âCâmonâŠâ You muttered, eager to get your own view. Without taking her eyes away from where they were fixated, Ellie swiftly pulled the garment up and over her head, exposing her small breasts. You mimicked her actions, staring unabashedly at her pink nipples.
Finally, she leaned back down to slide a calloused hand up your waist until she palmed your tit. She bit her lip and couldnât seem to decide on whether to watch her own hands play with your tits, or watch your expressions. She pinched a nipple between her fingers and rolled, and your breath hitched at the feeling, biting your own lip. âGodâŠâ She muttered. She couldnât hold herself back from kissing you again, and you held her face to keep her there. You whimpered into her mouth as she continued to toy with your nipples, and slid your hands down to do the same. You felt her breath catch when you pressed your thumbs down flat against them and flicked down. You both continued like that for a while, kissing and moaning into each otherâs mouths as you played with the otherâs breasts.Â
A particularly harsh pinch had you tossing your head back and bucking your hips up. This spurred her to reattach herself to your neck and grind down against you, earning her a high pitched noise from you. Ellie began her descent down your body, trailing her lips along your chest and the valley between your breasts. She made a quick detour to flick a nipple with her tongue, then suck it into her hot mouth. You arched your back, chasing the feeling as she continued her journey. Her hands gripped your hips as she sucked marks into your stomach. Your hands made their way into her hair, pushing it back from her face to see her better. Her fingers curled into the waistband of your sweats, just barely inching them down to plant kisses closer to your navel. You squirmed at the sensation, tightening your grip on her auburn locks.
Her fern green eyes looked up into yours, lips hovering no more than a couple inches from the skin of your hips. âYou want these off?â She asked, voice raspy and dripping with lust. You whispered a soft âyesâ, not trusting your voice enough to try for anything more. Seemingly satisfied, she nipped at your hips once more before sliding down farther to give herself room to fully remove your pants. She slowly tugged your sweatpants and underwear down at once before becoming impatient halfway through and practically ripping them the rest of the way off, slinging them off to the side.Â
You suddenly felt a wave of self consciousness and clamped your knees together before she could turn back to you. When she did, she frowned slightly. She planted her hands on your ankles and looked up to your face. âBaby,â She started, making your heart jump at the pet name, âlemme see.â You felt blood rush both up to your face and downward, and you wiped your sweaty palms onto the sheets below you. Her hands skated up your calves, coming to rest just below your kneecaps as she sat up higher. She pressed messy kisses to your knees, pushing her thumbs into the insides, trying to encourage you to open up. Despite your- admittedly misplaced- sudden insecurity, you slowly parted your legs, displaying your whole body for her eyes to feast on. And feast they did.
Another curse slipped from her peachy lips, gaze locked on your wet pussy. âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted to do this.â Ellie said, her eyes briefly flicking up to your face. She seemed to take herself by surprise, and a deep blush spread up from her pale chest. Her reaction was oddly adorable, and you breathed out a small giggle. That must have reassured her, as a shy smile appeared back on her face.Â
You reached your hand out towards her and curled your fingers in. âCâmere.â You said. Obediently, she crawled her way back up your naked body and let herself be pulled into a passionate kiss. Your fingers brushed her jaw, feeling the ends of her hair tickle your knuckles. She broke the kiss, but couldnât stop herself from giving you one more peck, and then one to your cheek. âWill you take your pants off too? I donât want to be the only one naked.â You requested, thumbs circling the apples of her cheeks. Her smile turned impish, and she twisted her head to press her lips to your palm.Â
âI canât believe it. The past ten minutes youâve been trying to get into my pants?â She jokingly questioned, making you laugh loudly.Â
âBelieve it or not I have.â You answered, sliding a hand down to give her hard nipple a pinch. She gasped, holding a hand to her chest.
âWell, you could have told me!â Ellie exclaimed, then leaned her head down to litter your chest with kisses. Still softly laughing, you glided your hands up and down her back until she sat back. She twisted her body around to hook her thumbs into her pants and slide them down her legs, her underwear going along with them. As she stood back on her knees to face you again, you caught a glimpse of the patch of red hair covering her mound before she leaned back over you to continue worshipping your body with her mouth.Â
Ellie quickly made her way back to her previous stopping point, the stretch of skin right above your navel. She leaned back slightly and brought a hand up, gently pushing your thigh further out to give herself more room. She admired your glistening folds, and slid a single finger right down the middle, collecting your essence. You bit your lip, the anticipation driving you crazy. She finally pressed her thumb against the underside of your clit, rubbing up and down gently. The stimulation made your thigh twitch and your breath catch. Taking notice of this reaction, Ellie pressed down harder, making firm circles. This made your breathing pick up, and you reached a hand up to palm at your breast, needing something to focus on other than her unintentional teasing.Â
She used her index and middle finger to part your lips, spreading you out for her. Reaching her head down, she licked a fat stripe from your entrance to your clit. You breathed out her name, sweat beginning to form on your hairline. She shushed you gently in consolation just before diving back into you, tongue exploring. She suctioned your clit into her mouth while flicking it with her wet muscle, and you cried out. You were beginning to wonder if she had actually done this before and just never told you.
Your wondering was cut off when she used the two fingers she had been using to open you up to swirl broad circles over your bud and locked her gaze on you. âCan I finger you?â She asked almost too casually, too caught up in her excitement to be nervous. The eager look on her face almost made you want to deny her, but you were too needy yourself.
âGo âhead Els.â You said. She grinned and messily smacked a kiss on your aching clit, running her fingers through more of your wetness. Slowly, she inserted her middle finger up to the knuckle, then pulled back until just the pad remained inside. The foreign feeling made you furrow your brows, both out of frustration and pleasure. She found a rhythm quickly and her eyes locked onto the sight of her lazily pumping in and out. Experimentally, she curled her finger upwards towards your front. This action had you clenching down, a whimper being pulled from your throat. Her emerald irises snapped up to your face, noticing how her actions affected you.Â
As she pressed a second finger in alongside the first, she bent down to keep licking you. The sensation was immediately overwhelming, and one of your hands shot down to grab onto her short hair. Once again, she curled her fingers up just as they bottomed out inside you and your hips jumped from the bed. Your brain told you the feeling was too much, but your body craved more. She found her rhythm again, slightly faster now. Her tongue laved over your bud, spreading your slick as it leaked from your hole. She hummed, and the vibrations caused your moans to increase in pitch. âFuck! Like that- ah!â You cried out, encouraging her to continue exactly as she was. Thankfully, Ellie listened, pace never faltering as she fucked her fingers deep inside of you.
You could feel the warmth building up in your belly and knew you would cum soon. Fearing she would suddenly pull away or slow down, your grip on her hair tightened and you pulled her mouth flush to your pussy. Ellie moaned and let herself be shoved into you, opting to suck on your clit rather than lick. Your breath caught in your throat, back arching in a harsh curve as you felt your orgasm rapidly approach. Ellie dug her nails into the thigh she held as they began to shake around her head.
You let out one last pitchy whine as your high crashed over you. Your thighs squished her cheeks as they attempted to close, but she used both of her hands to push them back open, holding your hips down at the same time. Her mouth continued its assault, head moving side to side as she worked you through your orgasm. The feeling quickly became overwhelming, and your palm pushed against her forehead. âEls⊠too muchâŠâ You croaked out. She finally broke contact with your glossy pussy, opting instead to stare at the way your hole clenched around nothing.Â
âFuck babyâŠâ Ellie muttered, reaching up to run a thumb through your wetness, accidentally brushing your sensitive bud and making you jump. Panting, you grabbed her hand and pulled it up, wanting her to come up and kiss you. She seemed to understand this and made a slow journey back to you, leaving searing kisses across your body on the way. Once you were finally face to face you pulled her down for a proper smooch, hands cradling each side of her face. She brushed your hair back from your sweaty face as you tried to peck her on each of her freckles. She hummed a laugh and captured your lips in another soft kiss before pulling back and resting her head beside yours, nose nuzzling into your pulse point. You let out a heavy sigh, letting the aftershocks wrack through you as you rubbed her back.
âI love you.â She said, pressing her lips to your earlobe.Â
You smiled and tugged her hair to look her in the eyes. âI love you too.â You responded, thumbing her pouty bottom lip. She kissed your thumb, and held your face in one of her hands.Â
Her breath shuddered as your hand slithered down her torso, fingertips playing with the curly hair just above her pussy. âYour turn?â
#the last of us#the last of us part 2#tlou2#ellie williams#ellie tlou#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams smut
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streaming- MV33/1



summary- a compilation of moments from maxs streams
i really loved writing this as i always have small idea that arenât long enough to be their own post, if you have any small idea that goes with this or just in general then please comment it or send it to me and i will make a part two or another post similar <3
max loved to stream every now and then. he loved the interactions with fans and getting to play with his friends. you also loved when max streamed because it gave you some peace and quiet for a while, it also allowed you to do some house work without max following you like a lost puppy.
you had made numerous appearances in his streams and his fans loved it. probably enjoying seeing you both as actual humans and getting to see how you both live your daily lives together. some fans had made a compilation of the many times you made an appearance in one of maxs streams.
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max sat in his gaming chair immersed in whatever game he was playing. you needed something from the room he was in and it couldnât wait.
you opened the door as slowly and quietly as possible and creeped over to the thing you needed. apparently you werenât quiet enough and he heard you. he moved one side of his headset off his ear.
âsorry, i just needed to grab the end thing for the hoover.â you sheepishly smiled. he only grinned in return. you took this as the opportunity to walk up behind him so you were in the frame.
âwhat are you playing?â you questioned as your face finally came in shot.
âim playing cod with lando, charles and carlosâ
âaww cuteâ you sent a quick wave to say hello to everyone that was on the other end of the camera. however your eyes were quickly caught by the top of maxs head.
âcan they hear me?â you questioned, he nodded. âokay. hello everyone, itâs your favourite person in the world here and i just needed to show you somethingâ max had a confused look on his face as he watched you through the camera, wondering what you were about to show.
your hands reached for each side of the head set that was on his head and slowly removed it and handed it to him. your hands then went to either side of his head and tilted it down.
âmax gets really bad headset hair guys and it will literally stay like this for the rest of the dayâ maxâs hands quickly went up to his hair to attempt to fix while you and the chat couldnât help but laugh.
âshut upâ he grumbled as he lifted the head set back onto his head. âlove you baby!â you called over your shoulder as you left the room.
âi hate herâ
âi heard that!â
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âmijn liefste, wil je zo pasta? Ik ben er nu een paar aan het makenâ you canât be seen as you poke your head round the door.
âHet gaat goed, dank je schatâ he replies while not taking his eyes off the game but removing one side of his headset. âwelke pasta ben je aan het maken?â
âi know iâm learning but im not that good yet maxâ you laugh.
âi said âwhat pasta are you makingâ he replies, suddenly feeling hunger bubble his stomach.
âiâm not sure yet. are you sure you donât want any? iâll surprise youâ making food has always been one of your love languages, your mum had shown you to cook as soon as she could and you picked it up quick.
âyeah go on thenâ he finally turns to you and smiles as you walk away. when he finally turns back he sees the chat filled with questions and people telling him how cute you both are.
âyeah she is learning dutch. iâm teaching herâ his face lights up as he talks about you. âitâs very easy for her though because she already knows other languages so she picks it up quicklyâ his smile never leaving his face.
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max is looking intensely at the chat in-front of him, reading everything is the chat. answering a couple questions. he does this until he sees a familiar name come up.
ââanswer your phoneâ what?â he quickly picks up his phone to see that he has ten missed calls from you. he is quick to call you back.
âmax stop putting your phone on do not disturb and silentâ you scold. he always did when he was streaming, he always said it was because he didnât want to be disturbed however sometimes it was important. like now.
âsorry schat.â
âdo you want anything from the shop? iâve already got your m&ms and tomato soup.â max had a soft spot for m&ms and everyone knows about this manâs love of tomato soup.
âno iâm okay thank you baby. what are we having for dinnerâ max had a massive smile on his face. half because he was talking to you and because he knew how much everyone watching would love the conversation.
âwell youâve got mean prepâ you couldnât help but laugh as max groaned loudly and threw his head back. he hated meal prep. donât get me wrong he loved being healthy and eating nice food but sometimes he just craved your cooking. âand iâm having a stir fry.â
âugh whatever. i want stir fryâ
âi know baby. ill make you one as soon as your nutritionist will allow me tooâ
âokay fine. when will you be home?â max kept the phone close to his mic to make sure everyone would be able to hear you on the other end of the phone.
ânot long, i took the ferrari so it wonât take me long to get home. i donât have my keys so be ready to pick up your phone and open the door! okay, i love you byeâ you ended the phone call quickly before he could say anything about you taking his car.
âi swear she prefers my cars over her ownâ he laughed as he read through the chat again.
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when you moved in with max you demanded that a sofa be put into his gaming/office room. he got you the cosiest sofa he could just to make sure you were comfy. max spent a lot of time in the room and you missed him when he was in there.
before you lived together, you tried to sit on the floor when you were round but you just werenât comfortable enough so thatâs when you demanded a sofa. if max was streaming or just had some admin stuff to do, you would just sit on the sofa and enjoy each-others company.
max was streaming, as per usual, while you sat all snuggled up on the sofa across the room. you had one the comfiest jumper of his that you could find, his joggers, a blanket covering your whole body and tucked under your chin and you glasses that sat on your nose.
max had specifically bought a pair of joggers that were too small for him. one day he came home to see you wearing a pair of his that were far to big for you and when he questioned you, you said that you just enjoy wearing his clothes. so the next day he went and bought a pair that were to small and placed them in his waldrobe. from then on they were yours.
you were also a secret iPad kid at heart. your iPad was literally your prized possession and you took it everywhere with you. now was no different as you sat there with your ipad resting on your legs as you watched tik tok.
âlookâ you turned the ipad around so that it was facing max, he leant on the arm rest of the chair to get a better view of what you were showing him. it was a cat.
âwe should get sassy and jimmy oneâ he laughed as you nodded. he sat back into his chair and caught what the chat were saying. many people asking where you were.
he grabbed the camera from its holder and turned it to face you, showing you under the blanket. he got up out his chair and moved to sit next to you on the sofa.
âyou are actually such an old manâ you laughed as he struggled to hold the camera so that it would get a view of both of you. âgive it to meâ you took the camera from his hand and wrapped your other arm around his neck to bring him closer to you.
âhey guys, itâs your favourite person in the world hereâ the camera now had a perfect view of both of you as you put a quick peace sign up to the camera. you quickly nudged max and his fingers quickly went to the same position as yours. âi want to show you all my outfit, hold this babyâ you handed the camera to max and threw the blanket onto him as you stood from your seat.
âmax, show them my whole body my loveâ you laughed as he was only showing the camera your legs. âiâm trying Schatâ you leant forward a bit and moved maxs hand so it faced where it should be.
âokay so my glasses are from specsavers, they are the only people i trust with my glasses. even if i need a new pair i would rather fly home than get a pair from anywhere else. because if they messed my glasses up i would just hear my mum in my ear saying âshould have gone to specsaversâ. my jumper is maxs- where is this jumper from?â you questioned him.
âumm its a zara one i thinkâ
âokay so the jumper is from zara and these joggers are from nike. can i even say that? do they even sponsor you?â maxâs laugh could be heard from behind the camera before he replies. âyeah itâs okay. i thinkâ his face fell into a sheepish grin behind the camera.
âmy socks are from god knows where. and the blanket is from also god knows where.â you gave the camera a big smile as you fell back into your previous position.
âyou are the new version of maxplainingâ
âshut upâ
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âcan we play fifa?â you were sat on the floor, cross legged, next to max while he sat in his gaming chair. âyou only want to play fifa because you always beat meâ he huffed.
âexactlyâ you grinned at him.
#max verstappen x you#max verstappen x reader#max verstappen icons#max verstappen imagine#max verstappen#mad max#max#formula 1#red bull f1#f1 x reader#f1 imagine#f1 fanfic#f1#f1 fic#f1 2024#f1 x you#streaming#fifa#cod#verstappen#dutch
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but like... that is so very Real And Same of you tbh
also sorry about the literal max amount of tags on this; I do think you will enjoy them though probably? đ
I could get over anything as long as I have something new to be obsessed with
#i did not request to be seen like this#esp when we have the exact same obsession#right down to the vibes#what? i can't heal all my own trauma in like a month or two?#guess I'll just have to settle for healing a major chunk of my new boyfriend's instead#my irl husband and i kind of did this to each other#i guess my type is:#1) bigger and/or more powerful than me#2) will absolutely love me through my bullshit#3) âdoomed by the narrative all alone handsome?â#4) honestly if someone has no Trauma I'm swiping left#i know Larian doesn't want him to be âthe Trauma Characterâ#but i don't think they understand JUST how much trauma affects someone's personality and life trajectory#that doesn't make him one dimensional though#or the token trauma character#like hello your teammates are right there and all varying levels and types of traumatized#hell bro#shadowheart has her tent right next to yours#they're ALL trauma characters that's the point#it's something that shows their personhood#and the vast spectrum of what trauma can look like#literally asked Spoose (spouse) which of the main 6 i most reminded him of#my absolute Halsin of a precious darling#with very little hesitation whatsoever#confidently#âI'm thinkin Astarion actuallyâ#when i tell you... the absolute âW H A T ?â and huff i responded to with#before adjusting my stupid curly short hair in the mirror#and just staring at myself while processing this#was so just proving his point
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ââË.â Self-On Kode with Jaemin ââË.â
idol!Jaemin x f!idol!reader
summary: you and your best friend are very close, so you'll know what it's like to text him, right?
(cw: f!reader, idol!reader)
a/n: I am not currently accepting any new self-on kode requests
"Wow," you breathe out in wonder as you look around the studio from your pink chair, "I have watched so many of these videos. I love them." You bow softly to the camera, "Oh yes, hello, today I will be known as bunny."
On the other side of the wall, Jaemin settles into his seat, smiling at the camera while introducing himself, "Hello, I am Jaemin fron NCT Dream, but today I will be rabbit."
You bop your head along to your music softly, typing out your first message before your eyes widen slightly with surprise, "there are so many heart emojis! Woah, 1, 2, 3, 4... 11 heart emojis."
"Is this how you text everyone?" Jaemin reads off his phone, he pouts softly before typing back, "Yes, of course. Do you not like to feel happy?"
You laugh incredulously, "of course I like feeling happy. Emojis don't equate to happiness, Rabbit."
You both manage to move on and make small talk while you ignore the gross amount of emojis being used. Your partner seems to be fairly nice and happy-go-lucky, but you're still not quite sure who your partner is.
You and Jaemin had been close friends since you both started training together. He was strangely outgoing and outspoken in a way that was overwhelming at first but you quickly grew to like. He was a comforting person to be around and a great listener. He quickly became one of the few people you grew close to and felt a genuine friendship with.
It took a few years for you to develop a crush. He had been in the awkward puberty stage when you first met and that shaggy hair wasn't doing him too many favors. Then he took a medical break and came back to Seoul looking like a whole new guy. A very handsome new guy. 7 years ago was when you saw him in a new light, no longer just your nerdy best friend. And about 2 years ago that new light had led you to see him romantically.
Who could blame you with the way you two acted? There were countless inside jokes, regular hang out sessions with just the two of you, gifts exchanged, and way too much affection between two people who should only be friends.
When you see the screenshot sent to you, a flash of recognition hits you, could it be Jaemin? No, it couldn't be. Looking at the screen you zoom in, looking at an order for a pink variety floral bouquet. Why is it familiar? Well, because at the beginning of the week you'd gotten a pink variety bouquet from your best friend. Jaemin couldn't be your partner though, right?
You bite your bottom lip while typing out your response, "oooh, flowers for your girlfriend or boyfriend?"
Jaemin's cheeks flush a soft pink, chuckling under his breath, "something like that." He quickly adds, "just someone special."
The staff lets the both of you chat before moving you both along to send screenshots of you YouTube history. You take your screenshot and look up from your phone to look at the staff around the cameras, "I told you I'm a big fan so don't be surprised."
Jaemin laughs to himself while he looks at the picture, "wow, I have a big fan in my midst. Looks like we're twins..."
You cover your mouth as you laugh, looking at your screen which shows an almost identical image. Your partner had been binging the very same series. Another weird coincidence since last night you'd been watching these videos on your TV and live texting Jaemin about them. It was too much of a coincidence, it was getting weird.
Then came the most recent picture, you sent a picture of the shade of lip gloss your makeup artist had used on you and on your phone is a picture of an arm flexed. A very beefy, muscular arm and no face. "Woah," you breathe out. You can't even bring yourself to look at the camera, too embarrassed to show your face after how you just sat and stared at the picture for a straight minute with the screen really close to your face.
"You work out I take it?" You type back, slapping your palm against your forehead with embarrassment. You can see you manager turn away from you with second-hand embarrassment and you want to run behind the set and hide.
Thankfully your partner doesn't dwell on that and soon enough the staff is asking both of you to give your guesses.
Jaemin rubs his chin, "could it be one of my staff members? The makeup, the video history. I'm not sure."
In front of the blue wall, you try not too look at the camera, embarrassed by your behavior, "could it be Jaemin?"
You stand nervously on your side of the set, refusing to move and panicking while waiting for your partner to show themselves. From around the corner you see a familiar head of hair, then a familiar set of eyes, then a whole face with a dazzling smile. "Jaemin!" You breathe out in relief as you rush toward him and embrace him.
"It's you!" Jaemin exclaims while he hugs you.
You pull away from the hug, letting Jaemin fix your hair as you ask, "so, did you know it was me?"
"No, did you know it was me?" He asks in response.
"I had an idea..."
The staff have you both sit at a high top table and you pick up the conversation from there. Jaemin pokes your arm with a teasing smile, "how did you know it was me?"
"Well, you sent me the flowers you had a screenshot of and we watched the videos at the same time last night," you explain.
"You didn't recognize my arm?" He asks with a playful wiggle of his brows.
"You don't flex for me!"
He holds an arm up, flexing his arm as he tugs his sleeve up his bicep, "well, here you go. Get a good look. You should be able to recognize your best friend by any part of his body."
You hide your face in your hands. You don't think he meant to make an innuendo, but that smile on his face has you second guessing. One of the staff members chimes in, changing the subject and asks about the 'someone special.'
Jaemin drops his arm, cocking his head to the side, "she is someone special to me. She's the most special person to me."
"You can't say that!" You whine, shoving his shoulder softly.
He catches your hand, holding it in his own hands with a pouty look, "but you are."
"You're annoying," you whisper with a glare that isn't malicious at all.
"You like it," Jaemin whispers back, booping your nose with a smile.
The screen fades to black with a selfie of you and Jaemin with matching playful pouts, cheeks pressed against each other's as the credits roll.
The next month when matching statements go out about the two of you dating, neither you or Jaemin will admit that it was this interview that did it, but you both (and almost a million other people) know the truth.
#kpop imagines#kpop au#kpop scenarios#kpop reactions#nct#nct imagines#nct fluff#nct x reader#nct dream#nct dream imagines#nct dream fluff#nct dream x reader#jaemin fluff#jaemin x reader#jaemin imagines#jaemin scenarios#jaemin fic
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Natural Breeding Clinic - Prologue
warnings: MDNI, breeding kinks, general sex, mention of infertility and insemination methods
a/n: It's here. Finally.

Teaser - Prologue - Patient 1
You take a deep breath and sit down in front of the laptop, waiting for the other person to join the call. Never in your life had you heard about such a unique reproductive center but lately, youâd been feeling the pull to start your own family. Youâd discussed this with relevant people in your life. Everyone had said if you really wanted a child, then you should go with the options you thought were right for you.
Youâd done the research, looking into different doctors and fertility clinics, but this one just stood out. There were testimonials from several happy families, saying their methods, though unconventional, were effective, and the doctors showcased on the website were all incredibly striking, each one handsome in their own way. But it was the success rate that caught your eye. A 98% guaranteed rate that you would be pregnant, and that pregnancy would be healthy. The site didnât go into too much detail on their method, but the wording caught your eye.
âA natural breeding clinicâ theyâd called themselves. Youâd finally bitten the bullet and called, requesting an information session. The screen suddenly lightens and you focus your attention as an attractive woman with shoulder-length brown hair comes into view. She smiles in a welcoming way before speaking.
âHello. Am I speaking with Mrs. L/n?â You nod and smile back, trying not to look awkward or uncomfortable.Â
âPerfect! My name is Shoko Ieiri, Iâm the main coordinating nurse here at Jujutsu Fertility. Thank you for scheduling an information session with us.â
âYes, of course. I just needed more details before I booked an appointment.â
âIndeed.â Shoko claps her hands together before continuing. âLet me start by telling you a little bit about ourselves. Weâve been around for almost 6 years now. What sets us apart is that we focus more on womenâs comfort than most other clinics. And we are sought out by people who are willing to use a sperm donor. We do not perform insemination services with sperm that are not from our own stock.â
âYour own stock? Are you associated with a sperm bank? And screen all the donors yourself?â
âNot a sperm bank in the conventional sense. We have 5 doctors who keep excellent health and their sperm is regularly screened to ensure quality. They are the only stock we allow for insemination.â
You blink to make sure you havenât misheard. âTheâŠdoctors? Are you saying the fertility doctor Iâd be meeting with will also be my sperm donor?â
âThat is correct.â Shoko nods her head to confirm. âYou will be meeting with the doctor of your choosing for at least 5 sessions. They will need to be at least once a week. Some women take the week off and come in 5 days straight.â
â5âŠsessions?â you ask, confused by the wording.
âYes. Itâs to ensure the insemination process has occurred an optimal number of times.â
âWaitâŠsoâŠIâm going to be inseminated multiple times? How much downtime do I need in between each insemination?â
âHardly any. Our method isnât like a typical clinic. Most women leave feeling very normal and a lot more satisfied than when they came in.â
âNot like a typical clinic? SoâŠyou donât use the catheter method?â
âWe use minimal medical equipment in our inseminations.â
âMinimalâŠso what does the procedure entail?â
Shoko clears her throat and continues. âSo it begins with you choosing one of our doctors. We highly recommend spending some time on this part. Itâs essential that you feel attraction towards your doctor. Once you make a choice, they will reach out to discuss how your insemination experience can be optimized for you. You will receive a biodata on their sexual profile, their preferred methods of arousal, and other relevant details.â
âIâm sorry, but what?â You are at the edge of your seat wondering if youâve entered an alternate dimension. Surely, this was all being made up? âArousal, sexual profile- why would I need all these details? I thought sperm donors only gave information like height, weight, medical history and stuff like that.â
âWhy wouldnât they? Youâre choosing to be bred by them. They would have to make sure their patient is satisfied with the experience.â
âBred?â You bleat the word stupidly.
âYes. We are a natural breeding clinic. We use the method nature has provided to us to ensure a pregnancy.â
The gears in your brain start turning and something finally clicks.
âAre-are you sayingâŠI would be having sex with my doctor?â
âThat is correct.â Shoko smiles gently at you, pleased that you have finally caught on.
âThe human body doesnât necessarily enjoy having medical equipment inserted into it. All that cold plastic, and the mechanical methods of insertion. It puts the body in a state of stress. Not good for implantation. So our doctors will inseminate you through the process of intercourse.â
 Her words fall like a fog around you. You can feel your heart racing, a flush creeping into your cheeks. It wasâŠinsane. The doctor of your choosing was essentially going to fuck a baby into you. As your mind starts pulling up the images of their doctors, each one impossibly handsome and striking, you feel a familiar throb starting between your legs. Wetting your lips, you try to talk to continue with the information session.
âI see. AndâŠthere are benefits to this?â
âYes. Intercourse allows the body to relax, releasing happy hormones. In this stress-free state, in addition to the knowledge that your doctor is someone youâre attracted to and trust, the chance of an implantation doubles.â
You gape at Shoko, your mind reeling from all the information.
âAndâŠwhen you say the insemination process will be optimized for my best experienceâŠ?â
âThe doctor you choose will ask you extensive questions about your preferences. What turns you on, positions, dislikes, toys. Itâs to determine if they will satisfy your breeding experience. If they feel they might not be a good fit, theyâll recommend another one of our doctors.â
You swallow, your mouth going dry. âI see. AndâŠwhat else do I need to know?â
âWe will start by collecting your medical history and run some blood work to make sure your body is ready for an insemination process. Women who have a domestic partner will need to get both a waiver and a consent form signed by their partner that they have been informed what happens for the insemination.â
âOf course. Makes sense.â
âYou will be assigned an emotional support companion during this process. It will either be myself or Mr. Ijichi Kiyotaka. We are there to help ease your nerves and ensure you enjoy the process. And all patients must think of a unique safeword to use during the insemination process.â
âSafeword?â you parrot back, still processing.
âYes. At any point during the process, should you feel uncomfortable, your safeword ensures all actions cease and your doctor will give you some space to breathe and reassess the situation.â
All you can do is nod along. Shoko gives you a look of reassurance. âI can guarantee that most women are pleased with the results. And our doctors are quite skilled in what they do. Itâs natural to feel a little shy and embarrassed but at the end of the day, we all share a common goal- a healthy baby.â
Despite your initial shock, you feel some of your trepidation fade away. Shoko continues.
âIf you are ok with all of this, I can send you the forms to get the process started. Once those are filled, you can take some time to decide on your doctor. Then weâll set up a call with them.â
âThank you.â You make a split-second decision. âPlease go ahead and send the forms.â
âExcellent. Iâll send them to the email you put in your inquiry. Was there anything else?â
You shake your head no. âI think I have all I need.â
âGreat! I look forward to assisting you again.â Shoko ends the call and you immediately go the the website again to look at the doctors, one of which will end up fathering your child. Such a hard decision. How will you ever make the choice?

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In a Sea of Fire || Sung Jin-woo (Part 3 of 3)
 Siren!Jin-woo x Deaf!omega!reader
A/N: Hello everyone! I'm so excited to finally bring you the conclusion to the siren AU trilogy. This is my first full-fledged fic, and it was a true labor of love. To mark this milestone, I commissioned this absolutely drop-dead gorgeous artwork of Jin-woo's siren form from the amazing @ekkurea. She is super kind and an incredible artist. I highly recommend checking out all her beautiful art and commissioning her.
I have been overwhelmed by the positive reception to this series and I am so grateful for all of you. I also want to personally thank my good friend and dedicated beta-reader @forbidden-sunlight for supporting me in the creation of this story. I could not have done it without her đ€ As always, please pay heed to the content warnings listed below.
â°â†Previous Chapters
đPrologue by @forbidden-sunlight đŹPart 1: Master and Apprentice đ§đ»ââïžPart 2: Two Intertwining Melodies
Content warnings: 18+MDNI, mutual pining, afab!reader, implied smut, a/b/o dynamics, heat cycles, mating bites, courting rituals, objectification of reader, obsessive thoughts, angst, possessiveness, violence, mythical creatures au, yandere!Jin-woo, mentions of corruption, derogatory & misogynistic language used by a side-character towards the reader, ooc!Jin-woo, mildly ambiguous ending.
Word count: 12k
Summary - Autumn approaches Jindo Island and with it flourishes new love. But lingering doubts and conflicting desires threaten to cast shadows over your romance with Jin-woo. Just what terrible secret was he hiding from you?
Header artwork created by @ekkurea exclusively for this series. Please do not repost, edit, or use for your own fics, headcanons, or drabbles.
Dividers by @firefly-graphics and @anitalenia

At the heart of the shopping district on Jindo IslandâŠ
For the first time in his life Sung Jin-woo found himself at a loss as to what to do.
The siren nervously runs a hand through his hair as he studies his appearance in the full-length mirror. His reflection looks back at him clothed in a partially unbuttoned dress shirt with its sleeves rolled up at the forearms and a pair of tapered trousers. It was a polished look that drew attention to his athletic frame and emphasized his stormy grey eyes.
Jin-woo chuckles when he notices Iron giving him a small thumbs up from the reservoir in his shadow. His soldiers were doing an excellent job of boosting his morale but the same could not be said for him. Jin-woo couldnât help but remain somewhat self-critical.
The siren tended to gravitate towards darker clothing while disguised as a human. This was partly due to their resemblance to his actual color scheme. Of course, this meant the only options that interested Jin-woo were those in differing shades of black. While this allowed him to retain some semblance of his true self, he worried that black may be too drab of a color for your liking. He was also starting to feel very out of his element in this stuffy little fitting room.
To make matters more complicated the sales associate at this posh boutique was quite the chatterbox, an incompatible match for the introverted siren. The older man had been particularly insistent on helping Jin-woo find an outfit that would âknock his little ladyâs socks offâ after he mentioned needing clothes for a date. His very first date to be precise.
With you.
Jin-woo was determined to make this a memorable experience for the both of you, and the first step involved picking out the appropriate attire.
Unfortunately shopping proved to be a far more tedious task than he thought. At least dungeon raids had the benefit of being relatively straightforward.
As he idles in front of the mirror a contemptuous voice lingers in his head jeering at him. Â Â
âHow much longer do you intend on playing human, Sung Jin-woo? This reckless relationship has consisted of nothing but lies and deceit on your part. Have you ever considered how your beloved omega might feel after discovering youâve been misleading her? Itâs only a matter of time before your house of cards comes tumbling down.â
It was like listening to a crude mockery of himself, tone, inflection, and delivery of speech the exact same as his. Â
âIn the end this farce will result in nothing more than heartache and tragedy and youâll have no one to blame but yourself.â
The malicious words hang heavy in the air like an omen. An unwanted reminder that beneath that thick veneer of invulnerability Jin-woo was indeed malleable.
âJust because Ashborn was accepted by his human lover doesnât mean Y/N will do the same for you. That woman has no obligation to love a monster who preys upon her own kind.â
He grits his teeth at the intrusive thoughts bidding them to disappear. To grant him a momentâs respite from the terrifying possibilities of all that could go wrong.
Itâs to no avail.
âWould she look at you the same way if she knew you werenât human? If she knew a siren wanted to fuck her like some insatiable animal? You still have the taste of her in your mouth, donât you? So soft, sweet, and willing for her alpha. Yet you refused to claim her right when she was in the palm of your hand. You pathetic coward.â Â
A preternatural violet hue alights Jin-wooâs body, and his muscles draw taut. A sign that he is well and truly pissed. The entire room threatens to crumble under the suffocating pressure.
âTell me, just how many times have you woken up in the middle of the night? Hard, desperate, and starving for her touch. You mustâve lost count by now.â
A low growl emits from his throat. âShut up! Shut the hell up!â Â He silently screams at the voice as it exposes his repressed sexual urges.
âWhat if she lashes out at you in anger? Do you really expect her to stay civil and calm after she finds out youâve been lying to her this entire time?â
It was for her own good! I had to lie to protect her! Jin-woo finds himself mentally pleading with his internal monologue. Begging for it to understand the reasoning behind his deceptive actions.
This only incites it to twist the knife further.
âWhy not just take her then? After all thatâs what youâve always done with every obstacle in your path, every thorn in your side. You destroy and take from it until thereâs nothing left. And that woman will be no different, but this time it will be a triumph greater than any other once sheâs yours to possess.â
Jin-woo couldnât form a rebuttal at this point. He was livid and positively shaking with rage.
For months he had been struggling with conflicting feelings for you. Every single aspect and idiosyncrasy about you resonated with his being. From your feistiness and fierce independence to your infectious smile and compassionate nature, Jin-woo was wholly and unconditionally in love with you.
He knew from the moment you took him into your arms on that desolate beach that you were a genuinely kind person with a good heart. Someone heâd want by his side for an eternity.
Perhaps one day you could even find it in yourself to love him the same way he loves you.
But another side of him, a primal side of him, sought nothing more than to devour you.
To corrupt you.
To desecrate you.
To free you from those worthless shackles of human moralityâŠ
And shape you into a wanton goddess capable of handling his brand of darkness.
Not even sleep would grace him with the mercy of a reprieve; Jin-woo was often plagued by vivid dreams of you. Explicit images and sensations of fleshly pleasures that elicited the worst of his bestial nature. On more than one occasion heâd awaken to his knot swelling with need and a deep-seated longing for your warmth.
He knows he should be ashamed for fantasizing about such depravity, for perverting the friendship that had gradually cultivated between the two of you.
But he canât bring himself to care.
Jin-woo would give just about anything if he could have you in the same way as his dreams.
And he can envision you perfectly.
Your shapely thighs wrapped around his narrow waist, urging him deeper inside you. A dazed expression on your pretty face as he thrusts into you with sheer, masculine drive. Honeyed moans spilling from your lips as he trails hot, open-mouthed kisses across your jaw, down your neck, and over your collarbones. Your supple breasts heaving with exertion when you finally topple over the edge with him. And your sated form pressed against the firm ridges of his body as he soothes you in the wake of your earth-shattering climax.
Jin-woo hisses and bites back a groan as he feels himself growing hard against the inseam of his trousers. Shit. Heâs never wanted someone so badly in his entire life.
It was terrifying how easily you had him wrapped around your finger. You tempted him, left him on the brink of insanity, and you werenât even aware of it.
How? Just how did it come to this? Meeting his comeuppance at the hands of a beautiful woman.
The siren was supposed to be a hardened warrior. An indomitable force born from the outcome of hundreds of harrowing battles. Time and time again Jin-woo overcame insurmountable odds and arose from the ashes. Ever stronger, ever colder. With Ashbornâs guidance he had rebuilt himself from the ground up and molded himself into a successor worthy of the title Shadow Monarch.
Jin-woo was not some naĂŻve boy who believed he could woo you with flowery language and saccharine declarations of love. Nor was he some unruly beast whose restless soul could only be placated by carnal satisfaction. He was better than that, more disciplined and pragmaticâŠ
At least he believed himself to be â
âHey, kid! Are you alright in there? Youâve been awfully quiet for a while now.â
The sound of the sales associateâs voice instantly breaks his train of thought.
âIâm fine, I was just mulling over all my options,â he responds evenly hoping to not draw attention to himself.
âNo worries kid. Just let me know if you need anything.â
Once the manâs footsteps fade Jin-woo slumps into one of the chairs in the cramped room. He then lowers his face into his hands, too disgusted to look at himself any longer.
The minutes tick by but Jin-woo doesnât budge from his spot.
âMy liege! Please, I beg of you, stop tormenting yourself!â Beru, the newest of his shadow soldiers and the only one capable of speech attempts to talk some sense into his king.
ââŠâ the siren doesnât provide him with a response.
Beru continues, âMy liege, I cannot bear to see you so despondent. My lady is not so cruel or callous that she would cast you aside merely for being a siren.â
âI am a monster Beru. Nothing will convince her otherwise once she knows the truth.â Jinwoo replies flatly.
âMy liege please forgive my impertinence, but do you truly believe she thinks so little of you? Iâve seen the way she looks at you and there is nothing but adoration in her eyes. My lady will not forsake you regardless of who or what you are.â
Jin-woo gasps at the sincerity of Beruâs words. The shadow had been more perceptive than he initially thought. He feels the beginnings of a smile form on his lips.
âYouâve been acting surprisingly obstinate today Beru. Whatâs gotten into you?â
The ant almost immediately bursts into a fit of tears causing Jin-woo to regret his choice of words. The weeping shadow then prostrates himself before his king.
âMy liege I am so sorry! I only meant to ââ
âThank you Beru. I really needed your pep talk. My mind feels much clearer now.â Jin-woo interrupts before the ant can misinterpret him. Beru sheepishly raises his head, feelings of shame now overtaken by pride.
âI wonât falter again. You have my word, all of you do.â He addresses his entire army this time.
 A collective sigh of relief spreads throughout his soldiers. Because their souls were inextricably tied to their kingâs every emotion Jin-woo experienced was shared firsthand with his shadows. They felt his happiness, his sadness, his anger.
And his desire for you.
It mustâve pained them greatly to see him in such a distressed state prompting Beru to act. His loyal soldiers needed a strong and centered king to guide them.
He would not submit so easily to despair again.
Jin-woo glances at his wristwatch; it was a quarter past one oâclock. He had three more hours to spare until your agreed meeting time at four. The siren really needed to get a move on if he had any hope of being prepared for the date. And to think that he had balked at human decorum before you stepped into his lifeâŠ
He changes back into his street clothes and folds his chosen outfit into a neat pile. Before stepping out Jin-woo reaches into his inventory to examine his final courtship gift to you, a lustrous necklace composed of teardrop shaped mana crystals and pearls he harvested from his latest dungeon raid.
He spent hours meticulously crafting the jewelry by hand, working feverishly to ensure it was flawless. A one-of-a-kind item that no one else could hope to replicate or exceed. Still as he thumbed the necklace in his hand, he couldnât help but replay those twisted words spoken by the disembodied voice.
Why not just take her then?
He tightens his grip on the necklace before hurriedly stowing it away in his hidden inventory. Next to it the Holy Water of Life lay untouched, burning a hole in his pocket.
The ball may have been in his court, but you would have the final say.
He'd make sure of it.

A sense of anticipation pervades the air as glowing neon lights come into view. You stop just shy of the entrance to a large commercial building, the chosen location for your date with Jin-woo.
A quick glance at your phone tells you that itâs a quarter till four. You still had another fifteen minutes to go. Ever the punctual one you always sought to arrive well ahead of schedule. This applied to your personal life as well.
From the corner of your eye, you think you see a deliberate movement in your shadow, one that does not match your own. You blink. Once, then twice. When you stare at the sidewalk again your shadow is as it should be, nothing but an intangible effigy bound to the push and pull of your own will. Weird, you think, had it been a trick of light? Your eyes then wander back to the front of the establishment.
Despite being the middle of the day, the bookstoreâs sign remained lit by garish hues of yellow. You recall how many of the locals disapproved of the business when it first opened. To those who spent much of their lives in this quaint region of the Korean archipelago it was yet another ploy of gentrification from the mainland. To you, this bookstore served as a haven during your formative years. You spent countless hours getting lost in the worlds of your favorite authors here.
From the provocative narratives of Anne Rice to the gritty prose of Stephen King, your love for reading was fostered here. It only made sense to share this special part of yourself with Jin-woo, the beguiling alpha who was starting to consume your every waking thought.
As time draws nearer to your date you ponder over your last few months on the island.
The filming of âMurder on the Cerulean Seaâ wrapped up earlier this week and your colleagues were clamoring for a congratulatory celebration, something you wanted no part of. From personal experience you knew a constantly flowing stream of alcohol did not pair well with a room full of self-serving narcissists. You also hadnât forgotten how rude the other make-up artists and stagehands had been to you on set. The fact that your date fell on the same day as the party was just the cherry on top.
Which brings you back to your dilemma, figuring out where you stand in your relationship with Jin-woo.
Throughout the entire twelve weeks of filming, you were both meeting in secrecy. Devoting this time to strengthening your bond tĂȘte-Ă -tĂȘte.
You learned much about Jin-woo and he about you, but you could tell he was harboring some kind of secret. Every time the topic of his personal background came up, he would steer the conversation in a different direction. In addition to this there was an ever-piling list of excuses for why he couldnât divulge more about himself. This had you second guessing everything he was willing to share.
You really liked Jin-woo and you had no doubt he returned your feelings but you were also becoming highly suspicious of him. If you could wear your heart on your sleeve around him then why couldnât he do the same for you?
Guilt was eating away at your conscience for even entertaining these thoughts. Itâs through this haze of turmoil that your mind wanders to the more lighthearted moments between the two of you.
You think of the all the times he joined you on your early morning treks along the beach. Both as a companion and a protector. You had teased Jin-woo about it initially asking if he intended to use his âscary dog privilegeâ to ward off other alphas. He scoffed at this suggestion clearly nonplussed by the comparison.
Yet despite your cheeky attitude you had readily taken up his offer. Your friendsâ schedules often conflicted with yours, which meant they were usually working on the days you had off. What began as a nice change of pace from walking alone transformed into a cherished part of your routine. His warm, calloused fingers interlaced with yours as dusk bled into dawn.
There was also Jin-wooâs determination to communicate with you. Unsatisfied with written words alone, he had taken it upon himself to learn sign language. Jin-woo showed up one day with a step-by-step instruction manual containing illustrations. A cute shade of vermillion dusted his cheeks when he showed the book to you. You grinned from ear-to-ear and readily agreed to teach him.
He ended up being more adept at sign language than Cha and Jinho. By the end of your first session, Jin-woo was able to grasp several simple terms and phrases, a feat that greatly impressed you. Now he was bordering on being fluent. It was astonishing just how quickly he progressed.
And then there were his many gifts to you.
First a glory-of-the-seas cone in sumptuous tones of burnt ochre and golden brown. Then a bluefin tuna, a much sought-after and rare delicacy, captured fresh from the brine. And most recently, a natural South Sea pearl that appeared almost otherworldly in its splendor. Each offering a unique and thoughtful portrayal of his devotion.
The ritualism and intimacy of these gestures was not lost on you, and it left your heart racing. No one, save for director Jinchul, was ever this attentive towards you. And the latter had only done so on a professional basis. But Jin-woo treated you with a tender affection usually reserved for lovers. A title that was not either of yours to take. Not yet at least.
But both of you were well on the way to getting there.
Everything came to a turning point three days ago when your enigmatic friend finally worked up the courage to ask you out. You remember the bashful look on his face and the endearing image of his rosy cheeks. No sooner had Jin-woo finished signing his question than you found yourself excitedly leaping into his arms. At last, at long last you were both taking the next step in your relationship. So overcome with joy you completely overlooked all your unanswered questions and concerns about him. Nothing else had mattered at that moment.
Jin-woo effortlessly caught you and brought you into a twirling hug. You felt laughter bubble up from within you. It was as if a massive weight had been taken off your shoulders.
Just a few months ago you had been virtual strangers completely inconsequential to one other. Now you embraced as two intertwining melodies coalescing into one song.
When Jin-woo placed you back on your feet he had one more favor to ask. You watched intently as he brought both hands towards his face and formed them into half circles. He then placed the tips of his fingers together before puckering his lips. It was the sign for kissing. He wanted to kiss you.
You froze stunned by the unexpected request.
Apprehension painted Jin-wooâs handsome face. He was waiting, imploring you for an answer. Without missing a beat, you brought yourself closer to him. You didnât stop until you were in such proximity your breath intermingled with his. You lifted your head and locked eyes with Jin-woo before lowering your gaze to admire his parted lips. After a flicker of hesitation, Jin-woo closed the gap between you and captured your lips with his.
Your eyes fluttered shut.
Gentle. It had been such a gentle kiss at the beginning; petal soft and languid. However, there was a palpable shift in mood the instant Jin-woo ceased his rhythmical movements to slip his tongue inside your mouth. He slid it across your teeth, coaxing you to open more of yourself to him. And you willingly surrendered, moaning into his mouth and allowing him to stroke his tongue against yours.
Jin-wooâs kiss soon devolved into a scorching clash of teeth and tongue that left you breathless. The last of his restraints snapped and he was not holding back. He fisted a hand in your hair and tilted your face at a better angle so he could deepen the kiss. He then circled your waist with his other arm pulling your pliant figure flush against him. This prompted you to grasp onto the front of Jin-wooâs shirt for purchase, pressing your breasts into his chest. You were so close to Jin-woo that you could feel the vitality of his rapidly beating heart. He nipped at your lips before parting from them to mouth at your jaw, the curve of your neck, and the cleavage exposed by your tank top.
You shivered though from fear or want you did not know. This was an animalistic side of him you had never seen or experienced before. It was electrifying.
Your breath caught in your throat when you felt one of Jin-wooâs incisors graze over the junction of your neck and shoulder, threatening to break skin.
And then, just as quickly as this act of madness had started, it came to an abrupt and sudden end. Jin-wooâs eyes regained their focus and his ministrations stopped at once. He slowly raised his head from the crook of your neck and turned to look at you. A heart wrenching expression of guilt distorted his face.
He had lost control of himself and succumbed to his baser instincts.
And if he had bitten down on you back there, he wouldâve marked you as his mate for life. Because that area on your neck contained some of your scent glands.
An alpha will bite an omegaâs scent glands while mating with them to stake their claim. This also mixes the alphaâs and omegaâs scents together securing their bond. It was an irreversible process and Jin-woo came within an inch of forcing it upon you.
He released you from his grip and took several steps back, placing him some distance from you. Wisps of ebony hair obscured his eyes, making his face difficult to read.
You ran towards Jin-woo attempting to grab his hand, yet he pulled his arm away from your touch. But your resolve was strong, and you refused to give up. After a few more tries, Jin-woo finally acquiesced and let you come near him.
As soon as the two of you were face to face, you leant forward and cradled his face in your hands, forcing him to look you in the eye. The guilt was gone but now it had been replaced by fear. Fear of what he had almost done to you.
You were having none of it. Nothing about Sung Jin-woo scared you, not in the past and most certainly not now.
You dropped your hands, letting them fall to the side before raising them again. Then you began signing to Jin-woo, doing everything in your power to reassure him. You let him know that you were alright, you werenât afraid of him in the slightest, and that both of you would be okay. What happened earlier was purely instinctual and would not draw a wedge between you. And most importantly you told him that you had absolutely no regrets about the kiss.
âI wanted to kiss you,â you signed, âIâve been thinking about you as more than just a friend for a while now.â
âSo please, Jin-woo,â you pleaded with him as your hands shook âletâs give this a shot. I want to be with you.â
He exhaled sharply before taking your smaller hands into his own. You really were his greatest weakness. He couldnât resist you even if he tried.
You eventually managed to convince him to move forward with the date. The time and location were arranged shortly thereafter, although on slightly awkward terms given the circumstance.
Later that night while you were tucked away in the privacy of your bedroom, there was an unrelenting heat building between your thighs. The type of heat that set your nerves on fire and left you aching for release.
You hadnât taken your heat suppressants in a while, and your body was paying a heavy price for it. You shouldâve known better than to let yourself fall by the wayside, but you no longer cared about taking your medication anymore. It was like you were daring your heat to come, to wash over you and rid you of your inhibitions.
When the flames of your desire became unbearable, you slipped a hand underneath the waistband of your pajamas hoping it would slake your lust. However, as you stroked yourself to completion you couldnât help but imagine it was Jin-wooâs deft fingers that were caressing your slick folds instead.
In the corner of your room an unknown presence watched you with rapt interest. It greedily drank in your sinful actions, the dips and curves of your body, the steady rise and fall of your chest. And as you reached your peak tendrils of shadow danced across your skin like silk.
After you fell asleep a lone hand emerged from the darkness and gently ran its knuckles over your cheekâŠ
â â !?â
Youâre startled from daydreaming when the familiar scent of lavender and sandalwood perfumes the air. It was the tell-tale sign that Jin-woo had just arrived. You check your phone again and are shocked to see itâs already a minute past four. You totally lost track of time while standing outside the bookstore! Embarrassed, you turn and are greeted by the sight of your alpha.
He looked incredible, like a god amongst men. You loved the color black on Jin-woo, it brought out his sharp features and contrasted wonderfully with his fair complexion. The outfit he was wearing for your date exemplified this. His dark trousers and dress shirt were perfectly molded to his body creating a sleek and streamlined appearance. You slowly dragged your eyes across the hard planes of muscle bulging underneath the tight fabric. When you reach Jin-wooâs face thereâs an amused glint in his eyes. Oh crap! He noticed you were ogling him. Heat blossoms across your cheeks and you self-consciously tug at the hemline of your cable knit sweater. Â
Unbeknownst to you Jin-woo had also been eyeing you up albeit in a far more discrete manner. The leggings you wore clung lovingly to curves like a second skin and your high heeled ankle boots completed the look giving it a touch of elegance. You were strikingly lovely, like a flower coming into bloom.
After several seconds of silence, Jin-woo break is the one who breaks the ice.
 âYou look great, Y/N,â he signs to you, âIâm so happy to see you again. I hope I didnât keep you waiting.â
Jin-woo mustâve had known youâd been embarrassed about being caught red-handed, so he didnât bring it up. Instead, he complimented you. God, how could he be so smug yet so charming at the same time?
Precious boy, you muse.
You greet the raven-haired man back with a smile before pulling him into a hug. Jin-woo returns the embrace and presses a chaste kiss to your forehead. All the tension and uncertainty from the past few days had dissipated allowing you to relax and enjoy each otherâs company. It signaled a return to normalcy, to better days ahead for both of you.
âReady to head in?â Jin-woo signs to you with a grin on his face that matches yours.
âLetâs go,â you respond with a jaunty spring in your movements.
You grab his hand and lead the way, threading your fingers through his.
The next two hours are spent perusing the bookstoreâs massive collection. It was one of the largest retail booksellers in Asia boasting over 100,000 different titles on its shelves. Jin-wooâs eyes widened when he walked in. Heâd never seen so many books in one place before.
âOverwhelmed?â you ask him, nervous that you made the wrong decision on choosing this bookstore for your first date. The size of it alone could be daunting to newcomers.
âItâs amazing,â he answers, excitement evident in the fast motions of hands. Your chest fills with warmth at his display of enthusiasm.
You share your interests and favorite genres with Jin-woo, showing him the many novels you read over the years. Jin-woo seemed particularly drawn to the paper- and hardback books in the âClassicsâ section. He picked up a copy of The Odyssey and leafed through its contents making you curious about his tastes.
One of your hands was clutching onto a large special edition hardback so you typed your question on your phone this time.
[âDo you like Greek mythology?â]
âIâve read a few stories here and there,â he signs back after glancing at your screen.
[âI remember being assigned this book in AP literature when I was a second year. I found it rather interesting, but I loathed Odysseus. I thought he was a complete asshole for cheating on his wife. She remained faithful during his 10-year journey from Ithaca despite having over 100 suitors. But he gets a free pass for sleeping with goddesses and other women. Ughđâ]
You huff after airing your grievances about Odysseus and his infidelity in your text message. It was silly but youâve held a personal vendetta against the fictional man ever since you finished reading the epic poem.
Jin-woo snorts in amusement at your reaction. Looks like you both held a distaste for Odysseus although his reason for disliking him differed greatly from yours. Sirens only became weak to humanity after the epic hero found a means of circumnavigating their deadly voices. It felt good to share a common enemy with you.
âYouâre even prettier when youâre angry,â Jin-woo smirks as he signs this to you.
Now it was your turn to snort. Really? That was a new one.
[âFlattery will get you everywhere with me! Now state your price handsome. đâ]
He inhales before signing, âWill you watch the stars with me tonight?â
The tips of his ears and nape of his neck were bright red as he asked you this. It was adorable.
You answer with a fleeting kiss to his mouth, and you can feel him smiling against your lips. Of course youâd watch the stars with him tonight! Youâd be willing to watch them every single night by his side if heâd let you.
The two of you continue floating through the different aisles, a copy of The Odyssey tucked underneath Jin-wooâs arm. He also picked out another book, a science fiction novel titled, The Ants, by Bernard Werber. Jin-woo had read the novel once before and he wanted to revisit it for old timeâs sake.
As your book tour concludes Jin-woo comes to a halt after catching sight of an ornate hardcover. Intrigued, you scan the title. It was Hans Christian Andersenâs The Little Mermaid.
âThis story always makes me so sad,â you sign to Jin-woo with a melancholy look in your eyes.
âCan you tell me about it?â Jin-woo asks, his interest piqued.
You find yourself hesitating.
âAre you sure you want me to spoil it for you?â
âI donât mind.â he responds.
You decide to use your phone to relay the plot since the fairy tale is a lengthy one.
[âThere once lived a beautiful and kindhearted mermaid. Having spent most of her life at sea she longed to explore the world above and learn more about humanity. When she becomes old enough to swim to the surface she falls in love at first sight with a handsome prince. After a violent storm sinks his ship, the mermaid rescues him and brings him back to land before he regains consciousness.â]
Jin-wooâs gaze is intense as he studies your phone screen. Youâve never seen someone be so invested in your storytelling. It was flattering.
You continue typing away intent on finishing what you started.
[âThe mermaidâs infatuation with the prince drives her to strike up a deal with a powerful sea witch. The witch offers her a potion that can transform her into a human, but it comes at a high cost. The mermaid would never be able to return to the sea once she drank it. Whatâs more the potion also robs her of her voice and causes her excruciating pain whenever she walks. Despite knowing the toll it will take on her body the mermaid moves forward, blinded by love.â]
Jin-wooâs eyes narrowed after reading this passage and he signs, âSheâs being manipulated by the witch?â You confirm his question with a nod of your head.
Your final text ends the story on a low note.
[âThe mermaid finally meets and befriends the prince but everything she sacrifices is for nothing. He falls in love with a princess from another kingdom instead and this breaks her heart. The sea witch appears once more to give an ultimatum to the mermaid: she must kill the prince and allow his blood to drip onto her feet. Only by having her revenge could she return to the sea and live as a mermaid again. But she refused. Her love for the prince prevented her from stabbing him. In the final scene the mermaid tosses herself into the sea and as daybreak approaches, she dissolves into foam.â]
You sigh once youâre done. Itâs more akin to a tragedy than a fairy tale, you think.
Your next message asks:
[âSo, whatâs your opinion on it? Pretty sad stuff huh?â]
When you turn to Jin-woo to gauge his reaction youâre taken aback by how pale he looks. Thereâs a bead of sweat sliding down his face and his countenance had turned grim, a far cry from his relaxed expression at the start of your date. The ending must have disturbed him way more than you anticipated.
Crap. You should have never offered to explain the plot to Jin-woo. This version of, The Little Mermaid, made you bawl like a baby the first time you read it and you usually remained dry-eyed while reading most tearjerkers. Why did you think it was a bright idea to discuss it on a date of all things? It was time to shift into damage control mode, stat!
You struggle for words while coming up with an apology to Jin-woo. You try to keep the text casual and concise to reduce any tension between you.
[âJin-woo, are you okay? Do you need to sit down and rest? Iâm so sorry! Iâve gone and dampened the mood.đâ]
He shakes his head after looking at your message and retrieves a pen and a small notepad from his pocket, an indication that he wanted to hold a longer conversation with you. Although Jin-wooâs grasp of sign language was excellent he found written words to be suitable when the circumstance called for it. Like now for instance.
When heâs done writing with his stationery he hands the notepad to you.
[âPlease donât feel the need apologize. You havenât done anything wrong. You tried to warn me about how sad the story was, but I insisted on you telling me it anyway. I was just surprised was all. I can relate a bit to the mermaid because Iâve also made great sacrifices for the ones I love. In the mermaidâs case her love for the prince destroyed her. She gave up everything for him only for it to be in vain. Itâs sobering to see love portrayed so tragically.â]
Jin-woo worries at his lower lip. He mentioned making sacrifices for his loved ones to you before but what exactly did he mean by it?
[âWhat sacrifices did you make if you donât mind me asking? Iâm here if you need a shoulder to lean on yâknow.â]
You play coy with your response to glean more information from him. Maybe now that youâre officially dating, Jin-woo will open up to you.
Your hopes are dashed when the notepad is back in your possession.
[âNothing I havenât said before. Long hours, being away from home, missing my mother and sister while Iâm away. Those kinds of sacrifices. Fishing at sea can be deadly if youâre not careful. Iâve had to dirty my hands on more than a few occasions while on the job.â]
Dirty his hands? Now this was something he hadnât discussed with you before. Was Jin-woo involved in something illegal? Commercial fishing and maritime hunting were mercilessly cutthroat. A big profit can be made from harvesting seafood, fish, and other resources from the ocean. Some companies go as far as committing murder to weed out the competition.
Could this be what he meant by âdirtying his hands?â That would explain why he was so flighty about his past with you. What if he was in trouble? If he was then why didnât he ask you for help? Did he not trust you or did he not want to drag you into a mess of his own making?Â
Your mindâs going a mile a minute youâre so worried about Jin-woo. If he ended up injured or even dead because you decided to believe his lies and look the other way you would never forgive yourself. It was time to address the elephant in the room once and for all.
You type so fast; itâs a miracle you can come up with a message that was even coherent. Your face is hot, and you can already feel the sting of tears in your eyes.
[âJin-woo, you need stop lying to me. I know thereâs something youâre hiding, and it hurts that you canât trust me enough to say it. If youâre in trouble just tell me. Say the words and Iâll try to help you to the best of my ability. I really like you Jin-woo but honesty should be mutual between us. Iâve spilled my guts to you, told you all about my life, my friends, and my job. Why canât you do the same for me? I feel like Iâm only falling in love with your reflection, not the real you. I just canât do this anymore! I donât want to lose you, but I refuse to be part of a relationship that lacks any kind of integrity!â]
Jin-woo takes on the pallor of a corpse as soon as he scans the contents of your text.
Fuck, you had done it now. There was no going back.
When he can bring himself to gaze at you thereâs a devastation in his face that makes you instantly hate yourself for lambasting him. Yet you had to stand firm and conquer this hill if you had any chance of a future with him.
His little notepad is staring you in the face before you know it. Jin-wooâs handwriting looked frenzied and frayed. When you glance at him, his head is bowed, and his eyes are cloaked in shadow. He was utterly ashamed of himself. You canât even begin to imagine what thoughts must be going running through his mind. He had to be as distraught as you were if not worse.
[âTonight,â the scrawl reads, âI am going to tell you everything tonight. No more lies, no more excuses, I promise you. Even if you despise me for it, even if you never want to see me again, Iâll give you the truth no matter what. So please just this once trust me. I donât want to lose you either. Youâre everything to me, Y/N. Iâm sorry for not being truthful to you, I just didnât want you to get hurt because of me. Iâve only ever lied to protect you.â]
The desperation in his words makes your heart plummet. Just how terrible was this secret that it made Jin-woo think you would hate him for it? And he was scared you would be harmed if you knew? There was no doubt about it, Jin-woo absolutely was in danger. Why else would he be so disturbed about telling you?
Your hands are shaking so badly you can barely keep your phone from falling out of your grip. Jin-woo notices and steadies them by taking your hands in his own. Even at his lowest point you were his priority.
Did he ever once consider his own well-being?
How could he be so considerate of you at a time like this? You wanted to scream; to demand he be angry at you, to curse at you. Anything to justify your self-loathing. You berated Jin-woo without considering why he may be lying in the first place. For all you know his life could be on the line. Yet you only thought of your frustrations like a petulant child.
Stupid. You were so goddamn stupid!
A bookstore associate sees your distress and heads in your direction. Although your argument with Jin-woo was silent your panicked demeanor was starting to cause a scene. You really donât want anyone to see you like this right now. Especially since you were on the brink of having a breakdown.
Jin-woo quickly acts as your shield, his protectiveness of you second nature. He pulls you to his chest, hiding your face from prying eyes. Heâs warm, his heartbeat is steady, and you can feel his palms running up and down your back, consoling you. Jin-woo held you with the tenderness of a lover.
Itâs in the comfort of his embrace that you let go and allow yourself to weep for him.

âHello, maâam is everything alriââ
âYou can direct your questions to me. Canât you tell sheâs upset right now?â Jin-woo interrupts the man with clipped tone before he can finish. Thereâs a particularly nasty scowl on his face and the aura resonating from him is menacing at best. Did this moron not know how to read the room or was he lacking in common sense? You were vulnerable and in no position to be approached by a stranger let alone some random man.
The store associate pales and falters at Jin-wooâs display of aggression. He glances at the dark-haired alpha then back to you before his eyes widen. He had connected the dots.
âI⊠I⊠Sir, please try to understand. I didnât mean to intrude on you and your mate, there were just some concerns from the staff and other patrons because of how scared she looked.â
Jin-wooâs hold on you tightens ever so slightly, and he levels a sneer at the frightened associate. The fucking gall of this man, of these humans, thinking they had a right to invade your own personal matters!
If you hadnât been there with him he wouldnât think twice about murdering every single person in this building. Heâd flay the flesh from their bones, reap their misbegotten souls, and resurrect them into mindless pawns; just cogs in a machine for his army of the undead.
Jin-woo reluctantly quells his rage and spits out, âIf you know whatâs good for you, youâll leave. What happens between her, and I is of no concern to you. Now go.â
His commanding baritone brooks no argument, and the man flees with all the grace of a wounded animal.
For the next few minutes, you remain in Jin-wooâs arms until your tears run dry. When youâre feeling stable enough to walk Jin-woo softly takes your hand and leads you out of the building. Your books lie forgotten and haphazardly stacked on top of one another on a random shelf.
You both walk aimlessly with no set destination in mind. Your eyes were still swollen and puffy from earlier, so you avert your gaze from Jin-woo. He merely squeezes your hand in response, a gesture of reassurance.
An unoccupied back alley with a dead end eventually comes into view. Itâs here in this inconspicuous passageway that Jin-woo decides to explain the full extent of his powers.
Once youâre seated on a nearby windowsill, he activates his inventory in front of you for the first time. Jin-woo said he would show you the truth and he was a man of his word. He withdraws Kasakaâs Venom Fang, the oldest dagger in his collection, and gracefully twirls it in his hand before holding it out to you.
As expected, youâre awestruck by the sight of the weapon. However, what Jin-woo doesnât anticipate is for you to suddenly extend a hand towards the blade, your index finger almost touching its venom-tinged edge. He snatches your wrist so nimbly you barely register what happens. Only the warmth from his body alerts you of his hold.
You gasp.
Despite the incredible velocity of his movements Jin-woo was able to rein in the force behind them, preventing you from being hurt by his grip. Even the most elite athletes struggled to find the perfect balance between speed and strength. His control of his body was beyond human capabilities.
He shoots you an apologetic look and releases your wrist.
âThat dagger can paralyze and drain your life if it cuts you,â Jin-woo warns after returning it to storage, âI should have told you sooner. Iâm sorr â
âItâs beautiful.â
He raises his eyebrows. Of all the words you could use to describe such a deadly weapon âbeautifulâ wasnât what he had in mind. His lips quirk into a small smile.
âYou think so? It doesnât frighten you?â he queries, pleasantly surprised by your nonchalance.
You nod and peer at him with a soft expression.
âI do.â Thereâs a long pause before you add, âYouâve used that knife before, havenât you?â
You bite your lip and clasp your hands together after youâre done signing. You knew you were backing Jin-woo into a corner with a loaded question, but he wouldnât be lugging around such a dangerous item without having a very good reason for it.
The grin on his face vanishes, replaced by grimace. You hit the nail on the head. Jin-woo readies himself for his answer.
âYes, I have. Iâve used that dagger to hurt and even kill people in the past. I know Iâve told you many lies and half-truths, but I wasnât lying when I told you I dirtied my hands.â
He expels a shaky breath before delving into all the gritty details of who he really is. Unraveling and stripping himself down to his barest form.
Through a combination of sign language, a visual demonstration of his abilities, and written words Jin-woo reveals that he is a hunter, a warrior who fights life and limb against otherworldly beasts; day in and day out.
He exposes his many skills including stealth, the power he used to manifest outside of the bookstore.
Next came his accelerated healing and immense physical prowess. Jin-woo spots a discarded cinderblock on the ground, grabs it, and shatters the hard object with his bare hands. This causes his palms to scrape and bleed. You gasp and rise to your feet, alarmed by Jin-wooâs injuries. But he lifts his arm, an unspoken order for you to stay exactly where you are.
Suddenly light eclipses the abrasions and his skin starts to mend itself. You watch in disbelief as Jin-woo splays his opened and visibly undamaged palms in the air. You had just witnessed Kandiaruâs Blessing in the flesh.
And then he unveils one of his greatest assets to you.
The shadows pooling at his feet rapidly proliferate until the entire alley is submerged in darkness. Within seconds a lone obsidian knight emerges from the void. He cuts a formidable figure on his own standing well over 240 cm with vibrant hues of amethyst accenting his heavy armor. A single red plume hangs atop his helmet and sways with every stride he takes. When he gets within five feet of you and Jin-woo he kneels in reverence.
You learn the knightâs name is Igris and that heâs one of hundreds of soldiers who serve under Jin-woo. This was only a taste of the Shadow Monarchâs full dominion.
Once finished Jin-woo issues an order for Igris to return. The knight stands tall and nods his assent to his king and much to your shock, to you as well, before he disappears into the receding shadows. Moments later the alleyway is as it always appears with nothing to indicate what transpired.
Itâs at this stage that you present one more hard-hitting question to Jin-woo. A question heâd been dreading.
âYou arenât human, are you Jin-woo?â
He clenches his fists.
âNo, Iâm not.â
You study his face closely trying to scope out any signs of deception, but there are none. He was being completely honest with you. But then what else could he possibly be?
Before the weight of his answer can fully sink in the revolting stench of congealed blood assaults your senses. It reeks of decay and viscera, the potent odor violating the air like a malignancy.
This was the unmistakable scent of an alpha, one that you were unfortunately all too familiar with.
It was Kang Taeshikâs nauseating musk.
You internally panic, horrified that your assailant from months ago was somehow back in the picture. Your thoughts become a frantic mess.
NoâŠnoâŠno! It canât be! Director Jinchul fired him! He shouldâve been long gone by now, so what the hell was he doing back on this island!?!
You feel like the airâs been punched from your lungs. Your legs shake uncontrollably and threaten to crumble. Jin-woo quickly catches you by the waist before you can slump to the ground. He then maneuvers your body so that youâre facing him, not the unseen nightmare that was approaching. He strokes your hair, and his pheromones are released in full force to calm your nerves. The aroma of lavender and sandalwood slowly begins to supersede the miasma of death.
âShow yourself already. The bloodlust from your filthy stenchâs enough of a giveaway, alpha.â
Jin-wooâs eyes narrow into a frosty glare as the sound of obnoxious clapping echoes throughout the alleyway. Taeshik had finally announced his arrival.
âWell, color me impressed! Itâs not often I come across someone who isnât intimidated by my scent. Looks like youâve got some balls on you! I like it! Youâd make a great brawler in our fighting circuit.â An unknown voice commends Jin-woo with a condescending undertone.
You begin to whimper as the odor increases in intensity. Jin-woo gently tucks your head into the crook of his neck granting you access to his scent glands. Right now, his instincts were kicking into overdrive. He was solely focused on protecting and cherishing you. Fighting could be put on the back burner. For now.
 A man with a wild mane of purple hair arrogantly saunters into view. Heâs accompanied by a large group of men, around ten in total and all of them alphas. Judging by the murderous intent in their eyes they were on the prowl for prey.
Taeshikâs mouth spreads into a smirk reminiscent of a Chelsea grin when notices you. He openly leers at your body; an action that causes Jin-woo to snarl and bare his fangs.
The purple haired man raises his hands in mock surrender.
âHey now thereâs no need for that. I was just appreciating the view, thatâs all. Besides, your omega and I have a bit of a history together. Isnât that right, Y/N?â
Jin-wooâs eyes go wide. How did he know your name?
His reaction seems to delight Taeshik who continues his spiel.
âWhy the shock? She mustâve not told you about me. Yâsee we used to be coworkers up until she got me fired. And after I was just trying to help by doing a little favor for her. No good deed goes unpunished, I guess.â He breaks into a fit of disconcerting laughter at the end of his speech.
âA favor?â Jin-woo asks, no, demands Taeshik to answer. Just what had he done to you?
One of the gang members, a burly man with several scars, spiky black hair, and a five oâ clock shadow snickers and interjects.
âIsnât it obvious, brat? That little slut went into heat right in front him. She was practically begging for it too! Taeshik here was gonna bring her to us so we could all get a piece of that fine ass. Too bad that fuckinâ director had to go and ruin our plans. But your boss isnât here to save you this time, huh sweetheart?â
âShe canât hear or speak to you, Dongsuk. Sheâs deaf. I donât know how many times I have to keep reminding you.â Taeshik drawls, annoyance lacing his voice.
âHeh, so what? A holeâs a hole. It ainât like sheâs gonna be able to talk with a mouthful of cock anywa ââ
Slash!
In the blink of an eye Dongsukâs head rolls off his shoulders leaving nothing but a bloodied stump in its wake. His body slumps to its knees like a marionette with its strings cut before flopping onto the ground.
âWha â what the hell just happened!?!â
âHoly shit!â
âDâŠDongsuk!? No!â
Confusion and panic overtake the men within seconds. Even Taeshik looks ill at ease. None of them had been able to pinpoint the exact cause or reason for the manâs untimely demise.
When the purple haired alpha redirects his attention to Jin-woo, heâs mortified by what he sees. Black eclipses the end of the alleyway submerging everything in darkness except for Jin-wooâs piercing gaze.
In that moment, Taeshik learns what pure, unadulterated terror feels like. He was staring death in the face, a face that bore nothing but apoplectic rage.
A crimson and black dagger, the Knight Killer, was wielded in one of Jin-wooâs hands. The weaponâs jagged edges were ensanguined up to the hilt; evidence of the life it had so effortlessly taken. Jin-wooâs other arm remained wrapped around you although now you were facing Taeshik, the remainder of his men, and the decapitated corpse of Hwang Dongsuk.
You tear your gaze away, unable to bear the gruesome sight any longer. Jin-woo looks at you sympathetically before hardening his expression.
He knew he was letting his anger get the better of him, but he was infuriated by these vulgar bottom feeders and the disgusting remarks they made about you. Jin-woo really couldnât give a fuck about killing these wastes of space, but he wouldnât let you be a spectator to the slaughter he was about to commit. Youâve been traumatized enough.
An insect-like specter suddenly manifests from the shadows and bows before you and his king.
âBeru, take her somewhere safe and far away from here. I donât want her to see this.â Jin-woo orders, his voice dropping an octave lower.
âAt once my liege.â The ant diligently obeys his master and offers a clawed hand to you.
âMy lady?â
You pause at the gesture, unsure of whether you should accept it or stay by Jin-wooâs side. The dark-haired man notices your hesitation and makes the choice for you. He clasps onto your shoulder and squeezes it urging you to escape with Beru.
You reluctantly allow the ant to hoist you into his arms. As Beru prepares to launch himself into flight you turn and cast a final glance at Jin-woo.
He looks nothing at all like himself. Heâs cold, menacing, inhuman.
Thatâs right, Jin-woo wasnât human. He admitted as much to you. But it hadnât changed your feelings for him in any shape or form. Your heart still yearned and bled for him all the same.
Your lids grow heavy once Beru takes to the skies, a likely side-effect of overexposure to Jin-wooâs pheromones. As you start to succumb to slumber, your last waking thoughts are filled with nothing but him.

The moon hangs high in the sky when you wake up. After gaining your bearings you perform a cursory scan of your surroundings. A vast sea cavern greets you, its atmosphere dank and foreboding. Stalactites rain down from the ceiling like arrows frozen in time, weathered rocks line the walls, and the air is so humid you struggle to breathe. The only source of light is from moonbeams drifting through a crevice at the top of the cave.
You soon realize that youâre lying on top of a sandbank in the middle of a large body of water. There didnât appear to be any means of escape other than swimming, but you were mentally and physically exhausted. Your phone was also nowhere in sight, making it impossible to text for help. You were effectively stuck.
An undulating motion in the waterâs surface catches your attention. You werenât alone, something was in here with you and it was getting closer. However, youâre not afraid. In fact, thereâs something oddly familiar about this presence...
The movements abruptly ceases, and all is still for several heart pounding seconds. Then out of nowhere a large figure surges from underneath the briny waves.
Itâs a male siren, and heâs utterly magnificent. His appearance more akin to a work of art than a living, breathing being. He looks at you with a serene expression. Was this who you thought it was?
You drink him in, appreciating his beauty in its entirety.
The sirenâs eyes consist of blackened sclerae with amethyst irises. A smooth layer of ebony skin partially coats his jaw, shoulders, and back. It contrasts wonderfully with the ivory coloring on his chest and face. He bore the same pattern as a killer whale; an apt comparison given that sirens were also apex predators. Webbed ear fins protrude from the sides of his head, the scales on them aglow under the faint moonlight. And luscious locks of black hair frame the sirenâs stunning face.
He's simply not of this world. Words could never accurately describe his ethereal visage.
The siren is sprawled out on the edge of the sandbank. Upon closer inspection you notice that heâs highly anxious. You see his dichromatic throat bobbing, and he makes a conscious effort to avoid eye contact with you. Youâd seen these nervous tics before.
âIs that you, Jin-woo?â You sign to the siren although youâre certain you already know the answer. You just needed his confirmation for peace of mind.
He shuts his eyes and nods, a somber admission of the truth.
You take a deep breath before exhaling. Then you present him with another question.
âDid you kill all of them?â
The siren remains still this time. His lack of a definite response was an answer in itself.
You wet your lips. So, you were right. Jin-woo said heâs killed before to survive, but this time he did it for you. To punish those men who sought to use you for their own perverse interests. And Taeshik⊠his fate mustâve been worse than death for what he put you through.
Jin-woo signs to you.
âIâm sorry you had to find out this way⊠this was supposed to be a special day for you, but everything went wrong. I know youâll want no part of me in your life after this, but Iâm glad I met you. Iâll have Beru take you home.â
Jin-woo turns his back to you and prepares to make his departure. So, that was it? He was going to vanish from your life just like that. You hadnât even gotten a word in; he just assumed you didnât want anything to do with him. That idiot!
You had to stop Jin-woo before it was too late! But what could you possibly do to prevent him from leaving�
You have an epiphany then; what if you gave all of yourself to Jin-woo, body and soul? Only an intimate act, the consummation of your relationship, could fully bind you to Jin-woo.
A mating bite is irreversible. Once you are bonded thereâs no going back on it. But youâve wanted Jin-woo for so long. In fact, you wish he had bitten your scent glands when he first kissed you. Him being a siren, a killer of mankind and monsters, did not deter you. He was your chosen mate. You would never refuse him.
The sound of rustling of clothes stops Jin-woo in his tracks. He inhales shakily, not quite believing what was happening just feet from him.
You were disrobing yourself. You wanted to mate with him!
As you peel off each article of clothing, the sweet scent of your pheromones and slick become more pronounced. Jin-woo groans as his knot starts to swell. God, you smelt incredible! If only he could see your nude form. The things heâd make you feel, the sounds heâd drive from youâŠ
Why was he still stopping himself? Your actions just now said all that needed to be said! You wanted him, and you were more than ready for his knot. As an alpha heâd be remiss not to tend to the needs of his omega.
His mouth curls into a wolfish grin. You really had no idea what youâd just gotten yourself into.
You feel heat pooling between your thighs at the sight of Jin-wooâs broad shoulders. The muscles of his back flex deliciously when he finally turns to relish you in all your naked glory. The smoldering gaze he sends you as his eyes sweep over every inch of your bare body looks like itâs carved in sin. You delight in his attention and crave more of it.
Unable to endure another second apart from your alpha, you rush to the edge of the sandbank fully prepared to swim to him if necessary. But youâre beaten to the punch as Jin-woo emerges from the water and pins you to the ground at a speed thatâs downright demonic.
He holds both of your wrists above your head in one large hand while he rests his other arm on his elbow beside your head, trapping you beneath him.
Jin-woo looks into your eyes one last time for any sign of resistance. Thereâs none; you were not backing down from this. You wanted him to claim you.
Your explicit consent is all he needs to unleash himself upon you. He molds his lips against yours in a searing kiss that burns with passion. Your eyes slip shut as you lose yourself to it. Jin-woo was kissing you with abandon this time, and it was sublime. There was a clear intent and purpose in every stroke and caress of his mouth. He kissed you as if nothing else mattered.
He abruptly parts from your lips to press his forehead to yours. At last, both of you could indulge and get lost in one another. You bask in Jin-wooâs warmth and spread your legs apart allowing him to slant between them. He releases your wrists and cradles your face in his hands.
Your breath hitches when you feel his length prodding against your stomach. This was really happening! You shiver in spite of yourself. Would you be able to withstand Jin-wooâs brute strength?
The siren presses featherlight kisses to your lips, cheeks, and eyelids to quell your nerves. When he pulls back you notice his mouth is moving. You focus on his lips, carefully deciphering each word.
âRaise your head and close your eyes. I have a surpriseâ
You do as he asks, and something cold prickles against your dĂ©colletĂ© and the back of your neck. Youâre curious about what Jin-wooâs placed on you but you keep your head raised and your lids remain firmly shut. Moments later two taps of his fingertips on your cheek signal that you can open your eyes.
When you glance down, youâre amazed by the jewelry dangling from your neck. Itâs gorgeous. Incandescent shards of crystal and delicate alabaster pearls pour from your nape down to the swell of your breasts.
Jin-woo in turn finds himself mesmerized by the image of the gemstones splayed across your dewy skin. Your complexion glows in the moonlight, making you all the more alluring.
He decides to take you right then and there.
As you wrap your arms around Jin-wooâs shoulders, he captures your lips with his and slides into your tight heat. You keen and arch into Jin-woo, baring your throat to him. His fangs lengthen, and he sinks them into the tender flesh of your neck, staking his claim.
Stars adorn the night sky as the two of you intertwine and become one.

Five days laterâŠ
Woo Jinchul was beside himself with worry.
He wearily rubs at his bloodshot eyes. A quick glance at his phone tells him it's just past three oâ clock in the morning. Yet another sleepless night had come to pass. The man contemplates grabbing more coffee but decides not to. He was already five cups deep and the caffeine was doing nothing for his exhaustion.
Jinchul knows he isnât at his best when heâs sleep deprived but he couldnât afford to waste another minute, not while you were still nowhere to be found. And now, based on recent developments in your case, you were classified as an endangered missing person. Sleep was the very last thing on his mind.
He looks down at his desk to examine your case file for what mustâve been the tenth time in the last hour. These classified documents contained sensitive information. Jinchul had to resort to pulling strings to obtain a copy of your records. He hated throwing his weight around to get what he wanted but bringing you back home safe and alive was far more important to him.
Lead detectives Baek Yoonho and Choi Jong-In hadnât been too thrilled about sharing the particulars of an open investigation with some âbig wigâ film director. It took some major convincing on Jinchulâs part for them to relent and provide him with such crucial details.
So far, itâs been almost a full week since your disappearance. During that time, an exhaustive search of the island had been performed. However, there was no sight or sound of you. And as fate would have it, another misfortune occurred on the very night you vanished. This time it was a massacre.
Kang Taeshik, a name Jinchul wishes he could just forget. The man had a propensity for violence as well as a lengthy rap sheet that was conveniently scrubbed from public records. He knew Taeshik engaged in some unsavory pastimes, namely hosting unsanctioned brawls in the underground fighting circuit. But this was only the tip of the proverbial iceberg. Racketeering, drug trade, and much to Jinchulâs horror, human trafficking, had been just a handful of the crimes the sick bastard had gotten away with.
If only he had known sooner, then you wouldâve never been in this situation. He shouldâve trusted his gut and chosen another actor for Taeshikâs role. Jinchul always despised the way that man looked at you, like you were a slab of meat. It was disgusting.
Imagine his shock when he discovered Taeshik had fallen victim to a mass murderer. Body parts and mutilated remains barely recognizable as human were found littered in an alleyway like trash. The scene had been so grizzly that dental records were required to identify the deceased. Only four out of the eleven decedents could be positively IDâd, with Taeshik being one of them.
There were no eyewitnesses, no biological evidence, no suspects. Nothing. The murders would be exceptionally difficult to solve.
And they didnât stop there.
A large bookstore was set on fire two days after the gruesome discovery. Widespread flames and hundreds of thousands of books were a recipe for disaster. Despite the best efforts of the fire department and emergency services, over seventy people lost their lives. It was initially presumed to be an accident, likely faulty wiring or inadequate maintenance.
This theory was thrown out the window when the autopsy results of one of the storeâs associates revealed some truly unsettling details.
To put it lightly the man had been decimated. Every bone in his body was shattered, his spinal cord was severed, and both his legs were torn off. The associate had undergone an excruciating death, with any one of his injuries being fatal. Heâd been tortured extensively before expiring from blood loss. Whoever committed this murder mustâve wanted him to suffer. The damage to the manâs body also bore striking similarities to the injuries sustained by victims of the massacre.
When his surviving co-workers were asked by detectives if the man had any known enemies, an older woman spoke up. Apparently, there was a tall dark-haired alpha having a falling-out with his girlfriend in the store a few days prior. The associate attempted to intervene and stop the loverâs tiff, but the boyfriend had been greatly angered by this.
âIt was as if heâd seen a ghost,â the woman stated, âHe was absolutely spooked by the confrontation and refused to talk to us about it. Looking back, I wish I hadnât dropped the topic so easily. That boy was such a hard worker, always so eager to help those in need⊠itâs awful what happened to him. I donât know how his family is coping.â
But if a grudge was only held against the associate then why did the killer go so far as to destroy the entire building? Did he also harbor resentment towards the business? Was he trying to make an example out of them?
Unfortunately, all the surveillance cameras in the bookstore had been destroyed in the fire. Staff members were able to provide a detailed description of the alpha and his girlfriend. When Jinchul first saw the composite sketches he nearly fell out of his chair.
The girlfriend had been a dead ringer for you.
If that wasnât enough of a smoking gun, the day the man and woman were seen together coincided with the day you went missing.
Evidence in your case was mounting but none of it made sense. How did you get involved with this man? As far as Jinchul knew you werenât dating anyone during filming. Cha and Jinho were also certain you were single. But that didnât exclude the possibility of you being in a secret relationshipâŠÂ
At this point in the investigation, all Baek and Choi had to run on was the assumption youâd been kidnapped by a highly dangerous individual. A man who just so happened to be linked to almost one hundred deaths within the last week. The resolution to your missing personâs case was becoming bleaker by the day.
Jinchul rubbed at his temples. Going days without a proper nightâs rest was taking its toll on him. His head was throbbing with a killer headache. Everythingâs gone to shit since youâve been gone.
Due to the tragic events surrounding the island and the unsolved disappearance of one of their own, executive producer Go made the difficult decision of suspending production on âMurder on the Cerulean Sea,â indefinitely. The movie was most likely going to be shelved.
Jinchul sighs and reaches for his phone again. He skims through his photo gallery until he comes across a picture taken on the first day of filming. You, Cha, and Jinho persuaded him to join in on a group selfie to commemorate the special occasion. The hopeful look in your eyes and the mirth in your smile causes Jinchulâs chest to feel heavy. He longs to return to happier times like this.
But those days were past and gone.
A monster came to Jindo Island, salted the earth with its rage, unleashed a burning inferno to incinerate all in its path.
And you disappeared with it in a sea of fire.

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Anything IX
The 9th instalment in the Anything-Verse
Main Masterlist
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5Â - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8
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Sunshine Masterlist || Saint Masterlist
Series Summary:  A lack of information from the chain of command results in König mistaking you for an enemy sniper.
A/N: I'm back for good this time cos I bailed out of my trash job of 6 years hello mferssss
Warning: Graphic Language, Graphic description of violence
Youâd been thinking about your past more often than usual, especially on the nights that you lay staring at your ceiling. Saint told you that it was a sign that youâd begun to move on. The villain that had consumed your thoughts was now a tentative ally and youâd been left with history seeping through the cracks.Â
You were almost grateful.Â
Almost.Â
You thought about your career before the incident, about the missions that went impossibly wrong. Death, grief, sorrow, hatred, and guilt, they werenât things that you experienced alone. Shared pain eased the blow- you werenât the only one suffering and, in a way, that provided comfort.Â
However, the mission that truly plagued you was a mission so highly classified that there were only four people who still knew of it. There were only four people who survived it.Â
âYou and me, Birdy.Â
Weâre dead.â
You sat up in your bed, mind kicking into overdrive. The dim light on your wrist indicated that it was well past midnight but your blood was electrified.
Youâd been so preoccupied with what had happened to you that youâd stopped thinking about what youâd done. Why had someone tried to kill you, you had to have done something. You had to have known something.Â
âWeâre dead.â
You pulled your duvet from your body, the cool air washing against your skin to make it prickle. Winter was, by far, the worst month to live on base. The heating units in your block were terrible and outdated with the empty promise of upgrades. You slid into your slippers and ventured into the hallway, palms rubbing up and down the length of your arms.Â
Your feet were on auto-pilot as they led you to the door of the last person youâd expect to seek out. There was no light seeping out from beneath cracks and you couldnât hear a sound from inside. He might not have even been home, it was a Saturday night after all- no one was in. Not even Simon, and that was saying something.Â
You shifted your weight on your heels, wincing when the floorboard creaked under the pressure. It couldnât hurt to knock. Or it could, you supposed. You had no idea why you were here, knocking on his door at 2am in the morning was unhinged behaviour. Â
You took a step back from the door, another creak betraying your position. This was a dumb idea. You could talk to him in the morning like a normal, functioning human being would.Â
The door swung open suddenly, forcing your heart into your throat.Â
Königâs hulking silhouette filled the frame, shadowed and imposing. He barely fit through the door as he stepped into the corridor, the dim warmth of the ceiling fixtures washing over his figure.Â
You quickly realised that heâd been asleep as you took in his visage. Sleep tousled hair, a vulnerable gaze, König stood before you shirtless in long tracksuit pants. You forced your eyes to remain fixed to his face as he looked you up and down.Â
âBirdy?â He rasped, scrubbing his face lazily with one hand, the other resting on his hip. âWhy are you lurking at my door?âÂ
Indignant heat crawled from your neck and into your cheeks. âI wasnât lurking, I was about to knock.âÂ
König narrowed his eyes, silently telling you that he knew you were lying. You changed the topic, crossing your arms defensively.Â
âI just wanted to talk about something, I didnât realise how late it was.â You cast a glance down the hall where youâd come from. âSorry to interrupt your beauty sleep, we can talk in the morning.âÂ
As you turned to leave, hot with embarrassment, König sighed.Â
âBirdy.â He called.Â
You peeked at him tentatively from over your shoulder.Â
The man opened his door and gestured inside. Your breath hitched in your throat, the room behind him was dark. That jade gaze watched you tiredly but with intent. He wasnât going anywhere with you, this time you would have to come to him.Â
âAre you sure?â You asked quietly.Â
You received a nod in reply.Â
With a sharp breath and squared shoulders, you wandered cautiously into the lionâs den. Your bare skin brushed against his waist as you passed him, sending a thrill down the length of your spine.
A floor lamp turned on behind you, flooding the room in a warm, sensual glow. You barely heard the door click shut, you were too busy taking in the room before you. It was nothing like youâd been expecting, furnished and decorated with a surprising attention to detail.
The room smelt lightly fragrant, as though incense was lit frequently enough to linger. You caught sight of candles on the desk to your left, âcedar wood and myrrhâ. That would do it.Â
The corner of your lip quirked upward at his library/gaming corner. A dark wood shelving unit housed a plethora of his books and a gaming console, then a flat screen mounted in the centre. Bean bags were neatly organised atop a dark rug, you figured they would be more comfortable for him than an inevitably too small couch.Â
A game was still playing on the screen, the character standing inactive in their own world.Â
âWere you playing?â You turned to look at König, who seemed very suddenly uncomfortable.
âNo,â he cleared his throat and cast his gaze to the floor. âNo, I fell asleep while playing.â
Your eyes were drawn to the bed last.
âThatâs a big bed.â You donât know why you said it.Â
âIâm a big guy.â Was the reply.Â
The bed was tall, something you would have to climb onto if it were your own. There was a large, dark wooden headboard pressed against the back wall, framing the bed like it was the main feature of the room. Dark silk pillows adorned the matching silk bed sheets, and you could only imagine how comfortable they would be on your skin.Â
You turned to face König who had put a shirt on somewhere amidst your gawking at his home.Â
âI didnât think your room would be soâŠâ You trailed off, gesturing at the space around you.Â
âDelicate?â He offered, self deprecation ringing through his tone.Â
âNice,â you finished. âI was going to say nice.â
A small smile finally graced his lips, the first one youâd seen all night. If you hadnât known any better, youâd have thought he sounded self-conscious about the space heâd designed.Â
âI spend a lot of time here,â he shrugged as he offered you a beanbag. âI wanted it to be⊠nice.â
You took a seat, sighing as the tension in your body dissipated instantly. König stretched those long legs out as he got comfortable atop his own bag across from you.Â
âWhy donât you get out more, thereâs plenty to do around here,â you mused.Â
König chuckled darkly, âpeople donât like me very much around here, Birdy.â
The mood dampened at that, the energy in the room shifting. His green gaze had lost the softness that youâd almost grown accustomed to, becoming guarded instead. You wish youâd just held your tongue.Â
âWhat did you want to talk about?â König asked, crossing his arms over his chest.Â
You swallowed thickly, bracing yourself for another shift of his attitude- this time to anger. You werenât afraid of his frustration, not anymore. God knows that youâd seen enough of it directed at you to know that you were physically safe. Despite that knowledge you still hated seeing it with every fiber of your being.Â
âI want to tell you about a mission I did a while back,â you said shakily. âThen I want you to help me figure out whether it might be connected to everything thatâs⊠happened.âÂ
Königâs eyes narrowed, darting to the door and back. He stood to his feet quickly and you flinched as he brushed past you. You turned to look over your shoulder at him, surely he wasnât walking out of his own room.Â
âI thought we agreed to drop it,â he growled beneath his breath and you werenât sure whether he was talking to himself or you. He was rummaging through his desk irritatedly, muttering as he worked. âOf course you didnât drop it. Why would you? Letâs all die together!âÂ
Soft music began to play and you raised your eyebrows as he placed a speaker against the door.Â
âWhat, are you setting the mood?â You snarked, settling back into your bag as he returned to his. He shot you a withering glare.Â
âItâs so that no one hears us as you, once again, try to get us killed by talking about this on base.â He hissed, propping himself up.Â
You rolled your eyes at him but you knew he was right. It would be more suspicious if the both of you had gone on an excursion into town together, youâd have all eyes on you. There werenât many places for you to approach him about information but it seems all the places you have were wrong.Â
âTell me about the mission,â he sighed though his nose. The frown lines on his forehead softening as you nodded.
âThis mission was, and is, highly classified. You cannot tell a soul about this.â You warned, watching him earnestly. It was Königâs turn to roll his eyes.Â
âYes, I will try my hardest to not tell all of my best friends in the 141.âÂ
You shot him a withering glare.Â
âFine,â he groaned. âObviously I will not tell anybody, Birdy.âÂ
You nodded, satisfied with his response, before launching into the details of the mission.
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âAlpha 1-1 to Bravo 1, SITREP, over.â
âBravo 1 in position, green status, over.âÂ
âBravo 1, maintain position. Payload incoming. Alpha 1-1 out.Â
You drew a deep breath, taking in the view a final time beyond the scope of your rifle. Youâd perched up on the high ground, neatly hidden between wiry bushes and dirt mounds. The U.S forward operating base, its entrance, and the arterial road in, were all at your mercy.Â
Your mission was to provide cover for a high value payload and offer additional defense to the U.S FOB while it received. For a black bag operation it was deceptively simple. Then again, you had no idea what the payload was. Youâd been told that the objective was to protect a Shadow Company squad while they âdelivered the milk.â
You werenât important enough to be privy to more than that.Â
A dust trail in the distance indicated the payloadâs approach and you set to work. Thermal imaging provided you a clear picture of the incoming convoy as it cleared the crest. To your alarm there were only three vehicles before you, for such precious cargo you thought that thereâd be a larger security detail.Â
There was a civilian blocking the route ahead of them that youâd raised concern about prior. U.S soldiers had been dispatched from the base to remove him but were thus far unsuccessful. Your stomach tightened as the convoy slowed to a halt 350 yards from your position.Â
As one of the Shadow members dismounted their vehicle you couldnât shake your rising paranoia. You felt the hairs on your arms raise and your skin prickle- a sniperâs sixth sense. You turned your sights to the crest the convoy had appeared from.Â
There was something very, very wrong.Â
You watched the crest carefully, praying that you were paranoid.Â
But, you never were.Â
âSierra 1, contact rear, near ambush!âÂ
No sooner than the callout had left your lips, the incoming vehicles opened fire.Â
Chaos erupted the way it usually did in war. The screams, the callouts falling on deaf ears, the gunfire- it all blurred, really. The only thing you could truly hear was your own breath. Every inhale was steady and your heart followed in suit, a steadfast sniper was the most accurate.Â
And there was a reason that you were the best.Â
One by one they fell. Amidst the cloud of moon dust and the flurried movements you could see everything, and everyone, as clear as day. The floor was littered with bodies, men from both sides ironically meeting the same end.
A blinding flash forced your eyes shut as your scope lit up. The explosion rocked the earth beneath your stomach and you knew then that the fight was lost. An RPG blast had ended it all in an instant, obliterating the men you were protecting. Limbs, shrapnel, and wreckage were all that remained of Shadow Squad.
Your teeth were clenched tight enough to cramp your jaw. You couldnât get a shot with the enemy operators hidden behind the cargo.Â
âBravo 1, donât let them take that fucking payload!â
Shepherd's voice was desperate, a growing hysteria that youâd never heard from him before.Â
âI donât have a shot,â you ground out through your teeth.Â
Between Graves and Shepherd barking half-baked orders down the line, there was little coherency.
The mission objective was a monumental failure and an unjustifiable amount of lives had been lost that day, along with the payload. There was only one survivor of the ground assault, a blessing in itself. Dipaolo had been knocked unconscious in his vehicle after the RPG explosion and assumed dead by the enemy.Â
You had tried to talk to Dipaolo briefly while waiting for your transport home. Heâd been mumbling to himself dazedly in the back corner of the medical room for hours when you approached him.Â
âDipaolo?...â You trailed off. The man had lost his entire squad in one hit, heâd woken up to their blood on his face and their limbs scattered across the dirt. No amount of experience can give you the right words to say to a man like that.
His hazel gaze met yours, distant and tired.Â
âWhat have we done?â He whispered.Â
Your tongue dried in your mouth and you could only stare at him in response. Youâd failed is what youâd done. Youâd failed this man and his men and you couldnât protect them.Â
âWeâre so fucked,â he shook his head. âWe are so fucked.â
âWhat-â youâd barely choked out the word before he grabbed your wrist roughly. You yelped as Dipaolo pulled you in close, the smell of sweat and blood on his skin. He reeked of death.
âDo you know what weâve fucking done, Birdy?â The Shadow hissed through gritted teeth as you tugged uselessly against his grip. âDo you know what we just fucking gave them?âÂ
âLet go,â you rasped. Panic began to rise in your chest when his gaze turned hysterical.Â
The door behind you flung open but you couldnât tear your eyes away from the man before you. His grip tightened as he flicked his sights to the medics entering the room.Â
âDo you know what weâve done, Birdy? Do you know what we gave them?â His words blurred together desperately. âWeâre fucked! You hear me?âÂ
âWoah, woah, woah!â Relief flooded your chest as the returning medic inserted himself between you and the crumbling soldier. âLetâs just back up for a second.âÂ
You ripped your arm from his grip and immediately turned to leave, your skin burning where youâd been detained. You tried to tune out Dipaolo's screams as you left the room but this wasnât a battlefield and you had no rifle- you heard it all.Â
âWe are dead!â The Shadowâs voice broke from behind you. âYou and me, Birdy, weâre dead!â
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Königâs face was stony as he leaned back into his seat.Â
The silence following your story was heavy and your mouth was dry. You couldnât remember the last time that youâd spoken so much in one sitting.Â
âBirdy,â König mused, âwhen was that mission?âÂ
âA while back, a few months Iâd say,â it was a rough estimate. âIâd have to check my dates.â
König shook his head, green eyes flashing with alarm. âHow long did it happen before our⊠incident?âÂ
You blinked slowly, taking in a deep breath. Your heart dropped to your stomach and it was as though König knew what you were going to say before you said it.Â
âIt was the last mission I hadâŠâ you trailed off shakily. You felt like you were going to vomit.Â
Königâs eyes hardened as he voiced the realization that you had both come to.Â
âIt was the last mission you did before I was sent to kill you, Birdy.âÂ
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part 1
cast: heeseung â fem.reader (ft. the peeps, enhypen, and other idols)
synopsis: when you told your long-term rival and latest hook-up, heeseung, that you are pregnant with his child; you didn't expect said topic to be involved in your rivalry!
genre:Â romantic comedy, slice of life, coming-of-age, slow burn, drama, rivals since childhood to [redacted], college/university au, pregnancy au, future parents au, fluff, angst, mature content (explicit smut)
word count: 24198 (24.2k) out of 60550 (60.5k)
warning(s): pregnancy (what did you expect?), so many curse words!, description of explicit sex (in a flashback sense), rough sex, unprotected sex, multiple orgasms, manhandling, vomiting, mention of drugs (marijuana, alcohol), mention of blood, dark humor (if there is something that i forgot, let me know)
message of the moon: remember that this story is fiction and do be careful and read the warnings at the top. all the idols mentioned here are not what they are in real life.
first fic of 2024! i've ideated this since like 2022 and it's here what the heck!! this is part 1 of 2 of a 57k-58k word count one-shot (yes, this is supposed to be a one-shot) but tumblr hates me so i have to divide it into two. thanks for the 200+ notes on the teaser/character intro and i hope you enjoy it!
soundtrack (spoilers for part 2!) | part 2 | epilogue
prologue: a town called valentine
it was valentine 2002 when you and heeseung first met. well, if you consider babies who canât even talk to each other will know of each other. you have to thank both of your moms for thatâgetting pregnant around the same time and giving birth in the same year as well.
but the earliestâvividâmemory you have of him was on valentine 2005. you hid behind your mamaâs leg as she talked with someone: another adult. you glance around the outside space youâre in, the plants and pathway unknown to you as mama can see your eyes wander with your tiny mouth agape when you look past the other adult to recognize the widening door right beside them. you heard your mother giggling with the other person as they converse about something your 4-year-old mind wouldnât be able to understand.
â(y/n) sweetie! say hi to auntie.â your mama caresses your hair with her hand as she guides you to stand beside her, her hands moving behind your small set of shoulders before you. the small hands reached for one of hers, holding it tight as you stood beside her.
âhelloâŠâ you looked up to meet a beautiful woman. her eyes are wide as they remind you of the mother deer you last saw when you watched bambi with mama and papa. and you can feel a ticklish feeling inside you as you watch her eyes smiling softly at you. as she smiles at you softly.
âhello (y/n)! youâve grown so much since i last met you.â her hands give a wave, making you raise your hand up as you mirror her while you pick up your mamaâs chuckle. the lady moves back, extending her arm as you see a clean hallway full of photos on one side and a cabinet full of shoes on the other. some of them looking similar to your own shoe size.
âplease come inside. iâve set the toys so she can play with them if she wants.â the ladyâwell, auntieâsaid as your mama guided you inside with her trailing behind. sitting on the hidden seating area by the cabinet, she helps you take off your shoes before opening her hands to let you hold them. she lets you walk in front as both of you enter a big room with a sofa in front of a television. as per told by mama every time you enter someoneâs home: sit down beside mama or papa as you waited for the homeowner to guide you next. the back of the sofa is too tall for your height now and you let your hand graze against the side of the soft sofa when you encounter a large mat laid in between the sofa and the screen.
your brain tingles when you find a few toys you can nameâlike the ones you own back homeâwhile a few of them you donât recognize at all. eyes on the toys, you throw away whatever your mama has told you and tug her hand to let her know the existence of them. looking up, she looks down at you, glance at the pile of toys left behind, and gives nods, making you grin as you both sit on the playmat. your eyes immediately look at blocks stacked shaping like a house; its triangle roof, square walls, four windows, and door makes you easily imagine it. you crawl towards it and the box beside it, finding the other blocks left behind as you pull some of them out to make your own little house. as you slowly stack up the blocksâhearing the sound of wood tapping against each otherâyou heard the sound of giggling coming from behind the sofa.
âsorry, he just finished taking a bath.â auntie said to your mom who was behind you, walking closer to the sofa as you turned your head to face her. thatâs when you see another person walking into the room with a small pitter-patter heard behind them. the steps are getting louder and louder as you see a small figure enter the room, walking towards the person laughing. the person wipes his face with his small hand before pausing, turning his head to you.
âhi heeseung!â you heard your mama say as the boyâs laugh slows down and he looks at you and your mama. auntie, who now looks more like the bigger version of the boy, steps in to help him move and sit down beside you. you see him crouch down as you can see his face clearer. yet, his eyes wander on the house made of blocksâhis houseâand the house youâre making; wider by one block than his.
âthatâs (y/n). you were too young to remember but auntie and i always bring you two to playdates since youâre not even one year old. sheâs the same age as you.â you heard auntie say as you felt your mama help you to scoot closer. his hand reaches for the box of blocks as you place the final block on your house while heâs pulling out more blocks. you look at the boyâs action as you feel mama, with her larger hand, holding onto your smaller one. your palm is now open as you see heeseung was told to do the same by his mom, putting away the blocks on the mat. your hands meet each other as you say your name. mama helps in closing your fingers, wrapping your hand in his as he follows.
âmy name is (y/n).â the boyâs hand also uses the same force when you shake it. both women let go of their childrenâs hands as both of your little hands are floating, connected, and shaking. your eyes meet his as he looks back at the two houses made of blocks.
âmy name is heeseung.â he smiles.
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1. stay soft, silly
the way the corner of his mouth twitches makes you think outside of the plan you are executing now, nearly done in telling him what he needs to know.
your hands rested on top of your stomach, feeling a little bulge that was not there a month ago. his ice americano contrasts with your hot jasmine tea as you sit across from each other. years upon years of history went on pause for this moment. for a truce that you are proposing.
âand theyâre mine?â heeseung sounded. your eyebrows folded, looking down at the swollen part beneath your stomach as you pouted your lips, holding back your giggling as you glanced back at him.
âi havenât had sex with anyone this past month besides you. so, yeah. the baby is yours.â
itâs funny, you see. with the amount of carefulness you and your friends have taught you of the college hook-up culture you got roped into, you never expected to hook up with your rival. yet tension does what tension does, and it snaps as you both stumbled to kiss each other.
when it comes to your ârelationshipâ with heeseung, the closest to a positive one was when you were in kindergarten, as youâve known him before by the amount of playdates both of your mothers set up.
little did they know that one time at a playground during one of those playdates, you were left alone to play with your sandcastles as heeseung ventured to play with the other boys, running around the sandpit playing tag and how you see the familiar little jeans pants walks in front of you, knocking the castle down and flying the specks of sand to your face with your slower reaction speedâbecause of your younger ageânot making you close your eyelids quicker. your eyes watering as you wail out, getting the attention of your mama but not the jean-wearing boyâs attention as you hear his mom telling him to stop. apologizing is simple for your younger self, just a plain âsorryâ is okay. but when lee heeseungâwho you consider your friend at that timeâsaid âsorryâ with a grin on his face, you caught onto the impression that he was not sorry at all.
at age 7, you came back from the cafeteria to your class to find heeseung and his gang of boys pulling on a girlâs hair, the familiar sadness showing on her face as you caught her eyes. youâve known that theyâve played âdirtyâ and have been teasing other girls in your class beforeâjust not you, which is strange in itself. with a tense set of hands, you push the boys away with your might and stand in between them, helping the girl who cowers behind you. you look down to watch heeseung on the floor, teeth showing and face crunched as he sees the scratch from when you pushed him near his elbow.
âwhat was that for?â
âto stop you. she doesnât like it.â
one of his boys helps to pick him up on his feet as you can see him limping. your arms still wide as you protect the girl as best as you can. he pushes his sweaty bangs off his face as you can define the same gaze he had given you when you were 5 at the playground, now fiery. and you exude the same thing with your glare as you see the other boys helping carry him out to the nurse's office, his eyes staying on yours as you feel the girlâs hand holding you back from not walking after him again.
stickers become score markers as you and he tried to compete to get the most out of them, which comes with being nice and clever during classes. you were 10 when you had the same class as him once again, having to compete to be the quickest when raising your hands. but also the lowly giggles you give each other as you both realize just how wrong each otherâs answers that comes with the teasing annoyance. it also comes in gym class as the teacher divided you up into different teams during team gamesâbasketball being the most competitive as you are familiar with it. heeseung doesnât hesitate to run towards you if you have a ball and try to dribble it across the court, pulling it as you try to pass it to your teammate, resulting in a tug-of-war where you both just donât want to let it go. even with the whistling from the teacher as one teammate gets a hold of it to continue the game, you instead continue to have a screaming match with him.
it continues through middle school as you remember him not hesitating with his power to slam his dodgeball at your stomach during another gym class, making you curl up on the floor as your friends help you to the nurse's office, hearing him screaming âthatâs what you get from stealing my lunchâ as you remembered the taste of the chocolate bread you pick up from his tray yesterday. at high school as you and him argue in front of the vice principal about each of your clubâs fundings, him with his basketball club who is already so successful with their winnings money that they canât seem to let go to help other clubs who are staying afloat. even with your school having pride in the basketball team and other sports club achievementsâmaking it a staple for the students to watch at least one game during their high school years. you never went to one as you rather babysit your neighborâs kid for money than watch heeseungâs smug smile as he won another mvp trophy for that tournament.
when college came and you got into hybe uni as a business major, you didnât expect to see heeseung on campus. youâve known that since he focuses more on basketball in middle school, you are winning when it comes to academics. but when his smirking face tells you he got into hybe with a full scholarship because of basketball, your heart plummets into the fathoms. you were glad that heâs not in the same faculty as you, but the college environment is so small that your acquaintances recognize each other. you canât seem to stay away from him who still has his smart for balancing his gpa and non-academic activities.
so when your lips met his own as you sobered up after having the party busted by the police, your mind is telling you to out-better him in lust and pleasure.
âwho can make each other cum the most? never thought of you as that filthy, (l/n)â
the grip of his hair on your hand tightens as he trails his own to get a grip of yours. both of your heads now straight as you canât look away from each other even if you want to.
âi take that youâre saying that because you donât know how to make girls cum with your dick, lee.â you chuckled. heeseungâs gaze is still meeting yours as he pushes your head forward, making your forehead touch his as he mumbles something only you can hear.
âi know i can make you cum on my dick just by the way youâre clenching your thighs, baby. how do we tally the score?â
âstart a kiss on the lips when you know you canât hold back?â
âdeal.â
âby the way, who won?â heeseung asked, leaning his body forward on the table as you peer down at his position from you, holding yourself as you stretch your back to help with the pain.
âhow many times did you cum? and donât fucking lie.â
heeseungâs bed is rocking beneath you as he folds you up in half, your knees on either side of you as he pounds into you. gasps fall out of your mouth as you pull on his hair, something you realize he likes after the amount of groan coming out of him from when you tug him. praises come out of your mouth as you try every method you can to turn him on first; to make him cum first. but the way he is pushing down on your abdomen makes you clench harder.
âlook at how youâre clenching onto me. youâre close, arenât you?â he whispered as you felt the breeze blowing onto your saliva-stained neck you are certain had hickeys on it. heeseung had to remind himself that he couldnât kiss your lips, no matter how delectable they were, changing to kissing your neck.
ân-â you moan as heeseungâs hand traces down to grip your ribcage, pulling you closer to him so he could find another angle to reach you deeper, pleasuring you both in return. âno.â
âdonât lie to me, (y/n).â his head pulls back from your crook as you watch his bangs faltering from the hard pounding to his mattress. âgod, youâre so fucking hot when youâre under me.â
âfuck, just like that.â you retaliate with your own dirty talk, hands holding his waist so he could stay longer in your cavern as you grip him. but when you sense his breath against your skin, nose upon nose touching, the grip on his waist trails up as you cup his face. nodding your head as you feel him getting faster, you pull his head down and make his lips meet yours. you bit your bottom lip as your muffled moans vibrated between the two of you. your body giving up for a moment as he continued to thrust into you, making you let go as you let out a silent scream when you felt the moist gushing against him inside you. heeseungâs lips are unhesitant to kiss between your eyebrows as your body calms down from shaking, eyes rolling back to their original place as you continue to caress his cheekbone before a surge of energy comes back to you. you push him to the side, placing him down on the mattress as your hands grab both of his wrists to rest beside his head.
âi can feel you twitching inside me, hee. i know youâre close,â you said as you bounce on his lap, feeling the way your essence fell out and how much slick is on his penis because of you. as you have the upper hand, you decide to tease him by falling on him slower than the pace you have familiarized, making his wrists flinched under your hold as you click your tongue.
âyou like how my walls are sucking you?â
âfuck, yes,â he mumbled under his breath.
âyeah..?â you replied as you leaned forward, making heeseung reach up to kiss your areola as best as he could.
âcome on. you donât wanna cum again?â heeseung asked in such a whiny voice that makes you snicker at how needy he has become. you decide to continue your teasing when you trail your nose along his face as you give a tiny kiss underneath his earlobe where you see the hickey you made on his clavicle. you move your hips so slowly as you feel how he becomes more erect even when heâs inside you.
âyouâre the one who denies it yourself. iâm currently helping you here.â you poke your tongue and trace down his adamâs apple to his chest, reaching his nipple and giving it a suck. heeseungâs hip shoots up into you as he wants to take control. your hand moving closer to his palm with the grip that is getting loose as he pushes both his arms to let go of your hold. yet, you pull them back up as you reposition your fingers to interlock with his, withholding what he wants to make you move faster as he thrusts up into you.
you stare at how his doe-like eyes are begging for you after the number of times you have hated and feared the same eyes. how it glistens with tears because of how uncooperative you are even with your pace getting faster. with that, you lean forward as you stretch his hands and place them on your moving hips, letting them go so he can grip it hard as he tries to chase that feeling once again. you drape yourself above him as his blown-out eyes stare right at yours, his orange fiery flame meeting your own blue.
leaning forward more as you sensed one of his hands resting on your back, you brush away his hair that is sticking on his forehead as you whispered the death blow.
âyou can cum in me-â
he leans up to connect your lips with his as you understand the signal, making your hips help to stimulate him more. his tongue flicking out and even wetting the skin around your lips as he moans out your name, letting out an exhale as your forehead is on his.
âwant to breed youâŠâ he whispered as you nodded, knowing just how much you like cum staining your walls as you give him a peck.
âbreed me then.â
as he spoke to you about when he cums in your walls cowgirl style, you couldnât help but snicker at the memories of his newly known breeding kink and your own creampie kink makes the resulting bun in your oven, making him flick your hand as you stare at him.
âthatâs one for you and one for me- what are you thinking?â the way his voice pitches up at the end of the question makes you giggle even more.
âi swear-â you lean forward as you realize the stage you are in, âthe way our kinks create them,â you point down to your stomach.
âwith the way your body shivers when i cum in you,â he said as he also leans forward. âi knew you like it. but i didnât realize how feral you got because of that.â
âhow feral we got, heeseung. fucking correct that.â
âoh fuck!â you moaned out into the mattress as heeseung held your hips up when he thrusts back into you from behind. you can sense how every time he pounds into you, his release is coming out alongside him as the wet clapping noises penetrate even the sound of both the cricketing bed frame and both of your moans. his hand goes up to your head and pulls your hair as the other pushes against your stomach, making you bend back towards him as the moans you let out of your mouth are clearer. his lips sucking another hickey onto your shoulder as you lean your head back on him to widen his access. your hands gripping onto both of the hands that are now resting on your abdomen and one on your breast, respectively.
âwho can make you feel like this?â the question triggering you right away.
ây-you.â
âsay my name, baby,â he said as he kissed your cheeks, making you turn your head towards the side as you opened your eyes to meet his, continuing to pleasure you into oblivion.
âheeseungâŠâ
âgo on.â he squeezed your flesh and you bit your bottom lip.
âheeseung!â
the hand on your abdomen leaves to crawl to your nub as your free hand reaches up to his nape, letting you connect your lips with his as best as you can. your body doing gymnastics before it is overcome by your second wave of cum when heeseung stops and twist your upper body to connect both of your lips fully. with his hands enveloping you, you push both of your body down as you let him spoon you.
grinding your hips against him, you reached down to gather both your cums as you give it a lick, making heeseung groan as he helps you push against him. âfuck, (y/n), how are you still so tight?â
âonly for you-â you reply as you shift away, just wanting to kiss heeseung, but then you remember the rules. with your shoulder, you push heeseung so he lays back on the bed as you lie on top of him. your knees folding so you can put your heels on the mattress as you lift yourself up and down on his shaft. you push your hands against is so you can sit and let you see the messiness yourself: both of your thighs are now covered in whiteness as you continue, realizing how sticky your skins are against each other. instead of letting you observe the messiness, heeseung pulls your upper body back to his as he also folds his knees and pushes his heels to the bed, thrusting upwards and making the pace quicker.
both of your moans combine with each other as he rests his arms around your midriff so you canât move away from him. your head tilts to look behind you at the way heeseung is closing his eyes. as the point of your nose touches his skin, he doesnât hesitate to turn to you and brought your lips onto his as he gives a few sputtering thrusts before you felt him cumming in you once again, making you fuller than ever.
âand thatâs another two for each of us,â you replied as heeseung let out a snicker.
âstill a tie, huh?â
âyeah, but we decided on a tiebreaker, right?â he responded with a hum.
with how sweaty, sticky, and tired you both are, you decide to do a tiebreaker with you sitting on his lap in a lotus position. your breath meeting his as both of you work in tandem (with a little burst exerted once in a while) to make any of you cum first and declare to be the winner of this messed-up game you made. heeseung licks the skin below your neck and plays with your breasts as you let your fingers experiment with his nipples and the way your nails scratch against his back muscles. you know that both of you are exhausted because the only sound that comes out is the small moans and whines left over. you looked down to see the messy environment you made between both of your crotches, making you scoop it up as you lift your cum-covered forefinger to your mouth, sucking it in, before pulling heeseungâs head so you can let him taste both of you.
his wide eyes glance up at you as he puts on a show to make you turn on more, swirling his tongue around your middle finger as the hand that was holding your shoulder blade reaches to your face, making his thumb pressing against your bottom lip so you can suck it. your hips grind on him faster, bouncing a few times, as both of your moans are muffled by both of your fingers. pulling your finger back, a string of saliva connected it and his lips as you cup his cheek. heeseung bites his lip as he pulls the thumb out to see your swollen lips. as you stare at each otherâthinking back to the past few hours that have gotten you here in this positionâyou sense something strange within you. something so unfamiliar when you stare at him than the other moments you blatantly glare towards him. with the way he glances around your face as he connects your forehead with his, you recognize he might have sensed the same things too.
you donât remember who is the first one to reach out, but as both of your lips connect, you let yourself envelop him as he did you. both of you not stopping and helping each other out as both of you cum in quick succession. not letting go of each otherâs lips as you both pull away slowly; looking at the string of saliva connecting both of you as you stare at each other.
âwe donât need to discuss that.â
âno, we donât,â
both of you replied right after the other as you see heeseung looking away from you to glance at the window beside the table. you glance at the condensation forming on the glass of his americano before glimpsing towards the booth where he sat. a duffle bag beside his backpack; you guess it will be for his basketball practice, it is near the college basketball season after all. but as you glance up at the man himselfâyou notice how different he has been since you were children. the way he muscled up and the baby fat on his face sheds away from the amount of sports he has to consume weekly. but, with all the invisible scars you both inflicted on each other from then until now, you weigh in just how ridiculously complex your relationship is that you donât know if he wants to agree with it or not.
âwell, now that you knowâŠâ you started, rubbing your hand against your sweater paws, âyou donât have to contribute to their life.â
heeseung hums, turning back to look towards you with confusion written on his face.
âitâs okay if you donât want to get involved in taking care of them. itâs hard enough to be a senior-year college student, let alone raising a baby. itâs my choice to keep them, so i have to take responsibility for that.â you grabbed the now lukewarm cup of tea as you take a sip from it, placing it gently on the small plate as you continued with, âespecially knowing how complicated we are.â you use your forefinger to point between him and you.
the manâs face is hard to read. he jutted his lips, biting the inside of his cheek as you see him blink whilst looking towards you, trying to get a read on you as well. being 8 weeks pregnant, you just wanted the meeting to end because you have all the other things you need to organize: telling the girls about your pregnancy diets and symptoms, telling the university about them and maybe they could give you leeway with the tests and studies, setting up appointments for with the ob-gyn and the doula of your choice, and telling your parents.
your parents who knew heeseungâs parents.
this will be awkward as fuck to experience.
âand i wish we could have a truce for the next 40 weeks.â you said, already with an exasperated voice that seemed to even surprise heeseung. âwith this lifelong rivalry going on and how both of us doesnât even want it to stop, please just⊠give me a slack to take care of them as best as i could.â
when you expected heeseung to reply with an okayâknowing your status as an expecting mother to at least give you some slackâyou were met with a piercing gaze instead. how he looks between your face and your hidden stomach behind the table. he rests his hand on the table when you watch him considering something, and you didnât even fucking guess he will do what he does.
âno.â
âwhat?â
âno. thereâs no truce.â he leans forward, recognizing the gaze in his eyes as you just want to punch it out of his face for even thinking about what heâs thinking.
âno fucking way youâre thinking about this.â
âwhy not, (y/n)? think you canât take care of yourself enough for the baby?â
your palm is now against your forehead, brushing against your face as it trails down when you let out a groan, âyouâre trying to make a rivalry on taking care of this babyâŠâ you let out your guess as heeseung lets out his signature smirk and a voiceless âbingoâ.
âhow? theyâre in me, heeseung.â
âby giving them good nutritious food, interacting with them, i donât know. but i know from knowing you for years that you canât take care of yourself, knowing you have three other roommates-â
âyou also have three other fucking roommates. sheesh.â you shake your head as you lean back. âanything for the baby has to go through me first, you know? i can deny it if i want.â
âthen we can argue whoâs right. theyâre my baby too and i have the right to be involved even if you donât want to.â your phone vibrates after heeseungâs brash reply as you see the silent alarm of your next schedule of the day. you tug the strap of your bag to your shoulder and gulp the rest of your tea.
âwhatever, i have another thing to do.â
âdoes it involve the baby?â
âno. unless you wanna join my research class.â
you stood up from the booth as you straightened your sweater down, making heeseung glance at your abdomen before looking back at your face. âjust so you remember: iâm doing this for the baby, not you.â
rolling your eyes, you flip him the bird as you walk away from him to your only class of the day, making heeseung let out a strangled smile.
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âwhat the- what do you mean?â
the game continues as the other three guys look towards heeseung who is obliterating them with his king dedede, the sound of the fighting comes from the tv of their living room apartment as his fingers nimbly move on the switch controller, making the other three characters fly from the platforms as the familiar âgame!â announcement calls.
the boys are sitting in various ways; beomgyu and jeongin are on the floor and jimin is beside him. the soundtrack of the super smash bros ultimate is playing in the background as heeseung smiles.
âiâm gonna be a dad.â
jeongin, the closest to the main port of the switch, quits the game as beomgyu lets out another loud shoutâoutside of the gameâand jimin, who is sitting besides him, shakes his body with outstretched arms.
âBROOO!â beomgyu rubs his hand across his long hair as he faces heeseung fully, who is regretting not recording the reaction of his best buddies about this.
âhow does heeseung, who doesnât even like hooking up, get someone pregnant?â jimin asks to himself but also to the others as jeongin now stands in front of him, shielding the tv from his sight.
âforget that. who did you knock up, lee heeseung?â jeongin cuts through as heeseung leans back against the headrest of the couch. a mix of expressions showing on his face cause he doesnât know if he has to laugh, be angry, be sad, or what else. he lets out a sigh as he picks the right voice tone to tell them.
âitâs fucking (y/n).â
âokay, now hold on!â
jeongin jumps, shedding the stern aura that he just created a few seconds ago. heeseung glances down at beomgyu who has his jaw dropped with jimin gripping on heeseungâs shoulder very hard.
âSINCE WHEN DID YOU TWO HOOK U-â
âshush!â jimin stands up and covers his hand on jeonginâs mouth, not wanting another complaint from the neighbors both horizontally and vertically.
âwhen?â beomgyu asked jeonginâs questions concisely as heeseung glanced towards the sofa and the kitchen right beside the front door of their apartment.
âyou remember the party that got busted by the police?â
âyoon keehoâs party?â
âyeah, that one.â jimin acknowledges beomgyuâs answer as heeseung continues.
âlong story short, (y/n) was alone and i went past her, teasing her for seeing that her friends left her behind when the police showed. she was tipsy which she shows by how easily stumbles. so i dragged her with me to our apartment when we escaped. i donât know where you guys were, but sheâs gotten a bit too annoying so i have to sober her up. we talked, and the tension was just tooâŠâ heeseung remembers as he was the one reaching for your face, to tell you to shut the fuck up, but the tension melted away before both of you proposes the game that you did. âso, we did it. and she asked me to meet up this morning and told me the news.â
âand what are your thoughts?â jimin asks, making the high-stakes emotions lower as he lets his friend talk about what he is feeling.
well, for heeseung, shock was an understatement. when he heard you utter the three words to him as he asked you what makes you want to meet up, never did he expect that to come out. surely, he has a breeding kink, and he had expected that to happen. but you told him youâre leaving early to get a plan b pill. maybe it didnât work, but he doesnât want to assume much about your body. then, he can sense the hidden sheer happiness blossoming within him. he wanted to smile and give you a hug, but then he remembered that it was you. that outside of his bed that night, you didnât see him as a friend.
for someone who doesnât hook up with people, heeseung knows how the hook-up culture works. he had heard multiple women fucking his three roommates from within his room and he could use his noise-canceling headphones against them. people might presume he is pickyâa basketball jock who stays hidden and doesnât want to hook up with anyone unlike his younger teammatesâbut the level of comfort is different when he has to do it with someone he doesnât know and thatâs why he rather stayed away. you? well, you are an anomaly.
though close because of your upbringing, he doesnât know you outside of what he knows. that you were the kid who broke his truck even after he said sorry for ruining your sandcastle at that playground. that you were the kid who pushed him to the floor back when you were 7. that youâre the girl who he competes with to get the most stickers and not letting go of the basketball even though he stole it from you correctly. that he saw you stealing the bread from his tray as he came back from the vending machine. that you were the one telling the vice principal his basketball club doesnât need as much money as they do because of their successful run, not knowing that their assistant coach stole the winning money.
so when you decide to create walls from your words, try to spin it so he doesnât have to care about his baby, he had to say no. itâs as if youâre trying to keep the baby to yourself and not letting him in even though it takes two to tango. so, he found the most relevant way: competing for who takes care of that baby the right wayâeven if theyâre in you. he doesnât even think far from that thought no matter how ridiculous it is as now he realizes what a logistical nightmare itâs going to be.
âyouâre making a game out of taking care of your own child but not your baby mama?â jeongin questioned after hearing heeseungâs rambling about this.
âyupâŠâ heeseung paused, a pregnant pause. âand i need all of your help.â
jiminâs face changes as he hears the way heeseung described his face, rubbing his palm against the creases forming on his forehead as he canât comprehend how beomgyu easily accepts his role. jiminâs head perks up at heeseung calling his name.
âyo!â jimin replied.
âsince youâre the only one out of us who has a direct connection to (y/n) through chaeryeong, youâll be my eyes, okay? asked about (y/n), how sheâs doing, and all that stuff.â heeseung nodded as he expectantly looked at the boy who stood beside jeongin.
âgotcha,â he replied, his eyes wide as heeseung turned towards jeongin.
âinnie, youâre my source. find any article about pregnancy and what my role is gonna be as a dad. yadda yadda yadda. all that stu-â
âi do you one better, seung.â jeongin said as heeseung lifted his eyebrows at him, tilting his head.
âmy mom is an ob-gyn doctor.â
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âmiss (y/n)!â
âwear this!â
there is sounds of pitter-patters all around you as you sense the weight getting heavier on your figure. a small cape hanging off your shoulders and a crooked crown on your head, you sit down cross-legged against a round table full of toy food and kitchen utensils. girls and boys alike sit on the chairs by the table with their own capes and crowns, playing around with their cups as they all have a tea partyâwith the other side of the room playing with legos.
âhere is your tea and cake.â you see the girl beside you giving the plate of rubber cake and an empty tea cup.
âthank you, princess rami.â picking up the teacup into your hand, you let out a loud slurping noise to drink it, before flinching away as you fan your tongue.
âiâm so sorry. is it too hot?â rami asked as you shook your head.
âiâm okay. thank you for asking,â you replied as best as you could.
âyou must be careful, princess rami.â the boy across from her spoke as you tilt your head to him.
âiâm alright. prince yujin. i will be more careful with the tea.â he gave out a smile as one girl called out.
âif we are all princes and princesses, how should we call miss (y/n)?â hyunseo asked across from you.
âwell, miss (y/n) should be a queen!â woonhak replied enthusiastically.
âbut if miss (y/n) is a queen, should she have a king?â hyunseo continued.
âor another queen. i have two queens at home.â yujin filled in as you gave off a smile with the implication. but then the kids started to bicker with each other as you looked around the room once again.
as you entered high school, you were determined to beat heeseung in another way other than school-related activities. and what other way by being independent and richer than him at a young age? so you raked your head of a simple work that can help you gain more pocket money when one of your aunts asks you if you can babysit their daughter and how she will pay you. seizing the opportunity, you get to take care of your baby cousin as you go to your auntâs home to help her with her food and stuff. hearing your enjoyment by the dining room table, your mom suggests more opportunities to babysit children of your family members from both sidesâto your youngest uncleâs 4-year-old son and your oldest cousinâs 6-month-old babyâyou have an array of skills gotten from doing childcare as your mom recommend you to babysit her juniorsâ children at work, making you who wanted it for the money now wants it for the children.
it needs a certain level of charisma to charm a child so they can listen to you and with the array of children you had to babysit, youâve met and adapted as best as you can to all of them. from being the calm tutor for a baby who is training his motor skills to help a child practice balancing on a bicycle, you understand what a child wants under their tantrums. that love you give and the love you accept makes you want to contribute more to childcare. so you started volunteering in non-formal schools and orphanages, helping to at least make their days a little better. and thatâs why you worked part-time as a daycare attendant since you entered university as it is a more established institution where you can shuffle your study schedule alongside your work schedule, meeting kids who are being sent here that are still younger than school age. it reminded you of your own childhood and youâre hoping that your inner child could be happy and satisfied that you let her feel that feeling again.
âguysâŠâ your spoken voice cuts their conversations, and they all turn to you. âa queen doesnât have to have a king or another queen by their side. a queen can stand alone too.â
âbut wouldnât that make the queen lonely?â rami questioned, making you pout your lips as you still canât comprehend just how blatantly honest children are that it pierces through each layer of your heart to find the right spot.
âyes, the queen will be lonely. but she also has her princes, princesses, knights, counselors, and more around her. love doesnât always come from one person, it can also come from a group.â you replied, making the group rowdy up as they converse about love and being independentâwell, âlonelyâ as they called itâwhen you feel a light pat on your shoulder.
turning your head, you see a younger girl other than those around the table holding a paper, stretching it towards you.
âfor you, miss (y/n)âŠâ
you slowly pick the paper from her small hands as you observe the drawing. a simple figure made of circles and triangles with different colors. a pink filled-in shape on one side of the triangle with the circle-shaped and another taller one holding the figures hand, a yellow crown-shaped drawing on top of a circle with a smiling face inside.
she drew you.
âawww. this is so sweet and nice.â you return to look at the younger girl, a warm smile showing on your face, âthank you, hyein.â you rub your hand on her hairâsomething you remember she likesâas her smile widens before she runs away towards her table, where she has a few more papers scattered.
you glance at her before looking at your own stomach, unconsciously rubbing it as you can feel your own child inside you now growing along with time. then, it all came so suddenly when you felt yourself regurgitating, hand coming up to your mouth as you stood up as fast as you could towards the staff bathroom. knocking open the door of the open stall, you kneeled down as you puke out your lunch for today, feeling your gag reflexes kicking in. you sensed a hand soothing down your back as you reached for the flush to drain it down the toilet bowl.
âyou okay, (y/n)?â you hear the familiar voice of your supervisor, yoonah, behind you. nodding your head, you reach for the toilet paper and tear it apart as you wipe the remains and saliva off your lips. reaching for the crown that fortunately doesnât fall when you puke your inside, you hold on to it as you stand up and veer around to the sink to clean your mouth, gargling and spitting out as you wipe the droplets of water from your lips.
âhow is it going with the pregnancy?â she asked as you watched her reflection behind yours in the mirror. you nodded your head and chuckled.
âdidnât vomit for the past three days and i thought that was enough, and well, here i am.â you stare at your face, seeing your eyes glistening with tears with the number of times you had to cough out until your phlegm came out. you turn your head to face your boss as she gives you a solemn smile.
âso, i have already talked to hr and we agree to have you reduce your work day to just one per week. you can enter anytime between the weekdays depending on your schedule because you have lots of things to juggle with your ob-gyn appointment. we donât want to weigh you down more.â
you looked sideways when yoonah didnât seem to see you being glad of it. though it helps with not exerting your bodyâas per doctor parkâs requestâit will definitely reduce your money because of the appointments and others. you havenât told your parents yet and maybe you can ask them for more money after but with the way your friends have already helped ease your part of the rent so you have enough money for your own diet and consultations; you donât want them to provide more for you.
âthatâs great and all, but what about my pay? can it be adjusted? it doesnât have to be 200%. like, do I only work one day for a pay of two like usual? or is it the regular one day pay? if itâs the latter, maybe a 25% increase will be great? for the consultations and othersâŠâ you said, not realizing that you had a few stray tears leaving out your eyes. nice fucking job, hormones.
yoonah picks up the crown from your head and she places it above your head, straightening it up as it rests right at the top of your head, âi will take about it to hr. you know that iâm on your side with this.â she pats your shoulder as you let out a faint âthank youâ and see her walking away out of the bathroom. you brushed the tears away as you wet your hands to help unswollen them, even if it is for a bit. staring at yourself in the mirror, you pull your body up straight as you turn sideways, rubbing your abdomen as you can feel the life being put into you; piece by piece, cell by cell, forming into a human being.
as your feet enter the room one by one, tons of footsteps greet you as you look down to see the crown-wearing kids you are playing tea time with approaching you. their faces showing weariness so explicitly that you feel your heart tugging at them.
âare you ok, miss (y/n)?â hyeinâthe first one to be thereâspoke as she was surrounded by kids taller and older than her. you notice someone holding onto your hand with their tiny one, seeing rami brushing the skin as you feel soothed.
âi am now. thank you, hyein,â you replied, letting your body fall as you kneeled before them, seeing the number of children you have taken care of for the years you had worked here. in your mind, it seemed ridiculous to think of your next move, but in a way that they have taught you so much about taking care of others, itâs proper to tell them yourself.
wiping the corner of your eyes as you feel your hormones acting up again, you speak, âwhat do you know about your moms?â
âmommy is very sweet to me,â hyunseo replies as she steps forward to stand next to hyein, their height difference looking so cute.
âmom is the one that picked me up from here.â woonhak also replied when you can see his momâs smile on his own from the number of times she picked him up and showed that same smile.
âboth of my mamas are the best in taking care of me and my brothers.â yujin added as there were more children rambling about their mothers, creating a wall of cacophony that seemed more like the background noise you heard each week as you worked. their voices dwindled as you looked expectantly at them one by one, a smile urging them to wait for something to come out of you.
âwell, you see, iâm going to be just like your moms.â
yujin was the one that caught on first as he stepped closer and hugged you. while the others still looked confused, he turned around to looked at them and state it himself.
âMISS (Y/N) IS GOING TO BE A MOM!â
âmiss (y/n)!â
âno wa-â
you heard the surge of children hugging you as you laughed out loud, seeing yoonah by the door as she also followed your laughter while you were surrounded by the children who were either hugging you or asking you questions.
âsettle down, children. miss (y/n) needs a space to take a breather.â yoonah spoke up as she approached you who has a grin on your face.
âyou said that you donât have any king or queen?â yujin said as you felt your cheeks getting warmer, he now held onto the crown that slipped down your head from the number of kids that is surrounding you. while you could feel a hand on your stomach as you looked down to see hyein sitting downâremembering that she also has a pregnant mother with a little sibling on the way for her.
âit, it will be hard for me to explain it to you, butâŠâ you felt yoonahâs hand on your shoulder as you glance at the closest clock in the roomâfinding the time for them to go home has come. âyour moms are waiting for you to go home.â
you push yourself up to stand as yoonah guides the kids to pick their items up by the cabinets as you stand up straight, seeing the children walking around you when you see rami stepping beside you, arms wide open as you crouch down to give her a hug. you felt other sets of arms surrounding you as you giggled, pulling away your arms as the children noticed it.
âiâll see you all next week!â you stated as yoonah brought all of them to the door of the daycare before opening them, seeing all of them going to their respective parents and guardians as a few of them acknowledged you. you turned around as you started your usual clean-up process, picking up the drawings that the children made and putting them in their own folders so you can give them to their guardians when they graduated, putting back the toys into the boxes, returning the costumes back to the wardrobe as you place the robe and crown you were also wearing, and you wanted to do one more thing, but you heard someone clearing their throat.
âiâll clean the furniture and floor. you have done so much and you needed to eat and rest.â yoonah told you as you sighed, knowing that you seemed to be hungrier after you vomited out your food.
âthanks, boss.â you winked as she chuckled, bringing yourself to the staff room with the drawing that hyein gave to youâpinning in your mind to collect it with the drawings the kids youâve taken care has made for you.
when collecting your things into your backpack, you glance at the paper that you printed out from your laptop as you scan the words, seeing your inked signature on the bottom as you see the blank space with the name right across from yours. heeseungâs name.
since he decided to be involvedâyou remembered while you talked to your faculty about your pregnancy and how they asked who the dad was, you decided to bring him up as a âstudent from another faculty.â it might make him think twice if he wants to be involved or not because he will get his name pin up on a note somewhere, which will be noted to his coach, lecturers, and more of his status. you are ready to be mentally burnt by the judgment your peers might give you, but is heeseung also ready?
you havenât thought of the way youâre going to give heeseung the letter when you see minjeongâs name from your vibrating phone as you pick up the things you are bringing home and you hear yoonah talking as she sees you already leaving.
âcarpool picking you up?â
âyeah, my roommate and her boyfriend.â
âokay, take care of yourself and iâll follow up with your request.â you felt yoonah giving you a side hug as you gave a smile and wave when you pushed the door open. you breathed in the outside air to see the dark gray chevrolet camaro parked near the front of the building. walking to the back seats, you opened the door to be met with the music playing as minjeong greeted you.
âhowâs work, (y/n)?â she instantly asked as sungchan lurched the car to a drive when you glanced at the bags of things beside you.
âfreaking embarrassing. i vomited suddenly when i hadnât vomited for the last 3 days but the kids reacted to it pretty okay. and i told them iâm gonna be a mom.â
âthatâs so sweet!â she said, glancing back from her seat in front of you as she reached to touch you, making you sit in the middle with the console right in front of you as you see sungchanâs playing with the volume of bluetooth-connected car radio play the song that sounds so minjeongâwhich you can recognized right away.
âwhat did you guys do today?â you wiggled your eyebrows as you heard sungchanâs laugh from the way he looked at you from the rear-view mirror.
âyou know what me and jeongie usually do, eat, shop, fuck, repeat-â
âno, we didnât fuck today-â
âwe did a quickie before we left to pick (y/n) up, winter.â
âokay! ughhhâŠâ minjeong said, rubbing her face in embarrassment before replying, âi brought him to this cafe that has all these criterion collections that arenât available on any of the streaming services we own. so i bought so many dvds for us to watch.â
âwhich are?â
âolder movies, foreign movies. you did say that you enjoyed watching japanese movies, so i bought some of them for us to watch.â
âfuck, i love you so much for that, kim minjeong.â you replied as you heard sungchanâs little tsk, making you both giggle as his possessiveness is showing at the most ridiculous time.
âso, (y/n),â you hummed to sungchanâs starter words, âyou havenât told me who is your baby daddy.â
âguess!â you tugged yourself forward as your face was between their seats.
âhow should i guess when i never see you hook up with people?â he replies as you glance at minjeong who is just watching him, an amused smile on her face.
âwhat if i say itâs song eunseok,â you mentioned his fellow frat bros.
âeunseok is dating that junior of his he has classes with. and heâs a loyal guy so i donât think so.â
âwhat about park jisung? heâs hot in my eyes.â
âyou donât seem to be the kind to hook up with your junior,â he replied, making you squint your eyes.
âzhong chenle? heâs a fellow biz major like i do.â
âyouâre definitely not his style.â
ânow, thatâs rude.â you hunch yourself back on the back seat as minjeongâs giggles compete with the music playing.
âyouâre gonna be so shocked if we told you who he is.â she added as you nodded along, âtwo hints though: heâs our age and heâs a fellow jock-â
âthatâs too much, jeong-ah.â you cover her mouth as her muffled nagging rings in the car. you can feel her lapping your palm, tickling your nerves and making you pull away as itâs now sungchanâs turn to have a giggling fit while watching his girlfriend and her roommate bickering. the trip was close between the daycare you work and the apartment tower you rented off-campusâbut since youâve mentioned to your roommates that youâve been having back pain and vomiting sessions, they decided to help you out by being by your side as they drop you off or picking you upâjust like what chaeryeong did as she drop you off to work before going to the dance studio.
so, when you stare out to see the small lobby of your apartment, youâre already with your backpack tucked to you as you open the door of the backseats. sungchan helped widen the door for you before going to the other side to help minjeong with the things she bought from their date. as you stood by the tiled floor of the lobby, minjeong gave sungchan one last kiss on the lips as you heard him say, âbye, babe! bye, (y/n) and hope you rest!â
âsee you next week, baby.â the girl said as both you and her are waving your hands at the boy, who has entered the car driving off into the ending sunset of today. stepping inside the entrance of the apartment, you and she enter the empty elevator as you catch a glimpse at what other things minjeong had bought when you see a box from a chicken fast food brand, making your mouth water as you think about it, but you knew that youâll be nag by dr. park for eating junk food.
pushing the handle after you put the pin on the keypad, you enter and instantly kick your shoes off as you are met with ryujin who is tying her hair up, walking towards you as she helps with minjeongâs bags. the apartment was left as you remembered this morning: a few scattered papers from either you or ryujinâs homework, the weighted blanket by the sofa now folded, and the smell of hot choco on the coffee table alongside ryujinâs laptop as you remembered that she only has online classes today.
âwhat did you bring?â ryujin wiggled her eyebrows as she rummaged open the bag that youâd seen when she instantly brought it to the kitchen counter when you saw her already cooking something. out of all four of you, you and ryujin are the ones talented in cooking so itâs not a surprise to see her cook for herself, but when you see the large plate that is places beside where the stove is, you know she has been making dinner for all four of youâas only chaeryeongâs the one who is not finished with her work today.
âwhy did you bring back fast food, minjeong? we promised to also have (y/n)âs diet.â
âthatâs my leftover. chan said that the boys had too much stuff in their fridge so i brought it to us.â you then felt minjeongâs hand behind your lower back as she stood beside you, âhope you are okay with that.â
âof course, iâm okay.â you give minjeong a smile. âall of you arenât obliged to follow my diet cause i know you love red meat, jinnie.â
âit feels wrong if i donât follow you, though.â ryujin replied as you and minjeong go to your separate waysâshe walked to her room while you stepped into the kitchen to see the food that minjeong brought. the chicken was a leftover but you also see her bringing back different meats and seafood.
âi almost forgot to ask you, but can you give me the list of the food that you can and canât eat? just so i can help with the recipes and so we can pre-made food.â ryujin said as she put her arms behind your back, soothing you as you viewed her making japchae and beef on the pan.
âwill do, ryu.â you give her a salute as she gives your cheek a squeeze before you let her be. taking your bag handle as you step towards the direction of your room, the bell of your apartment rings as ryujin turns towards you, making both of you tilt your head as you volunteer to get to the intercom.
when you press the button, the screen shows you someone you donât expect to see as you can recognize the wolf cut hair youâve seen while scrolling on your instagram. your footsteps immediately go to the door as you hear the ringing âhelloâs from the intercom, opening it up to see the boy youâre trying your best to mask your feelings for with a box.
âheyya, (y/n)!â he replied as you widened the door to gaze at the box.
âh-hi beomgyu.â you give him a small smile as you try your best not to lock your eyes on him. to be having a crush on a boy like him is ridiculous, especially knowing that he is your RIVALâs best friend. and the fact that you still have a crush on him since high school to then be found being in the same uni as him. if he doesnât have heeseung by his side, you know you will brace yourself to approach him first. but now with his success as an indie musician, you know you are probably in a losing battle knowing just how spicy heeseung talks about you knowing that he has so many fans aiming at him and how you canât compete with themânot as much as yeonjun though.
âwha, whatâs this?â
âitâs for you.â he pushed the box towards you as you tried to peek inside when you felt a presence behind you.
âlet me get that.â another pair of hands open by your side and you see the smirk on beomgyuâs face falter to see ryujin pulling the box against her.
âhi ryujin,â he said, a slight tremble in his voice as you finally be able to look at him with your heart eyes before back at ryujin.
âbeomgyu,â she replied before leaving the door to put the box away. you eye the boy who is staring at the empty space for a few seconds too late before you are back in his attention, returning to the cheeky smile you adore.
âthank you for that!â you felt your palms getting sweatier than ever, rubbing one of them against the door to dry it.
âyou gotta have to thank heeseung for that.â
the way beomgyu named he-who-shall-not-be-named shutters your fantasy as you were met with the reality. of course, itâs from heeseung, not from the boy you had a crush onâeven if it means that the baby daddy trusts his best friend so much to tell him that he is having a baby with his rival. beomgyu seemed to be the nicer guy between the two. so, a girl can hope, right?
âoh yeah, wait for a minute!â you were so caught up in the way heeseung terrors you and slips back into your mind and how you wanted to slam the door when you heard his name when you remembered the paper that he had to sign. you pull the paper out of your folder as you pull one of your sticky notes and write a simple note to him. giving a smile to beomgyu, you handed him the paper as he stared at the words printed on it.
âgive it to heeseung and send it back to me after that, or if he wants to submit it himself, then thatâs fine. i have to give the contact person the info if he decides to send the paper to the administration himself.â
beomgyu nods as he chuckles at your note before giving a last âi willâ before walking and waving away, making you close the door as you wonder how did he know where you lived. eh, thatâs fine. you got to see what heeseung gave you as the box rested on top of the counter right beside ryujin who was pouring the japchae into the bowl.
slowly opening itâscared that he might have a jack-in-the-box mechanism inside itâyou were met with plastics covering greens as you tugged a few of them out to be met with a bunch of fruits and vegetables still packed in their groceryâs packing. your shoulder meets ryujinâs as she took a glimpse at the new ingredient you picked out of the box.
âfrom beomgyu?â
shaking your head, you feel a piece of paper inside the box as you pinch it between your fingers. straighten the creases, you see the scribbles on the note as you read it in your mind.
eat them for the babyâs health and your own sanity - lhs
âheeseung,â you replied after you finish. ryujin gives a small hum as you catch the smirk on her face before you shove her with your shoulder. both of you open the plastics of the greens, vegetables, and fruits that heeseung bought for you, ryujin saying out loud the names of the greens as you and her bounce ideas of what kind of food she can make to cater to your diet.
âkale, cabbage, broccoliâŠâ she picked another vegetable, carefully pulling away the plastics as the waft of the smell entered the kitchen. you knew of the vegetable, but being pregnant equals being sensitive to smells. and the way that you instantly wretch at the smell makes you scurry away from ryujin.
âhey, who rang the be-â
minjeong was pushed away as she saw you opening the door of their shared bathroom, making her turn around as she heard you wretch out the remaining food and saliva inside of you that is followed immediately by a flush from the toilet bowl. she walked to the kitchen to see ryujin holding stems of leaves on her hand.
âwell, now we know she canât eat arugula.â
the chime of the lock unlocked rings alongside the opening of the door of their apartment as ryujin and minjeong stare at it, seeing chaeryeong trying to breathe as she takes off her sneakers.
âWHY IS JIMIN PESTERING ME ABOUT (Y/N)?â
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thumps and squeaks are what beomgyu heard as his eyes gazed at the lights coming out of the gymnasium. his feet working in tandem echoing through the night as he took another glance at the paper, another step away from the door as he pulled the handle to see a bunch of boys running around the wood-floored gym. beomgyuâs eyes searched for heeseung as he bit his lips, not wanting to be late for his own band practice with the boys.
turning towards the bleachers, heâs seen one of the boys that beomgyu remembered being on heeseungâs profile. his hands on top of his knees as he leans forward to see the 3 x 3 half court game beomgyu realized isnât a part of trainingâbut more of them having fun. he is taking a glimpse at heeseung who is muttering a curse word under his breath because the ball was stolen from his hold.
âhey, uh, sheep!â
the boy turns towards beomgyu with squinting feline-esque eyes before they widen, realizing who called him.
âyour jersey has âyangâ on it. so i called you sheep.â
ânah, thatâs okay. youâre beomgyu hyung, txtâs guitaristâŠâ the boy stands up, their height almost the same as each other, but beomgyu knows that the kid can grow tallerâfrom both basketball and his unfinished puberty phase, probably.
âiâm jungwon! iâm guessing youâre here for heeseung hyung?â
beomgyu glanced down at the paper as he nodded, âi couldnât stay until he finished cause i have band practice. so, this document is for him to sign.â he told jungwon what you told him as his ghost patted himself on his shoulders for being right. beomgyu uses his thumbs to point behind him after jungwon picks up the paper that he pushed towards him and gives him a thumbs up before a loud "thank you" rings as the gymnasium door opens, leaving jungwon with a slight chuckle creeped out of his lips.
the boy couldnât stop his curiosity as he turned the paper so he could read the writing, skimming it down as his eyebrows as he couldnât stop his speech before it was too lat-
âHEESEUNG HYUNG IS A DAD?!â
jungwonâs shout makes movement screech to a halt as he looks up at his boys, also staring at heeseung, who is glaring at jungwon and the paper he is holding. but, his reaction speed was too slow to pull it off his grips as heeseung lost against the other five boys who had huddled towards jungwon.
âshut up!â sunoo exclaimed.
âitâs true, sun,â jongseong replied as he could hear jaeyun and riki screaming and laughing before they scurried to run around heeseung.
âwho is this (y/n), hyung?â jaeyun speaks into his ear, making heeseung grimace as the three walk towards the crowd with sunghoon now holding onto the paper.
âisnât (l/n)(y/n) your senior, jjong?â sunghoon calls out, making said boy read carefully the name with the signature on top.
âoh yeah! we had a marketing communication class together. didnât know you knew her, hyung.â
heeseung steps in between them as he snatches the paper out of sunghoonâs grip in a quick frame. his eyes scan the paper that is writtenâthe letter to the university administration about your statusâand he can see his name printed on the side of the paper from yours. then, he finally read the note you have sticking onto the paper.
sign it and give it to the administration office. if youâre serious.
âwon, itâs your turn to play,â he said as the boys stared at him. âi have things to do, plus i have a morning class tomorrow.â
âokay, hyung.â jungwonâs answer was followed by his offer to the older boys to continue the match as he felt another hand holding onto his forearm, turned to see the youngest boy with a small smile on his face.
âyou gotta have to let us meet this (y/n) noona. i bet sheâs pret-â
âgo back to your place, riki-kun. jakeâs calling for you.â
âhey, lanky. come on before i make you and jungwon switch.â jaeyunâs voice penetrates through the conversation at the correct moment as the smirk on heeseungâs face is growing. theyâre leaving him alone as he walks towards his backpack and duffle bagâfinally feeling the surging soreness from pushing himself hard while training and off-training. sure, itâs excessive. but the tournament is a month away from now, and he had to train for that, knowing that the matches would be back-to-back if he passed the quarter-finals.
the wood of the bleachers screeches beneath his body as he pulls out his pen, staring at the paper one last timeâtrembling breaths coming out from him. who knew that a single signature could hold so much power?
yet with how you are trying to deter him, to remind him that signing this will mean that the whole university will now know lee heeseung is a future father: that actually made him shake. he could feel the boiling anxiousness giving a few pumps of steam into his mind, clouding the plans he had already made in his mind from the information jeongin told him. he knows the future scenarios on both sides.
but fuck it, right? heâs not usually caring about what other people perceive. so what if he is known as a dad in nine months? but, he had to think about the parental leave youâre proposingâit might actually make him graduate late.
yet, the view is clear as he lets his pen glide on the paper.
the baby and your scowling face as you realize that his doing is the one that makes that baby so healthy.
tucking the paper in between his laptop and his wireless earbuds on his ears, he waves goodbye to the boys who are playing with sunoo giving a beautiful lay-up before he pushes the door to get out of the gym. the streetlights shining the pathways as he still can see students roaming around the campus at nightâmost are going to the library to maybe pull an all-nighter.
the screen illuminates his face as he scrolls down at the text jimin had sent him about you. but he had to do another victory lap first when he dialed the generic full nameâs number.
âhello?â
âthat will not work, (y/n).â
heeseung heard the grainy chuckle in his ear as he let his musclesâ memories take him home in the night's dark. eyes staring at the path that opens up onto the sidewalk where sparse vehicles are going about on the asphalt streets.
âso you sign it?â he caught the way you sigh against your phone while heeseung is focusing on both the conversation and what jimin texted about your condition.
âand iâll be giving it to the office.â
âhmm, okayâŠâ heeseungâs eyes scan through the words, letting his face contort and relax as he consumes it to his mind before itâs broken by a grainy sound of metal from your end.
âalso, thanks, by the way. for the arugula. made me vomit my stomach out.â heeseung heard you reply as it slowly became more mumbled, hearing you eating your dinnerâs food as the noises of the night came back into his cochlea, shaking his nerves as only white noises entertained him as he looked aroundâseeing his apartment building at the distance.
âand donât make jimin ask chaeryeong about me again. sheâs traumatized now and we have each otherâs number saved.â
heeseung didnât want to save your number at first. but when his mom brought him to her meeting with your mom, catching up after a long time and discussing that both of you have been accepted by the same university, they insisted that you both to have each otherâs numbers saved. âfor emergency sake, so you both have each other to rely on.â his mom explained, making him discreetly roll his eyes while you continue to listen to your music without giving a glance to him. yet, youâre the one that gave him your phone first so he can type his number, making a small â:pâ the first thing you text to him.
âiâll tell him.â he clicked his tongue as he caught the way you omit another information from him.
âbut youâre not gonna tell me you have a doctorâs appointment next week?â
âhowâd you kno-â
âjimin, from chaeryeong, and so, from you.â his smile gets bigger. âgotta have to thank jimin for that one.â
âso you want to join? what if you have a class?â
heeseungâs feet brought him to the lobby of his apartment building, his vision now on the elevator as he stated something so obvious to him.
âi have questions and i rather miss class than leave it unanswered.â
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your hands are tugged inside your hoodieâs front pocket as you wait for your name to be called. the usual soreness is tamed as you let chaeryeong massage your back carefully, relaxing most of the tender muscles that are holding you up. you can see a little bump protruding out of your stomach that was not there when you discovered you were pregnant in week 8.
remembering the way you have to buy five pregnancy tests is ridiculous when your only symptoms are headaches and vomiting. but it quickly escalates to morning sickness and how you notice just how sensitive your senses have becomeâthe way your fingers realize little grains of crayon as you pick up the kidsâ drawing to how youâre triggered by little noises coming out off your room. it feels too strange for it to be food poisoning and with all five tests showing two blue stripes: all the problems you have faced for the past monthâwhy your period is late, the morning sicknessâall click inside your mind.
your girls were the first ones you spoke to, recalling how they waited in front of your shared bathroom as you flipped the tests around, hitting you one by one with the truth of your condition. then tears start to show as overwhelming emotions compete to show dominance and you hear chaeryeongâs voice from behind the knocks on the door. you open the door to feel them hugging you as you show them the tests, how they canât wait to be your babyâs cool aunts from differing perspectives as they know of your history related to children, pregnancy, and motherhood from taking care of so many children, how your parents open up to you about why they couldnât give you a younger sibling, and the responsibility you are willing to take care for them. at that moment they hugged, youâve already fallen in love with your baby and you are determined to let them have a happy life.
the obstetrics and gynecology departmentâs walls were more pastel than the other parts of the hospital. maternity pack posters hanging as you read the words, planning your next steps as you waited by the door to your doctor. your fingers interlocked and thumbs twirling around each other as you attentively listen to the open door and your name being called. scouring your eyes around, you saw a little playground area for kids barren as you eyed the small set, mothers around you waiting also for their appointmentâsome with a sleeping baby in their hands, another with a large bump. the atmosphere is so serene that you can collect your thoughts and arrange them for the next seven months from your due date.
âhey, (y/n).â
your eyes blink as you turn around in your seat to face forward once again, looking up to find the familiar face youâve been thinking about for the past few days.
heeseung wears a simple hoodie like you do, both of his hands tucked into the front pocket as the strap of his bag crosses his chest. a thin-lipped smile on his face as you didnât see his usual resting bitch expression.
âheeseungâŠâ you reply as you gnaw on the inside of cheek as he stands there, âi havenât gotten the call from the doctor yet. so you can sit down.â your eyes glance quick at the vast space beside yours on the sofa you are also sitting down. he gave a quick nod before sitting on the space beside yours, a noticeable space between the two of you as you both lean more against each of the tables placed as the barriers between the sofas. even if you felt a piercing presence beside you, you tried your best not to look at him. the phone call when he called you was the last time you spoke with your voice to himâyou having small talk with him as he found in the hospital doesnât really countâyet he still gave you another box of ingredients for your unborn child this week, no arugula this time.
well, you are glad to see beomgyu more and you donât mind seeing beomgyu every week if heâs the one that does heeseungâs errands for his child.
both of you stare forward at the doors and wall in front of you, nearing mirroring each other even by the slight twitch of both of you wanting to look at each other. but, also not really. the tension is stronger than when you told him youâre pregnant with his child. the fucking effects of the continued declaration of rivalry as you can calculate how far both of you are willing to push even for the past week and you can guess what you both will push more for the next 7 months.
âmiss (l/n) (y/n)?â the door opened as the nurse spoke of your name making you jump up from your seat as heeseung followed behind you to enter the doctorâs room.
â(y/n)!â the young doctor said enthusiastically as you sat down on the chair in front of the desk.
âdoctor park!â you answered, cadence matched hers.
âhow have you- oh.â dr. park looks at the man entering behind you, looking between the three women in the room and the empty chair near the door before he hears her speak, âis this the dad?â
âyes, iâm the dad, lee heeseung,â he replied steadily as dr. park, who is standing up, shoots her hand out to him.
âiâm dr. park jihyo, (y/n)âs ob-gyn doctor. didnât expect to meet you as (y/n) said that the dad might not be involved.â
heeseungâs eyebrows were raised, chortling as he realized what you implied, âafter she told me, i decided to be involved.â his eyes peek from the side to see you giving a stare with no movements on your lips, sitting down on the chair beside of yours as you want to continue with your appointment.
âwell, welcome to your tenth week of being pregnant. how are you feeling?â dr. park asks, looking at you with a warm smile as you see the nurse taking care of your document.
âthe morning sickness kinda gets pretty worse and overflows out of the morning. definitely more sensitive towards scent, flavor, and texture. i also have already sensed growth on the bump since it is a bit more protruding than usual.â your hand unconsciously caresses the hoodie covered in your stomach, feeling the tenderness of the skin that is just muscles of your abdomen being pushed to cater to the baby.
âyour stomach and intestines are being pushed by the uterus as the fetus grows and itâs very normal. since we already did the blood and urine test and went over your family history back in your first appointment, we can go to an ultrasound to check the growth of your baby.â dr. park replied as she nodded at the nurse who instantly walked to the bed and set things up for your scan.
âiâm sorry to bother you, doctor. but i have a question.â
your head shifts towards heeseung as he asks, the doctor just giving him a nod.
â(y/n) said to me sheâll get a plan b pill after our⊠time. yet, she still got pregnant, but isnât that still supposed to work?â the way his voice pitches makes you hold on to a smile, recalling to when you asked the doctor the same question in your first appointment. you gave the doctor a big nod for her signal.
âwell, (y/n) said to me she consumed a plan b pill less than 24 hours after your intercourse. but plan b pill, or levonorgestrel, works by delaying the release of the egg from the ovaries. she also said that her period, which started around a week or two weeks before she discovered she was positive, was late. so, we can assume that while you two have sex, (y/n) was already in her early stages of ovulation with the egg being released into the fallopian tube and the egg got fertilized.â
heeseung nods along with the doctorâs words as you remember the same explanation given to you in the previous meeting. youâve tried using pills before but you know it will affect your hormone and physical health in the long runâyou are not a serial fucker unlike a few people you recognizeâso you rely on protection like condoms and morning-after pills right after that. heeseung not wearing one makes you want to laugh at how funny the scenario is and how you can just remain rivals for the rest of your life if you remind him to put on the rubber.
the nurse calls for as you follow her, stepping out of your shoes as you lay down on the bed. she gently brushes your hoodie up as your skin is exposed while she also pulls the band of your pants down below right above your underwear line. the chairs move as you glance at heeseung following dr. park as she takes the seat beside you to check on the machinery. the liquid is cold as it touches your skin as your eyes catch heeseung who is looking at the exposed stomach where his unborn child is.
as the transducer spread around the gel on the stomach when you feel it pressed down, you looked at the screen across from you hanging on the ceiling as the doctor moved around, marking the size of your uterus. you heard her gasp as you turned to look at her warm smile that widens into a grin.
âcongratulations to you both!â she replied as she continued to move the transducer around, making you and heeseung realize that thereâs a fetus inside you, but not just one.
âTWINS?!â
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2. katana-like knife
heeseung gazes at the ultrasound he is holding with both hands, seeing the way the doctor has assigned twin 1 and twin 2 on the screen. the twins are in different sacs; he remembered what the doctor said, making them fraternal twins. she also says that not only you were ovulating when you two fuck, but you were releasing two different eggs around the same time and he got both of them pregnant.
he recalled both of you doing a hilarious staring contest as you couldnât stop yourself from making funny faces as the doctor described the growth of your twins. fucking heck, he hadnât told his friends that he was having twins. how his body trembles as the realization hits him while heâs looking at his babiesâyes, pluralâmakes him even want to be more attentive, to now realize that he had two to take care of. and those two make him know you have to adjust your diet once again.
if it werenât for him buying ingredients, he doesnât think you would adapt easily to what the babies need. heâs won on this occasion. but what comes next?
his phone vibrates on the table as he takes a glimpse of the text message showing on the lit-up screen.
(l/n) (y/n): iâm heading home for the weekend. my parents will definitely see that iâve been knocked up.
even he can see it as he had walked past you before on campus. youâre now wearing more oversized clothing piecesât-shirts, hoodies, cardigansâas he realized the slight bump on the surface of them. itâs been over two weeks since that check-up appointment and the growth has been faster than he expected.
(l/n) (y/n): not asking you to join me.
(l/n) (y/n): if you arenât brave enough to take the consequences, iâm fucking winning this :p
âthatâs itâ he shakes his head as he tugs the ultrasound picture into his wallet before putting it back in its place, hands opening the messages.
lee heeseung: threatening much. iâm in.
if you want to make this a competition, letâs make this a competition.
lee heeseung: hey mom. sorry for texting you randomly. but iâm going back home for the weekend.
all he had to do was wait, as he could hear the sound of his mom talking with your mom on the phone about how their children would be home together, asking to meet up.
and that moment goes exactly as he had expected as he drove the car with you in the passenger seat, leaning against the door as you both let the radio play boring-ass repeating pop songs from some random radio station. none of you seem to react, just to make each other annoyed enough to know who will concede and connect to bluetooth firstâeven not listening to good-ass music is a competition between you both.
you sighed extra loud as you listened to an old-ass pop song from the mid-2010s the radio seemed to have a lifetime contract for it to play for fucking ever. you wish you were the one driving now, but you didnât bring your car for this semester because it needed maintenance and you were in a healthier mood for this year. you catch a look at your phone, seeing your mom asking where you are right now as auntie lee has arrived at your homeâcooking up the food for all your family to enjoy.
âwhich one is your carâs bluetooth?â you gave up on hearing the radio station as you playfully checked every menu to find the bluetooth menu.
âthe brand of the car, duh,â he answered, still focusing on the highway as you remembered that itâs nearly a few exits away from the side of the town you and he grew up in. he took a glance at the bluetooth speaker as he sees,
ââmitskiâs brainchild personifiedâ? you liked her that much?â he actually snorted, making you see the name on your phone on the screen in the middle of the dashboard.
âshut the fuck up. sheâs my comfort musician, just like kaede from slam dunk is your comfort character.â the way your fingers lightly tap against your phone, makes him chuckle as he can hear you holding onto your emotion from not spilling through your words, not commenting on how you mentioned his liking for slam dunk as if you remember it so well, even if it also stuns him.
youâre playing a playlist of yours that is just⊠instrumentals. a perfect playlist to hear whilst commuting as you let yourself take a breather from this world. eyes gazing to the window outside as you rested your phone on your lap. the scent of heeseungâs cologne accustomed your memories as you let the music speak while you both remained quiet. maybe, because it is an instrumental track that you both couldnât comment on, that he canât take a jab at your music taste unless you put on mitski or boygenius, that it gives a soundtrack so vague it resembles the way you perceived your relationship to each. sure, you still hate him for everything he has done to you in the name of winning. but, with two babies on the way, the concept of the rivalry between you both is there yet so blurry. which one is a concrete rivalry? which one is the softer one? why should you trust what he gave to you? why did he join in to take care of them?
the car zooms fast on the highway, yet you can see slower cars on the outside of the highway and faster cars zooming past you on the other lane. itâs like what your dad had said beforeâ"you donât feel how fast life is until you look at other peopleâs lives"âand to think that you will be home in overtly large clothing to hide your bump to know that heâs going to be a granddad just concretes the idea of that in your mind. you turn your head to glance at the backseat, seeing the shopping bag you had prepared besides what heeseung also has for his family, who heâll meet at your house.
stepping out of the car, you stood at the carpool of your house filled with carsâother than yours and your parents inside the garageâwhen you watched your mom and heeseungâs mom walk out of the porch, barefooted, to greet you. the warmth of your momâs hug felt so overwhelming that you had to sink your emotions as you blamed your hormones for making you too sensitive.
the interior of the house feels so lively from the last time you went home during the semester break. maybe itâs because of the way your mom has another guest in the form of the lee family and the smell of the delicious you know both of your moms had made together with their aprons still on as they guide you inside. even as they walked to the kitchen, you could hear them whisper.
âsince when did (y/n) and heeseung arrive here together and in the same freaking car?â auntie lee asks.
â(y/n) didnât bring her car this semester so i guess she doesnât wanna waste any more money for transport.â mama answered.
both of your moms have always tried to make you close and youâve always tried to tone down your rivalry in front of them, effortlessly acting in front of them as nice friends when you give him a snide look behind their backs any chance you can get. your bickering can escalate so much that you will have a shouting match in the arcade as heeseung doesnât want to give up his time to play for you, making both of your moms force you to apologize to each other before that bickering returns at schoolâs classes where theyâre not there for you two to mediate. maybe thatâs why you donât perceive heeseung as an enemy. merely a rival; because your mom never talked bad about heeseung no matter what happened between the two of you and it seems that heeseungâs mom has also done the same to him.
the two shopping bags sit on the coffee table as you watch both of your dads talking about dad stuff. heeseungâs attention is on his phone as heâs typing something on the screen while you unconsciously rub your stomach hidden beneath your top, waiting for all of them to settle down around the coffee table as they want to open the shopping bags together.
âwhat did you bring me?â mama asks in a sing-song manner as heeseungâs mom giggles beside her. you stood beside heeseung with your hands behind you as the husbands looked at the similar-looking gift boxes in each of their wivesâ hands.
âdonât tell me. is it the jewelry i showed you those months ago, hee?â
ânah, itâs not. dadâs planning to buy that one for you.â
heeseungâs dadâs face turns into a scowl, seemingly angry as if his son has spoiled his plan while the boy just widens his smile before gazing back at his mom.
âwell, together?â mama asked to his mom.
âyeah, 3, 2⊠1!â
the box opens as youâre holding your breath, also holding back your smirk as you can view the way papaâs eyebrows crease as he canât believe what he is saying. heeseungâs mom was the first one to openly express her shock by literally jumping from her seat and box thrown towards his dadâs as he took a good stare at it, making you glance at him you actually won the bidding on who would be shocked first between the two.
âNO, FUCK- WAIT?!â his mom stares between the two of you before your mom jumps from her space to also gaze at you, holding onto the paper. giving him a nudge with your elbow. you didnât expect him to wrap his arm behind your shoulders.
âyeah⊠the babies are ours-â
âno fucking way!â your mom actually shouted as she hyperventilates while heeseungâs mom covers her mouth, contemplating on what to do when she felt her body being squished by her best friend, hugging her tight as they turn to hug each other while heeseungâs dad gives his box to your dad so he could see it clearly.
âsince when are you two together?â papa asked as you tried to let heeseungâs grip from your shoulder.
âuncle, we arenât together. we just hook up and-â
âWEâRE GOING TO BE IN-LAWS.â you can hear mama cheer as both of the women twirl around the small space, making you feel even more guilty for breaking the immersion as you stop budging away from heeseungâs hold. rolling your eyes, you stare at heeseung and lean in close to his ear, whispering.
âbad fucking ideaâŠâ
âat least theyâre happy, right? well, i won because of that.â
mama interrupts both of you as she gives you both an enormous hug while heeseungâs mom comes from behind. you could see the tears coming out of mamaâs eyes who rested her head against your shoulder.
âughh, too tight.â
âstop it, honey! (y/n) looks so uncomfortable.â papa reminded.
âoops, sorry!â your mom lets go of her hold as heeseungâs mom slotted between the two of you as she pushes in on the excess fabric of your clothes, making you grip both sides of your top and pull it backward so she can see your bump already showing.
âhi, baby!â
âitâs babies.â heeseungâs dad cuts in as his wife follows with, âthereâs two of them?â
âi swear to god.â heeseungâs old man brushes his face, unbelievable that his wife didnât see the two sacs from the ultrasound as you give your mom a nod, her hands carefully holding onto your waist.
âfraternal twins,â you confirmed to her as you watched another batch of fresh tears coming out of her eyes.
âhello, you two. youâre going to have the best mom ever.â
âand dad too.â heeseungâs mom replied as she moved to stand in front of you two, seeing his grown son seemingly glowing as she spoke of him being the best dad to his two unborn children.
âokay. i gotta have to make the red meat well done then.â mama cuts out as she hastily moves to the kitchen to cook back her meat-based meal, letting auntie lee replace her place as she caresses the bump gently.
âhow long has it been?â she asked as you opened your mouth to reply.
âwe did the ultrasound two weeks ago. so itâs week 12 now.â heeseung cuts you off as she gazes back at her son.
âwhat have you two already prepared?â
âwe gave a letter to the university for future parents and they agreed to let me take online classes entering 5 months because i only have three classes, one is that's doing a study case, and they let heeseung have parental leave if i give birth. i havenât found the right doula yet but my supervisor at the daycare has a connection to one and i think it will be her. she has given me the number so i just have to text her,â you answered.
âis it near campus?â she replied.
âyeah, because i donât want to graduate late. thatâs why i decided to stay near campus during it.â you have thoughts on if you should just take a break this semester to focus on your pregnancy or not multiple times by now. but, of course, the rivalry comes back as you still want to keep pace with heeseung and your friends who will be graduating next semester.
âyou should take a semester leave, (y/n).â heeseung cuts off your thought as you peek at him.
âiâve already got what i wanted from the uni and itâs fine, heeseung. i can keep up.â
âwell, you can, but what if you donât take care of the babies?â
âof course, i can take care of the babies-â
ânot by being stressed over college.â
âheeseung-â you turn your body towards him as you grip both of his upper arms, firm hands holding him as you stare down at him. âi know whatâs best for me. i know what my limits are. iâve trusted you enough with the food but you should also trust me to know how to take care of myself outside of nutrition.â
your teeth are grinding against each other as your fiery gaze stays on him, even as you let go of the grip. it stays for a few more seconds as you turn back to head to the dads who seem to be forgotten by the sofa, seeing papa teary-eyed as he hugs and kisses your head before you let heeseungâs dad hug you.
his mom turns towards him, cupping his cheek. âshe knows what sheâs doing, heeseung.â
âbut how should i know itâs right? cause thatâs not right for me. my friendâs mom said that a pregnant woman should focus on preparing herself for her birth and doing college doesnât seem to prepare her for that.â heeseung sighed as he looked at his mom, not expecting a slight hurt on her face.
âi was still doing my job when i was pregnant with you, heeseung. your dad trusted me for that cause he knows my limits, might be even more than i do. let her be and you might learn that she knows how to take care of herself, too.â her hand brushed away the fringe on his forehead, eyes glistening as she let out a small warm smile at him. the hurt falling away as heeseung sees her momâs signature smile of knowing before she brought him in his arms, hugging him tight as he glances at you who is giving him a small look with a tight-lip smile before you turn away to the dining room.
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heeseung stares at the glow-in-the-dark stars sticking on the ceiling. his back being stretched out on the floor as he laid on the comforter beside the single bed where youâre still playing with your phone. he remembered how he beggedâtrying to persuadeâhis parents to bring him home with them. but knowing that heâll only be staying for one night and you two are âtogetherâ, they decide for him to stay with you instead. you can see how his fuming breath was held as you glanced at him with an unidentifiable look at the dining table, his parents believing you would let him stay in your bed.
but he insists on lying down on the floor, knowing the history between the two of you they donât know, as you silently agree.
printed pictures still hang on one side of the room when he looks at them as long as the bedside lamp is still on. he remains silent, eyes tired from looking at his phone so much to distract him from his reality when he hears the rummaging movement on the mattress as you put the phone on the table.
âwell, night, heeseung.â the click of the lamp is big in the white-noised room as darkness envelops the space, letting in the moon and streetlights outside beam their shine inside. your eyes easily adjust to the surroundings as you puff your one-less pillows on the bed to find the right positionâknowing the ache of sleeping in the wrong position when you are carrying two fetuses inside you.
âsince when did you work in a daycare?â
the manâs words overcome your action as you brush the cover of the pillow.
âwhy do you wanna know?â you put the pillows in the right position as you lay your head and back against it.
âsince your mom proclaimed that youâll be the mom ever.â
heeseung is reminded of the way you look when your mom says that, a look of pride coming out of your eyes as you unconsciously nod knowingly. even if you and him are close by proximityâby being your momsâ children, by being schoolmates, by having roommates who stay in proximity with each otherâthereâs still something that you donât know about each other. because if the opposites know, they can use it as leverage to bring any of the two down.
âhad a few babysitting gigs during high school days. i started to like it more and decided when i go to hybe, iâve volunteered for a non-formal school for children and more. i decided to do a part-time job at a daycare and yeahâŠâ you replied, laying down by your side as if you could see heeseung beside you when he is, in fact, below you.
âit doesnât match with your major though.â heeseung gives a snide comment as you sigh loudly.
âso what if a business major canât connect with my passion for childcare- fuck me.â you stopped to remind yourself to stop taking the bait from heeseung because you know he was making these comments to break your confidence within yourself. you could discuss how making and taking care of a business could resemble making and taking care of a child, but with the way he had pissed you off today in more ways than one, you rather stick that thought to yourself and instead, take offense towards him.
âwhy did you wrap your arm around my shoulders?â
heeseung glances towards the bed, seeing your silhouette on the top forming a dark shadow because of your comforter shielding it.
âi had to. so they know the babies are ours,â he replied with the thought that first came to mind after he already had his arm behind youâblaming his underlying consciousness for doing that.
âand it makes them believe weâre together when weâre not. look at us now.â both of your arms stretch out of the comforter to tell him just how big the situation you got yourself into cause how many white lies must you tell your parents to hide that this is because of a hookup, not because you are romantically linked?
your staggered giggles drop as you try to glance downwards at him, the arm nearest to the floor left hanging as heeseung didnât comment on what you said. âwell, this just got more complicated.â
âour situation is complicated since the start, (y/n).â
âwell, i know who to blame for making our strings get more tangled with our parents cause fuck you, heeseung.â
he saw the lone middle finger standing tall from the silhouette of your figure before you picked yourself up and lay all your weight on the bed, turning the other side as heeseung followed; both of you staring at the opposites of the room, knowing that your bodies needed to rest so you can face each other again in the morning.
the time between that night and how you both lived after you went back to your own places near campus was a week when you texted him about the doula that you had told at your parentâs home. the car was left in neutral with the handbrake lifted as heeseung waited at the daycare where you work. his eyes gaze at the differing modes of transport each guardian is picking up the kids with before looking at the lobby as he sees you and another attendant saying goodbyes to the kids. he watches as a few of them hug you and even a few let their cheek rested against your growing bump before you take a glance forward at them who is going back to be with their parents, noticing his car for a few seconds before you return inside to take your items.
the backpack is hanging off your shoulders as you take another sliced fried potato from the container when you enter the passengerâs seat beside his driverâs one, resting your back against the seat with your bag there to support you. âhello! iâve sent you the address, right?â
he stares at you with his squinting eyes, âyou should not eat that.â
âitâs cravings, heeseung. itâs totally normal. the doula can count me on that.â you chew another fry as heeseung lets out a mumble under his breath as he moves the handbrake and puts the gear to drive, reeling the car forward as he drives you to the doulaâs office. both of your moms have suggested several doulas for you to choose from, but you reminded them youâre having twins. so having a doula who specializes in taking care of moms birthing multiples will be helpful as it is also your first time.
playfully, you fly a french fry like an airplane towards heeseung as he drives, like the usual time you try to feed kids at the daycare. it nudges against his lips a few times before he bit it, pulling it off your fingers; making you let out a chuckle cause he canât even resist it himself.
the parking lot was pretty barren as you only saw a few vehicles when you both walked out of the cars. you adjust the backpack once again on your back as the chime from the car tells you it is now locked as you enter the office building.
thanking the receptionist, you and he stood in front of the doulaâs office as you knocked the door.
the door opens as a soft-spoken woman says from the inside, âmiss (l/n)(y/n)?â
âyes, i am.â
âoh, come in. come in.â the door widened as heeseung could see the things inside the large office room. a desk in one corner and a cabinet stood behind it. accolades and certifications by the desk with a sofa on the corner beside the door. a box of what seems to be baby toys beside the sofa as posters are hanging on the wall. from the anatomical look of a baby inside their momâs uterus to words of encouragement towards mothers.
âiâm haseul. nice to meet you.â the woman shook your hand as she then glanced at heeseung who was still wandering around.
âoh, uh, this is heeseung, the babiesâ daddy.â you refer to his name as he looks at the lady, shaking her hand as she looks between the two of you.
âso, both of you arenât married or dating-â
âno, weâre childhood friends and hooked up, and this happened.â heeseung blurts out as you raised your eyebrows, poking your tongue in the cheek. haseul nodded her head as she let both of you sit down in front of the desk.
âfirst, congratulations on the twins. you must be nervous to find that out.â
âof course, especially as a first-time mom. but, iâm feeling pretty okay.â
âthatâs good, iâve also sent you the questionnaire for you to fill on your plan for giving birthâŠâ haseulâs voice traces out as heeseung glances at the portrait frame of her holding onto a baby with a mom, a glance at the book about post-partum, and a baby doll on top of the cabinet right in front of a corner window. he could only catch onto some words he recognized from jeongin telling himâbirth, dilation, cramps, anesthesia, cesareanâas he sensed himself getting overwhelmed, especially when he had the second preliminary match in two days and his gig in being the documentation for a baseball match for hybe uni too.
his thumbs caressed his fingertips as he sensed the sweat forming on his palm, the same feeling he has every time he has to go to match. to then realize just how ready you seem by how eloquently you say the words for your requests to the doula like youâve grown up much more than he is even though both of you are the same age. sure, he felt the leverage the first time when he sent you food and a few tips he makes beomgyu do; but his knowledge couldnât compete with yours and it scares him to know he is losing his stance from above you. to know that youâre much more ready than him.
âheeseungâŠâ he heard someone calling for him, before something wrapped around his wrist, taken aback to see you brought him back to the room he was in.
âsorry⊠what did you say?â heeseung replied as haseul gave him a warm smile.
âiâve heard from (y/n) that you have known some knowledge of pregnancies but i could give you some sources to read because it is your first time as a dad as well.â the woman said to him calmly, looking at heeseung as if she can read his body language. your hold on his wrist stays as you rub the inside of his wrist with your thumb. âwe have also discussed that (y/n) will try the normal route with water birth and if she canât handle it, sheâll be going with cesarean. we could also do an appointment every two weeks as both of you are students now, but it is best if you come so you can understand each process as she is entering the second trimester.â
âi understand. iâll try my best to set my schedule so i can join her.â heeseung glanced at you, who was giving a nod before you let go of your hold as he seemed to be anchored back in the room. the woman gives a small smile as she starts a lecture on the process of pregnancy, childhood, and parenthood. another class that heeseung doesnât want to get in the first place, but knowing his determination to be the best dad everâas what his mom believes him to beâhe follows along with writing notes in his book as you have with your laptop. the class that he has to pass so he can take care of his children as best as he can.
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even with the music booming from around his space, heeseung still felt like something was different. his eyes rested on the plastic-colored cup filled with a concoction of alcohol he didnât knowâhe could taste the gin and what seemed to be fanta in it. the sigma muâs frat house lits up in motion as he eyes the way the expensive big-ass speakers are scattered around the room, gazing at the familiar faces of his peers and juniors he has seen while walking around campus.
something stirs within him as he eyes his friends who are hereâbeomgyu who is by the speaker as he talks with the dj, jimin with his dance crew friends, jeongin with his class friend, while heeseung sits with sunoo and sunghoon on either side of him. thatâs when he caught onto the silhouette of some familiar faces every time he comes across a certain person; every time he comes across you.
âexcuse me, gang.â heeseung would like to thank himself for being able to stand up so stable even with the nearly empty cup, excusing himself from his basketball teammates to walk towards the frat boys of sigma mu to find the vp and his girlfriend by his side.
âwinterâŠâ he calls with the nickname he heard you and others call her before as said girl turns towards him with her boyfriendâs arm still behind the sofa.
âlee heeseung.â she spoke out with a grin on her face, âwhat makes you come in front of us?â
âi was wondering,â âfuck itâ heeseung drinks up the whole liquid that remains inside the cup, hoping that his alcohol tolerance still be able to support him to be stable, âhas (y/n) ever talked to you about a doula check-up or some other thing?â
âshe shouldâve told me if thereâs gonna be a checkup but i donât think there is one nearest from now.â minjeong replies as she lets sungchan take care of her drink so she can comfortably talk to the boy in front of them.
âah, really?â
âyeah!â minjeong replied before giving another smile. thatâs when someone crashes to wrap their arms around minjeong and sungchan, making the two jump as they turn to see ryujinâs head between both of them before giving minjeong a peck on the temple.
âhey, (y/n)âs baby daddy. whatchu up to?â
heeseung chuckles as he looks between the two girlsââno wonder you have them as your friends, all of them are similar after allââbefore he opens his mouth.
âjust checking whatâs (y/n) up to-â
âwell, sheâs not here. for your information.â ryujin lets out a smirk, âyou must really wanna talk to her about something.â
âa doula appointment.â sungchan replied, âand you know how (y/n) is aboutâŠâ the boy glances at, âhim.â
heeseungâs teeth grit against each other as he senses they are hiding something from him. maybe because of your doing so you can prove to everyone that he isnât as committed to his children as he spoke about.
âyou and minjeong arenât home, so i presume (y/n) is with chaer-â
âsomeoneâs calling my name?â
heeseung sighs as he turns towards the voice of chaeryeong who is holding two cups of drinks as she gives one to ryujin.
âheâs asking about (y/n).â minjeong nods toward chaeryeong when she lets out a small ah before turning her head to stare at heeseung.
âsince chan here invited all four of us at the frat party, she really wanted to be here but, of course, cause sheâs preggo with YOUR children, she couldnât. but all of us went out of the apartment together and she was holding a duffle bag of some sort.â
âwhere is she going?â heeseung doesnât hesitate to ask, making your three friends look at each other and giggle.
âyou seem desperate enough. sheâs at the park near our apartment complex. she complained about needing a light workout because of how much her back is hurting.â ryujin said as heeseung could picture the park, knowing where you lived because he had picked you up for your trip back home for the weekend.
âokay, thanks all of you.â heeseung places the cup on the table beside the sofa where minjeong sits and turns away, letting the sense of fresh air flowing inside the frat house guide him to the nearest exit as he arrived on the pavement, feeling the stuffiness inside him getting lighter as he gave a text in his group chat heâll be leaving early.
the walk there was pleasant, to say the least, because the suburban town the campus is in is pretty sparse compared to the city where heeseung and you live. there is enough place for it to be called a big town but not enough skyscrapers to be called a metropolis. and with the inconsiderable amount of apartment complexes available near campus, he already pinpointed the park where you might be.
crossing the black-and-white stripes, he arrived at one of the entrances of the park where he still could see a few people doing their activities insideânight jogging, playing chess under the streetlights, and a couple who was on a date. he was reminded of what ryujin said about how you might need exercise, but the duffle bag says to him you might stay in one place rather than walking around the park as the main event of your exercise time.
heeseungâs feet instantly brought him to the place that he had gone before in this park as it is the same park near where sunghoon, jay, and jake liveâmaybe they live in the same complex as you doâwhen he finds the silhouette lightly jog behind the trees from the path he is on. the sound of rubber meeting the concrete slaps across the nightâs atmosphere as he sees you in the middle of the basketball court, wearing a sweatshirt where he could see the bump pushing against the fabric. the basketball bouncing between your palm and the ground creates the familiar sound as you jog toward the ring and shoot your shot. the ball hits the backboard enough that it bounces into the basket.
âfuck yesâŠâ you exclaimed as you grabbed the bouncing ball into your hand, heaving as you brushed the sweat of your skin right underneath the spotlight shining on the court.
thatâs when you pick up the scraping on the concrete and clap when you turn around to look at the last person you want to see tonight.
âyou still got it,â heeseung commented, making you scoff as you took a few steps back so you stood adjacent to the free throw circle. holding up the basketball between your hands as you tried to remember the position before pushing towards the ring. the basketball curves as it hits the edge of the box instead.
âdammit!â
âyou spun your ball,â heeseung replies as the ball flies into his arm, naturally guiding it into a dribble as he walks towards you.
âi didnât.â
âyour wrist was twisted and it makes your hand doesnât flop straight towards the ring.â he walks towards your side as he shows you the way to hold it, making you glance at the arm muscles that form from holding the ball so much as he throws the ball, creating a perfect arch that it bounces on the back of the rim before it flies and the basket catches its fall. your body immediately reaches for it before heeseung can as you return to your spot whilst dribbling alternating between left and right.
âi know.â you lightly roll your eyes as you grab onto the basketball once again, wiping your sweat palm against your sweatshirt before you feel the right grip as you return to your position, reminding yourself to let the ball fly and not twist your ball before you threw it.
you heard a click of the tongue as you saw a pair of hands reaching to hold yours, making your hand move to the position as you picked up heeseungâs breath beside your ear. startled, your shoulder nudges against his chest as you hear a small âackâ before you throw the basketball, seeing it twirl in the air. you can hear heeseung saying âi told you so.â before it bounces against the backboard, but you are ready as you stride towards it to grab the ball before heeseung catches it and you quickly do a layup, gliding the ball as it bounces right at the small box above the rim as it bounces inside. you turn your body to face him, head tilted with a smug smile as the ball bounces before it rolls to heeseungâs feet.
but the smile falls as you see heeseung who is in his element, walking back to the three-point line and shooting his shot as the ball, once again, creates a perfect arc. the basket catches it into its net as heeseung walks towards the center of the court with a wide grin on his face. the ball bounces near you as you hold it and dribble once more, glancing at it, the court, and heeseung once again as you shake your head, scolding yourself to take things slow for your and your babiesâ sake. the sudden epiphany makes your eyelids flutter as you dribble away at a steady walking pace around the court.
your footsteps are met with another as heeseungâs legs stride towards you, a smirk on his face showing as he replies, âthatâs why you were put in the point guard position.â
âhmmâŠâ your reply is small as you continue to dribble away the basketball, making you and he walk around the court together before he cuts through the silence.
âwhy did you stop playing basketball in high school?â
your body stood still as you let your muscle memory do your job of dribbling the ball, shifting your head towards his even if you look away.
âyou were, well, it seems to be still are, good at it,â he added.
the memories of your first year in high school from the extracurricular showcase come back as you are already determined to stop playing basketball, focusing on doing something else that you were interested in.
âi got tired of it,â you replied, but heeseung seemed to notice that it was not all the truth.
âandâŠâ
the ball stops bouncing as you hold it against you, wrapping your arm across your front along with the ball as you glare at him and reply, âyou.â
âme?â
âyeah, you. i stopped playing because of you.â you turn around and set your eyes on the bench where your bag is. your water bottle calling for you so you can hydrate yourself as you give in.
âreally, huh? wow, that was another victory i didnât expect-â
âfucking hell, heeseung. thatâs why- this-â you gulped down your saliva, âwhat you become because of it is why i stop. i know our moms are outstanding basketball players at their time and weâve gotten the signal to be like them but-â you hold back as you throw the bottle inside the bag, holding yourself down as your hands form fists.
basketball has always been a large part of your life before you were even born. your mom and heeseungâs met because of their love of basketball as they became skilled players together. your mom and dad meet up because of basketball. you still remember the amount of pictures of your parents in their high school days in their basketball jerseys in the photo albums. even if they donât pursue it professionally, it still becomes a large part of their life as it also spills onto you.
with the amount of time you have interacted with childrenâas it makes you see your own experience as a child in a different viewâmany of them like to mimic what their parents do before they form their own sense of self. you can see it with the way one child at the daycare is always playing doctor with dolls, figures, and plushies because one of their parents is a doctor. you were like that. youâve heard and seen just how impactful basketball is to your mom that you want to be just like her, making you join the teams during your elementary and middle schools.
to see and feel the influence of your rival during practice and tournaments around you was overwhelming.
the tug-of-war between the basketball in between both of your hands is just the beginning of what kinds of rivalry you and him have during practice. even if your coaches assigned you to the same team, you or he, depending on who is first, will reach out to the coach to be put into the other team. even if you two had to practice together, hidden aggression is flying to the roof, which includes passing the ball so hard that it had even made your nose bleed. as time goes on and the many matches you and he have to compete in as you two have to watch each other to âencourageâ each otherâs team, you had notice the way you fell out of love of basketball because of how there are more bad memories associated with it even if you were being trusted as a captain for one season and scoring many buzzer beaters to let your team and school win the tournament.
âyouâve become so much better with it as i lost interest. i still remember when the coach brought me to the nurseâs office cause you passed the ball so hard that it hit my face. in the middle of practice for the last season in middle school, thatâs when i knewâŠâ you take steps closer as you now stand in front of him.
âi knew iâm in a losing battle against you.â
your muscles twitched as you wanted to let out a smirk when you noticed the hidden expression heeseung failed to hide, the little shock he had gotten to show. yet, the emotion that is enveloping you held it down, as you now had to tell him the truth. why your rivalry seemed to expand outside of the scope that both of you are in.
âthatâs why i quit basketball. thatâs why i decide to pursue my own path even with you tailing behind me to comment on my every move. because i am sick of you. yet, i held back. i had to retaliate, just like what i did on that fucking playground when we were 5. cause iâm not afraid of you even though i know iâll lost in the end.â you chew the inside of your cheeks as heeseung seems to read your face while letting his brain figure out what you meant.
âthatâs why i wanted a fucking truce.â
with the way your facial muscles contort, it hurts you more and more as you feel the tears of pain forming, harboring the feelings you have felt for nearly two decades now. with your hand raised, you wiped the small drop of tear as you let out a huge breath, feeling just a bit of the weight in your rivalry falls offâright along with you.
as you let your body sit on the concrete ground, you push yourself back slowly as you settle and lay on it. heeseungâs conflicted face peeking from your vision while youâre trying to blur it out by focusing on the night sky. though the light pollution is still around you, you can still see tiny specks of stars behind the shadow of clouds of the night. stretching your back on the ground as you let your backbone rest after trying to make you stand upright while carrying two growing fetuses.
eyelids close, you let nature take control in calming your emotions and let heeseung process the information himself. the first time you truly open up yourself behind the mask of your personaâmaybe when he stays the night in your childhood room is one as you recall your feet resting against his sleeping figure, contemplating if you want to wake him up or not before gazing at the dusting basketball that you decide to bring back to your apartment after papa helps in blowing more air so it doesnât sag too much.
the sound of rustling leaves seems to be louder as you rest still, hearing a muffled thump beside you as you open your eyes, looking at your feet to then find another pair lying down right beside yours.
âyouâre the one that was throwing a fit and ruining my toy truck after i apologized.â you sighed as you took a peek to see heeseungâs head turning towards you, asserting dominance once again before looking back. you knew that if you replied with the same vibe to assert your own dominance, it would actually break you apart faster than the rate that you are now. however, you have one question that will be the right one to ask him about.
âdid you mean that?â
ââmeanâ what?â
âthe apology? did you mean that? cause i want you to look at it from my eyes, lee.â
heeseung traces back to that memory when he sees you teary-eyed face and his mom beside him, the boys he was playing with snickering on the side as they saw him getting in trouble with his then-friend. the âsorryâ mumbled out of him with his eyes on you but mind on the boys, who seemed to not snicker at him, but at you for being a pissy fit. but, deep down, he knewâŠ
âi meant it.â his reply makes you turn your head, mirroring his form as you let out a slight pout.
âwith that smile you were giving? hell no-â you rolled your eyes.
âi genuinely meant it. the boys that were there, they were behind you and they were laughing at us. i had to juggle facing you and them. i had to look fierce yet still can give you an apology. maybe thatâs why you see the smirk that you see. i was a fucking child, (y/n). weâre not as good as we are not in hiding complicated emotions to only let out one.â
your chest rises and falls as you see the apology smirk in a different light. you donât know if you should easily believe that or not, but after taking it into consideration, you could feel a small part of your inner child healing up before you realize the damage that you also have done to him.
âif it is genuine; iâm sorry, then. about the truck. you know how i felt now and why i did that.â you return to look at the sky once again as you hear the rustle beside you before peeking at heeseung who is also staring into the night, listening to him humming before you return to gaze back again.
âwhat would happen if i actually have the emotional intelligence to know that you were sincere that day?â your words cut off the silence as you felt the guilt pouring for it to be transformed into humor that was reciprocated well by heeseungâs chuckles.
âwell, we wouldnât have these two.â he playfully poked your belly, making you let out a small shriek before holding onto his wrist as you held his hand down between the two of you and you pivoted your head to see him.
âin all seriousness, i think we might have been the friends our moms see us to be because let me tell you, they see us differently than what we are having.â his words are replied with a hum as you added,
âi notice that too. glad we can be more civil in front of them.â
âwe still could, you know.â
with the way you didnât hold on to his wrist tightly, you felt the limb moving under your touch before his palm rested underneath your own. the wind blows against your sweaty top as it gives you shivers from the cold, hoping that your own temperature and a lifeline can help warm it up. and you can feel it warmer as you see heeseung pivot to mirror you. his fingers slid between yours as if he knew the little shivered breath you led out.
âhave each otherâs backs. emulate what they want.â
your eyes are galloping to the way the spotlight shines half of his as the other one is cast in shadows from facing the concrete. you could smell a faint scent of alcohol on him but with the life in his eyes, you knew he wasnât drunk. the way his eyes are also peering with slight twitches as before connecting with your gaze.
pushing one side of your upper body, you cup onto heeseungâs cheek as he leans up to connect your lips. your shoulder is pushing down against the ground as heeseungâs grip on your hand tightens, making it steady as you can hear his muffled hum from your kiss. your fingers curl to hold yourself up better before you feel his other hand reach for your waist and push you down so you both lay on the side.
both of you take turns to take a breath as you sense the tip of his nose brushing against yours. every time you let out a breath, the otherâs lips linger before connecting once. your legs curled as you felt the ticklish sensation surging through your nerves before heeseung pushed your lower back so it could stay for one last long kiss before he pulled away. your noses touch each other as you feel his hand on your waist trails to your bump, pressing it down gently as you lean back to see him looking down at the body he is holding. then, his eyes flick back to you as he can sense you slip away, turning yourself away from him as you push yourself up with your arms.
grabbing the lone basketball and putting it in the duffle bag, you zip it up and shift to find heeseung now upright, yet still with his legs stretched out on the ground.
âbaby steps, heeseung.â you pull away before giving a small salute.
âbaby steps.â
your voice echoes as heeseung watches you walk away, biting his bottom lip before a chuckle falls out of him as he knows he had to text you back his question about the appointment, knowing that you will reply to him.
-
beomgyu breathed out as the elevator opened up to the now familiar hallway, holding onto the box that he had still had to bring even if heeseung already told him heâll do the next one himself because of what he told him. the box held fresh ingredients that jeongin also pinpointâcourtesy of his doctor momâon what you should eat, considering now that there are two of them inside you. beomgyu couldnât help but feel melancholic knowing that this was the last time heâd probably visit your apartment complex as⊠wellâŠ
but, other than bringing you todayâs box, beomgyu is here to pick you up for the doula appointment as heeseung will follow suit after practice. even his bandmates are weirded out as to why he has to do the errands, but knowing that theyâre in the process of rest mode whilst preparing to create new music and focusing on academics, he allows it, especially with how long he has been best friends with the guy.
he huffs as he positions the box again against his upper body, sliding his pointer finger to the bell as he picks up the familiar bell sounding in the room. but it seems like thereâs no one inside. heâs glad that he remembers the pin ryujin has given him as he pushes inside the door to see the clean empty living room of the apartment he has been in countless times when he had to put the box in himself. pushing off his shoes, he walks to the kitchen and places the box on the island counter before rushing towards the intercom to turn off the bell.
thatâs when he heard the noise of something familiar.
a guitar strumming sound of chords and the changes he recognized.
beomgyu took tiny steps towards one of the ajar doors in the hallway as the realization of the familiar sound widened his eyes. of course it was familiar to him, it was his song.
the nearly acoustic rendition of âskipping stonesâ with a familiar voice he had heard makes him peek through the door to find you sitting cross-legged on your bed, holding a nearly all-white guitar as you strum while having headphones on your head, singing the daylights out as your window lets the stream of lights in through the window. he lets you sing as he can see you glowâjeongin had mentioned to him that pregnant women have this whole glow on them. maybe thatâs what he was seeing in you. the way your fingers glide against the fretboard with your eyes on it or close as you sing the lyrics makes beomgyu mesmerized.
the last ring of strings strummed is heard from your rumble speaker when you notice clapping from outside of your headphones, making you look up to find beomgyu behind your slightly open door. his clapping turns to hollering as lets out a wide thin smile before looking away; you donât want him to see you flustered. that is when you realize why youâre here.
âoh fuck, the doula appointment.â
âyeah!â beomgyu replies outside as you quickly tidy the guitar up into your case and you step into your wardrobe to grab some more clothes that are much more appropriate for your appointment.
âsorry, about that. beom.â
ânah, no worries. i can wait.â
âthanks!â you close the door as you quickly change your clothes, deciding for a flowy blouse with a rubber-banded culotte, needing to remind yourself to buy maternity clothes because you are slowly running out of clothes that fit you. you wore a bit of sunscreen as you got a message from mama telling you to embrace the pregnancy glow your friends seemed to notice is exuding out of you as youâre in the second trimester. wearing the eau du toilette that doesnât make you as dizzyâunlike perfumeâyou open the door to see beomgyu leaning against the wall where it hangs a frame of you and your roommates in photo booths.
âyou ready?â he held his hand out as you nodded, you put your hands out before beomgyu grabbed the strap of the bag from your hold, startling you before you returned to your usual state. if your face isnât warm enough, itâs now warmer from the embarrassment.
the walk down to his car is silent as he helps with buckling the seatbelt to the side. seeing how much your stomach is rested underneath the strap makes him giggle as you recognize the smell of pot from beomgyuâs very appropriate old sedan car.
âhopefully you arenât high while driving me.â you give a cheeky grin.
âof course not. heeseung will actually kill me if he finds that i dui with you.â
beomgyu twists the key of the ignition as the car turns onâyes, thatâs how old his car isâas the sound of a loud rock song plays from the rock fm you recognized. his hand reaches for the button as you react,
âno need. iâm okay with it.â
he hums as he reaches for the volume to turn the sound down, not letting the rattling of the sound in the interior startle you as he pulls the car out of the parking space and into the road.
âcan you check the quickest route to the office?â beomgyu said as he brushed his wolf-cut hair.
âof course.â you lean back against the leather seat as you open the map app on your phone, telling beomgyu the roads to the doulaâs office. the song has changed to a familiar song by tom petty playing as you notice how beomgyu glances at you.
âwhat?â you called out with a few chuckles.
âi didnât expect you to like my song, well txtâs song.â his reply is met with your own giggle as you lean back.
âeven if i hate heeseung. that doesnât mean i have to hate his friends, you know?â
your eyebrow is raised as he gives another quick look before focusing on the road, âif you donât believe me, iâve been a fan of band your band since, like, sophomore year when you formed.â
âwhy? i really wanna hear from a fan's perspective.â
your giggle warms his heart as you answered, âi just relate to it, ya hear? a band that talks about the hardships of finding oneself and the struggle of growing but in a more intelligible way other, especially âskipping stonesâ from your newest album.â
both of beomgyuâs hands are on the steering wheel as you feel the brake of the car before turning to the curb of where the office is, parking nearest to the entrance as the car stops and he pulls the hand brake. both of you sitting inside as you waited for heeseung to arrive in a few minutes from the last time he texted you.
âwhy âskipping stonesâ specifically?â
âhmmâŠâ you suppressed the grin that is threatening to go out before replying with, âinterpreting self-struggle with the idea of skipping stone is⊠in it of itself, very poignant. to correlate the body of water with your own and the stones youâre throwing as the struggle youâre facing.â you let out a huge sigh, âi donât know- itâs something i understand, especially if someone else is doing the skipping stone to you, feeling that emotion sinking into you, replacing the waterâs placeâŠâ
you glanced at beomgyu who was definitely staring at you, his hands on his lap as he let out a solemn smile, agreeing with what you said. you quietly nod and take a sharp intake, trying to find the right words to cut the rising awkwardness between the two of you, âother than that, the freaking dissonance on the harmony is so good. it gives a sense of unbalanced buoyancy as if youâre a leaf floating on the water and the skipping stone makes it unstable. great job on that.â
âthanks!â
âof course.â you nearly slapped yourself for leaning closer to the middle console, but beomgyu seemed to not react as much when you felt a bit of your finger touching his. âcanât wait for the next release. no pressure.â
the corner of beomgyuâs lips rose as he giggled, a boyish grin on his face before his expression changed, âdonât worry, me and the band wonât let the fans down.â he replied as you leaned back, head nodding. thatâs when you hear the rumbling of the car right beside yours as you see the appearance of heeseungâs newer model car.
âgotta go. thank you so much for bringing me here,â you said as beomgyu helped pick your bag up from the backseat.
âof course, (y/n). gotta have to thank heeseung for letting me do so, but heyâŠâ you felt his hand reaching and now touching your wrist, making you turn your body while nearly opening the door.
âi've known you since high school but we never hang out together cause of heeseung. maybe we could hang out, with your girls and my guys? if heeseung is already melting his ice down then i think thatâs okay for us and our friends to hang out. itâs up to you, though.â
you suppress an amused smile as you think about it. thinking about how long have you been crushing on the boy in front of you and how you wanna shake heeseung a thank you for letting him do the errands, maybe even to your noise-canceling headphones that make him notice just how much you like him- no, his band. yeah.
âiâll think about it. heeseung and i donât have a formal truce yet but based on what we talked about last time, maybe it could work.â
âsweet-â
you heard a knocking on the door before you turned around to catch heeseungâs silhouette behind the glass window.
âiâll talk to the girls so we can arrange a time.â
âme too with the guys.â
âokay, bye beomgyu.â the car door unlocks as you nuzzle the door open while hearing beomgyuâs own âbyeâ from the driverâs seat. heeseung helps to hold the door as you step out.
âthanks for her ride, gyu.â
âdonât mention it, hee. we might even have to ride with her often.â beomgyu said right as the door that heeseung held closed. the engine turns on as the car drives off the parking. you stand right beside heeseung as he looks at you, who still has a lingering smile on your face.
âwhy are you smiling, (y/n)?â
he lightly nudges your palm with his as you turn your head to him.
âyouâll see, hee.â as you took off towards the office, leaving heeseung once again alone as he then followed you.
part 2
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